Okay
So basically I'm writing this at 12:49 in the morning
Guess what I've been doing during that time
Crying and being depressed :D
Oh and replaying Pokemon Moon just to get the stress off my mind
Legit
I had to tell my mother that I couldn't go to school because my anxiety and depression is way to high
People need to learn when joking is too far
Like
There's this person that keeps talking //joking// about me being short
Okay I was laughing at first
Now
I literally want someone to inject me with Novacaine and kill me as hard as they can
And then my other friend //who thinks it's okay to torment me about every mistake I do// joins in with that person
God I feel like throwing up
I was about to cry in school because I kept thinking to much
I'm actually trying not to cry right now
My head hurts
I'll be studying while I'm at home today and thinking
It's funny actually
I'm really kind to everyone on Wattpad
But I'm a huge pessimistic when I'm not on the internet
You guys are just so considerate and I love that so much
Makes me want to live a little bit more :')
Note:
I would never kill myself
I don't want to go to hell
But that doesn't mean I'll find some way to get jacked up on Novacaine and someone I know kill me
Which is unlikely
So be happy
I have to suffer
Mood: just need to breathe and get some rest
Ew
My pillow is wet that's pretty gross
Current time as I type this: 1:01
I feel a bit better now
This probably won't be posted until 3:00-4:00
It's thundering outside-
Even better
And I have a dentist appointment today
Guess who's gonna get depressed again because she keeps forgetting to brush :)
Me
You know
Kinda difficult to remember when to brush and have anxiety at the same time
Ugh
Now I feel better
But also still horrible
At least I don't have to suffer today at school
Love you guys