As I grew older I just skipped going to church. I was so unsaved and into sin.
I have never even understood why christians would be willing to give up their lives for God.
I thought it was absolutely madness.
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I was laid in darkness. I was lonely , maybe even depressed. I thought life was against me. I thought I was alone.
I felt useless, insecure, depressed. Over the years I lost all my trust in everyone. I never thought I was capable of being loved.
And to top it all off I had a massive fear of the dark and not just the dark but I had a fear of everything. I would literally run from room to room afraid something might catch me.
I would cry myself to sleep of all the fears in my heart. I was afraid of my family dieing . Of me getting hurt. Of burglars breaking into our house. Of lightning. Of driving to fast. Of being left at school even if my house was one block away. I hid under my blanked even in the hottest night because of my fear.
I had so many fears that I can't even count.
But God came and my fears were drowned in perfect love from my Father that's in Heaven ! ❤
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