7 years later
Olivia Bensons P.O.V.
It's been 7 years since I started working here and in those 7 years I've done everything I could to fall out of love with Elliot but nothing's worked.
I've tried picking out his flaws; but those are just other things that I love about him. Even the things I don't like, I love.
But he's married. I know this is wrong. It's so so so wrong, but I can't help it. Kathy is my friend and I feel as if I am betraying her in a way; even if I'm not acting on anything.
Everyday I ache for the feeling of his lips against mine, it makes me feel like a school girl
But I'm not. I'm a 28 year old woman who still gets butterflies when he holds me close.
And I know he doesn't love me, or look at me as if I'm the only one in the world; but I adore him anyways
But I'm so sick of hiding this. Everyday I want to tell him,
But everyday I shove it back down my throat and it just sits in my stomach as it its undigested food.
But it's the things we hide, that kill as slowly; and this will for surely be the death of me