Everytime I close my eyes and go to sleep it's your face that makes me weep, all the memories that are locked up inside my mind so there mine to keep. But because of those moments they all make me lose sleep. But to me all of it seems worth it cause it's all I have of you. I always knew it's true that I fucked up and now I've lost you. Yet I know this one known fact, not even a life time will get you back. Just let me say this, I'm under attack by my emotions, no way to handle this is too heavy for these shoulders to bare, sometimes I wonder is there better than here? How much better it be with you here to hold me, I should of fuckin listened to what everyone had told me. "Your only gonna screw yourself over and hurt yourself , sending yourself crashing to the ground." Wanna know the sad thing about it? No ones around to help pick up the peices. So now I'm all alone no reason for my heart to pump so it starts up seezin, So locked up in my emotions it's like I'm freezing. Out in the cold, all by myself with no one to hold. I guess they we're right I should of listen to what I was told.. Let me just say this I love you no matter what, even If I don't have you and another man does. I hope your lifes happy and he's good enough. And that I'm sorry I made life so rough. This is my end of this chapter, and the end of this rapper. I wish I was six feet under ground where I don't even matter.