Serina's POV
"Goodbye ate,I will always miss you"
My sister said.
"Goodbye then.I will always miss you too."
"Ingat ka dun ah.Huwag mo kong kalimutang ikamusta kay kuya."
Bilin niya pa.
"Of course I won't" I assured her.
"Why are you crying then?" I asked her.She is crying.Hindi ko siya kayang
makitang umiiyak.
"Mami miss lang kita..." She said while crying.
"Since when ka pa natutong mag drama?" I joked her.
"Ano ba yan ate,nagbibiro ka pa eh..."
Finally,she stopped crying na.
"I don't want you to cry.Now tell me,is there anything wrong about it?"
She shooked her head.
"Basta,alagaan mo sina mommy ah"Shit.Naiiyak na 'ko. "Promise me,kahit na anong mangyare,huwag mo silang pababayaan."
"Pinky promise" She promised.
Then we did the pinky promise to each other using our pinky finger.
"No matter what happens,'wag mo silang susuwayin.Got me?" I asked her.
Sinamaan niya ako ng tingin.If I'm not mistaken,pareho lang kami ng iniisip.
"But---"
"No buts.I know what you're thinking.I want you to know that I have reasons." I told her.
"But I have my reasons too." She said.
I know she's joking me.And to prove myself right...
"Joke!" She shouted.See?!
"That's not a good joke" I warned her.
Later on...
Planes to London will left in 10 mins.
"I have to go" I told her.
"Oh I see" She said.
We hug an kiss each other.Then hug again.Then kiss...until...
Planes to London will left in 5 mins.
"I really have to go" I ended.
She holds my hand tightly.Then she starts to cry...again.
She is my youngest/closest sibling.Hindi kasi kami masyadong close ng kuya ko.Madalas kasi siyang wala.Kung nandiyan naman siya,kung hindi pagod,busy.
Kung meron man kaming pagakakatulad ni Seline(aside from gender and family,of course),yun yung pareho kaming iyakin.Hindi kami magkamukha.Hawig ako kay dad,while siya kay mom.Magka iba rin kami ng mga hilig.She loves cooking while I love writing.Oh well,aside pa pala sa skin color.Pareho kaming morena.
"Ate,kaya mo 'to.I believe in you" And that makes me cry.
She and my elder brother are the only one who believe in my skills.They are the only one who believe in my talent.They are the only one who believe in me.
I hug her...again.
Hindi ko na kaya.Ayoko na.Ayoko ng pigilan yung mga luha kong kanina pa nagbabadyang pumatak.
Kakayanin ko bang umalis?
"Patunayan mo kina mommy na mali sila.Patunayan mo sakanilang tama ang naging desisyon mo..." She said.
"And I will.Don't worry,hinding hindi ko sasayangin ang tiwala at suportang binigay niyo ni kuya sakin." Then I smiled at her.A weak one.
"Sige na ate...Ingat" She cover her face with her palms.
"Goodbye..."
Naglakad na ako palayo.Ang hirap.Ang sakit.But then,there is nothing I can do.It's still the reality and I have t face it wether I like it or not.
I said that I won't cry.Pero hindi ko mapigilan eh.Ang hirap pala.
Sumakay na ako ng plane.Pagdating ko sa loob,konti pa lang yung tao.
Good thing.
Hindi rin naman nila mahahalata na umiiyak ako kasi naka sunglasses ako.
Besides,who cares if I'm crying?
Umupo na ako sa seat na naka assign sakin.It's a good thing...again.Nasa may bintana ako nakapwesto.
Actually,ayoko ng pwestong 'to.Ayoko sa may bintana.Wala lang,ayoko lang.
Nope,hindi naman sa ayoko but if you compare this position to theither side,it's better na.
(Oh! Just make your patient wong if yutalk to me when I'm upset...)
Pero ngayon,okay 'to.Kasi ganito yung sitwasyon ko.Kasi anytime I'll cry.So it's better to be here then.
In open ko yung iPod ko at nag search ng kanta.Kinabit ko yung earphone sa iPod at mga tenga ko.
Ano kayang pwedeng patugtugin?
Hmm...
Eversince the world began...
Gusto kong matulog.Nakakatulog kasi ako sa kantang 'to eh.Minsan nga tumutulo pa yung luha ko kapag pinapakinggan ko 'tong kantang to.
Alam mo yung pakiramdam na para kang nakaka relate sa isang kanta kahit na hindi naman? Dahil lang sa gusto mo yung beat at story niya akala mo nakaka relate ka na? Ito yun.Itong ito yung pakiramdam kapag pinapakinggan ko 'tong kantang 'to.
This is my favorite song.
It so weird to hear,pero,ang gaan ng pakiramdam ko sa kantang 'to.
Kapag pinapakinggan ko 'to parang nawawala yung lahat ng problemang meron ako.Para akong lumulutang?Argh! Whatever is that,yun a yun!
Well,kaya siguro nakakatulog ako.Because of that?
I fell asleep.
Pagmulat ko sa mga mata ko,napag alaman ko na pa landing na pala kami.
Grabe.It's either mabilis talaga yung biyahe o napasarap lang talaga yung tulog ko.
Pinauna ko na yung ibang passengers.
I am the last na bumaba ng plane.
Pagbaba ko pa lang nakita ko na si kuya na nag aantay.
My lips automatically curved into a smile.
"I missed him..." I whispered.
Pimuntahan ko siya and we hug each other.
It's been two years.It's been two long years.
"I missed you kuya" I whispered to him.
"Ako rin." Sabi niya na tila ba naiiyak pa. "Kamusta?" I broke in our hug.
"Kamusta kayo? Sina mom? Si dad at si Seline?"
I can't help but to smile.
"We are...okay." I said.
"Don't fool me Serine."
I suddenly cried.I burried my face in his shoulders.
"Shh...Tahan na."
"Kuya,hindi nila tanggap.Hindi sila naniniwala sa talentong meron ako."
"Shh...I know.I understand." He kiss me on my forehead.
"Thank you kuya."
"I'm your brother.And I believe you."
How touching.
"C'mon.Kumain ka na ba?" He asked me while carrying my bags.
"Wala akong gana." Sabi ko.
"Okay.Let's go home na."
We rode on a taxi cab.
Tahimik lang kami habang bumabyahe when I decided to broke the silence.
"Kuya,kelan ako magtatrabaho?" I asked him habang nakatingin pa rin sa daan.
"I...don't know." Sabi niya. "Pero may alam na akong pag aaplayan mo.Sakto,they need a person for that position and I think you'll fit in."
"I hope so.Saan ba?"
"Sasamahan kita dun bukas.But for now,take a rest.You look exhausted."
Oh...am I?
Nakarating kami sa tinutuluyan niya ng tahimik.
He's so lucky.
He has a house and lot here in London.
Binili kasi siya ni dad nung mag umpisa siyang mag trabaho dito two years ago.
Suportado nina dad ang career na gusto ni kuya.They are favor in Photography.
Pabor din sila sa career na gustong tahakin ni Seline.They are also favor in Cookery.
Bukod tangi lang talaga yung napili kong career ang hindi nila sinang-ayunan.
How lucky I am...
Napangiti na lang ako ng mapait sa mga thoughts sa utak ko.
Why am I fucking thingking this?
"Serina? Ayos ka lang? Kanina ka pa tulala.May problema ba?" My brother asked me.
"Nothing.Magpapahing na ako" I said.
I know that he is not satisfied with my answer.But then,there is nothing he can do.
What a fucking life...
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Author's Note:
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