"There is no loneliness sadder than a man without friends.
The lack of friends makes the world seem a desert."
-Francis Bacon
Wesley
I thought about skipping school today. I really didn't want to go, I didn't see the point in going. Anyways I had to get dressed so I got ready to face another day and then walked down the long stairs to the table. I waited for awhile, in silence, alone, just like always.
At some point Mary, the maid, appeared with my breakfast. I gave her a weak smile and she returned one back.
"They already left didn't they?" I asked already knowing the answer.
"I'm sorry Mr. Wesley, they said they had a lot of work, but I'm sure if they could've they would've waited for you." was all she said in a sad voice.
I knew what she had said wasn't the truth at all. I'm also sure she knew that, still she's just trying to make it better I guess. My parents wouldn't see me. Not even after I told my mom I wanted to drop out, and she convinced me not to, promising her support in the morning. Yet, here I am, all alone. Which is nothing new so I don't really give it much thought.
They still blamed me for what happened, for which they have a reason to. It was all my fault. I finished breakfast and ran to the door after looking at the time. 7:15, it read. I have just fifteen minutes to get to school. I grabbed an apple and a bottled water on the way to my car.
I made it to school with ten minutes to spare. After parking I made my way to my locker. I made it to my locker with a quick pace not wanting to be slow at the hallway full of students. I decided to go into class early and just wait inside, so I took all my books and started walking in the direction of my class. Just as I had the room number in my sight I bumped into someone, hard.
My books with what I assume are the other person's books were scattered all around the floor. I went to look up to apologize, till I saw it was Shawn, the jerk from yesterday.
"Seriously, are you in love with me?" he yelled intimidatingly.
"As if, he can only wish" I softly said under my breath. It didn't matter because he seemed to have listened to what I said.
"Aren't you going to apologize for being an idiot and not looking at where you were going?" he said fed up with me.
"You were the ass that bumped into me, I have nothing to apologize for" which was true he appeared out of nowhere.
"Excuse me?"
"Yes, you may be excused, now leave me alone." it seemed that those were definitely not the right words. Fuck, Wesley this is not the time to be a smart mouth. I tried to walk past him, but he pushed me roughly to the lockers. Thank god he immediately let me go. My side hit the lockers with a loud bang, and by now we had gained a small crowd of curious on lookers. Shit.
"I am fed up with your I'm-better-than-you attitude" said the brute.
That's because I am better than you, I wanted to say, but I knew that wasn't the time or the right thing to say.
He grabbed me by the collar and that's when I started to breath heavily. My head began spinning. I desperately wanted him to move away. I don't like touching, or closeness. Please move.
"What a freak!" he commented as my legs gave out from underneath me.
"Not so smart now aren't we?" he continued taunting me. People just looked, they said nothing. They didn't care, what a sick world.
That's when I felt it. A powerful kick to my side, it pushed out all the air from me. I couldn't move. Then I felt another and another.
"That's for messing with me" a kick.
"For being a little shit" another kick.
"For being a total freak" another forceful kick.
I had lost count and gave up on trying to leave. My vision was all blurry, I could barely make out the pitiful, or the sick pleased faces in the crowd. My breaths then came slower, shorter. I could barely feel anything now. That boy sure does have anger issues. I felt like my body was giving up on me.
"What the fuck do you think you are doing Shawn?" said a high-pitched voice.
"Teaching the freak a lesson" he responded while stopping the kicks.
"How can you be so big of a dick when you have such a small one?" at that I felt the whole crowd erupt into oohs.
I weakly lifted my vision to see that the brute was shaking in anger at the comment.
"Ashamed of the ugly, or should I say.. small truth?" everyone started laughing, but abruptly stopped when Shawn sent them a glare.
"Great! Now freaks are standing up for each other. I don't care what you say, you insignificant piece of shit." he glared at the both of us and left.
I felt a pair of hazel eyes staring back at me. Then a hand reached out to touch me, don't, I wanted to say as it got closer. I couldn't the pain was just too much. No words could come out of my mouth.
"You will be okay, don't worry" the sweetest voice I've heard said. The girl in front of my finally reached my shoulders in what she thought was comfort when I couldn't take it anymore. My eyes started to close and I could see the clear worry in her gaze. That's when I felt it darkness surrounded me.
I blinked my eyes open to find myself laying down. I was in the infirmary, how did I get here? I looked to my side to find a girl reading a book. She was wearing a blue star wars shirt tucked into a skirt, what caught my attention the most were her high-knee socks. She sure has a weird style. She was beautiful though, her brown hair was down cascading past her shoulders and she had a relaxed posture, like if she had no care in the world. After a while of me creepily staring, she lifted her eyes and to catch mine.
I averted my gaze quickly feeling embarrassed for getting caught, I could feel the blush that was starting to cover my face.
"I'm glad you are finally awake. Bad news though, you didn't get to skip calculus, you have still have last period left" she said with a serious face it then broke out into a grin. She handed me my schedule and all the books that I had dropped. My side hurt like hell, and I'm sure there must be a bruise there.
"Darn it!" I said with a lopsided grin as I snapped my fingers. That just made her smile widen, if that was even possible. She closed the book she was reading and saved it in her backpack.
"So the name to this gorgeous young lady you might be wondering? Grey, Violet Grey" she said with a dazzling smile while reaching her hand out for mine.
"I'm Wesley" I introduced myself lamely as I awkwardly stared at her outstretched hand. I smiled weakly at it, then at her. I'm sorry, I can't do that.
She kind of understood so she just stretched out her left hand and gave herself a good handshake. I guess that I dislike her less than all the other people.
"Nice to meet you Westley, I must say I am very glad you are okay" I just nodded at that. Although I then spoke up.
"My name is Wesley"
"Well what did I say little Westley?"
"You are pronouncing it wrong, you see it's Wesley, without the t."
"Well Westley without the t, a pleasure."
I looked at her annoyed. She just stared at me with a serious face although I could notice her trying to hold back a smile.
"Are you always this annoying?"
"Oh don't be like that West" I was already annoyed at this girl. I take what I said about not disliking her back.
"Don't, why can't you just say my name? Seriously I'm not West"
"Well, if you don't quite like it I can just give you another nickname"
I nodded, I would rather her not give me a nickname at all, but god is she stubborn. I hadn't noticed her walking out of the nurse's office. She bid her goodbyes to the nurse, Daniela, and continued walking. I stayed rooted to my spot, not bothering to catch up with her.
"Hey! South! What are you waiting for?" she said directly looking at me. You have to be kidding me. I huffed in irritation while she just chuckled to herself at her stupid joke.
I waited a while to see if she would leave without me, but she just stayed there looking at me expectantly. So giving up I walked up to her. It hurts to walk, but I just ignored it and continued. She gave me a nod of satisfaction at seeing me following her.
I remembered I needed to go to chemistry so I went the direction the classroom was in. Luckily, I am really good with directions so I could already manage myself around school. I think part of it was because I didn't want to ask for help from anyone.
Violet had to go to biology which was at the other side of the school, thankfully.
"See you later, East!" she yelled from the other side of the hallway.
I continued walking not even bothering to look back. If I pretend I don't even know her maybe she will leave me alone.
But, do you really want her to?
An annoying little voice in my head said. I shook my head, of course I want her to leave me alone. Taking my seat in chemistry, I couldn't help but let my mind wander to a certain hazel-eyed brunette.