*****A/N*****
This is not the end- but close.
This has not been edited. This chapter was dedicated to inaomif <-- youve been reading since the begining--> Thanks love xo
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CHAPTER 29
The sun was slowly starting to peek through the night sky. I was down by my stream but instead of lying out in the open I decided; for a change – to lay hidden by a big oak tree. I didn’t really know what to do with myself. I felt everything starting to crash down. The reality of the situation I was in hit me like a ton of bricks.
With my uncle dead the responsibilities of MidMoon fell onto my shoulders. I could barely be Beta let alone an Alpha! – Not to forget the fact that I killed an innocent pack member, I know nobody else has forgotten… Of course the fingers point to me as there bad guy- even though Leanne was the one to murder there alpha; Fucking stupid pack members.
“You probably should have tried a little harder to be friends with the pack.”
“Ya think?”
Sighing I shook my head; even if I did become alpha- there’s no way I could handle the responsibilities. And being alpha to Blake? Oh god- Blake. Another ache torpedoed around my heart. As if I didn’t have enough on my plate already. I know Leanne will be flashing their relationship in my face- unfortunately Blake won’t even realize how bad he’s hurting me.
“Should have finished her off Rosie”
“Believe me… I tried- you know how mates get- mated or not.”
The sun was getting higher in the sky; showing me I’ve been out here all night and most of the morning. I sunk deeper into the trees; laying down I waited for sleep to overcome me – I hoped for death.
“A little dramatic don’t you think?”
“I’m just so done with my life being so fucking hard. I got dealt some really shitty cards Rosie.”
Twigs snapping caught my attention; creeping silently on my belly I peeked my head out through a tiny opening. Blake stood there by the stream in all his sexy glory.
“Eryn; I know you’re out here I can smell you”
My eyes turned to slits- fuck you and your nose Blake.
“Someone’s in a nasty mood”
“Eryn; please, let me explain”
When I refused to speak he sighed and sat down- his feet splashing in the water.
“Eryn; I’m sorry for hurting you. I never wanted to mate with Leanne; but when I seen you attacking her all my wolf cared about was protecting his mate! He overtook my control Eryn- god I couldn’t... I couldn’t control it! I knew what I was doing but had no choice. Once we seen the extent of her injuries we didn’t think- just… just acted. I’m so sorry Eryn- but she was my mate; you out of all people know how that fucking bond is”
I bit my lip; but again said nothing. What was there to say? Ya I know how the bond is- but you can fight it. Fuck I have! Shaking my head I decided to stop being a pussy and climbed out of my hiding spot. Blake looked over his shoulder at me; surprised.
“I didn’t think you would actually come out”
I just shrugged and sat down beside him; my feet sloshing in the water like his.
His hand touched my chin; making me look at him
“I’m so sorry”
I started to feel the familiar rage bubbling in the pit of my stomach. He was sorry? Yes that word … sorry… is really going to help me find my heart that he stomped on.
I could feel my eyes starting to go red- it was the strangest feeling; it felt hot. I knew the moment Blake noticed it to. He pulled his hand back still staring at me.
“E-Eryn?”
I curved my mouth into a venomous smile
“Fuck you Blake. I’m calling a pack meeting- be ready with your little whore.”
Jumping up I started to make my way back to the pack house. I wasn’t sure what was going on with my body; Nolan said I was poisoned… although with what I had no idea. My movements felt forced; I just wanted to rip someone to shreds. I could feel the burning sensation expand across my middle; spreading up my arms and down to my hands. As I walked away I looked down at my palm- I couldn’t see anything but the feeling was indescribable. Like I could set something on fire just by my touch.
Blake grabbed my arm stopping me dead in my tracks; but quickly pulled his hand away
“Holy fuck Eryn; wh-what the hell is wrong with you?”
My head coked to the side.
“Wrong with me?”
“You’re hot- really hot. Your eyes- they… they look like the night we killed those hunters. What did he do to you?”
His hand came up to grab a stray hair; instinctively I let out a warning growl.
“Don’t fucking touch me”
He gulped then nodded, dropping his hand to lay limp on his sides. Glaring at him one more time I whipped around.
“Oh, and Blake I really think you should head on back to the pack house. I ‘am calling a meeting...your whore and you need to be there”
I was walking further away; I almost thought he didn’t hear me.
“Why do we need to be there Eryn?”
Smiling I looked over my shoulder
“Your filthy little mate did murder the Alpha- or did you forget?”
Gathering all the pack members hadn’t been as hard as I thought it would be. I know the color of my eyes helped motivate them to listen; and my voice ordering them to the common room left little to no more for argument. Walking up to my uncle’s podium; the anger started to dissipate- replacing it with grief. The last time I was in this room was when I was being welcomed to join the pack. I felt a damn threatening to break but held it back- alphas show no weakness.
“Thank you for gathering in such short notice”
Looking over the crowd I spied Leanne and Blake in the back; I held her eye contact and smirked- stupid bitch. My eyes landed on Will; ho was funny enough looked mad still.
“As most of you know the threat of the hunters is gone.”
Clapping rang through the room; smiling I held my hand for silence.
“That being said we had casualties. Alpha Bernie- my… my uncle- was murdered”
I took a breath to compose myself. Shaking it off I looked back up into all the eyes of Berni-my pack.
“He was murdered not by hunters- like so many of you assume- but by a member of the CrystalNight pack”
Gasps echoed around me; I looked to the back of the room. Blake looked furious with me; I glared right back.
Looking back over to Leanne she looked genuinely scared- good. Sighing I took a breath- choosing my next words carefully.
“Because the threat of the hunters is gone… I want CrystalNight to start their journey home”
When nobody said anything I rolled my eyes
“In other words- pack your shit and get off my uncles land- take the murdering bitch with you.”
I looked directly into Leanne’s eyes; slowly members of my pack turned to see who I was staring at
“If you ever step foot on MidMoons land again; I will rip you to shreds slowly. Got it?”
Her lip quivered but she reluctantly nodded; shuffling closer to Blake. Pathetic.
Clearing my throat everyone slowly started to turn back to me
“As most of you have figured out; because I was my uncles beta- the alpha position falls on me.”
I waited for someone to start shouting; demanding to fight me for the alpha title. Instead everyone stayed silent- eyes still trained on me… weird.
“Uhm, but I don’t think I can fulfill my duties without some help. I’d like you all to nominate a beta- who will run the pack in my absence.”
Murmurs broke out amongst the crowd. Without even being able to help myself my eyes found Wills- like a magnet’s pull. His arms were crossed; showing off his defined arms. His face a stony expression.
“Alpha Eryn?”
Snapping my head back I looked at the young boy- nodding at him to continue.
“Where are you going?”
Everyone’s voices stopped at once… where the hell was I going? I decided honesty was my best choice. Looking around the room at everyone I gave a sad smile.
“I was dealt a shitty hand in life- I don’t think I have ever really gotten over a lot of things in my past. I just need to go away for a while- find all my demons and face them head on. I need to be able to fix myself before I can lead and fix this pack.”
Nobody said anything- not like I expected them to. A little “good luck Eryn” would have been nice though. Shaking my head I took a step back.
“You are all dismissed”
Walking to my room- will’s room- I decided it would be best to leave immediately.
“Think we will find what we’re looking for?”
“Probably not, but we are going to have fun searching”