Zayn doesn't know what emotion he should partake in. He doesn't know if he should be angry, guilty, sad, worried, relieved, he just doesn't know. He's having a hard time grasping everything that has happened as well. How could Liam just run away like that? And tricking him too? He lied to Zayn, decieved him, and didn't even look the least bit sorry when he took off after Zayn had saved him.
He's angry because he felt like such a fool. Angry because no matter what he did, Liam didn't seem to appreciate it. Angry because he was actually somewhat nice to Liam, he wasn't like other captors. He treated Liam well, besides those of his breaking points, but it seemed that Liam just did not care.
He's guilty, because maybe if he would have treated Liam better, he'd still be there. Guilty because it was his fault Liam ran away. He probably scared Liam off when he had that gun. Maybe Liam thought that one day, it would end up being used on him.
He's sad because overall, he misses Liam. He wants him back. Afterall, he still loves Liam, and to have the love of your life just leave you like that, hurts. Because for those couple of minutes that Liam was tricking him, he thought maybe him and Liam had something together. Maybe his dream had finally became true. But when he found that it didn't, his whole world just came crashing down on him.
He's worried because, who knows where Liam is. He could have gotten lost, or kidnapped by another man who wasn't Zayn. Before, all Liam wanted to do was go back to his girlfriend. Now that his girlfriend isn't here, who will he turn to? He wants to be able to protect Liam, but how can he when he has no idea where on earth Liam is?
And then he's relieved because at least he was there to save Liam from that man. So there was a possibility that Liam could very well be safe right now. relieved because Liam couldn't have gotten lost. He found his way back home last time, of course he's find it again, Liam was smart, he could do anything he set his heart into.
Now, Zayn was driving towards Liam's house. He knew Liam wasn't stupid enough to go there, but maybe, he'd be around somewhere. But as Zayn drove around Liam house and everyone else's, he was met with absolutely no luck.
He was honestly trying to look really hard, trying to piece clues together, but it was hard when he couldn't see anything past his tears. They clouded his vision, blocking him from seeing any further, almost making him crash into a pole. He wiped his eyes furiously with one hand before stomping on the breaks. He couldn't afford to die before he found Liam. If, he ever found Liam.
At that one simple thought of never finding Liam, Zayn's eyes clouded with tears again. And this time, he let them. The tears brimming over his eyes, spilled over, rolling down Zayn's cheeks. And he just let go, bringing his hands up to cover his face as a broken sob was sounded through his own car.
He couldn't even stop if he tried. And he was probably making a lot of noise as well. He car isn't exactly sound proof so whosever house he was parked in front of, could most likely hear his ugly cries of despair.
And it wasn't until some blonde man came tapping on his window, that he felt ashamed and stopped. He seemed to come from the house Zayn was parked in front of because the door was left slightly ajar. Zayn tried to wipe the wetness off his face with both hands, trying to hide the fact that he was just crying infront of the man's home even though it was no use. He had no idea how long that man had been standing there,watching him. He decided he'd play it cool.
"Hey man, are you ok?" Zayn rolls down the window. He hopes his voice isn't as raspy as he thinks it is from his crying.
"Yeah, I'm fine." And it is. He wants to punch himself in the throat and dive into the backseat until the man left. But instead, he only sat there as the blonde lad looked him up and down warily. He didn't believe Zayn. Zayn could tell, But it's not like he cared, he didn't know the man, the man didn't know him. They'd probably never see each other again after this.
"You positive? Cos' you don't quite look ok. How bout you come in? Have some tea or something". Zayn really didn't want to come in,but maybe this man knew something about Liam. Maybe he knew where he was.
"Ok, sure, yeah."
"My name's Niall by the way, you?"
"Zayn." He offered a smile, but both of them knew he didn't mean it. After crying for God knows how long, Zayn doesn't think it's right to smile, but he tried his best anyway.
He gets out of his car, slamming the door behind him, then follows Niall into his house. Niall welcomes Zayn to sit on the dining room chair while Niall fixes them some tea. He hears the shower running and thinks it must be Niall's girlfriend or wife or something. Niall didn't look like the type to be married so soon, he looked so young, but you never quite know who does what.
And Zayn actually has a pretty good time over there. Niall's funny, and charming, and he could easily become Zayn's new bestfriend. Though he was pretty confused when Niall said he didn't have a wife or anything of the sort. He told Zayn he was gay and in return Zayn said he was too. But when he then asked who was in the shower, Niall only told him it was a friend and nothing more. Niall then changed the subject and Zayn let him.
In the end, Zayn and Niall ended up swapping numbers, claiming that they just had to see each other again. And it was true, Zayn did have to see him again. Not only was Niall fun to hang out with but alreayd felt like he could be a trustworthy person. Plus, with all the things they were doing, Zayn had forgotten to ask if Niall had seen Liam. He figures he can just ask later.
And oh, what a shame it was, because while Zayn was leaving, the person was just coming out from the shower. As the door was closing behind Zayn, He heard a voice that sounded much like Liam's own. Though Zayn thought he was paranoid. Of course he'd start hearing Liam's voice everywhere, he missed him so god damn much.
Though he could help but think that he was so close to finding out where Liam was but yet, so far.
And once again, Zayn had been fooled, but this time,
he didn't know it just yet.