*Saturday the of February 2017*
Rocky's POV
As I was laying in bed on Saturday morning just casually looking through Twitter, my beautiful girlfriend walked into my room from the bathroom. "Hey, beautiful," I said as I locked my phone and gently pulled her down to me. "Rocky," Michelle said slowly and I looked at her as I rubbed her back. She was laying on me. She's actually light as a feather. "Yes, baby," I said and her eyes snapped to me. "How'd you know?" she asked quickly and I furrowed my eyebrows. "Was it Tori?! I'm gonna kill her," Michelle said as she started moving away and I quickly held onto her. "Michelle calm down. Tori didn't tell me anything. I literally just said bab-" I cut myself off as she looked into my eyes nervously.
"Michelle," I started and she nibbled on her lip. "Rocky," she replied in the same tone and I slowly sat us up. "I need you to be completely honest with me," I said as she crossed her legs and looked down at my white blanket. "I always am, Rocky. God do you think I'm a liar?" Michelle suddenly snapped and I rose an eyebrow.
Oh she definitely is what I think she is.
"Sorry," she said in a high voice as she looked at me with wide eyes. "Hormones?" I guessed with a wide smirk and she grinned happily before looking back down at the blanket. "It's your fault. You did this," she said in a joking manner and I lovingly kissed her cheek. "Am I going to be hearing that a lot for the next nine months?" I mumbled gleefully against her cheek and she giggled softly. "Probably," she whispered and I leaned back slightly. I lightly pushed at her shoulders until she was laying flat on her back and I bent my head down to her stomach. I placed my big hand on it before softly caressing it.
"Hi, baby," I cooed before giving her stomach a small kiss. "I'm your daddy," I whispered and Michelle giggled softly. "I want you to know that I love you, so, so much. You're gonna be so loved, baby. You have a very big family who's amazing. I know I just found out about you, but I already love you so much. I can't believe I'm going to be a daddy. I promise you that I'm always going to be there for you and protect you. I love you," I said before giving her stomach a final kiss. "We're going to be parents," I laughed happily before kissing Michelle as she also laughed happily.
"You're taking this really good," Michelle said and I grinned down at her. "I can't help but feel happy. I know we haven't been seeing each other that long, but I love you, Michelle. I promise you that I'm going to be here for you and this baby. All the way," I said as I caressed her stomach and she got tears in her eyes before kissing me again.
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Victoria's POV
"Why the long shirt?" Kayley suddenly asked in the middle of our session and my heart raced hysterically against my chest. "I'm cold," I shrugged and she rose an eyebrow. "You sure?" she asked and I nodded my head. "Yep," I said innocently and she squinted her eyes at me. "Tori we both know that I'm not stupid. Roll up the sleeves," she commanded and I just stared at her. "Fine," she shrugged before standing up. "What are you doing?" I asked with a trembling voice as she walked to me and took my arm. She yanked up the sleeves and looked at the white bandages wrapped around my wrist. I yanked my hand back before rolling down the sleeves and crossing my arms. "Why'd you do it?" she asked and a tear rolled down my cheek. "I don't know. It gives me relief," I said softly and she nodded before sitting down next to me. "Victoria you need to stop. I'm going to prescribe a stronger antidepressant for you to drink. Maybe that will help. We're gonna help you, Tori," she said as tears continued streaming down my face. "I feel dirty. All of the sudden. Just thinking about him makes me want to take a bath in 800 litres of Savlon," I admitted and she placed a gentle hand on my back. "Why do you think it was so all of the sudden?" she asked and I shrugged. "I don't know. I was looking at myself in the mirror and I didn't like what I saw. My hair lost its colour. Or maybe I'm just imagining that. My eyes don't sparkle anymore. I'm losing a lot of weight-" "Wait what?" Kayley asked and I looked at her. "I'm losing a lot of weight," I repeated and she grew pale. "Victoria is there a possibility that your rapist could've had AIDS?" Kayley asked gently and my blood froze. "No. No God please no," I cried with a cracking voice as I looked at her desperately. "Okay here's what we're gonna do. I'm going to call a friend of mine. He works with cases like these. He works at the hospital in Beverly Hills. He will do a full examination of you. Test everything little thing. You should go immediately. Just let me make the phone call," Kayley said calmly as she stood up and my body shook.
Please, God. Not this too.
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"Tori," I heard as I was sitting in the waiting room and I looked up. Tears immediately rose in my eyes. "Ross," I whimpered as I stood up and he took me into his arms. "Shh, baby. It's gonna be okay. No matter what I'm here for you. We're gonna get through this," he whispered into my hair as I cried into his shoulder. "Aren't you supposed to be recording?" I asked and he shushed me. "That doesn't matter right noe. Nobody knows I'm here," he assured me as he rocked us.
"I'm scared," I said softly and he held me tighter. "Me too," he confessed softly and I felt tears on my head. "Victoria Kors?" we heard and both of us seperated and looked at a doctor. He was in his forties. He had some grey hairs and a couple of wrinkles. "Yes?" "I'm doctor Shepherd. Nice to meet you. I understand that Doctor Kayley Monroe send you here," doctor Shepherd said and I nodded. "Yes that's right," "Please follow me into my office," he said and started guiding us to an office. I had such a strong grip on Ross's hand I'm surprised it didn't fall off.
We walked in and he closed the door behind us before telling us to sit on the two chairs at his desk. "So we're going to do a full routine checkup. You'll be working with some different doctors, but I assure you that you're in safe hands," doctor Shepherd said and I nodded. "You already filled all your paperwork in, correct?" "Yes I did," I nodded and he looked down at some papers. "I'll be doing your first checkup. It's just your normal routine checkup. Is that alright or do you prefer that a female doctor does it?" he asked and my hands started shaking at the thought of an unknown male touching me. "Would it be alright if I get a female doctor?" I asked softly and Ross squeezed my hand encouragingly. "Of course. Let's take you to doctor Roll," doctor Shepherd smiled before he led us out of the office. "Just give us a minute," he quickly said as he stepped into another office and we waited outside. "I'm sorry," I said softly as I realised what he was about to see. As soon as she rolls up my sleeves to take blood he's gonna know what I did. "Sorry for what?" Ross asked and I swallowed loudly as tears rose in my eyes. Just then the door opened the door and smiled at us. "You may go in,"
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"Now we're just going to take some blood and then you'll go to the gynecologist," doctor Roll said and I nodded my head. "Just lift you sleeves up for me please," she requested as she grabbed a needle and I took a deep breath. I looked at Ross and mouthed 'I'm sorry' before slowly rolling up my sleeve. I could feel his gaze on me, but I didn't meet it as I focused on the doctor and the needle. Fear traveled through my body as she brought the needle closer and I took in a shaky breath. "Ross," I whispered as I held out my hand for him. He stood still for a couple of seconds before slowly walking closer. When he intertwined our fingers and kissed my cheek, I knew that we would be okay.
After the doctor took the blood I stood up from the chair. "Now it's time for your gynecologist appointment. She'll have a look just to make sure everything's okay. We'll have all your test results back in about 24 hours," doctor Roll said and I nodded before thanking her.
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Our breathing was all that could be heard in the car as Ross drove us home. He drove me to my psychiatrist appointment this morning too. I looked at him and saw that he was concentrating on the road. "Are you mad at me?" I asked softly, breaking the silence and he sighed. "I'm shocked. I honestly didn't think you'd do it again. You promised, Tori,"' he said as a tear slipped down his cheek and some tears escaped my eyes too. "I'm so sorry, Ross," I said softly. "Why'd you do it?" he asked and I sobbed lightly. "Because I felt empty. When the blood leaves my body it just reminds me that I'm not empty," I said and he clenched his fists on the steering wheel. "I told you so many times that you're not alone," he said and I nodded.
"I know you did, but it still felt that way. No one has a clue how this feels, Ross. People keep saying it's gonna be okay and we should move on, but it's not that easy," I whispered and tears escaped his eyes. "You don't have to move on. Please don't feel that way. Just know that I'll always be here for you. You can choose not to forgive and forget. That's your choice and I'll respect it, but please don't feel like you're in this alone. I'll be here every single step of the way for you and with you," Ross said and I sobbed lightly. "Where the hell did I find a man like you?" I asked and he took one hand off the steering wheel. He intertwined our fingers and softly squeezed my hand. "In an airport in London," Ross said and, for the first time in a while, I grinned widely.