A/N: Hello everyone. Sorry for the horribly late update. I've honestly been so busy and I haven't got any requests to update so I've decided nobody wants an update. But here I am anyways. So in the last chapter if you don't remember Harry broke up with Rachel. In the douchiest way possible and a few of you freaked out. But honestly I would never write Harry to be a bad character because I honestly believe he is a great person. So anyways...here's the backstory behind why Harry did what he did. I hope you enjoy.
Harry's POV
24 hours earlier
"What do you mean we're not allowed to go public?" I say. I'm currently sitting in a chair at Syco headquarters in front of the President of our managment.
"Exactly that. You and this Rachel girl can not date. You are to stay single until we allow you to date."
"But what about Perrie, Sophia and Eleanor?! How come Louis, Liam and Zayn are allowed to date but not me?"
"Rachel is a nobody. Dating her will do nothing for this band except bring them down. Sophia and Eleanor work for us and Perrie is famous. These three girls look good in the public eye and bring your band even more publicity. You can't go off and date a normal girl from Ohio." She says with a shrug as if this whole situation is no big deal. I swear to god the people that work for managment are heartless good for nothing's that don't give a damn about anything but money.
"Why not?"
"Harry you are One Direction. You are the glue that keeps this band together. 99.9% of Directioners love you and we're not going to let you date. Do you realize what that will do to sales?"
"So what now? Am I just supposed to break up with her?" I question and she nods breaking eye contact as she texts something irrelevant into her phone.
"Exactly."
"I can't do that." Tears begin to roll down my cheeks and I choke on my words not full understanding what the hell is going on right now.
"Then we'll do it for you." She says.
"No, I refuse. I've made promises to Rachel and I'm not going to break them."
"You break up with her or we drop One Direction, easy as that. Take your pick." she says an evil smile forming on her face. I hesitate before responding.
"What do I have to do?"
***
"Harry can you hear me?" her shrilling voice says in my ear and I press the ear piece further into my ear.
"Loud and clear." I say. Before mumbling bitch under my breath.
"What was that?"
"Nothing." I reply biting down on my bottom lip before sighing. I honestly didn't like this plan one bit, though they had explained it to me many times I still didn't really understand it. For the most part I'm giving management complete control of my actions; the things I do and say.
"Good. Now Rachel is coming up the driveway. When she gets there open the door and completely ignore her. I'll do the rest."
"I really don't want to do this." I reiterate for at least the twentieth time since I was given this "plan".
"The fate of One Direction lies in your hands Harry, you go down you take them with you."
"Lets just get this over with." I see Rachel standing in front of the door and I open it doing exactly what I'm told. (A/N: Okay so starting now any part in bolder letters will be managment "inside Harry's head" okay?)
"Where are you going?" she says. "Harry." she reaches for my arm.
Pull away from her and say "the boys and I are leaving tonight."
"The boys are leaving after the interview tonight." I say opening up the trunk attempting to focus on everything but Rachel.
"What? But what about going public?" she says.
We aren't.
"Harry." She moves to stand in front of me. "What's going on?"
It's over.
"It over Rachel." I say watching as tears form in her eyes. The words sound foreign coming off my lips and they tear up my insides. I instantly look away from her unable to bear the look on her face.
"What?"
"You and I...no more." I say. (A/N: Just remember that everything Harry says is controlled by managment.)
"Is this some kind of joke? Because if it is, this isn't funny Harry." Tears begin to fall down her cheeks. I want to tell her, to comfort her as she's hurting but I can't.
"No joke Rachel. This is no more."
"I thought you loved me." She follows me.
Laugh. Tell her you never loved her, that you can have anyone and she's nothing to you.
This is all too much. I want to stop this all now and tell her I love her but I can't, I'm in too deep now to stop. As much as I love Rachel the boys mean more to me than anything. I can't let this relationship ruin it for them...
"I never loved you Rachel." I say taking a breath before continuing. "Don't you know who I am? Harry Styles, I can have any girl in the world and you thought I would choose you?"
"You told me it was because I was different..." She frowns and her face kills me inside. I should be the one that protects her from pain not causes it.
"You were vulnerable Rachel, I knew that if I were able to get past those walls you set up around you I could get you to do anything." I say turning away from her to wipe a year that had fallen.
Keep your composure Harry, or One Direction is no more.
"You took my virginity..." she says and that's my breaking point. I need to stop this. I can't let her believe that last night meant nothing to me that she means nothing to me. When in reality last night meant everything to me. I'm not going to hurt her like all those other girls. I'm done, I can't do it. I'm sorry boys I just can't do it...
Tell her it was all part of your plan.
"No." I whisper into my microphone but not loud enough for Rachel to hear.
Do it Harry or One Direction's good days are over.
"That was the plan all along you were so innocent and sweet. It was my plan all along to get you to have sex with me. I knew all I had to do was go deep enough to get you to trust me to let me in. It was actually easier than I thought." I say and watch as she slowly falls apart in front of me. When I first met Rachel I never knew how vulnerable she really was until I got to know her. Her rough exterior is just a way to shield the hurt she feels on the inside. She trusted me enough to let me in and to see the real her. And now I'm taking every single piece of trust she out in me and using it against her.
"What about your promise? You told me you'd never leave." She says. She's right. I promised her that day I wouldn't leave her like everyone else in her world does. I made a promise and now I stand here doing exactly what I promised not to do.
"All of it was lies Rachel, I never meant anything I said. It was all something I made up. You mean nothing to me." I don't believe any of the words I'm saying but managment continues to feed them to me.
"This isn't happening."
"Oh but it is sweetheart."
"I could have you arrested...you took advantage of a minor." She says and I realize she is right. Breaking up with Rachel right now could cause a bigger scandal than being with Rachel. If this came out to the public and I got arrested One Direction will go down.
They won't believe her Harry ages just a fan, tell her that.
"Go ahead but who do you think they'll believe? Some nobody girl or Harry Styles."
"The boys will back me up." She says. That's true, if only the boys knew what was going on right now.
Tell her the boys were in on it. That they helped you get in her pants.
So now not only am I making myself look horrible but my four best friends too.
"The boys? The boys were in on it too. We're best friends Rachel this is what we do. We take advantage of people."
"Why?" She breaks.
"Why? Because we can that's why."
"I can't believe you." She whimpers wiping the tears from her eyes.
"It's not the first time I've heard that before. Now run along now. The boys and I have an interview to do." I finish turning away from her, she lets out a loud breath before leaving the room. It takes all of my will power to not run after her and tell her the truth. To remind her how much I love her. I just broke Rachel, I took all the things I used to help her let me in and used them against her. I am a horrible human being.
"Good job Harry, you should take up a career in acting."
"I hate you. I actually love that girl." I say.
"Loved Harry, you loved her but now you must move on. Now be a good little boy and go get ready for your interview."
***
The rest of my day goes worst than the first half. The interview is long and boring and of course I can't get through it without being asked about Rachel. I'm pretty sure management probably called in and asked just so I could deny it on television thus putting Harry Styles back on the market. I'm not even Harry anymore I'm a person obsessed with money and fame. I couldn't even put the girl I love before One Directions success. I'm a horrible person. When I tell Ellen that Rachel meant absolutely nothing to me the boys look honestly surprised. I want to tell them all about what's going in but management has tabs on me. And I can't do anything that will wreck our contract. The interview ends after what seems like hours and I'm the first one off set. I pull the ear piece out of my ear and throw it into the trash before going to the car. I know I'll probably get into trouble for that but I don't care. I have no reason to listen to management anymore anyways. All of the damage has already been done, I don't know what else they could do to ruin my life. After a few minutes all of the boys enter the car.
"What the hell was that?" Louis says. I realize now that this was a horrible decision. The boys love Rachel just as much as I do. We're supposed to be best friends and I couldn't even tell them about this. Management shouldn't be able to control us like this...
"Yeah mate, I thought you and Rachel were going public today." Niall adds and I shake my head.
"I broke up with her." I say.
"What why?" Zayn says.
"I just didn't like her anymore." I lie. Rachel was and probably will always be the only one I've ever really loved.
"Bullshit Harry. You've been smitten over that girl since the first day on that beach." Liam says.
"Well it's over okay? I don't anymore."
"What's going on Harry?" Louis questions. And that's when I break down I need to tell them, I have to tell them. They've got to know...
"I could get us in a lot of trouble for telling you guys this." I say.
"We don't care, something's obviously going on and we need to know what it is." Liam says and I begin to explain everything. The night Rachel's parents denied us the right to see each other, the motel, us having sex (minus the details), Rachel becoming upset when I said I was single, wanting to go public, and breaking up with Rachel. I'm sure the whole time I'm explaining I don't take one breath and when I'm finished none of the boys say anything.
"So what do I do?"
"You've got to tell her Harry." Niall says and all the other boys agree.
"But management..."
"You know whats screw management. I'm sick and tired if them telling us what to do. We're grow ups and we've dealt with this shit for too long." Louis says standing to his feet with anger acting as if he may punch something.
"You're right. I've got to tell her." I say just in time for our car to arrive in the driveway. I don't waste anytime getting out of the car and running towards Rachel's house. I knock repeatedly on her door before her aunt opens it.
"Is Rachel here I need to talk to her and I--"
"Go away Harry. You're not welcome here anymore." She must've told her aunt everything and now she hates me.
"I'm sorry about everything. That wasn't me I need to explain. Please let me talk to her."
"You can't." Her aunt says.
"But I--"
"Harry you can't." She reiterates her face forming a frown, almost as if she feels sorry for me.
"I just need to--"
"Harry you can't talk to her because she's not here." Her aunt finally finishes.
"What? Then where is she?"
"Gone, Harry. Rachel's going home. Her plane should be taking off right about now." Her aunt looks down at her watch before looking back at me.
"What?"
"Yeah, I'm sorry. She asked me to give you this." She hands me a folder piece of paper before frowning once more and closing the door in my face. I take a seat on the stoop and open the letter.
Dear Harry,
If you're reading this I'm long gone by now. I decided it was time for me to go home, there's nothing for me here anyways. Ohio is where I belong. I don't understand why people always hurt me. Am I really that vulnerable? Do I look fragile? Did you see me that day on the beach and think 'Oh look at that broken girl over there. Let's play with her heart?' I just need to ask you something, why me? Why did you have to play with my head? I've had my heart broken enough and for once I thought you'd be different. But you turned out like everybody else. I don't know why you choose to hurt me. Why you chose me to be the contestant in your little love game. But what I do know is that not all of this was a game. At one point or another it became real because I felt it. And I know you felt it too. Either that or your a really good actor. Truth is as fucked up as it is I still love you. Right now as I sit here writing this still love you. I believe I always will. You were my first love Harry and you'll probably be my last. I know the real you is in there somewhere just waiting to come out. Let him out Harry. Let him love and be loved. Good luck with everything, tell the boys I say goodbye. Goodbye Harry, I honestly love you.
Goodbye, forever yours.
-Rachel
P.S. Don't worry about me telling anyone we had sex. I would never scoop so low and ruin your career. I love you too much.
By the time I finish the letter there are tears streaming down my cheeks. Folding the letter I break down.
She's gone.
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