(A/N Please prepare for a heavy chapter... This is not good... I cried while writing this...)
Lilly POV.
"You have to be kidding me! I finally got back and now you tell me I can't play Evita anymore??" I yelled at James. My arm was finally fully healed so I could play in the musical again, but James had other plans. "I'm so sorry love,It was the idea of the big bosses.They thought Ariana is so good and you missed almost two months of playing." Tears formed in my eyes. I was so mad, I actually sang one of the Evita songs. "So what happens now? So what happens now!? Where am I going to? Where am I going to? This was my dream James! What am I gonna do?!" "I don't know babe. I really don't know." He pulled me into a hug & I hugged him back. After we stepped back, I smiled slightly and said: "I better get going. I'll talk to you later. Oh and by the way. Can I keep the house?" He nodded and I walked away. "Bye.."
*Back at the 1D house*
When I came home from my conversation with James, I noticed the house was empty. I decided to shoot some hoops on the court. Every shot I took, I missed, which infuriated me even more. Soon I dropped the ball and went to the fitness room, which had a boxing area, where Liam and I spent a lot of time. I grabbed a pair of boxing gloves and started to punch a bean bag. I don't know for how long I was punching that bag but my anger and energy drained away.Suddenly someone tapped my shoulder and I turned around in shock, accidentally hitting the person who scared me. I opened my eyes and noticed my boyfriend. He was on the floor, unconscious... "Oh my gosh! Liam! Oh no! I'm so sorry!!" I pulled off the gloves and cupped his face in my hands. Tears formed in my eyes as I screamed for help. Now I understood how gutted he felt when he hit me with that basketball. "Lilly? What happened?" Niall ran in. "Oh my lord! Liam?! Lilly? What happened? Don't cry babe, it's alright." He pulled me close as he yelled for the other boys. All I could do was sob, this was all my fault. I knocked out the boy who loves me with all his heart and he'll probably hate me after this. I got up and Niall looked at me. "Take care of him Nialler. I'm so freaking sorry." I ran away before he could stop me. The other boys soon appeared and they asked what was wrong, but I just pointed and shook my head before running up the stairs. I took my swimsuit and some clean clothes before I walked down the stairs again, to the swimming pool. I dropped my stuff and dived in. After a few lanes I noticed someone on the side of the pool. I looked up and saw little Lilly on the edge. "Lilly, stay where you are baby girl." I said, trying to get there as soon as possible but she didn't listen. She stepped forward, slipped, hit the ground with her head and fell in the water. "No!" I swam over to her, took hold of her and quickly climbed out the pool. I held her in my arms trying to find someone. This day was becoming the worst day of my life. I ended up finding Alice. "Ali, please help me." I cried. She turned around and saw me standing there, shaking and holding Lilly in my arms, who was bleeding because of the cut in the back of her head. "Oh my, Lilly! What happened?!" She pulled me close. "I was swimming and suddenly she was standing on the edge. I told her to stay where she was but she stepped forward, slipped, hit the ground with her head and fell in the water." Tears streamed down my cheeks and I was shaking so badly I almost dropped Lilly. Alice noticed and took her in her arms, before calling Louis and Eleanor. Louis ran in from the fitness room and Eleanor showed up from the kitchen. "Oh no! What happened to her?!" Eleanor took Little Lilly from Alice. Louis face turned to horror. "Not my baby princess!" Zayn showed up too and said: "The ambulance is here for Liam, wait. What happened to her?" Zayn looked at me. But I couldn't speak anymore. The look on Louis' face broke my heart. Alice explained and I noticed Louis looking at me in shock. 'He probably hates me now.' I thought but I was wrong, because he was soon hugging me tight. I heard people run past me but I broke down. I hit my boyfriend and my little name buddy is hurt and that's all my fault. A towel was wrapped around me and someone took me to the living room. "Relax babe, breathe slowly. They'll be alright." Louis said, but I heard uncertainty in his voice. I didn't really realize I was close to a panic attack until he mentioned it. I took some deep breaths and calmed down a bit. "This is all my fault Louis." I whispered. "Don't you dare to say that! It's also my fault, I should've watched her better.You even saved her!" "You were focusing on Liam because I knocked him out Lou! You can't be with two people. So you better go to the hospital because Eleanor needs you." "You also need me." He hugged me again, stroking my hair. "I'll be fine , your daughter is in hospital for Christ sake!" His smile faltered. "Alright, but are you coming along?" I shook my head and he gave me another hug. "Okay, don't blame yourself babe. I'll see you in an hour. Love you." "I'll try not to, love you too." He walked out and I walked to my bathroom. I took a quick shower and after that I went to the apartment of Lucy and Michael. They were on a short holiday so the house was empty. I went to my room, took some pillows and blankets and went to the roof. I sat down, covered myself in blankets and took my phone and earplugs out. I turned up the music and lay down....
Louis POV.
It felt so wrong to leave her behind but Eleanor and my little princess needed me. "Louis, where's Lilly?" Niall said as soon as I walked into the hospital. "At home, she told me to go here." I told him and his eyes widened. "You freaking idiot!" Harry got up and ran out with Josh and Niall following him. "What did I do?" I stood there, utterly confused. "Louis! She just put her boyfriend in hospital and she's blaming herself for what happened to Little Lilly. You never know what she might do when she's alone!" Ali explained and I gasped. "I'm such an Idiot!" I said but that's when Eleanor showed up and she looked broken. "El, love!" I ran towards her and wrapped my arms around her. "They say she's not gonna make it Lou! She has a fractured skull and a child of her age can't survive that." She sobbed on my shoulder. Tears formed in my eyes. My little princess was dying because I didn't look after her. "Louis, what are we going to do?" El asked. "I don't know babe, but I want to see her."Eleanor nodded and we walked to the room. There she was, my own little daughter, lying in a big bed. Loads of wires were attached to her and her sweet, little, chubby face was pale. An oxygen mask covered her mouth. That's when I completely broke down in tears. My daughter, Lilly Tomlinson, looked so fragile while she was dying. I sat down on the bed and took her tiny hand in mine. "Mister Tomlinson. If you want to say something to her, you must do it now, because she's slowly leaving us." A doctor said before leaving with Eleanor. "Oh princess. I'm so sorry! I should've kept an eye on you. This is my fault and I hate myself for this. I wanted to show and teach you so much more! I wanted to take you all around the world. To show you where we had our most important shows or to teach you how to sing like daddy. But that's not possible since you're leaving me." I started to sob. "Please don't leave me princess, I love you so much!" I looked at her hand in mine and I smiled a bit. When we were in the car this morning, Little Things was on the radio and she had sung along. She loved that song. "Daddy loves you princess and I'll miss you so much. I know even your aunties and uncles agree. Please protect me and mummy from up there. I love you princess and I always will." A little smile appeared on her little face before I heard the lasting sound of the heart monitor. She was gone. The little girl who meant the world to me, my precious three year old daughter, who made me happy by just being around me, was gone...I rested my head on her chest. Her little heart full of love wasn't beating anymore. A hole in my chest appeared when doctors came in, taking my princess away from me. "Louis, come." Zayn put his arm around me but I didn't cry. I felt numb. Eleanor was devastated and crying on the floor. Suddenly Jade walked in. "Guys, two things. Josh called saying Lilly wasn't in the house but they're checking the apartment and second, Liam's awake..."
Lilly POV
I sat there, listening to music, when suddenly Liam's voice filled my ears, letting me know someone was calling me. "Hi" I mumbled. "Lilly? Babe where are you?! We looked at the house & in the apartment but we can't find you! Please don't do something you'll regret." Harry said and I gasped. "I love the view! Say that to Liam, he knows where I am!" I hung up. How could they think I would hurt myself. I hurt too many people already. I laid down and looked up. It was getting dark, so the stars started to show. I listened to some songs and sang along softly. I was lying there for a few songs before I got up and walked to the edge. I looked around at all the city lights. I saw a poster of the boys and I smiled, but that smile soon faltered when I noticed the posters of Evita. They had already changed it. Tears formed again and I looked around while they streamed down my face. Suddenly two arms were wrapped around my waist and he pulled me against his chest. "I knew I would find you here." He whispered and I quickly turned around to hug him. "I'm so sorry for hitting you Liam! You scared me, but I never meant to hit you." He hugged me back. "It's also my fault, I shouldn't have scared you. I guess you got your revenge for what I have done to you." He smiled at me before he kissed me. He had a bruise on his head but it didn't seem to bother him. He took my hand and we sat down. "I'm sorry about what Harry said. He was worried that you would do something because you blamed yourself for putting me and.." He sighed, tears in his eyes, "Little Lilly into hospital." He looked down. "Liam is she..?" He nodded. "She passed away. Fractured skull." He whispered, staring ahead. My eyes widened and I got up. "No, no no! That can't be. Not Little Lilly! Why not me!?" I yelled, tears flowing down my cheeks again. "Babe, relax." Liam pulled me close once more and I sobbed in his shirt. "Why Liam? Someone so small, so innocent, dying like this. My little God-child. My poor little name sake. Why Liam!" He just held me and shushed me. We stood there for awhile. "We should go back to the hospital, the others are worried love." He said, stepping back a little. "I can't Liam, can we stay here?" He shook his head. "The boys need me. especially Louis and they are worried about you. Please." "No Liam, I can't. I won't be able to handle it. I'm sorry, but I need you too..." He looked at the ground. I knew he was doubting and I started to cry again without noticing. "I'm sorry love." He turned around and walked away. I ran after him and took his hand. "Please Liam, please don't leave me. I need you." He shook his head, pulled his hand away and walked away again. I fell on my knees as I cried. "Please Liam!" My shouting became a whisper.
"Please don't leave me..."
(A/N OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOH CLIFFHANGER!!!!!
I literally cried when I wrote this chapter and that was quite awkward since I was in class... Next chapter is also gonna be a cry chappy...
Dedication to Gleek23Love for guessing the title of this chapter was Please Don't Leave Me.
Guess the song for the next chapter and you'll get a dedication. (It's not 1D but they're in this story too)
-"I feel so numb, staring at the shower wall..."
song on the side is the beautiful Please Don't Leave Me by Pink!! <3
Picture on the side is Loubear being sad.. :(
I probably won't update soon because my birthday is coming up and my Exam week and I really got to study so sorry!!!!! :( :( :(
Try my best :)
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