Buzz buzz, my alarm goes off, it's 6:30am and today I'm job hunting. I left school 2 years ago and walked straight into an office job, but on Wednesday I was sacked. My mum still doesn't know. I leave my bedroom and wander to the bathroom, still rubbing my eyes I lock the door and start to have a wash. 'What will I say to her, what if she finds out I've lost my job'. Every scenario runs through my mind.
I go to my room and chuck on the nearest pair of blue jeans and find a clean white top from my washing pile. Running down stairs I smell that mums cooked breakfast, It smelt like her well known fry up. "As you've got the day of hunny, I thought we could go for some dinner and have a catch up" she said to me. "Yes mum but I have some things to do first". I rushed my breakfast and scarpered out the door.
I reached the old library that's up the top of old bailey road, and my friend Chloe was there.
"Hi Chloe, i Havent seen you in a while been up to much?' She didnt answer just a smile. ''I'm job hunting today and my mum has no idea, I need help please say you can help!"
"Hi babe! I can't help I'm just visiting, dropping some books off and I've got to go to work, sorry" she replies. Ok so now I'm back to square one. I sit at the computer flicking through websites that for some reason do not make sense to me. At this point I will never find a job. By now Chloe had left the library and she never even said bye to me. My phone starts buzzing in my pocket, I look at the screen and the name says 'unknown'.
I answer.
"Hello"
"The parcel will be there tomorrow" the voice replied. And the phone went dead.
'Parcel?''who''what''where''when'.
The voice I heard keeps repeating in my head. I panic I have no idea who I should contact, or what I should do. I'm meant to be at work,what will I explain to my mum. I text my best friend Billy and told him to meet me ASAP. He replied and said he would be there at 1. I made my way over to a little coffee shop we met in and I sat and waited. The walls in this place were covered in a dark brown wallpaper, wooden tables and wooden chairs surrounded me as I waited. Minutes past and he turned up. Blue jeans, black shirt and white trainers. My perfect man. Before I could say anything he wrapped his arms around me and kissed my cheek. I dazed at him, watching his every move. "Help me billy, I had a phone call, someone's dropping a parcel off and I have no idea what I'm going to do, I've lost my job, my life's going-" and before I finished my sentence, he stopped me. "Shhh" he said, "one thing at a time babe".
Babe, he called me babe. We sat and spoke for an hour about everything, it's been months since we really last spoke to each other. Billy seemed to have disappeared off the radar when we left school, but we always managed to start our conversation were we had left off the last time.
"Come back to mine, let's talk properly". He held his hand out to me, so I grabbed it, and I followed every step he made. We walked outside and up to his car, he opened the door and watched me sit down. He walked around the front of his Audi and sat in the drivers seat. My phone rings. I left it to go through to the voicemail. It's only my mum.
Billy smiled at me and started the car. We started driving to his house, we both sat in silence,then my mum rang my phone again. I missed it.
We pulled up in his drive way, a new built house, with a perfect garden, a fence surrounding. It took my breath away.
Billy had changed, he was more grown up. He opened my door and took my hand. Something just felt so normal. He unlocked his front door and we entered. I walked into his living room, ornaments and statues filled the room. It was decorated nicely, cream walls, beige carpet. Billy said to me "make yourself at home", so I did and I sat down on the black leather corner sofa, that filled the whole back wall. This sofa was made to sit about 10 people, I loved it, as I looked round he disappeared. 5 minutes later he returned two drinks in hand and a smile on his face. My phone rang again so I just turned it off.
We sat and spoke over drinks and I told him everything, but my secret of why I was sacked was still safe. I felt like a big weight have been taken off my shoulders. Even though it hadn't. Billy told me I could stay at his until I was ready to go back home and face the truth. He put the tv on but we wasn't sure what we wanted to watch. We sat and giggled at you've been framed, a repeat. Billy put his arm around me and told me I'd be fine. And I felt it, at the moment I felt on top of the world.
I looked at the clock it was 6pm, should I go home, or should I stay?
Billy told me he'd be back in 10 minutes but he's still not returned, do I look for him? His house just seemed so big I don't even think I would know were to look. I sat and watched the time on the black clock pass by, when I heard billy shout my name.
"Ray, Ray come here babe". I followed the sound of his voice, up the long winding stairs that spiralled the middle of the house. They were wooden, so big but they were beautiful. Photos of his family filled the walls around them. I reached the top to find a light on in the futherest room to the left, I walk forward. Billy opened the door and whispered to me, "your baths run, I've put my t-shirt in there's for you to get changed in to, your staying here tonight. And il phone your mum".
I walked into the bathroom to find a warm bubbly bath waiting for me with candles around the outside and towels draped over the silver radiator with his t-shirt covering them. The smell of the bath entered my nose and I could not help but sniff up the aroma. Heaven.
I dried myself off with the towel and I heard a knock on the bathroom door, wrapping myself up I said "come in". Billy entered with his track pants on and he said to me, "I've phoned your mum, she's very worried about you, but she's ok with you staying, I've made the spare bed up for you, we'll try and sort this parcel situation tomorrow, tonight we're going to chill". "Thank you" I replied.
We went downstairs and snuggled up on the sofa, a big fleece, a scary film and lots of munchies. We could hear the wind banging on his windows, and the rain started to come faster. I remembered that Billy was always scared of thunder and lightening. I laughed, and he asked me why. "Your scared of thunder and lightening aren't you" I chuckled to him, but he didn't reply he just smirked.
We sat and watched a scary film hiding behind pillows and listening to the weather. It started to get worse.
"I'm off to bed now bill, I'm knackered and I have a busy day tomorrow, can u show me my room please". I said sleepily.
He didn't say anything, he grabbed my hand and led me upstairs, this time we turned right. 3rd bedroom down he opened the door and said "you can sleep here, I can see your room from mine, I can keep an eye on you". I smiled, that was so sweet of him to say that. I walked towards the bedroom window and made sure it was locked, as I turned back round billy had gone again. The room was so big, a beautiful wooden dressing table was facing the bed, there was a glass mirror on the wall. It was every girls dream bedroom. The room was painted cream, the bedding was purple. Drapes hung over the bed.
I walked towards the bed and climbed into it, pulling the quilts up, I started smelling the t-shirt I was wearing, I curled up and closed my eyes. My head sunk into the pillow, and I could feel myself drifting to sleep. The thunder and lightening was getting worse and the wind was picking up. I looked around the room and curled back up, thinking to myself I'm fine.
2am I woke up from a nightmare. Sweating, my heart was racing I couldn't stop thinking about this parcel I'm meant to be receiving from someone I don't no, with a number il never know.
I climbed out the bed and switched the purple and gold bed side lamp on. Everything in the room was still the same, I walked towards the door and put the flash light on my mobile, I couldn't find a light switch in this house anywhere. I walked down the hallway and went into the bathroom. I managed to find the light and I switched it on. Billy was that rich he was able to buy an extra tap for drinking water. So I made my self a glass and headed back to my room. But along the way I noticed Billy's door was open. CRASSHH!! The thunder sounded louder than ever, I dropped my glass on the floor, ran into Billy's room and jumped on to his bed. "You gave me a fright ray, are you ok?" He asked. I didn't say anything i was so scared, I just snuggled up to him, placed my head on to his chest and listened to his heart beat.
6:30am my alarm went off, and as I opened my eyes billy wasn't there. I panicked that he'd left me on my own. As I got up off the bed I heard the shower running. I picked my phone up and text my mum.
'Mum it's me, I've been sacked I'm sorry I missed dinner, I'm trying my hardest to find a job, il be home later xxx'
I headed towards the bathroom in just his t-shirt, hair a mess and my heart racing, I stood in the doorway. Billy pulled the shower curtain back and by the look on his face he wasn't expecting me to be there. "Morning sunshine" he said to me, so I smiled, "morning babe". I walked towards him whilst he was wrapping himself in his towel, "thank you for last night, and I'm sorry about your glass". As he walked past me he smacked my bum and winked. I put my clothes back on that I had on yesterday, fixed my hair and made myself look ok. I walked downstairs and I went straight into the kitchen, everywhere was sparkling clean. I looked through the cupboards for a glass and poured myself some orange juice, when I noticed a note on the side.
'Hi babe I'm only gone for the weekend
Please don't get in trouble
Il be home before you no it
Love ya xx'
'Who was this letter from' thoughts ran through my head. I turned round to find billy stood behind me. "Sorry I wasn't reading your letters" I gasped. "It's ok, before you start having crazy thoughts it's from my mum, she comes every Monday and Friday brings my shopping and tidys up a little" he laughed. I sigh, I cannot trust anyone. We're not even a couple and I'm worrying already.
"Ok billy, it's your life anyway isn't it, could you drop me off at my mums soon, I have a few things I need to do. Please".
"Sure". He said, he really did sound angry.
We walked outside to the car, he unlocked it by his keys and I got in. I sat down and waited for him to get in and start driving.
We seemed to have been driving for ages, but in reality it was 10 minutes down a couple of roads. We pulled up outside my house, small gardens, no driveway. I guess you could say I lived in an ordinary house. Just as I went to open the car door, he placed his hand on my leg and pressed harder than normal and said to me "I'm coming to pick you up at 5, I'm taking you to dinner, I need to talk to you". "Ok, 5 itis." I replied. I kissed his cheek, and his aftershave clung to my nose, I smiled and got out the car , I walked up my pathway to the front door and as I looked behind I seen him smile and drive away.
I unlocked my front door, kicked my shoes off and walked into the kitchen to see my mum baking brownies. She was wearing her head chef apron I brought her about 3 years ago for her birthday, she always did loving cooking. "Come and sit please ray we need to talk". I went and sat at the breakfast bar that was on the other side of the kitchen, I looked at her and broke down. I told her everything from start to finish, except my secret and she understood. "I will help you look for a job, and we'll find out when the postman comes what this parcel is about ay" she laughed.
Within minutes there was a knock on the door, I sighed. I walked towards the door, looked through the peephole and there was stood the postman. I opened the door and he passed me a square cardboard box with a note with my name on, I quickly shut the door and ran back into the kitchen, I opened the box whilst my mum was with me. Inside was a card with another little box.
The card read
"To Ray this is for you,
I'm sorry for what I've done to you,
I wish we could change the time back.
Xxxx G"
I know who g is and I no what he wants, he was my boss at my old job, the reason I was sacked. I stopped worrying as much, but I was still thinking why would he send me gifts, and ring me when he doesn't need to be in contact anymore.
I opened the small box that was inside the package, and there was a thin gold chain with a love heart pendant attached to it. I quickly closed the box and stuffed in back inside the package with the card. "Mum please get rid of this, I don't want to see it." My mum took it and moved it out of sight.
"Mum I'm going back out tonight, Billy's offered to take me for dinner".
"That's fine Hun, please don't be back to late. If you do decide to come back tonight." She replied. I looked through the cupboards for something quick to eat, a chocolate muffin was the only thing I could see. I grabbed it and put my coat and shoes on.
I walked out the house and down the path way, thinking where I should go and what I should do. My phoned buzzed in my pocket, as I pulled it out I noticed I had a text message from Billy. 'hi babe, dinners still on, but I have a surprise for you xx'. I had no idea what to text back, I just steered at the screen. I checked my other pocket and pulled my bank card and a 5 pound note out. I headed to the shop. As I got there I walked inside to find Graham stood there. That's who the G was!. I walked to the back of the shop hoping he didn't see me, I grabbed a bottle of pop and rushed to the counter to pay, I paid with the note and the man behind the counter passed me my change. "thankyou" I said, and I scurried out the shop. I finally plucked the courage up to text Billy back, although I kept thinking he may be in a mood with me due to the fact I thought he already had a girlfriend. 'hi billy, dinners fine, whats the surprise you have for then ay? haha xx'
I started to walk back home and I had a very bad feeling someone was following me. I turned on to my street and I kept looking at my phone thinking Billy may text me back, but he didn't. BEEEP!! a car horn sounded, I jumped out my skin with fright, whos beeping me?. As I looked back I noticed Grahams car was following. my heart sunk. what could he want?. He pulled up at the side of me and his window went down, "Ray!" he shouted. I looked back and I saw him sat there in his black Mercedes, looking smart as ever. "what do you want Graham, I no longer work for you, we have no reason to be in contact and certainly not close enough for you to be sending me presents" I said to him. "I just want to talk ray, I want to explain I never meant to get you sacked, im sorry for what I had done, please forgive me, il take you out, il wine and dine you, please Ray just hear me out" he replied. "no i'm going home," I shouted at him.
I got to my house and I noticed my mums car had gone. I took my phone back out my pocket to see if I had any messages, but I didn't. I looked back down the path to find graham still outside my house. This man will not leave me alone. I walked into my back garden, the long over grown grass was wafting in the wind, I looked for a dry spot to sit, but everywhere was wet. So I had to sit on the doorstep. I had left my keys in the house and I had no way of getting back in, I noticed that the time had gone faster than I thought and I was meant to be getting ready for Billy to come and pick me up for dinner. I phoned my mum, she said she would be back in twenty minutes. Twenty five minutes had past and still no sign of my mums car. She returned finally and she came round the back and opened the back door, I rushed up the stairs and in to my bedroom. I opened my broken wardrobe looking for something to wear that would make me stand out. I pulled out a long teal dress, a cardi and silver heels, that'll do I thought. I rushed to put my clothes on and I slapped some make up on making me look a bit cleaner, I threw my hair up in a bun and put a smile on my face. I was ready with 5 minutes to spare. I looked out my bedroom window for Billys car. But all I could see was Graham sat outside my house in his car. Doesn't this guy give up?
I walked downstairs to find my mum stood at the bottom, watching my every move. "you look beautiful Ray, is that Billy outside waiting for you?". "no mum, that's G- Billy should be here soon, I hope" I replied. I entered the kitchen poured myself a drink and sat on the stool. "what if Billy doesn't turn up m-" and just I was finishing my sentence a knock on the door sounded. My mum opened it. "someone for you Ray". I walked towards the door to see Billy stood there in a black suit with a blue tie. WOW. the smell from his aftershave went straight to my head, I smiled at him and I saw the smile he gave me back. Maybe he wasn't annoyed with me after all. He held his hand out and I took it, we walked down the path way not saying a word to each other, I could feel the tension, but I just couldn't stop walking with him. He opened the door to his car and I sat inside. Graham was still in his car but he had drove a bit futher down, was he waiting for us? Billy got into the car and started the engine. "We are going for dinner Ray, but I need to take you somewhere first, I have something to show you and a surprise for you. If you just want to go for dinner just say, I wont be mad". he looked at me and smiled. I trusted him. "Dinner can wait, you said you had a surprise me for" I chuckled.
We pulled up outside a skyscraper building, it was beautiful, lights everywhere. He stopped the car and told me to get out and wait in the reception area. so I did. Where was he going? I was looking round the reception it was huge, pictures everywhere and the name 'Electra industries' was written on pictures and above the reception. I took a deep breath in and saw Billy enter the double glass doors. He didn't say anything to anyone on the desk he just nodded. He seemed well known in here, was I missing something? . He headed towards the elevator so I followed.
Level 14 shined up on the red lights inside the elevator and Billy put his arm around me. The doors opened and we walked into the most beautiful apartment id ever seen. The furniture was all set out perfectly, the tv was symmetrical to the sofa, a man and woman were painted in a frame above the fire. People I'd never seen before. I tried to talk but the words just wouldn't leave my mouth, I stuttered "is.. is this yours Billy?". He smiled at me and replied "yes, and from now on your going to be working here, you'll never be out of a job. I inherited all of this from my father, my mother doesn't want anything to do with the business, she cleans my house and she has her own flat, she wants me to be happy and live a good life. But I want the same for you Ray, Ive always loved you and now I want to show you". what do I say back to that, I blush and smile. "thank you Billy, I do love you too, I always have your the bestest friend any girl could wish for" I said back and I hugged him. He shown me around the apartment, 3 bedrooms all with en suits, A kitchen bigger than any kitchen I've seen before. I was so shocked but we came across one more room. "whats in here!?" I asked. He replied "your office, this is where you'll work". He opened the door and my eyes glistened, the room was so big, windows everywhere and a beautiful glass desk sat in the middle. Computer, Scanner, Printer, phones and piles of work were infront of me. It was perfect. I sat in the big hard back swivel chair in front of my desk looking around the room. The view out the window was unreal. Buildings everywhere, lights and cars 14 levels below me. They started to look like ants. This has to be a dream.
"Rayyyyy, come on, were going to be late for dinner". I got out the chair and walked rapidly towards the elevator were Billy was stood. I pressed the button and we waited. Ping. The elevator doors opened and we walked inside. Although we was only 14 levels up it felt like a life time we was stood in the elevator. we left the elevator and walked in to the car park. A white audi was parked next to his with a bright pink bow round it. "this is yours Ray, your going to need transport to come to work arnt you!" he said to me. I screamed! "Billy I cant thank you enough, you've done so much for me already, why didn't you tell me this was your life, I thought you were an ordinary person like me, your rich!". He just chuckled at me and threw me the keys. I put the keys into my bag and we got into his car, surely it was dinner time, my stomach was rumbling, I hadn't eaten most of the day to keep my appetite going so I could eat my dinner. He started up the engine, and we drove out the car park.
We pulled up outside of sydneys diner, and he turned to face me. "Ray, you've been my best friend since I can remember, now your going to be working with me, so you can tell your mum the good news that you've fount a perfect job again. I didn't tell you I had all this money because I didn't want you to think about me just for my money, I like the fact you like me for me, not for my money. Now lets go for dinner and finish the night with a smile ay". "Billy, money wouldn't change the friendship we have, your my best friend and im grateful. thankyou again Billy".
We walked into the diner hand in hand, the waitress escorted us to our table, and asked if any more would be joining, "yes just 1" Billy said. Who was this other person that could be joining, why isn't it just me and him, im in love with this guy i thought that tonight i could tell him. Obviously not. A beautiful woman entered the diner in a long black dress, make up done and a pretty gold chain around her neck. Billy turned round and smiled at her, he held his hand out to her as she walked forward, my stomach turned. Who was she. "Ray, this is my mother Celest she will be joining us for dinner, i have some exciting news to tell her don't i" Billy said to me, "yes, i suppose you do" i replied. We began ordering some food and drinks. Billy sat talking to his mum explaining that i would be working in his company as i lost my job last Wednesday, she smiled "your a very pretty girl Ray, i hope your looking after my son". I had no idea what to say back, did she think we was in a relationship. But were only friends, shes jumping ahead. Billy butted in "yes mum, we look after each other, that's what friends do mum". It started to get late so we finished up our food, "il pay", I said. Celest exclaimed "no you wont, i will. my treat". Me and Billy smiled at each other. I love his smile, its perfect.
We started to drive back to my house, when Billy suddenly took a sharp turn to the left, we pulled up to a little beach, he got out and walked round to me, opened my door took my hand and told me to come. so i followed. i took my shoes off to feel the warm sand on my feet. It was dark and the moon was out, Billy took his jacket off and wrapped around me, i looked at him and he looked at me. At this moment i really did feel like i was in heaven, " i love you Ray" he said to me. i just gazed back at him and i replied " i love you too". we both sat down on the sand, his arm around me, i had no idea what to say to him. i just told my bestfriend i love him. " i need to tell you something Billy, please don't be mad at me for not telling you sooner". he looked at me with fear in his eyes, maybe he thought i was going to say i already had a boy friend, i couldn't break his heart. " i received my parcel this morning, it was from my old boss, he sent me a necklace and a card, he was the one that phoned me to say it was coming, and when i went to the shop today, he was there. He followed me home-". Before i had chance to say anymore Billy looked furious. "what do you mean he followed you home. why didn't you text me Ray, why didn't you ring me?". I looked into his eyes and i cried. We sat in silence and he held me. "your staying at mine tonight Ray, please text your mum and tell her".
We pulled up in Billys driveway and the security lights lit up his garden, i could get used to being here. I text my mum as soon as we arrived to Billys front door. 'hi mum you've probably guessed im staying at Billys again tonight, ive got some great news to tell you. love u xx'. She never replied. Billy's house was so warm, which reminded me, i haven't brought my pjs again. I headed straight for the bathroom, i needed the toilet so bad, but i didn't want him to know. as i was walking out the bathroom i heard Billys footsteps coming up the stairs. "where did you rush off to?" he asked. I just smiled and followed him into his bedroom. He chucked me a black ralph lauren top and told me to get changed. I looked around his room looking for somewhere to get changed, and there was no where. He laughed and said to me "whats up, don't you want to get dressed in front me of". I felt so shy but i did anyway, i slipped off my dress and stood there in my underwear, i grabbed his top off the bed and slipped it over my head, i put my arms in and sat on the end of his bed. He took his top off infront of me, i tried not to watch but i just couldn't resist, he pulled his trousers down and just stood there in his boxers. "tv in bed, or downstairs", i looked at him again taking in the view and said, "tv in bed sounds good to me!". He smiled, "il fetch the drinks, make yourself comfortable". He wandered off downstairs as he was talking to me so once he'd gone I looked round the room, inspecting every part. I picked up a photo he had put upside down on his bedside table, expecting to see a family photo really I see a picture of him with another woman. I took the photo and placed it in the top draw of his bed side table, that was something I really didn't want to see. I sat on his bed, puffed the pillow and grabbed the remote. I switched the tv on and I was flicking through the channels I noticed that Billy's phoned had lit up, he had a phone call it was 'Honey'. I left it, it went through to his answering machine because he had a message come through.
Billy walked through the bedroom in just his boxers holding a metal tray. On the tray was 2 ham sandwiches, orange juice and crisps. I watched his every move as he walked across the room. His bedroom was decorated in dark gray wall paper with 1 cream wall, it felt warm and homely, everything was set to place just as he would like it. He placed the tray at the bottom of the bed and sat next to me. "Your phone went off whilst you was down stairs" I said to him, he picked up his phone and said "oh, it's just the office calling that can wait til tomorrow". But was he telling the truth, my mind went into over drive, we're not exactly an official couple, but I really do think I love him, I feel so sad. We sat an ate our sandwiches watching the tv, I picked up my drink and took a sip, I had an urge come over me and I couldn't hold it in. "Who is honey. I saw your phone, I watched it ring. Is that the girl who is in the photo you had turned over"I shouted. His face changed in an instant. "Honey is my receptionist, she works at my office. That was my office calling. And the photo is none of your business. But if you must know she's my ex. I didn't want to bring any of this up tonight Ray we was having a lovely time and now-". "And now what?" I asked. We looked at each other, we're sat here on the same bed, im in his top. We're already arguing.
I walked off, down the hall way and into the bathroom, I shut the door behind me secretly hoping that he'll follow me, but he didn't. I stood in front of the big wall mirror, switched on the tap and began washing my face, I wanted to cry but I don't want to ruin today, it's meant to be the start of a new beginning.
After 10 minutes of refreshing myself, I strolled back to the bedroom and stood in the doorway. "Can we forget this happened and start again Billy?" I asked. "Hi I'm Billy, this is my bedroom, that's my top your wearing, and this is the bed I'm hoping you will sleep in" he smirked. I couldn't help myself, I just giggled at him. He took the tray off the bed and placed it on the table. He climbed back onto the bed and looked at me. "Ready, steady, go!" I shouted, and I ran and jumped onto the bed. The pillows fell off the bed, but we didn't care, we lied next to each other, his arms tightly wrapped around me and he whispered in my ear "can we make us official?". For a few seconds I couldn't stop repeating that in my head, official, me and Billy?. I turned round to face him, my hand on his chest, I could feel how fast his heart was pounding, "yes" I said. I held him so tightly, he held me back. This has got to be a dream.
I peered through the corner of my eyes at the alarm clock next to the bed. 10:27am. I've slept in. I looked to the side of me to find the most amazing man sleeping like a baby. I sat and watched him, he looked so peaceful. I wonder what he was dreaming about. I got up out of the bed and headed for the bathroom. "Where you sneaking off to" I heard behind me. "Erm.. The bathroom" I replied. I heard him moving about in the bed, so I shot down the hall way to the bath room. I switched the taps on and ran a bath. The bath was so big it could probably fit 4-5 people in. I switched the spotlights on and switched the main light off, the bathroom seems to be the most peaceful room in house. I pulled off his t-shirt and dropped it to the floor, pulling my hair out of the bobble it had been stuck it, I brush it through. The water began filling up the bath quite quickly, I undone my bra and my placed on top of his t-shirt, but as I look in the mirror I saw a shadow at the door. I turned round to see Billy watching my every move. I took off my knickers, stopped the taps and climbed straight into the bath. I sat back and relaxed covering myself with the bubbles. "What's wrong" Billy asked. "My bath seems empty" I hinted. Billy sat on the side of the bath, still dressed in just his boxers. His body glistened with the steam from my bath, he's beautiful I thought to myself. I just couldn't help but stare. I lent forward to grab the sponge, so I could have a wash, and Billy rubbed his hands down my back, massaging every inch he could reach. I really could get used to this. He stood up hands still dripping with water from rubbing my back. He pulled his boxers down, everything on view and he entered the bath. I just watched him. He sat behind me, pulling me in between his legs and he started rubbing my back more. I lent back on him, and he kissed my neck. "I thought we could spend the day together today, maybe take you shopping, take the day off from work and stress" he said as his hands rubbed along my legs. It must be about 11:30 by now, but I don't ever want to get out this bath. "Maybe" I whispered to him.
We'd both had a wash and I had managed to wash my hair but I just couldn't resist feeling his skin against mine.
I climbed out the bath making sure he watched my every move. At this point I wasn't sure if the steam was from the bath or from Billy. I wrapped myself up in a black thick towel and gave Billy the sexiest look I could. I think he new what I meant as he couldn't get out the bath quick enough. I ran down the hall way and into his bedroom, chucked my towel on the floor and hid under the quilt. Billy came into the room chucked his towel and came into the bed with me. His big hands rubbed my body, he kissed my neck. I shivered, this is what I'd been waiting for. I do love him.
After we'd finished I laid back on to the pillow, for the first time ever I actually felt loved. Billy looked up at me and smiled, the clock said 12:38pm, time had just flew by, I clambered out of bed, I grabbed my clothes and walked to the bathroom. I threw my hair up, letting it dry itself, put my clothes on and made sure i looked ok. I walked out the bathroom, switching off the light and I saw Billy stood at the top of the stairs. He's always dressed to impress. He starts to walk down the stairs so I follow. He grabs his keys off the kitchen side, his jacket in the other hand and then he stops. Billy turned round and smiled at me mad said "are you ready babe, make sure you have what you need". I look around making sure there's nothing left, I look at him smile and nod. He opened the front door and being the gentlemen he is, he holds the door and watches me walk out. I got into the car and took my phone out my coat pocket. It was switched off. I turned my phone back on, and the screen flashed 5 new messages. All from my mum. They can wait.
Billy started to drive the car, but he didn't say a word to me. I thought with the morning we just had he would be happy, he doesn't seem it. We seemed to drive for miles. Every field we drove past just looked the same and he still didn't say a word to me. Just silence. In the distance I could see the shopping mall, it was so big. Bright lights and windows, the sun was beaming. We pulled up in to the car park, we found a perfect space to park right close to the shops. Billy got out the car and was stood waiting for me, I got out the car and walked up to him, I couldn't stand the silence, I looked at him and said "what's wrong, why the silence, why aren't you talking to me, what have I done?". "Nothing ray, stop panicking, I've got a phone call to make, grab yourself a drink, il be 5 minutes" he replied. He handed me some money and I went to the nearest coffee shop and brought my self a drink, whilst wondering who he may be phoning.
We'd been shopping for at least 3 hours, my hands were in so much pain the bags were cutting into my fingers. Billy took a handful of bags off me and carried them to the car. I was so happy he'd spoilt me and he kept calling me his princess. My mum rang my phone again, I answered. "Ray please come home, something's happened",And the phone went dead. "Billy please we need to go back to my mums, something's happened and she just cut me off, please can you take me home". He nodded and we both got in the car. He raced back as quick as we could, the journey felt like it took us 5 minutes to get back. We pulled up outside my house and it was trashed. My worst nightmare, we'd been broke into. Me and billy entered the house to find my mum crying on the sofa. Everything had been wrecked. I ran upstairs to my room to find it had all been turned up side down. Who could have done this? Why us?. Billy came upstairs, the first time he'd been in my room and it was trashed, he hugged me and told me he'll sort it. But I had no idea what he meant by that. Did he know something I didn't. We went back down stairs and started helping my mum clean up. We started by chucking all the broken things away, putting things back in its original place and making the house a home again. Billy made another phone call whilst we was at my mums, but he went outside. "Are you and billy official now then Ray, I take it you'll be spending a lot more time at his rather than here?" My mum asked me. "Yes we are, I think mum. And I'm not sure what il be doing yet, let's just get this sorted first", I replied. Billy came back in from outside and said "I've sorted it, someone will be out in an hour to fix the door and window, and the police are on there way". He smiled at me and reassured me that everything will be fine. He makes me so happy. I think this was the first time my mum had saw me happy.
That night Billy stayed at my house, but insisted he would sleep on the sofa incase something happened again. I lied on my bed alone trying to fall to sleep, but it felt different. I didn't like being in my bed alone. The past 2 nights I've had Billy cuddling me. And them two nights have felt like I've spent a life time with him. I steered at the ceiling hoping that maybe I would just nod off. I heard a quiet knock on my door. "Come in", Billy walked in with a glass of juice in hand. "I didn't think you would be awake, but I just thought I'd bring you a drink anyway. Il sit with you for a bit" Billy said to me. Everything he does is just perfect. He sat on my bed next to me, so I rested my head on him. He rubbed his finger tips through my hair and on my face, it was so relaxing. "Thank you" I whispered to him.
He didn't reply we just sat and cuddled and eventually I drifted off.
"Morning beautiful, It's time to wake up", I opened my eyes to see billy stood above me, dressed perfectly in a black suit, and black shirt. "I've got to go into work, stay with your mum. I won't be long I promise" Billy said. He bent down kissed my head and walked out the room. I sat up rubbing my eyes, still feeling tired. I picked up my phone and saw the time 08:14am. I climbed out of bed wrapped my dressing gown round me and went downstairs. The window and door had been fixed thanks to Billy, but the house still looked messy. My mum was already up and dressed, she started cleaning the house. "The police didn't say much, it happens a lot so were another one added on to the break in list" she said to me. I made us both a cup of tea, and we sat at the breakfast bar. "Billy will be back soon mum, am I alright to go back out today, if you need me around il stay". She smiled at me and said "I'm not going to stop you".
Billy arrived back at my house around 1pm, "I'm sorry I'm late Ray, I've had so much work on. Fancy coming back to mine, I have a few things I need to do, could use the company" he said to me. So I agreed and we headed for Billy's house. Pulling up to the house I noticed Billy smelt different to what he smelt like when he left me this morning, but I brushed it off and didn't think nothing of it. We went inside and billy took his jacket off and hung it on the back of the leather chairs in his kitchen. "Nipping in the shower" he said to me. I grabbed a can of pop out of his fridge and opened it. I sat at the table, my mind was in over drive. I reached over to Billy's jacket and felt around his pockets. Nothing unusual. I then realised that his jacket had an inside pocket. A note.
The note read...
Mr B O'conner
I will forward his name and address to you through email.
I think he may be dangerous.
Your not alone in this.
Take care until next time.
What could this mean, right now I think my mind is going to explode. I push the note back inside his pocket just in time. Billy walked into the kitchen, jeans and a white top. "You smell nice" I said. "Ray I've been thinking, I know we haven't been in touch for ages, and I know we've only just got together, and I know you might think I'm rushing, but do you want to move in with me. I was lonely last night and realised how much I hate not having you around". I smiled. WOW he feels the same way I do. My dream has finally come true. "Yes yes yes" I screamed. I grabbed my phone and told my mum my good news, not only did I find myself a loving boyfriend, I've got a new job, new car and I'm finally moving out. My mum was delighted for me, I new she would be. Billy had made one of his friends pick my new car up from work and bring it to his house. So I decided to take a drive to my mums to start to pick a few of my things up, so I can make Billy's home my home.
I started driving down my street when I heard my text message ring tone on my phone. I pulled up outside my house, grabbed my bag and took my phone out. I'd been so locked up in my own little life I forgot I had friends. A best friend. Megan had text me.
'Hey hunny, you forgot about me. Think we need a good catch up. I've got so much to tell you. Meet me?'
I texted her back 'hey Meg's, no not forgot u, say an hour. Mcdonalds. Your paying'
She replied ' 1 hour, il beat u'
We always had a jokey kind of relationship, but she knew me inside and out. We were just like sisters, but I'd forgot about her. I felt terrible. I opened the car door, and walked into my mums house. "Just home to grab some things mum" I said. I ran upstairs and into my room, grabbed the nearest rucksack and started filling it with my clothes. I put my makeup in, my straighteners, hair dryer, everything I could put it I did. I was so excited to live with Billy. No more nights alone. My mum was glued to her computer, she'd had registered to so many dating sites, I don't even think she could count. Ever since my dad left she's always been trying to replace him.
I pulled up at mcdonalds in my brand new shiny White Audi and I saw Megan stood waiting for me. She screamed at me waving her arms. I got out the car and started to walk up to her, but before I new it she was jumping on me hugging me, smiling from ear to ear. "The car is amazing, we're did you get your car from, I want your car". She screamed again. "Il spill the beans soon" I said as I smiled back, I really had missed her. I sat at the first empty table i saw and Megan ordered the food. She came back and sat down facing me, she really couldn't stop smiling at me. "Ok so, I lost my job Megan, graham told his boss a lie, apparently I slept with him." Megan new the truth. "And then I got new job two days later" her smile got bigger, "and I'm in love" I told her. She just laughed, "but that doesn't explain the car misses". She asked, "my boyfriend brought it me, he gave me the job. And I'm moving in with him tonight". I told her, I just smiled back I couldn't believe what I was telling her, but it was all true. "This has happened so fast I'm so happy for you. So when do I get to meet him, can I come back to your new house with you?". "Erm, yes why not". We finished eating and headed back out to the car park. I text Billy 'Are you home baby, on my way back. Bringing a friend, hope u don't mind'. He didn't reply. I drove home, Megan sat in the passenger seat, she didn't dare touch anything incase something went wrong, there were so many buttons on the dash board, even I didn't no what half of them did.
We pulled up at my new house, Billy's place. the garden lights were lit up "wow that's beautiful" Megan said. I opened my door and got out the car, Megan just sat there shocked at how big this house actually was. Eventually, she got out the car following me to the front door. I was hoping Billy would be but there was no sign of his car on the driveway. We walked inside and Megan made her self feel at home, she lied on the sofa, kicked off her shoes and switched the tv on by the remote. This girl never missed a trick. I went into the kitchen and made us both drinks, as I reached over for the juice I noticed a note. The note read..
'Hi baby sorry I'm not home, business meeting. I love you. Xx'
My first note, I actually liked it, I folded up the paper, stuck it in my back pocket and headed in to the living room with the drinks. "So where's this mr of yours?" Megan said to me. I just looked at her, she's always winding me up. "He'll be home soon" I replied.
Megan decided that the next drink we would have would be alcoholic. So as the hours past so did the drinks, but there was still no sign of Billy. Last time I looked at the clock it was 6:45pm and now it's 11:23pm. I started to worry. Megan wasn't in a fit state to go anywhere, I picked her up and carried her to the spare bedroom that Billy put me when I stayed the first night. I tucked her in with the big thick quilt but before I had chance to leave the room Megan was fast asleep.
I walked across the hallway into Billy's bedroom, switched on the side lamp and climbed into his bed. I pulled out my phone, which was on silent and I noticed I had a message. It was sent 2 minutes ago. 'Ray I'm on my way home now, please forgive me.' It's from Billy. I put my phone on the bedside table and turned the lamp off. I rolled over and faced the other way, I cuddled into the pillow but I couldn't sleep. I was wandering if he really was on his way home. My mind wouldn't stop ticking, I picked up the remote and turned the tv on. I heard Billy's car pull up outside, he's home. His key twisted in the door and I didn't know if I should pretend to be asleep, or be angry with him because of work. But I couldn't do that, il be working there soon. I heard him banging around and then it went quiet. He must of crept upstairs because the next thing i new he was walking in the bedroom.
His suit was all messed up, his tie was pulled down and the top button undone. His hair scraped backwards left it looking fluffy. His face was red. He really didn't look happy. Now wasn't the best time to tell him that my friend who he'd never met was in the room across the hall, but I couldn't stop myself. "Megan my friend is in the bedroom across the hall, we had a few drinks and she was in no fit state to go home, I hope you don't mind" I blurted out. "That's fine, I'm sorry ray" he replied. I watched him undress. He hung his jacket on the chair across the room, removed his tie and unbuttoned his shirt. He took his belt off and put it on the chair, unbuttoned his trousers and sat on the bed. I hugged him from behind, I couldn't be mad at this guy, just looking at him makes me happy. I pulled off his shirt and dropped it on the floor. I kissed his cheek, "I hope your ok Billy, you seem stressed, I hope I'm not part of it". He smiled at me, and layed back on the bed, he looked tired. "Ray I need to be honest. I had a meeting with an old friend, someone who knows Graham. I've heard he's bad news and I'm worried he's not going to give up on you. I really don't want you to get hurt, I'm going to protect you". He said. This just came out of know where, what was I meant to say back to him. I new graham was bad news, all my thoughts that I had blocked out came rushing back to me. Billy stood up and removed his trousers, he climbed into bed just wearing his boxers and told me to cuddle him. So I did.
We woke up the next morning, as the sun beamed through the bedroom window facing us. I kissed Billy good morning, and got out the bed. I wrapped myself in Billy's dressing gown and headed into the hallway. I noticed that Megan wasn't in the spare room, so I walked downstairs looking for her. I fount her slumped in a chair in the kitchen, sipping a glass of water. I put the kettle on and made me and Billy a drink, I heard him coming downstairs. We hadn't said anything more to each other about graham, but to be honest it wasn't one of my top subjects for a morning conversation. As hung over as Megan was, she saw billy coming into the kitchen and couldn't help her self but smile. He had put his track pants on, but no t-shirt. I couldnt resist not looking. After all he was now my official boyfriend. And boss. "What's your plans for today then babe" he asked me. "I'm not to sure, maybe just lounge about, it is Sunday after all". I suddenly remembered I had left all my things in the boot of my car, I totally forgot after the night I had with Megan. "Ray, I've phoned a taxi, I'm going to go home, my mum will be wondering we're I am. Il leave you two love birds alone" Megan said as she gave me a wink.
Beep,beep. "I think your taxis here meg" I said. She picked up her coat and bag, slipped on her shoes and gave me a hug. "You've done well, make sure he looks after you", she whispered in my ear. I nodded And smiled. I opened the door and Megan went and got in the taxi, I waved her goodbye. Little did I know this May be the last time I saw her. I sat back at the kitchen table and finished off my drink trying to remember the things me and Megan spoke about over drinks last night. When it came to me. She told me that she was also seeing this new fancy man, she never mentioned his name but she said he had lots of money. I also remembered her saying that this man was a lot older than her too. I started to worry. So I text her. 'Hi Meg's just me, thinking about last night. Who this fancy man your seeing?'. She didn't reply.
Billy had left his phone on the kitchen counter, and I heard it ring. I walked over to the phone and noticed it was just a number ringing. "Hello this is mr. O'conners phone, it's not possible for him to come to the phone right now, can I take a message" I said as I grabbed some paper and a pen out of the draw. "Yes it's mr. Marsdon could you please tell mr. O'conner that I had phoned, thank you" and the phone line went dead. Billy walked into the kitchen and I was caught red handed with his phone. "Why do you have my phone?" He asked. "Ermm, we'll your phone rang, so I answered it. It was mr.mars-". "No no no, please don't answer it again. He's a respected gentlemen and I can't have him knowing I have you in my life ray" he paused and took a long hard look at me, "I told you I was going to protect you, so that's what I'm doing" he said. I never questioned him, I never worried about anything when he was around me, he's like my guardian angel. I decided that instead of staying in I was going to take a trip to see my mum.
I pulled up outside my mums house and I noticed a car a few houses down, but I couldn't put my finger on we're id seen it before. Then it clicked. Graham's car. I picked up my phone and called billy, placing my phone in my pocket I walked inside my mums house. I hoped and prayed that Billy would answer the phone and hear graham inside my mums house. As I walked into the living room I saw my mum sat on the sofa, at first she looked alone. But then I saw graham sat in the armchair. I gave my mum a stern look and walked into the kitchen, she followed. "What's up hunny, he's only here to make sure we're ok, he heard about the break in" she said, but I new something wasn't right, with what Billy had said to me I prayed for my mums safety. We went back in to living room and he looked at me. Just like he used to. "Hi ray, how's life treating you now you don't have a job" he said to me, I just looked straight through him and replied "perfect thank you". I swung my car keys around in my hand hoping he'd see and noticed how much better off I'm doing. Then suddenly my phone rang, I looked at the screen and it said Billy. I answered.
"Hi babe" I said
"Hi, now without being obvious is he still there." Billy asked.
"Yes" I answered, now I'm worrying.
"Walk into a different room". He said. So I did.
"Yes"
"Give your mum my number, put it on speed dial and leave. Come home ASAP"
"I love you" I replied. And I turned the call off.
I grabbed my mums phone and typed in Billy's number, making sure every digit was in the right place, I put it back on the side were she had left it and I text her off my phone. 'Ive put Billy's number in your phone, if your in any trouble please phone him'. I walked back in to the living room and told my mum I had to rush off, I kissed her cheek and smiled, "see you later mum" and I walked out the door, without even having to look at graham. I then text Billy to tell him I was on my way home.
I pulled up in the driveway of our house and billy was stood on the front door step. "Thank god your home, I'm so glad your ok, did you do as I say, did he say anything to you, did he touch you?" Billy asked so many questions I felt so over whelmed I just looked at him with a slight puzzled look on my face, "yes I did, and he asked if I was ok and no he didn't" I think I answered all the questions but if I didn't I'm sure Billy would understand after he was the one that just bombarded me with them. He grabbed my hand and pulled me inside. My phoned buzzed. It was Megan texting me back. 'Hi, his names Andrew, he's a multi millionaire banker, I think he's my soulmate'. Billy pulled me into the living room and made me sit down, he looked at me with a stern look on his face. "I need to no the truth, what happened between you and this graham" I felt a cold rush come over me, surely the man of my dreams didn't want to know the dark side of my life. But he did.
"I left school and applied for a office job, I new how to work a computer and was pretty fast at typing, so I thought I'd give it a try. I was accepted, I started Monday. I went into work on the Monday, fresh faced clean clothes and a smile on my face. I met my boss mr graham tucker. He seemed pretty nice at first. As I was joining the company some people were being sacked and some were just walking out. I thought that was a normal day at work. A few months down the line, I started to fit in and be one of 'them'. I had to stay behind one night to finish of some paper work. Graham had stayed behind too". I stopped talking and looked at Billy, he looked intrigued but he grabbed my hand a gave it a squeeze, he reassured me he'd always be there, so I picked up were I left off. "I was doing my work at my table when I heard graham shout me, I went over to his desk and he told me to sit in the chair opposite. Being a normal colleague I did as he asked. He got up from out his chair and went to shut the door. I kept asking myself why would he do that, we were the only 2 in the building at this point. He walked back over not saying a word and sat on the desk in front of me. He began to tell me I looked beautiful. I went to stand up, but he put his hand on my shoulder and pushed me back down". I stopped to take a breath and I know that Billy wasn't enjoying listening to this, but he asked me to continue. " he put both hands on my arms, pushing them into the arms of the chair and he started kissing my neck, I tried my hardest to scream, but nothing would come out. And it wouldn't of helped, because no one else was there. He lent on my legs and tried to rip my top off, I smacked him and he fell to the floor, I pulled my top back to how it should of been and I went to walk towards the door. But he got up, he grabbed my hair and pushed me into the wall, he tugged at my trousers, trying to pull them down, they got as far as my knees before he gave up. Again he pulled and pulled at my top, trying everything so I was naked. I tried to fight back billy I really did, but I lost. He had his way". I leant forward on to billys shoulder and I cried. "Shhhhh, I didn't expect you to tell me everything ray, i honestly thought, we'll I didn't think, but I'm sorry I wasn't there sooner" he said. Billy scrambled his words, he only does that when he's angry. Was he angry with me?.
"It happened twice a week billy, for two weeks. until I picked the courage to say no. And he didn't like it, he tried his hardest to make my life hell. I told him if it didn't stop I would just quit and never come back. But before I had chance he filled the whole office with lies and I got sacked. He is the reason why my life is falling apart". Billy's face was bright red, he hated every word he was hearing, but I felt safe telling him, he loved me. "I promise your life will never be like that again, your not Graham's first babe". I layed down and resets my head onto Billy's lap. I had cried that much I nodded off to sleep.
I woke up the next morning, wrapped in a big quilt. There no was sign of Billy. It was obvious he had been the one to tuck me in, memories of our conversation rushed through my mind. I got up and peered out the living room window, no car. I walked back over to the sofa and grabbed my phone. I had a text, it was from Billy. "Please make your own way to work, honey will show you everything. Il be back tonight. Xxx". I rushed upstairs, looking at the time 9;36am. I looked through the shopping bags, I new billy brought me a new outfit for work, but were was it. I panicked, I'm definitely going to be late for work, and it my first day. I looked round Billy's bedroom when I noticed something. On his bed was a new black knee length pencil skirt and a white blouse. Heels were on the floor underneath. Perfect. I got dressed, putting my hair up in a bun and I ran downstairs, carrying my heels in my hand. I picked up my bag from the kitchen side and grabbed my keys. I stood at the front door and looked in the full length mirror next to me. I looked fine. I opened the door, unlocking my car on the way out. I got into my car, started it up and picked up my phone. 'Billy, I'm on my way to work now. I miss you. See you tonight' I text him. And I drove to work.
Pulling up the car park, I noticed a sign 'bosses spot', so I decided to park there, I'm sure no one would mind. I am his girlfriend after all. I got out the car, adjusted my skirt and blouse, popped a smile on my face and made my way in to the building. It didn't seem very busy, only a few people sat in the reception and 1 lady at the desk. I walked straight through the reception holding my head up high and pressed the button for the elevator. I haven't heard from my mum for a few days I thought as I waited. Eventually the lift appeared and the doors opened, I walked in. As I waited for the elevator doors to close another man walked in. I pressed level 14, and asked the gentlemen what floor he wanted. "10 please" he said. The doors opened at level 10, and I watched him walk out. The doors closed, seconds past and my heart rate on faster. Ping! The doors opened, level 14 just how I remembered it. A beautiful young woman walked towards me. Black skirt and white shirt, dressed just like me. "You must be Ray, I've heard so much about you". Me? Really? When? I thought to myself. What has billy been saying?. "All good news, erm, anyway let me show you to your office, is there anything I can get you to make you feel more comfortable" she said to me. "No thank you, but I don't suppose you know we're billy is, or how long he'll be out today?", she nodded her head, "no sorry". I walked off into my office, my office, it sounds really funny when I think that. I've never really had my own office. I switched on the computer and a screen popped up. Numbers filled the page, words I don't think il ever understand. So instead I switched off the screen and started looking through the piles of paperwork Billy had left me. I opened the first file, to find a note.
'Hi beautiful, I probably won't be back til late again
I hope you can make out what all this paper works about
Oh and check your bank, you had a call from them.
Love u xxx'
I started reading through the work, keeping Billy's letter to one side. I tried to understand what this company actually done, but so far, I was still confused. I picked up my phone and text my mum "hi mum come meet me on my dinner break, im at Electra Industries, il show you around love u xx" but I didn't get a reply. I switched the computer back on, and I checked my emails. I had 107 new emails, mainly from Graham. I deleted them all, I wanted nothing more to do with this man. I noticed in all the paper work, I had a few letters I had to sign. so I started to sign them one by one, reading them through, taking note of what the company was about. Honey came back into my office with a cup of coffee in hand. "ive brought you a drink, do you need any help with anything" she asked. "actually I do, what am I meant to be doing?". "your mr. O'conners secretary, you answer his calls, you sign his letters, and your keep the business running" she replied. Basically, im still back at square one, will I never know what this business does, every letter ive read so far has all been in code. No wonder his mum didn't want to run the business.
12:30pm and its my dinner break. I had signed and read so many letters, my mind was boggled. I left the building and went outside. Fresh air was just what I needed. I turned left out the building and headed for a coffee shop but along the way, I noticed my mum. "hi mum" I shouted. she turned round and walked towards me. she followed me in to the coffee shop and we sat at the last empty table. The waitress came over and took our order. 2 cups of coffee and 2 chocolate doughnuts. "i need to tell you something ray, I no your not going to be best pleased but im happy and I hope you will be too", my heart sunk. "I went on a date with your ex boss Graham, and tonight were going on another one. I think I really like him". I just looked at her with a blank expression on my face, how could I be happy for her when I know what this man is capable of. I couldn't bare to tell my mum what actually happened when I used to work for him, it would break her heart. I just smiled. I knew she could tell I wasn't happy, but I had to words to say to her. we sat in silence and drank our coffees, I wrapped my doughnut up in a napkin and put it in my bag. I looked at my mum and saw how happy she was, I knew she was thinking about Graham. "ive got to head back to work now mum, I don't want to mess my first day up, please text me when you get back home form your date tonight, id like to know your safe" I said to her, she didn't reply, just looked up and forced a smile.
I was sat in my office when I heard a man voice. "is Ray here?" the voice said. Who could that be, I wasn't sure if I had heard the voice before, but I blanked it out and carried on writing up on my paper work. I came across a letter from a mr.Green. It said 'To mr.O'conner, thank you for your honourable donation, we plan on taking action and making our building 10x bigger. I hope your nightclub is what you make it out to be and I hope to see you in the future. Thank you again'. Wow I thought, my boyfriend Mr Billy O'Conner was rolling in more money than I could ever imagine. That reminded me, in the letter that billy I had wrote to me, he told me I needed to check my bank account. I switched the screen back on and logged on to my bank account. "woooooo" I screamed, not realising how loud I actually was. £100,000 was in my bank. I felt like id won the lottery. I had the most amazing man ever. The voice that was down the corridor began to get louder and louder, I think he was coming closer. my hands started to sweat, i wasn't ready for visitors, id only just got through half the paper work that was left on the desk. 'knock knock' I heard. "come in" i said. In walked a tall brown hair gentlemen, he was dressed in a black pin striped shirt, and his shoes shined so brightly. "hello Ray, im Billys partner, il help him keep control of this business when hes not around. Your just as beautiful as billy described you, i hope your fitting in nicely and understanding all the work hes left for you. il be on my way, but if you need anything whilst billys not here, heres my card, it has my number on" he said as he handed me a card. "thank you" i replied. Billy had been telling a lot of people about me in such a short space of time. Another voice appeared in the hall way, but i was sure i knew who it was. His dark husky voice filled the hallway and my body shivered. Its billy. i couldn't stop smiling, he told me he would be late from work, but hes not. i pretended to get into all the work he'd left me so that i would make a good impression when he walked in. The door creaked open and Billy stood in the door way, I lifted my head up from writing and i looked straight at him. "oh my god Billy, what happened!" my eyes filled up with water, Billys face was a mess! He looked like he had been mugged. i stood up and ran towards him, "Billy please tell me". He rubbed his face letting out a sigh. "I was mugged ray, they hit me and stamped on my face. But luckily they didn't take anything" he replied. My heart sunk. who would do this, why would anyone want to hurt Billy.
We made our way home, I drove. We entered the house and i walked straight in to the kitchen, I opened the freezer and pulled an icepack out. i handed it to billy and told him to put it on his eye. "billy, i saw my mum today. shes told me shes seeing Graham, and they've been on a date and shes going on another one with him tonight". "do not mention that guys name in my house. i hate him. hes damaged goods" he snapped back at me. "but im worrying billy, what about my mum. if hes that bad i need to get my mum away from him". Billy looked at me through one eye and he still managed to look really angry. "find out were your mums date is, il send a body guard to keep an eye on them" he said to me. A body guard! why didn't he have a bodyguard with him when he was mugged? or was he mugged?. Before i had chance to message my mum, she had already text me. 'i no you don't want to know about my date, but its at sydneys and i thought you had the right to know'. i didn't text her back, i already had the information i needed. i told billy about the message and he phoned someone, im assuming it was the bodyguard but billy never told me his name. Before this point i didn't even no he knew a body guard. every day i learn something new about this guy, i don't think i could keep up with the amount of contacts he had. i looked round at billy, he was laying on the sofa, icepack covering half his face and he still managed to smile at me. "il run you a bath" i said to him.
i walked into the bathroom, with my phone in hand and i switched the spotlights on. i walked over to the bath and switched the taps on. i tipped in the bubble bath and watched the bubbles get bigger, and the bath water started to fill up. The sweet scent of the bubble bath filled the room. I heard Billys foot steps coming up the stairs and he came into the bathroom. "how was your first day at work?" he asked me. "erm, yeah it was ok, i met one of your friends, Erm mr...Green" i replied. "what did he say to you, i bet he told lots of stories didn't he?" "no, he just gave me his card and told me i was beautiful" i replied. But i wasn't sure i should of said that. i switched the taps off and looked back at Billy. He removed the icepack from his face and looked back at me, straining his bad eye. His hand rubbed my face and he kissed my cheek. "you are beautiful, and your mine" he whispered to me. Goosebumps filled my whole body and i couldn't resist kissing him. "the bath can wait" billy said to me as he pulled my hand, i followed him into the bedroom. Undressing me, he took my shirt off first, taking his time he undone one button at a time, he wrapped his arms around me and i felt a little tug, he undone my bra and dropped it to the floor. I pulled his top up and over his head, dropping it on top of my bra, i rubbed his naked back with my hands. Feeling his muscles a rush came over me, i never wanted this moment to stop. i sat on the bed, grabbing his waist i pulled him forward, undoing his belt. i chucked the belt on to the chair opposite us and i undone the button and zip, i pulled his trousers right down. he pushed me back on to the bed, laying down he climbed on top me, kissing every inch of my body. he grabbed the bottom of my skirt and pulled it right up, he ripped my knickers down and right now nothing else mattered. i could feel every inch of his dick rubbing between my legs, i reached down and pulled off his boxers. He made me moan, he made me scream, he took me to a place id never been before. Feeling his naked body against mine, we were both sweating but none of us could stop, the intense feeling is all i wanted. He grabbed my hair and gave it a tug, i scratched his back. Wow, i never new sex could be so good. He looked at me, steering at me he said "im not done" and he gave me a wink. He stood up, fully naked and everything on show, i looked at him and took a mental picture. He grabbed my arm and turned me over, my face was pressed into the bed, my bum was on show. But i didn't care what i looked like, i could make love like this forever. I felt his warm skin touch my back and his hard dick went straight between my legs "arrrgh" i screamed, He grabbed my bum so hard, but at that moment it didn't hurt, i enjoyed it. His hand made its way up my back and again he grabbed my hair, this time he pulled it harder, his pushed himself against me even more. My eyes rolled back into my head and my hands gripped on to the quilt, i couldn't believe how amazing this was. He pushed and pushed until he let out a big sigh. We layed next to each other for what felt like a lifetime. We were both out of breath, sweating, and our hearts rates hit the roof.
About an hour later I climbed off the bed, i still had my skirt on, i pulled it down . I new billy was watching my every move my legs started shaking, i walked up to the bathroom. I cleaned myself up and i wrapped myself up in a towel. My mouth was so dry, I headed straight down stairs to grab a drink. I closed all the blinds in the kitchen so Billy neighbours didn't see me walking around in my towel. i got a glass out the cupboard placed it on the side and opened the fridge. I had a choice; coke, juice, water, milk or something alcoholic. i choose the juice. Pouring myself a drink, i heard my phone in the bedroom ring. I walked back upstairs and into the bedroom, Billy was still sat on the bed still completely naked. I picked up my phone and unlocked it, looking at the screen i noticed that my missed call was from my mum. I decided i should ring her back. i got back on the bed and cuddled into Billy, the phone began to ring. "hi mum whats up", "erm, its ok now, i didn't mean to ring you ray, im off out with graham now, speak soon" she replied. Something didn't seem right, she couldn't give me a straight answer, my mum is never like that. Billy questioned the puzzled look on my face. "whats up baby" he asked, but i didn't no what to answer, "just my mum seems a bit odd that's all" i replied. I grabbed the remote off the bedside table and i switched the tv on. 6:45pm, the news shown the time. "wow the times flew by" i said to Billy, he looked back at me and smiled "time flys when your having fun", i giggled. he always new how to make me smile.
We decided that making dinner would just be too much effort, so Billy phoned a take away and had a feast delivered to the house. The door bell rang after about 45minutes of waiting, "il go down" Billy said to me as he wrapped him self up in the black dressing gown he had hung on the door. I watched him walk out the room, i was fascinated by him and by his body. i could smell the food a mile away. Billys phone rung. so i answered it. "hello mr.O'conner phone, hes not able to make it to the phone right now but can i take a message". i said, and the voice on the other end of the phone replied. "tell Billy code red". And the phone went dead. What the hell did code red mean? Was that the secret bodyguard Billy said he new? Was my mum in trouble?. i jumped off the bed and went to walk downstairs, when i noticed Billy walking back up. i peered over the banister and i watched him walking towards me. He had food in both hands. His dressing gown was slipping undone, he had nothing on underneath. Just a sexy body that i could never get fed up looking at. His muscles looked bigger than anything, his stomach was ripped with them. He had perfect skin not a mark anywhere. Apart from his face, his eye was still really bruised, but it could never put me off him. We both walked back in to the bedroom and for a second i totally forgot about the phone call. "oh billy, please don't be mad, i answered your phone again, i had no idea who it was but he told me to tell you code red". Billys eyes lit up, well one did. And i could see the rage coming over him. "code red means your mum and Graham are becoming very close. They've kissed." my heart just dropped. I know Billy was looking out for me, but theres only one thing Graham wants, and that's sex. Or to ruin my mums life, or mine. Thoughts rushed through my mind.
Digging into the pizza, I turned to Billy and said "do you think he will hurt my mum like he hurt me billy?" and Billy replied "if he does, he'll have me to deal with now baby". He always was so reassuring but i wasn't sure Billy new how evil this man was. My phone started ringing, it was a private number, i shown Billy then i answered "hello" i said, "hello is this ray, its Michelle Megan's mum". what could she be phoning for? "Megan came home the other day and she packed her stuff whilst me and her dad was at work, she left a note, but it doesn't make sense she said shes in love and well, she doesn't want to be here anymore. Has she said anything to you?". "erm, no michelle, she didn't say anything she never mentioned being in love or going anywhere, il try to phone her and see if i can get in contact with him, il let you no, im sorry i couldn't be more help" i replied. And the phone line went dead. i know i lied for her, but i was worried and shocked. Where would she have gone? i never thought she was stupid enough to run away with a man she barely new. "ive just had a message ray, your mum and graham have gone back to your mums place". Billy said. I never knew that in one night i could have a million and one different feelings rush round my body. My mum never text me to say she got home like she said she would. Part of me was happy that billy had organised body guards to watch over her. How is it possible for 2 of my favourite people to become so stupid in one night. We'd finished eating the pizza and Billy took the boxes down the to kitchen ready for the recycling bin. I sat on my own in Billy's bedroom on my own for 5 minutes, although it seemed so much longer. I couldn't stop thinking about my mum, my heart was racing, I didn't want him to take control over her like he did to me.
The next day Billy was going to work, he kissed my forehead and walked out the bedroom. I watched him walk out, dressed in favourite black suit. he's beautiful I thought to myself. I rolled over leaning my head on his pillow, I could still smell him. I heard him start the car on the drive, and drive away. I decided that when I looked around his room the last time i didn't do it properly, so now that he's left for work it was my chance. I got up out of the bed, and i grabbed Billy's dressing gown, it was like 3 sizes to big, but it smelt of him and it kept me so warm. I opened the top draw were i had put the photo of him and his ex and i pulled it out. She really was beautiful, i wonder what they broke up about. She was a stunning blonde girl with pretty green eyes. In the photo he had his arm around her, they looked like they were both dressed for a vip party. i placed the photo on the bed and carried on looking through the draw. I don't know exactly what i was looking for and i was hoping to find nothing. The top draw was full of letters addressed to Billy, i didn't read them all but they were signed with a love heart and the letter L. I stuffed all the letters back in the draw and tried to forget i even seen them. I pulled open the 2nd draw and it was empty, I checked the 3rd and last draw, in there was a box. It had a padlock on it. What could be in I thought to myself whilst taking it out the draw. There was no key to open it. I shook the box and it didn't even rattle. i pushed the box back in to the draw, and i picked up my phone off the bed. i text Billy. 'i never lied to you Billy, i told you the whole truth. You know about what graham done to me. i told you everything and if you asked me again, id tell you the truth again. so now its your turn. Whos L and Whats in your box?'. my heart skipped a beat, i couldn't believe i had just sent that through a text message. I got dressed putting on my old clothes, right now i didn't want to wear anything he had brought me. I never got a reply of Billy. i headed down stairs and grabbed my car keys off the side, i unlocked the front door and stormed out, i was still so angry that he couldn't even tell me anything. I drove to my mums house, not concentrating on the road. BAM! id been through into the wrong side off the road. My head hurt, i looked at my hand, it was covered in blood. What had happened?. my vision started to go blurry, i was loosing consciousness.
I could hear voices but i couldn't see anyone, my head was aching. Where was i? I heard a voice talking to me, "ive contacted your mum ray, your in a safe place now". A safe place, i couldn't remember anything. I managed to open my eyes, i saw my mum stood there watching over me, something looked different. She had the necklace on that Graham had sent me in the package. I couldn't find the words to say to her, i just looked away. The safe place that i was in was a hospital, id been hit by a 4x4 on the way to my mums house. The room was grey and bland, no pictures just hospital equipment surrounded me, the only thought running through my mind was were the hell is billy? did he even know what had happened?. My phone rang, i couldn't reach it, it was put on top of the bedside table. I just listened to my phone ring. The nurse came over to my bed, she checked all my vitals and changed the dressing on my head, all my energy had been taken up when i was in the crash, i didn't want to do anything but sleep.
"Ray, Ray, are you ok, i came as quick as possible" i heard this voice say to me, i opened my eyes and i saw Billy stood there, he looked stressed. He kissed my forehead and i just looked at him. "how long have i been asleep" i asked him. "i don't know, ive only just managed to get here, please tell me your ok" he said to me. i just smiled, im fine now i thought. I looked to the left of me and my mum was still sat there, she had tears in her eyes. i hope Billy doesn't mention anything about the necklace or about Graham. The doctor came in and asked Billy if he could have a word with him in the corridor. Billy rubbed my head and walked out. I could still see them through the windows of the room, but i had no idea what they was talking about. This crash was all Billys fault but i couldn't blame him. He came back in the room with a stern look on his face "i think we need to talk Ray, Do you mind leaving the room Val" he said to my mum, she asked me and billy if we wanted drinks, "yes please" we both replied and she walked out the room. "Its my fault ray, i did this to you didn't i, Why didn't you just stay at home until i got back, we could have sat and spoke about this, you didn't need to-" "i just want the truth, i want to know who L is?"i butted in as he was talking to me, but i didn't care i was the one laying in a hospital bed, i just wanted the truth. "il show you" he said. He pulled his phone out his pocket and unlocked it. It took him a couple of minutes and then he passed me the phone, on the screen was a scan photo of a little tiny baby, a lump appeared in my throat. "whos baby is this?" i asked. He looked a me, his face was always so serious and he replied "this is Holly, my daughter. My ex girlfriend, the one in the photo is her mother, she picked up and left me when she fount out she was pregnant, apparently i wasn't the kind of dad she wanting for her baby, i haven't seen my little girl at all, shes now 1 and a half, and shes grew up without a daddy". i felt so sorry for him i could see a tear rolling down his cheek, i managed to pick up my hand and wipe it away. he carried on talking to me. "ive been trying my hardest to find her, i want to know shes ok ray, i do love her even if i haven't met her yet. i didn't want to tell you incase you didn't feel the same way about me ray, i didn't want to ruin what we have". i felt so bad that i didn't even give him a chance, i just cried. "don't cry baby, its not your fault im sorry" he said to me, i could see his eyes filling up. we both had messed up lifes, its like we were meant to be. It started to get late so i told Billy to go home and get some sleep, but he refused. My mum had been and gone, and she didn't really speak a word to me. Some thing didn't add up with her, she's never usually so quiet. I kept thinking maybe she was just shocked with how the whole day has turned out. Billy shut the dark blue curtains in the window, and relaxed in the chair next to my bed, he held his hand to me, i grabbed in and curled up on the bed. My head was still pounding and every time i closed my eyes i had flashbacks of the crash. I watched Billy close his eyes and fall to sleep, he looked so uncomfortable but he didn't want to leave my side. A nurse popped her head in to my room to see if I was ok, i just smiled at her and told her i was going to sleep. I pulled the blanket up to my shoulder and tucked myself in with one hand, my other still clinging to Billy's hand. Eventually i managed to fall asleep.
When I woke up I heard Billy talking to my doctor, I kept my eyes closed so they didn't realise id woke up. "yes i will look after her, she's living at my house now anyway", "please make sure she has atleast 3 weeks off work and no driving for a while. A crash this serious should of caused more damage, your girl is very lucky", the doctor replied to Billy. I turned over opening my eyes, they both noticed id moved and both smiled at me. Little did they know I listening. I couldn't get over what the doctor said, maybe I was lucky. The doctor left the room and Billy told me i was able to go home today. I was so happy to be walking out the hospital with just a cut on my head, a little concussion and a few scratches. Billy locked the door in my room so i could get dressed without any unexpected visitors. I asked billy to untie the back of my hospital gown and i slipped it off. Billy had brought some clothes with him when he first came to the hospital. I rummaged through the bag looking at what he'd brought with him, he'd put the new clothes in, the ones i didn't want to wear yesterday. It was like looking at things brought my memories back, I hoped id never seen that picture of his ex girlfriend again. I put on the track pants he'd brought me and one of his t-shirts. I felt so comfortable in these. I went in to the en suite i had in my room and washed my face, parts that weren't scratched anyway. When i walked back into the room Billy was on the phone, all i heard him say was il be outside in 5. So i grabbed my bags up off the floor, walked towards Billy and gave him a smile. The doctors had been in and signed my discharge form whilst i was in the bathroom, so i was all ready to go. We headed in to the corridor and started to walk out the hospital, the smell reminded me of when my mum was in hospital last, she was always coming for blood tests for something she would never tell me about. I always worry about her but right now she had to be the last thing on my mind, i just wanted to go home and rest. My body started to ache.
We got to the main entrance of the hospital and Billy waved at someone. I had no idea who it was, but they started to drive towards us. "Its Mr.Green, he's driving us home, I was with him when i had the call from the hospital, and he brought me here" Billy said to me. That makes sense really, but i felt a bit uncomfortable getting in a strangers car. Me and Billy got into the back seats of Mr.Greens car, he put his arm around me and pulled me closer. i was now sat in the middle of the back seat, and i could see that mr.green was watching us through the rear view mirror. i snuggled into him a bit closer, I really didn't want to be in this car. Although Billy trusted this guy, i really didn't no him. And the more he looked at me the more nervous i felt. We reached our home after driving for about 25 minutes, "come on in for a drink" billy said to mr.Green. He nodded at Billy and locked the car. We entered the house and it was so cold, i decided whilst billy was with his friend, i would go and relax in the bath.
As I walking up the stair I noticed the heating switch, so i clicked it on and walked to the bathroom. I switched the taps on the bath and took the candles and lighter out of the cupboard under the sink. i put the candles around the bath and along the window sill. I closed the blinds over and went in to our bedroom. I rummaged through the shopping bags thinking to myself i should really put these clothes away some where. I fount the new pyjamas that Billy brought me and i went back in to the bathroom. The bath was practically full now, so i stripped out of my clothes. I wasn't feeling a 100% but i thought that i would tease Billy, seeing as hes looking after me so well. I took a picture of my naked body and sent it him through a text message, with the words saying, 'i love you'. i climbed in to the bath and put my phone on the side of the bath. One of the sides on the bath had enough room for you to put something big on there, i didn't no what you would want at the side of the bath, but i used it for my drink and my phone. I layed back soaking my body in the water, I put my head back and covered my hair in water, it felt so relaxing. I really didn't want to get out. My phoned buzzed, Billy had replied. "i love you too. Patricks going now, stay in the bath ;)". Patrick must of been Mr.Greens first name, now i know his name but i still think hes weird. The scent of the candles began to fill the room, i could smell vanilla. I love this bathroom, i thought to myself, it must be the only room in the house that i adore. I lied this resting my head on the side of the bath, it still hurt but the more relaxing i done the pain started to drift away. Billy entered the bathroom, naked. I didn't hear him even come up the stairs, the bathrooms that quiet you could hear a pin drop. He walked towards me, I watched as his muscles twitched, he lent over the bath and kissed me. "your beautiful, you know that. Im so glad i didn't loose you ray, i really thought that i was going to loose you yesterday. Your one tuff cookie". I just smiled, I felt so shy. It was like I was back in primary school when me and Billy first met.
He climbed in to the bath and sit in front of me, looking right at me he just smiled. I could see the twinkle in his eye, the steam was lifting from the bath right between us. His body glistened, I couldn't resist rubbing my hands along his legs. His skin was so soft and tanned, I lent forward and kissed him. Reaching behind him I pulled the sponge of the side of the bath, i squirted the shower gel on and gently rubbed it along his body. I started with his chest, moving round and rubbing it all into his back, I massaged his shoulders and then I kissed his neck. I knew that Billy couldn't resist it when I kissed his neck and teasing him right now was perfect. I lent over him resting my head on his shoulder, pressing my chest against his back and I massaged his chest. We'd never done anything in the bath before, but seeing as it was so big we could practically swim around in it. I moved round and so we were face to face again and i kissed him so gently. He rubbed my body making sure his hands felt every part, at this point i couldn't resist him either. His hands made there way down and he rubbed his fingers round my turn on spot. My heart rate began to get faster and I pushed him back, the water splashed everywhere, but we didn't care. I kissed his chest and worked my way down, i could feel his erection getting harder, the water still splashing against us. I put my mouth round it, and I heard him moan. The feeling that rushed through my body was unexplainable. After giving him the most pleasurable time, he pulled me back up towards him and started kissing me. Being careful of my head wound, he gave a little tug on my hair, I crept on top of him, the water still warm. And we made love, even better than I remembered the first time. I moved back and forth, he grabbed my boobs and I moaned. I didn't ever want this to stop.
I climbed out the bath, dripping with water. I grabbed the towel off the radiator and began drying myself. Billy stayed in the bath, I watched him wash himself through the mirror, he was totally unaware what I was doing. I went in to our bedroom and put some underwear on. I decided to put my clothes away in 2 draws I noticed that we're empty. I'm sure Billy wouldn't mind, I do live here now anyway. Billy came into the bedroom wrapped in a black towel, still had water running down his body. I noticed on the table that my phone was flashing, Billy picked it up and passed it to me without even saying a word. I had 2 texts from my mum. The first one read 'hi ray, I've asked graham to move in with me' and the 2nd read 'are u ignoring me ray, are u happy for me'. I was so shocked I just fell to the floor. What the hell do I say to her when she finds out that Graham raped me. I looked at Billy with tears in my eyes and I said to him ' it's my mum, she's asked graham to move in, she's in love with him!'. I had a lump in my throat just telling him. "Ray either you tell your mum, or you stay quiet and see what happens either way il always be by your side" Billy replied to me. It was ok Billy telling me to tell my mum about what he did but what if she didn't believe me and she thought I was just trying to break them up?. "Let's invite them out for dinner babe, tell them were happy for them, see what happens, at least that way you can keep an eye on him?" Billy said to me. That wasn't a bad idea, although I could never keep my eye on them both all the time. "Ok il text my mum, we'll do dinner tonight". Billy looked at me shocked "tonight, but you need to rest babe" he said to me, " I know I do, but I also need food too" I replied as I smiled back at him. I sent my mum a message to meet us at Benoit, the most expensive restaurant in the city. I had a plan. "Billy, I know you put £100,000 in my bank, I read the message you left and I checked it right away. Thank you so much baby. Also 1 more thing, I want to rub this night in Graham's face, I want to pay for dinner. I want him to see how much better off I am not working for a low life scum like him". I had the cheesiest smile on my face, Billy knew it was a good idea, but he couldn't stop laughing at me. "What are you laughing at" I said to him, but he laughed so hard he couldn't reply. "Your sexy when you laugh" I told him, but he still laughed. Finally Billy stopped laughing and I was looking for my draws for something to wear. "if you want to pay for dinner mrs then you must accept this gift I have for you", I turned round to see that Billy had took a long beautiful black dress out the cupboard, I instantly fell in love with it. I ran over to him, took the dress from out his arms and held it against me, I spun around as if I was already wearing it, it was beautiful! "Yes il wear it, I love it billy! When did you buy this?". "Just put it this way" he replied "I was meant to be working but I had you on my mind, I thought I'd buy it for a special occasion, and tonight is one". I was so shocked, he's my Prince Charming. BUZZ! I heard my phone vibrate, it was my mum texting me back. 'See you there, wear your best dress'. Eek tonight was the night I wanted to show my mum how happy I was, this is real love.
We pulled up outside 'Benoit', Billy had organised a limo to take us. The driver opened the door, and I stepped out wearing the long black dress Billy had surprised me with. I curled my hair and made myself feel a million dollars. Thoughts were rushing through my head, I wanted to be here but I didn't want too, I wasn't sure if I could face my mum with that man. Billy got out the limo and stood next to me "are you ready, beautiful" he asked as he put his arm around my waist. I looked up and smiled at him, and we walked in. The restaurant was beautiful, the decor was red and black with silver ornaments. Each table was laid put with cutlery and menus, some of tables were placed in booths. We waited for a waitress to show us to our table. "Mr Edwards" Billy said as the waitress came closer, she nodded and took us straight to were we were sitting. Billy pulled the chair out for me and I sat down, 2 other spaces sat bare in front of us. We had arrived early, but my mum still managed to show up half an hour late. She walked in hand in hand with Graham, he smelled at me. My mum looked lovely in a red dress, she really did match the restaurant. Graham on the other hand just looked dirty as ever. We all ordered food and I insisted I'd pay. Billy and Graham started talking about businesses and money, to be honest I wasn't really interested, but I spoke up and told graham how well I was doing now that I have started my new job, his face just dropped. Billy put his arm around me and smiled, "yes she works with me now, not only do I get to look after her, I also spend everyday with her". Graham wasn't enjoying this dinner date, but he just grinned and bared it. "So how much money to you earn then Ray, enough to look after me" my mum asked at the same time of laughing. "You have graham now" I replied. She just looked at me with a blank expression on her face and said to me "yes, I suppose I do". The food arrived and we began to took in, it was like all new foods I'd never tasted before, but I finished my whole plate, and asked Billy if he wanted desert. "I'm stuffed" he replied but he gave me a wink. Desert at home sounded good to me. We were drinking our drinks and I paid the bill for dinner. £189 for four dinners, and I could finally afford it. Billy took the money up to the bar, and my mum disappeared to the toilets. Me and Graham were left alone at the table. I reached out in front of me to pick up my drink when Graham grabbed my wrist, squeezing it really hard, he said to me"he'll never love you like I do, he'll never take care of you, this is all fake, I won't leave you alone ray. Remember that!" and he let go, just in time for Billy and my mum returning. I placed my arm under the table so no one would notice the red marks his hand had made. I insisted to Billy that it was time to go home now and I could tell he knew something wasn't right. He sent a message off his phone and stood up. "Thank you for a lovely night" Billy said to my mum, he looked at graham and didn't say anything. I leant over the table still trying to hide my arm and I kissed my mum on the cheek, "night mum" and me and Billy walked off, heading outside. The limo turned up, and we got in, sitting back on the chair I lent my head on Billy's shoulder. He didn't say anything to me in the car, it was just silence.
We walked inside the house, it felt like heaven to be home now. After the day I've had I was really glad to finally be home. "What happened!" Billy shouted at me as he walked in to the kitchen behind me. He slammed his wallet and keys on the kitchen side. "Nothing" I said back to him, I couldn't do with the arguments today. My headache came rushing back. "You lieing, I no when your lieing and your doing it right now. Something happened in that restaurant and your not telling". I tried to swallow the lump that had lodged it self in my throat, "he grabbed me". Billy stood in silence looking me, I wasn't sure if he was angry at me or at graham, or just the whole situation. I'd never saw him this angry before, he was starting to scare me. He turned round, leaning his hands on the kitchen side and just looked down. I walked off upstairs and into the bedroom, closing the door behind me. I sat down behind the door and cried thinking about everything that happened. This is all my fault, I brought this into Billy's life, he shouldn't have to put up with my past. I stood up and walked towards the bed, I unzipped the the side of my dress and dropped it down, stepping out of it, I grabbed a t-shirt and pulled it over my head. I picked the dress up and hung it over the chair. I took the clips out my hair one by one, and wiped the make up off my face. I got on to the bed and laid down, closing my eyes, thoughts still running through my mind I managed to drift off to sleep, alone. I felt Billy getting into bed, i opened my eyes looking at the alarm clock I noticed it was 3am. I'd be asleep for hours, but it only felt like id been in here 5 minutes. Billy didn't even cuddle me, he'd got into the bed and just faced the other way. Now I really did feel like this whole thing was my fault.
I woke up the next morning in the same position I'd fell asleep in. I turned over and Billy wasn't in the bed, I looked at the clock it said 8:42am. I rolled off the bed grabbing the dressing gown off the floor and I wrapped it round me tying a knot at the front. I looked down the hallway to see if Billy was in the bathroom but he wasn't. So I headed straight downstairs to find him. I didn't like the way we left things last night, I wanted to ask him a few things. I walked past the living room and I popped my head through the door way, scanning the room I couldn't see him in here, so I went straight to the kitchen. There he was, track pants and white top with a smile on his face. "Morning gorgeous, I'm making us breakfast." How the hell did I respond to that, after the night we had. I didn't want breakfast, I wanted to talk. I sat down at the breakfast bar, and Billy passed me a cup of tea. "ive just made this, I wasn't sure how long you was staying in bed for, I would of brought these up for you babe" Billy said to me. I looked back at him and replied "Billy, I don't want breakfast, I want to talk. What happened last night was not my fault. I was left alone with him and I went to get my drink and he grabbed me. He warned me he would never leave me alone. And you storm round the house like a mardy little baby because it happened. You didn't even ask me if I was ok, you didn't see if I was happy, you never cuddled me and now... and now your trying to cover yourself whilst making me breakfast, Well im sorry if im not hungry but last night I was upset and now I feel the same. Why??? because you still have asked me if im ok?" and I stormed out the kitchen holding my cup of tea and I walked backup the stairs to the bedroom. "Rayy!" Billy shouted me, but I didn't want to listen, I just kept walking away.
I shut the bedroom door so that Billy knew I didn't want to see him. I rummaged through my draws and pulled out my jeans and a vest top, I rushed to get changed. I pulled on my socks and put my trainers on. I couldn't stand being like this with Billy but I needed him to know how much that monster hurt me time and time again. I put on my black nike jacket and zipped it up, putting my phone in my pocket I took my last swallow of tea and walked out the bedroom. When it dawned on me, I had been in a crash. A crash that I lost my car in. My new car. Now I know longer have a car and I no longer have a way of getting out the house. A little courage sprung among me and I walked down stairs, I looked and Billy and told him I wanted to borrow his car. At first I didn't think he would after all I did completely right off my new, old one. He handed me the keys, no other words exchanged and I headed out the front door. "ahh" I sighed as I pulled the front door shut behind me. It felt like a weight had been lifted off my shoulders now that I was finally out the house, and away from Billy.
I sat in the car and started it up, I had no idea were I was driving to, but I just needed to go. I hated the fact that things were difficult between us, but I couldn't help what happened when I was working for Graham, I had no one I could trust to tell. I drove towards my mums house, I thought that maybe I could go and see her, I wanted to tell her, but I didn't think she would believe me anyway, so I didn't see the point. As I reached my mums street, I noticed that Grahams car was outside the house. There was no way I was going to go in that house if he's there. So I drove past, really slow to see if I could see any movement in the house, but it just looked black. It looked like no one was home. I pulled up about 5 houses away from my mums and I thought id phone Megan. Maybe she'd answer to me. I rang the first time and it went straight through to the answer machine. So I phoned again and she answered. "hey Megan its me, were are you, I've had your mum phoning me saying your ignoring them?", I've moved to America babe, me and John and happy together". "but I was in a car crash, I've had a really big argument with Billy and now I have no one to talk to, I need you back here please?". "I'm sorry ray, I'm not coming back, you'll have to find a new best friend" And the phone went dead. That was not like Megan at all, something's different with her and I don't like it. Why was she being like this?.
I decided that it was probably for the best if I just went home. Billy was probably worrying about me, but so he should be. I turned the car around and Grahams car was still outside my mums, again I drove past really slow hoping I would see some sort of movement, but I didn't. I felt so alone and Megan had just confirmed to me that I actually had no friends now that my only best friend had left me. Pulling up outside my house and I noticed that all the lights were off, but it wasn't like Billy to go out with out his car, unless Mr.Green had picked him up for work. I locked the car and walked to the front door. It was locked. I unlocked the front door and walked inside. The place just seemed empty with Billy here, maybe I should call him. His phone went straight to the answering machine. Would he actually of turned his phone off because of what happened. I felt even more rubbish about myself now. I went in to the living room and sat on the sofa, switched on the tv and just relaxed. Thoughts rushing through my mind I just tried to concentrate on my tv. I kept looking out the window for a car to pull up thinking that Billy may actually come home but he didn't. I did notice that a car, one I think ive seen before kept driving past the house. I ran upstairs to get a better look and I did know this car. It was Grahams. I sat in the bedroom keeping an eye on him, but I had the urge that I needed toilet. I walked down the hallway and went in to the bathroom. After I had been toilet I went back into the bedroom and I noticed that Grahams car had pulled up, but I couldn't tell if he was still sat in there. I panicked and I text Billy. "Grahams outside the house please come home!!". He never replied. I looked back out the window and the car was still in the same place. I couldn't remember if i had locked the front door behind me or not, now the panic really did set in.
I ran downstairs and locked up the front door, I instantly felt safe. I walked back into the livingroom, the tv was still on. I sat on the sofa, grabbing a cushion for my head, I sat back. I closed my eyes and tried to think of the happy days I had already spent with Billy. Even though my eyes were closed I noticed that the room went darker. As i peered through my eyes, i saw Graham stood infront of me. "How did you get in" i shouted at him, i was so shocked i remembered locking the front door. Then it dawned on me, i didn't even think about the back door. I tried to scream but before i knew it, he had his hand over my face and he had his wicked way with me. I couldn't move i was in a stunned state of shock. He'd left me half undressed and a complete mess. I tried to pick myself up off the sofa, feeling dirty i made my way to the bathroom. I crawled up the stairs, Graham had hurt me so bad, I felt like i was in too much pain to even climb the stairs. I had my phone in my hand with Billys number up on the screen, i managed to press call before i fainted on the floor. Little did i know Billy had answered the phone.
I woke up on the floor, i tried to pick myself up again and finish climbing the stairs. i had made it to the top, my trousers still half way down my legs. I pulled them up as far as i could and i went into the bathroom. I ran a bath and climbed straight in, chucking my dirty clothes on the opposite side of the bathroom. Sitting in the bath i cried my eyes out. I heard a noise from downstairs, but i couldn't move, i just wanted to stay in the bath and scrub my body. I couldn't believe Graham had managed to get in the house and rape me again!. I heard footsteps running up the stairs "ray where are you, Ray!", but i couldn't answer. My body was just giving up on me. The bathroom door swung open and Billy just stood and looked me. My face was bright red from crying, my eyes were all puffed down, and my body was covered in scratches and red marks from that evil man. "ray whats happened?, Please tell me your ok". I couldn't talk, the words wouldn't leave my mouth. But i felt like i needed to tell him, Billy should know whats just happened. "He....He raped me" I stuttered to him. Billy face was red with anger "Were" He said. "here". Billy grabbed the glass off the side in the bathroom and smashed it against the wall. "This is all my fault, why did i have to go out, why couldn't i just wait for you to come back, then no one would of touched you??". His words meant nothing to me, i just couldn't believe it had happened. I tried to climb out the bath, Billy noticed how much pain i was in and he helped me, he passed me a towel and walked me into the bedroom. I layed on the bed still with the towel rapped around me, and i couldn't stop crying. Id had enough of this man taking advantage. Maybe now my mum would listen. "Ray, i need you to tell me everything, i should phone the police ray, we should get him done for this". But i didn't want the police involved. I wanted Graham dead.
After an hours sleep i woke up to find Billy still sat next to me, he hadn't moved an inch the whole time. He grabbed my arm and looked at the marks that Grahams hands had left. His face just seemed to look more angrier every time he looked at my body. "im sorry ray, i really am, i promised id look after you and now look". "its not your fault Billy, we had an argument i stormed out, you went out i came back and Graham had followed. I text you asking you to come home, i did say that he was here. i tried to phone you but i fainted on the stairs and i couldn't talk, my body just gave up Billy" i said back to him, He looked at me with tears in his eyes, "I promise il sort it" Billy replied to me. I had no idea what he meant by that but I just hoped that something awful would happen to Graham. I phoned my mum and told her to come over, she promised me she would be over to the house right away. Billy walked downstairs with me and into the living room. I had put my tracksuit on as it was the comfiest thing I had that wouldn't rub on the marks that Graham had left. I sat on the sofa, and i started to have flashbacks. I couldn't sit in here anymore, all i could see when i closed my eyes was his face. I walked into the Kitchen were Billy was, he was making me a drink. We both heard the knock on the front door, and i started shaking. It was my mum, Billy had let her in and she came into the kitchen. This was the first time my mum had been over to Billys house. I couldn't bring my self to mention Grahams name, so we just had a normal chat about everyday things. Until my mum turned round and said that Graham should of been at work this afternoon but when my mum went to his workplace he wasn't there. I could see the anger building up inside Billy and he couldn't help himself he just blurted it out. "He wasn't at work, because he was here". My mums faced looked puzzled "Why would he lie to me? Why would he be here?". "He raped me" I said to her. I could see it in her she didn't believe me, so i removed my t-shirt and shown her the scratches and the marks he had left all over me. Billy came over to me and put his arm around me, he kissed my head. "But..Why would he do that" my mum asked. I put my thirst back on and thought that this was the time i had to tell her. "it wasn't the first time, and i really don't think today would be his last time if he had his way. He raped me 4 times whilst i was working for him, and because I stood up for myself at work, he sacked me. The chain your wearing was a sorry present, because he wanted me back there with him. The dinner we went out to, he grabbed my arm and told me that he will never leave me alone. This is the reason hes with you mum, to get to me". My mum grabbed the chain from around her neck and ripped it off, chucking it on the kitchen side she stood up and insisted that we should contact the police. "ive sorted it" said Billy. My mum hugged me, tighter than she ever has before and she whispered sorry in my ear, a tear just rolled down my face. I hated this, i never wanted to break my mum and a man up, but i also didn't want my mum to be with a rapist. Billy received a text message on his phone, but he didn't let me read it. He just told me that things would be ok from now on. My mum told me she was going to play dumb with Graham and that she was going to find out more info on him so that we could sort this properly.
My mum had gone home and left me and Billy in the house together. I still didn't want to go in the living room because of the situation I was last in in there. It was horrible. Billy suggested that we find a hotel room for the night but I really didn't want to. The thought of being around people made my skin crawl. "ok if you don't want a hotel, lets go to our work place, we can stay in that apartment, at least you wont have to stay here babe". I just smiled. I stayed in the kitchen drinking my drink and Billy went upstairs, I wasn't sure why but when he returned I realised. He'd been and packed a night bag for us both so we could stay out. After making sure that we had everything, we left the house and got in to the car. I still felt sore but I was more determined to leave the house now than I have ever been. We started to drive to our work place, when I received a text message from my mum, 'Grahams been back, his stuffs gone'. I told Billy what the text had said and he just laughed. "why are you laughing" I asked as we pulled up at Electra. He didn't answer me. We got out the car and Billy took the bags from out the boot of the car and he opened my door, holding his hand out I grabbed it and we walked towards the front doors. I felt such a tramp still in my tracksuit, but no one knew why I was like this so I didn't have to justify myself to know one. We entered the elevator and Billy pressed 14. I wasn't sure if we was going to be alone in the apartment, Honey might be there. But right now I couldn't care less.
The elevator doors opened and I couldn't see no one, the apartment seemed empty. I couldn't hear nothing in here. The silence was golden. I walked into the nearest bedroom and placed my bags on the floor. Billy followed me and asked me what I wanted for dinner. Right now I wasn't actually hungry but I replied anyway and I told him just a sandwich. I walked back into the sitting room and sat back on the sofa, the view out of the windows was amazing. Could see every light shining and we could even watch the sun set. I loved it here. I never even thought that living at work could be so fun. Billy came from the kitchen with sandwiches in hand. "here you go babe" and he passed me my sandwich. My stomach turned looking at the sandwich but I had to eat something. We both sat in silence eating our food looking out the window.
The red marks on my body had started to fade, but the memories in my head where still visible. Billy never mentioned anything about Graham or the situation, but I was worried for my mums sake. I picked up my phone and dialled my mums number. It rang. "hello mum, what are you doing are you ok?" I said to her, and she replied quickly "Yes hunny, i'm fine i'm just at home, the doors are locked and i'm on my own. I'm fine honestly" I smiled, "I love you" She said to me and the phone line went dead. I felt a bit at ease now that I had spoke to her, so I decided that I should have an early night in bed. Billy agreed and we walked into the bedroom. I got undressed into my pyjamas and got on to the bed, pulling the quilt down I got underneath and stretched my legs out. Billy had just left his boxers on like any other night and he got in beside me. He put his arm round me and I layed with my head on his chest. I could hear his heart beat. 'thud-thud, thud-thud', the sound was so relaxing. I lifted my head up and kissed Billys lips, He kissed me back and then I relaxed back on his chest and drifted off to sleep.
When I woke up I peered through my eyes and looked over at the clock. 8:53am and I noticed that Billy wasn't in the bed with me. I sat up looking round remembering that we wasn't at home. I picked up the dressing gown hanging on the chair near the bed, I wrapped it round me and I walked out into the hall way. Poking my head out the door everything was quiet. I walked in to the sitting area and I noticed a man sat on the sofa. Looking at the back of his head I didn't realise who he was. I walked forward, still in my dressing gown and I asked "who are you?, Where is Billy?". He turned round and looked at me, he had a stern look on his face and he replied "I'm mr.Knight, I'm Mr.Edwards body guard I'm sure he's spoken about me. I'm going to stay here with you until mr.Edwards gets back. He's got to a meeting". His voice was so deep, dressed in a suit he really did look the part of a body guard. "Ok, Erm I'll be back in a minute", I said as I rushed back off into the bedroom. I had to get dressed, I really didn't feel comfortable standing in just a t-shirt and a dressing gown in front of him. I grabbed some jeans out the bag that Billy had packed for me and I chucked one of Billys t-shirts on, chucking my hair up I left the bedroom and walked into the kitchen. "I'm making a drink, would you like one mr.knight?". I asked him. He looked at me and said "Call me Travis. And yes could I have a tea please?". I cracked on and made us both a cup of tea. I carried them into the living room and handed Travis his drink. "Im just going to nip in my office, I haven't been allowed at work for a few weeks so I suppose I should see the mess ive been left" I laughed and walked into my office.
Opening the door everything just looked the same, just as I left it. Except I noticed that I had more mail and more work. It didn't surprise me, Billy had told me i was the only one he trusted opening his mail after the other girl that worked here. Apparently she was telling people about all his mail and things she shouldn't have done. I walked over to my chair and sat down, i placed my tea on the desk and picked up the pile of letters. Most of them was dated back a few days ago, so i started with them. They were mainly just bills and letters for Billy. Until i realised that 2 more letters had been placed on the other side of the desk, addressed to me. I picked the first one up, and analysed the envelope but nothing i saw on the letter was drawn to my attention. I quickly ripped open the top of the letter and i pulled the paper out. It was a letter from Billys mum.
Hi Ray, im not sure what i should actually write in this letter. To be honest i don't even know why im writing it. I noticed that when we went out for dinner that you really do like my boy. Hes been ringing me and telling me everything that has gone off. Since his dad died we've been really close. Billys told me that he does love you and im sure you feel the same. Ive never known a girl to make him so happy and i hope that for his sake you want to be with him. I really do like you and the thought of having you as my daughter-in-law is amazing. Basically what im trying to say to you is i don't think i will have long left to live, and i want to make sure that Billy is happy when i leave. Billy doesn't know that im ill ray, and im trusting you with this. Please say yes to him. Please make him happy. Celest. xxx
Wow thoughts rushed through my mind, shes trusting me with a secret i never thought i would have to keep. I do love him, but what does she mean by saying yes to him. I placed the letter on the desk and grabbed the second one. It looked similar to the one that Celest had sent me, I teared open the top and pulled a piece of paper out. I didn't realise until i pulled it out it was a check. £300,000. I skimmed over the check and it was from Celest. She really did trust me, and she must know how much i love him. Why would she be sending me money though?. I heard the ping from the elevator and i heard Billys voice. "Hi Travis, Weres my girl?". I stuffed the letter and the check inside the top draw of my desk and Billy came walking through the door of my office. "what have i told you" he said to me as he smiled. "i know, i was just checking letters that's all. Nothing straining" I replied back. Billy walked towards me and said "Were going out for dinner later, lets just go and be normal for the day". That was the sweetest thought, so i replied "yeah ok then babe, il go and have a shower". I got up out my chair walked towards Billy and gave his a kiss, " Love you babe" I said to him and all i heard when i walked out the door was "Love you too". He always puts a smile on my face.
I walked into the bedroom and straight into the en-suite. I flicked the shower on and i could feel the heat off it straight away. These were the best showers i've ever used. I closed the bathroom door and began to take my clothes off. I pulled my t-shirt over my head and i saw the bruises i had. Trying to forget what had happened i got into the shower and had a wash. I washed my hair and stood in the shower doing nothing but standing there thinking. So many thoughts filled my head but i felt relaxed about it all. I couldn't stop thinking about Celest and how Billy doesn't know anything. Surely a man like him should just sense these things. I climbed out the shower and grabbed the towel off the radiator. I pushed the door open and walked into the bedroom. I looked at the bedroom door and it was closed, but i couldn't remember shutting it. Billy must of done it i thought to myself. So i looked through my bag and Billy had put me some grey jeans in and a white top, perfect for today. The weather looked lovely outside and the thought of spending the day with my boyfriend just topped it off. I quickly tried to towel dry my hair and i left it down to finish drying itself. I walked into the kitchen and Billy and Travis were both sat round the table talking. "Ive made you a drink babe, Its on the side" Billy said to me as he pointed to the drink. A nice glass of fresh orange juice to start the day felt good.
"Are you ready to go then babe, we'll make a day of it" Billy said to me. "yes babe, let me just get my jacket and bag, il meet you back at the elevator" i said to him and he smiled at me. I walked to the bedroom and grabbed my bag off the floor, my jacket laid underneath so i picked that up too. I nipped in to the bathroom checking my hair and make up in the mirror and then i nipped to the toilet. After i finished in the bathroom, i walked to the elevator to see Billy already stood there waiting for me. He looked lovely. Jeans and a black ralph lauren top. His trainers were always clean and he always looked smart. He didn't have a jacket with him. Maybe it was warmer than i thought outside. He had the car keys ready in his hand, so i knew it was just going to be me and him today. I pressed the button at the elevator and we walked inside. "I cant wait to just spend the day with you" i said to Billy and he looked back at me and replied "Yes babe, just us". We both looked at the elevator doors and they opened up. We walked in to the reception and the woman on the desk saw us holding hands and she walked up to us. "Mr.Edwards, you have a meeting today" she said as she looked me up and down. "Erm. I've cancelled it. I'm spending the day with family actually". He replied looking down at me and smiling. He squeezed my hand and just walked forward pulling me to the side of him. We walked out the main doors and I didn't understand why we had to walk out of there as quick as we did. I pulled him back to me and i stood still. "what was that about?" i asked and Billy said "trust me you wouldn't want to know, My dad gave her the job. Shes been here since. I think she has some sort of crush on me" He laughed and carried on walking in to the car park. We got to the car and Billy unlocked it, I climbed in to the passenger seat and put my seat belt on. Billy got in to the car and started the engine. I had no idea where we was going or what Billy had actually planned for the day. I put my bag down infront of my legs and kept my phone in my hand. Billy started to drive "where we off too?" i asked but he just laughed and turned the music up. I put my window down half way, the sun was blazing. This was the nicest day we had in so long, he obviously wanted to make the most of it. Billy out his window down and the wind was flying through the car, we started to drive down the country lane and the views we could see were amazing.
Eventually, we reached a stop off point and Billy pulled in to Costa coffee. He looked at me and told me to stay in the car. He grabbed his wallet out of the glove box in front of my legs and he got out the car and walked away. I watched him walk into Costa and he just looked stunning. I still couldn't believe that i could finally call him mine. After knowing his since primary school it was crazy how now we where both in love and living together. This side of my life couldn't be more perfect and the thought that Graham had gone even made me smile more. I felt safe now. I looked down at my phone and the time was 11:42am, still early and plenty of time to be with Billy. I smiled to myself just thinking about him. I looked back up and Billy was walking out with 2 hot drinks in his hands. He smiled at me and i reached over to his door and unlocked it and pushed it open. Sitting back up properly Billy sat in the car and handed me my drink. We sat and drank our drinks just talking about what we wanted to do for about 10 minutes. Billy had finished his drink and he walked over to the bin leaving his door open. I was still in his sight so he knew id be ok. He came back and got into the car and decided it was time to set off, apparently we needed all day for this place. We started to drive down the country lanes when i noticed that Billy was taking a left on to the motorway. I had no idea which way we was going, none of these signs were making sense to me. I didn't no if i should be excited. 12:27pm i looked back at my phone and then i looked back out the window. I noticed a huge shopping centre, surely we wasn't going shopping was we? but we drove straight past it. Id saw this place before im sure, but i still couldn't put a name to the place. We turned off and down a one way road in to what seemed like a country lane. We pulled up to what looked like a huge mansion. It was beautiful. The gardens around it were freshly cut and statues of people were around it. It looked like someone really did take care of the gardens. The view from the road was breath taking.
We pulled up and i got out the car, i really did feel under dressed being here. I couldn't take my eyes off this place, it really was beautiful. Billy stood at the side of me and put his arm round me. "Do you like it then?" he asked me. I couldn't find the words to answer him, I loved this place. "Come on" billy said to me as he grabbed my hand and pulled me round the back of the mansion. I kept looking at everything surrounded that the mansion, everything was stunning. Clean and tidy. I had no idea why Billy had brought me here but im so glad he did. He pulled me towards him placing his hands on my hips. He looked at me and smiled. "I know you don't know why i brought you here, but i had to it". My heart sunk, what the hell did he mean he had to it. I started to look round him, but know one else was here. I looked back into his eyes and said "what do you mean Billy?". He took a step back from me, releasing his hands, he bent down on one knee and pulled a ring out his back pocket. It wasn't in a box but i knew what this was about. The diamond on the ring sparkled, it was huge but it just looked perfect!. I thought my heart was going to pop out my chest. "Will you marry me?" He asked. "Yes" i shouted and i wrapped my hands around his neck, "I love you" i said to him. "i love you too, come with me ive got something to show you inside". I followed him inside.
Opening the main doors my eyes were glued on to everything I could see in front of me. It really was stunning, everything had its own place and it was so clean. Every glass shelving unit sparkled. Billy closed the door behind him and grabbed my hand "come on look!". We started to look around the mansion, the stairs were in the middle of the hall. They were so big they filled the bag wall. A red carpet was laid along the stairs and pictures surrounded the walls. "this is were we will get married ray". billy said to me. I couldn't believe he had already started thinking about getting married to me when he's only just proposed to me. Wow. Then I remembered we needed to get married quickly because I wasn't sure how long Celest had left to live and I wanted her to see this. "This is were my mum and dad got married". I looked at him and a lump appeared in my throat. "Its beautiful Billy and id love to get married here". Just at we was looking round at the place my phone started to ring. It was an unknown number. I answered. "hello?" "hello this is detective Sara, is this ray?" "yes" I replied. I had no idea why they as phoning me but it seemed serious. I walked outside to finish my conversation as the mansion was starting to fill up with other couples looking to get married here. "We need you to come to the station, your mum has been seriously hurt and well I cant really say over the phone, how long do you think it will take you to come back". My heart sunk "im on my way" I said and I put the phone down. "Billy come on we've got to go. My mums been hurt, I need to get to the station to speak to someone". He nodded at me and we both got in to the car. We started driving back home to go to the police station. I sat in silence. "he's gone you know, he'll never come back. Lets just make sure your mums ok". I wanted to believe what he was saying but I was 100% sure that Graham had something to do with this. The car journey went so fast, I thought it would take a while to get back. "what if he's not gone?" I said to Billy and he just looked at me. I know I should trust what he says but there's always a chance it could have something to do with him.
We pulled up in the car park of the police station and I grabbed my bag and got out the car. "Ray, he's gone. I had a friend get rid off him, he'll never bother us again". Did Billy really mean that? Does he actually have friends that can just get rid of guys like him?. Parts of Billy I never knew about were starting to creep out the woodwork slowly, but I would never change my mind about marrying this guy. Billy walked up to me and held my hand, we walked into the police station and it felt like all eyes were on me. I walked up to what I could only describe as the reception desk. "Hi im here to see Detective Sara" "one moment please, take a seat she'll be with you as soon as possible". Me and Billy sat down on the chairs opposite the desk and we waited. My hands started to sweat and my heartbeat began to get faster. I was so worried that my mum may have said something about me to the detective. Minutes past and then a woman in a black suit came out of a room from the side. "Are you ray" she said to me and I nodded, I couldn't talk to her, I was so scared. "come this way" she said to me, so I stood up and pulled Billy to come with me. We walked into a room that just had a table in the middle. The room was so dark, 4 chairs were sat around the table. Me and Billy sat down and the Detective sat across from us. She had some paperwork in her hand, I tried to read the writing that was on it but the writing was scruffy and I couldn't even make out 1 word. "Ray, something very serious happened to your mum last night, were not sure exactly what happened as of yet. We do know that she was severly beaten and from what your mum has tried to tell us. She was also raped". My heart dropped to my stomach, I knew from the word raped exactly who would have done this. I looked at Billy and his face looked furious. The detective carried on talking to me but I couldn't make sense of her words, everything just seemed jumbled up in my head. "Could you give us a minute please" I said to the detective. She stood up and walked out the door closing it behind her. I broke down in tears and Billy wrapped his arms around me. I tried my best to hold it all back but I just couldn't. The tears rolled down my face and I knew I had no choice but to tell them what has happened to me, as well as my mum. Billy grabbed my hand and looked at me "You go with the officers to see your mum, I have some unfinished business to deal with. I told you that I would look after you Ray" he said to me as he walked to the door. He left looking at me with a slight smile on his face. By that I knew that he meant he wanted to sort this whole thing him self and that I should just go along with it all, that way my secret was safe. Detective Sara walked into the room and handed me a piece of paper, I couldn't read what it said but I signed it anyway, she tried to explain to me what the piece of paper was about. Something to do with being in the room and having a talk with her, I couldn't remember the name of it I was trying to block out everything so that I could stay strong for my mums sake. We got into the officers car and we drove to the hospital so that I could see my mum.
We pulled up at the front entrance of the hospital. Everyone was staring at me as I got out the police car, and then it clicked. Im getting out of a police car with 2 officers and a dectective, and im a state. Little did they know it wasn't me that was in trouble. Everyone just gave me looks as if I was the bad person but I wasn't bothered. I wanted to see my mum. We walked through the entrance and got in a lift close to the doors. We went up 4 levels and a nurse met us at the lift doors. "This way Miss Mcque, Ill show you where your mum is". I just looked at her and followed. Words wouldn't leave my mouth, I tried to talk but I just couldn't. I think this was part of the shock I was feeling. The nurse stood at the double doors that were the entrance to my mums room. I took a deep breathe and entered the room. My mum just laid on the bed, tubes were coming out of her from all different places. She just looked lifeless. I walked closer to her and grabbed her hand gently. "She has started to breathe on her own now, she will be ok just very sleepy, another couple of hours and we think she should be waking. She has suffered a few broken bones and a bleed on the brain. We have managed to stop that and we think she should make a full recovery". The nurse said to me and she smiled. So it was good news, my heart stopped beating so fast and i sat next to my mum on the bed. I was so happy that my mum was ok. I just couldn't stop thinking what Billy was doing, thoughts rushed my head and i thought the worst. Billy was going to end up getting hurt to.
Hours past and my mum still had not woke. I was fed up of looking at the same 4 grey and blue walls. Machines in the room that wasn't even being used were stored in the room. I kept wondering that maybe my mum was on them machines when she came in, like how bad was she when they first brought her in, and who fount her?. There was a knock on the door, and the nurse entered. I so hoped that it was Billy coming in, as i still hadn't heard anything from him. "I've come to check how your mum is, do you have any questions that you may want to ask?". "yes I do, im not sure you will know the answer, but do you know who fount my mum, who made the call?" I asked her. I wasn't sure she would even be allowed to tell me that but she did. "Yes, your mum was the one that made the call, she saved herself. Im not exactly sure what happened to your mum, im just the routine nurse, But something happened and your mum ended up and a very severe state, she still managed to crawl to the phone and dial 999, she didn't say anything but the police traced the call, and sent 2 officers around who fount her. she's very lucky". she said to me as she left the room. I smiled, but i still couldn't imagine what pain and stress my mum must of felt when she was trying to hold on to her life. I took my phone out my pocket and looked at the screen. I had no missed calls or messages. I dialled Billys number and it went straight through to answering machine. Argh! I felt so stressed, I just wanted to know he was ok. my mum still hadn't woke, and i was getting so tired. I went to the doors of my mums room to see if i could see a nurse, i shouted the nurse over to the room, and she came over. She walked in the room and I took one last look down the corridor, when I noticed a familiar face. I closed the door hoping that he didn't see me and i told the nurse that i wanted to go home now. "that's fine hunny, you can go home and we will call you if there are any changes in the night". Just as she finished her sentence, a knock on the door sounded. I knew it was a man, the man id just seen, but I couldn't remember his name. Just as i grabbed the handle to open the door it came to me. Billy had sent him. "Mr Green, what are you doing here?". I said to him and he smiled "Im here to take you home, Billy is waiting for you at home". I wasn't sure he was even telling the truth but I went with him anyway. I didn't really want to be catching the bus home. We walked out the hospital and got into his car. I got into the back seat because i kept thinking back to the last time id saw him and we'd been in the car together, he kept looking at me with his weird eyes, and he made me feel uncomfortable. So i really didn't want to sit next to him. We didn't talk on the way back to my house, the car was just silent. I was hoping and praying that he was telling the truth and Billy was in the house. I looked out the window and i saw our garden, the lights were lit up on the grass, it was slowly starting to get dark. I just wanted out this car and in my house, my own safety. It dawned on me as i was getting out the car, why was i coming home. To my house. Where i was raped. I tried to push that to the back of my mind and i walked to the front door, trying the door handle. The door was open. I walked in and everything looked normal, everything was in its place. I thought to myself what ever damage was made wasn't made here obviously. Mr Green didn't follow me into the house, in fact i couldn't even remember him getting out the car, as i looked back i noticed that he'd already driven away from the house.
I shut the front door and locked it with the key that i had in my bag. "Hello" I shouted. "In here" I heard coming from the kitchen. I walked towards the sound and into the kitchen, Billy stood there still dressed in his suit. He had a few cuts on his face but he didn't look hurt. I walked towards him, my footsteps got quicker and when i got to him i hugged him so tightly, i just didn't want to let go. We stood hugging for what seemed like forever, but i noticed that when i got tighter he was making a noise. I leant back a bit and placed my hands on his chest. I started to unbutton his shirt and i removed his tie from around his neck. I slipped his jacket off and it fell to the floor. He tried to kiss me but i moved my head away. I pulled his shirt back over his shoulders and then i saw it. The marks on his chest were unbelievable. He'd actually thought i wouldn't of noticed. Billy looked at me and moved me back, he walked away from me. I looked down at the floor i didn't know what to think. I looked back up at him as he was walking away and i noticed a bullet hole in his back. He'd been shot.
"when was you going to tell me" i shouted at him. He didn't say nothing he just carried on walking and went up stairs. I was so angry part of me wanted to cause a big row with him and the other half of me just wanted to hold him, he'd done this for me and my mum. He was cleaning up my mess. I poured myself a drink and i sat at the breakfast bar. I slumped in my chair and tried to clear my head of everything. My mind was going into over drive. I couldn't even get away from my thoughts, 5 minute's peace never seemed to happen to me. I kept thinking about what Billy was actually doing upstairs, I wanted to go up but i know we needed our space. I rested my head on the kitchen counter and placed my arms underneath and i began to fall asleep. i couldn't stop myself.
The next thing i remember i was being carried up the stairs. I managed to peer through my eye and i saw Billys face looking down at me. He really was amazing. He took me in to the bedroom and laid me on the bed. "Im not mad at you, i love you" he whispered in my ear, and then he pulled the quilt up to my shoulders and tucked me in. "Goodnight beautiful". He said to me as he walked out the bedroom and closed the door to. As i laid in bed, still half asleep I heard Billy talking to someone on the phone, I couldn't make out the whole conversation but i did hear Billy say that the target has been removed.
I woke up to my phone ringing, I looked at the screen and it said 'Office'. So I sat up and answered it "hello, this is Ray speaking". It was Honey on the phone "Hi babe, its Honey I'm just phoning to make sure your all ok, I've heard what's happened and I just want you to know you do not have to rush back to work and that I have sorted for you and Billy" and she put the phone down. That was a weird phone call I thought to myself, I didn't even have time to answer her she just put the phone down. I got out the bed and walked to the bathroom, I washed my face and went to the toilet. After walking out the bedroom I heard Billy downstairs. It was obvious that he didn't come to bed last night, his side wasn't even touched. I wasn't sure if he was still in a mood with me, I know he told me he wasn't but surely he would of came to bed. Walking down the stairs I heard that Billy was talking to someone, but I wasn't sure if he was on the phone or talking to someone in the house. I walked down another 3 steps and then I heard a voice answer him. I rushed back up stairs and into the bedroom and I put some clothes on. I chucked on a pair of jeans and one of Billys tops and I made my way back downstairs.
Walking into the living room I saw Billy sat on the sofa. He didn't have a t-shirt on and from the living room door way I could see the marks on his back. I felt so sorry for him. I walked in to the living room and I saw a man stood across the living room next to the window and his mum was sat on the sofa with him. "Hi babe, come sit down" Billy said to me, but I just looked at him and walked back out and into the kitchen. I heard footsteps behind me and as I looked round I saw Billy stood there. All he was wearing was his track pants. He looked as if he was in pain. "Are you ok" I asked him and he nodded at me. He grabbed me round my waist and pulled me closer, he kissed my forehead and smiled at me. "I want to know what's happened Billy, I need to know who hurt you, Your sticking up for me but its as if I'm not allowed to know anything. Please Billy, I love you and I don't like seeing you like this". Billy started to make me a drink and he said to me "We.... well I went and fount Graham after I left you at the hospital, Mr.Green took me to his last known location and he was there. Yes it was him who had the gun. I didn't go to cause trouble Ray, I went to tell him to leave the country and to never bother us again, but as soon as I was walking away from him, he pulled the gun out and shot me. Mr.Green told me that he followed him and he shot back at him. Hes not 100% that he got him, were not exactly sure where he is now and what else he is capable of. I wasn't hit in a bad place, in fact all I will have is bruising on my back, And yes I have seen a doctor before you ask. We've got to becareful now Ray because like I said know ones sure if he is around anymore. From the sounds of it, he's gone. Ive asked my contacts to try and find him and know one is having any luck, so im not sure if no news is good news, but in this case it kind of is. Now I want you to smile and walk into the living room, my mum wants to see you and that man that's in there, hes the one that will be helping sort our wedding. I told you I wanted to marry you and I mean it Ray, I do love you". My heart started beating so fast, I couldn't believe that after everything that has happened, he still wants to marry me. He told me to smile, but I couldn't take the smile off my face, he really does make me happy.
I walked into the living room with Billy and I sat next to his mum. I still hadn't told Billy about the letter from his mum that she had sent me, but maybe she will feel better when she knows that we are getting married now. Billy stayed stood up at the living room door way and then he started to talk. "Mum, I have some news, the reason this man is here isn't because ive been in some trouble, he's here because ive asked Ray to marry me" The smile on her face just lit up, she grabbed my hands and squeezed them tightly, "I love Ray and I hope that you will be happy for us". She couldn't take the smile off her face either, we both just sat on the sofa smiling at each other, my dream had come true and his mums dream may come true too, she may see her only son get married before she dies. I felt terrible keeping a secret from him when everything was going so well, but I promised his mum I wouldn't, I couldn't tell her. I remembered that I had kept her letter and the check she had sent me in a draw at work, I was hoping and praying that Honey didn't find it when she was working in my office. I decided that maybe I should go back to the office and find them and move them to someone where they wouldn't be fount. I whispered to Celest "Come with me, I need to nip out and Billy will not let me go alone, please come with me" and she looked at me with a confused look on her face but then she looked at Billy and said "Billy im taking your lovely wife to be out with me for a bit, we have some shopping to do I think" Billy looked at her and laughed, He pulled out his bank card from his wallet off the living room table and said to me "Have fun baby" and he passed me his bank card. Not only was we lying just to get out but now I had to by something to make it look like we had been shopping "Thanks babe" I said to him and I walked into the kitchen to grab my bag and coat off the side were I had left them last night. Walking back Celest was waiting for me at the front door, "come on dear" she said to me, so I followed her out to the car.
We were sat in the car waiting to go and Celest looked round at me and she still had the confused look on her face "are you going to tell me what exactly you needed to rush out the house for then Ray" she said to me, "well the letter and the check you sent me, I had to leave in my office and I wasn't sure if Honey, the receptionist has saw them and I didn't want her to give them to Billy as im not meant to be back at work yet and I wanted to get to them first". She just looked at me, "we better make a move then" she replied back to me, and she started to drive the car off the driveway. I took one look back before we left and I saw Billy stood at the living room window, so I smiled at him and waved, I had to make it look like we were excited to hit the shops. We reached Electra and I told Celest to stay in the car outside because I knew id only be 5 minutes and I didn't want her having to find a parking space. I ran into the building and pressed the elevator button. The doors opened and I walked inside, but as I went to press the button another 3 people got in the lift. They all pressed the numbers of the levels that they wanted to go to, so I pressed level 14. The lift stopped twice before my level, I watched the people walk out the lift but one man stayed in with me. I watched the levels go up and I pulled my phone out my pocket, 5 minutes had already past and all I had done was be in a lift. Finally after what felt like a life time I walked out the lift and onto my level, leaving the man in the lift alone. I walked down to my office and opened the door, I noticed that Honey was sat at my desk on the phone to someone. She just smiled at me and carried on talking on the phone. I walked towards my desk and opened the top draw. Luckily both of the envelopes were still there, I took them out and put them into my jacket pocket. I scribbled on the note pad that was on the desk and I left Honey a note.
please don't tell Billy I was here. Just getting some papers, will explain more when I can thanks Honey! R
And I walked out the office and straight towards the lift. Pressing the button I waited for the lift to arrive again. The doors opened and I got into the lift. The man I had left in the lift was still in there, I pressed level 1 and I waited for the lift to start going down. "is there a reason your stood in here" I asked the man, but he didn't say anything just steered at the doors. The doors to the elevator opened and I walked out, looking at the man behind me he just walked out and went up to the reception desk, I kept thinking to myself maybe I was just looking into it to much but there was something weird about him. I pushed it to the back of my head and I walked out side and got into Celest's car. "are you sorted now dear?" she said to me and I replied "yes". "good,were going to a wedding shop, ive just made a phone call, and I want you to try on a few dresses" she said to me. Part of me felt a little excited but I never thought that this day would come I still felt like I was living a dream. We started to drive but I had no idea were too, besides a dress shop.
We pulled up outside of 'Milly's Boutique' It was beautiful, there were manikins wearing the wedding dresses in the window of the shop. I got out the car and Celest got out too, she came and stood next to me before we walked in. "Im so glad its you Ray, Now come on, you have dresses to try on". I chuckled and followed her into the shop. she obviously knew the people who owned this shop because she was talking to them like she would talk to her son. "This way please" a lady said to me, so I walked beside her and went were ever she did. Celest took a seat on the sofa near the front desk "shout me when your ready" she said to me, so I nodded and carried on walking with the lady, who I can only assume that she owned the place. We walked into a back room, dresses were hung everywhere all inside the dress bags. "Im not sure what sort of dress, we only decided to get married like a few days ago" I said to the lady. She looked at me, she was dressed in a lack pencil shirt and a white shirt. She was beautiful, long blonde hair and blue eyes, I kept wondering to myself whether she was married or not, but I couldn't see a ring on her finger. She disappeared into a room and then came back with a dress in her arms. It was beautiful. "you look a size 10. this is an 8, please try this on" She said to me as she smiled. I walked into the changing room and stripped out of my clothes and started putting the dress on. I heard a knock on the changing room door, so I opened it a tiny bit. "Do you need any help with doing this up" the lady said to me. "Err yes please...." I replied. "My names Milly, im the one that owns this place, you can use my name" She said to me, and she walked in to the changing room and she started to help tie up the back of the dress. It really was a perfect fit, even though it was a smaller size. I walked out the changing room and Milly started to pull out the train at the back of the dress so that when she pulled the curtain off the mirror I would see everything. I grabbed a tiara off the side and just placed it on top of my head, I wanted to feel the part so anything I fount in the boutique I just wanted to try. Milly got some high heels out of the cupboard next to the changing room and told me to put them on. They were about 2 sizes to big, but it was to see how the dress would sit when I had my shoes on.
I took a deep breathe in and she pulled back the curtain and revealed the mirror. Wow I really did feel the part, I didn't like the tiara so I took it off and placed it back on the stand. I really did feel like a million dollars. "Celest" I shouted "coming" she replied to me. Milly walked into meet Celest and she put a blindfold on her so she wouldn't see anything til I was ready. I couldn't stop looking at myself in the mirror, everything about this dress was just amazing, it shown my figure and it made me feel like a princess. Milly took the blindfold off Celest and she just stood there looking at me. Tears rolled down her face but she didn't say anything. I wasn't sure if she liked it, if she was shocked or if she loved it and she was just speechless. Milly walked off and left us in the back room together. "Ray, you look stunning. My daughter-in-law. I've never seen anyone look so beautiful in a wedding dress Ray". By now the tears were streaming down her face. "Do you like it?" she said to me. "Yes I love it Celest, I couldn't of chose a better dress myself, and its all down to you!" I said to her, im sure she could hear the excitement in my voice. "good" she replied. Milly returned with 2 glasses of champagne and strawberries. "This is for you two" she said to her. We both smiled at her and said thank you. I really didn't want to take this dress off, I wanted to show Billy but I knew that wasn't allowed obviously. "Would you like to try anymore dresses on" Milly said to me and I just looked at Celest. "No" Celest said to Milly "we'll take this one, and we'll take it today" she said to her. Milly looked just as shocked as I felt. "Of course certainly that will be fine" Milly replied. I walked in to the changing room and I slipped out of the dress. Placing it on thr hanger, I hung it on the wall and I put my clothes back on. I walked out the changing room and Milly walked in taking the dress off the hanger and putting it in a dress bag. "il take the dress back to mine, you can just tell Billy we wasn't able to find anything" Celest said to me with a big smile on her face. Milly walked up the front desk and she took her bank card out her purse and had it ready to pay for my dress. "That's £15,500 please" Milly said, and Celest placed her card in the machine and turned round to face me, "Just your shoes now ay Ray" she said to me, and then she typed in her pin and Milly gave her the card back and went to fetch the dress. I was so shocked by the price of the dress I didn't even think about anything else. "Thank you" I said to her. Milly handed me the dress and we walked out the shop and to the car, I laid the dress on the back seat and I got into the front seat. Sitting down I pulled my phone out my jacket and realised that about 3 hours had past since we left the house. Billy obviously wasn't worried about me because I was with his mum. Celest drove back to mine and Billys house, She pulled up on the driveway but she wasn't coming in. "I cannot come in now, I need to get back home to store this dress for your big day. Tell Billy to phone me". She said to me, "I will do, Thanks for today" I replied back to her and I climbed out the car and walked up the house. As I turned round to wave bye Celest had already drove off.
I unlocked the door and walked into the house and I couldn't hear anything. The house was so quiet. "Billy!" I shouted, but I had no reply. I walked into the kitchen to find a note on the side. 'Hi babe, ive nipped out with Patrick, wont be long love you xx'. I sat down at the breakfast bar with the note in my hand. I kept looking at it wandering whether he was out on a job, at the office or just out with his mate. Thoughts rushed through my head. Then I looked at the note again and realised that Billy had gone out with Patrick, that must of meant that they had gone in Patricks car. So Billy had left his car at home. I rummaged through the draws in the kitchen looking for his car keys, and then I fount them. I know I wasn't supposed to drive or even go out by myself but Celest had dropped me off here thinking that Billy was at home and Billy thought that his mum was coming back with me, so now was the time I had to be by myself and all I wanted to do was visit my mum. I grabbed a can of coke out the fridge and put my jacket on, I grabbed the car keys and walked out the house locking the front door behind me. I walked round the house and to the garage. I pressed the button on the key rings and the garage door opened, and there was Billy's car. I unlocked the car and reversed it out the garage, I didn't even have to press a button and the garage door started to go down. I pulled out the driveway and drove straight to the hospital.
Arriving at the hospital, I parked in the car park, locked up the car and put the keys in my jacket pocket. I remembered that I had left my phone at home, which I knew straight away was going to cause trouble with Billy. Not only have I took his car but he's now got know way of even contacting me. I walked into the hospital and straight to my mums ward. I pressed the buzzer and waited for the nurse to come and open the door so that I could get on to her ward to visit her. She had her own room, due to it being a target offense they wanted to keep her separate from the other patients in the hospital. The nurse finally let me in and I walked through to her room. My mum laid on the bed with bruises all over her. She'd been took off all her machines and finally was breathing and thinking for herself. "Come sit down" she said to me. "Mum, shh, save your energy please, do you want a sip of water?, I cant stay Billy will be mad at me I haven't told him im here". I said to her and she just smiled and nodded yes at me. I held the glass of water and let her sip out the straw. The doctor walked into the room to see how my mum was getting on, and he told me that she would be on medication for a couple of weeks to make sure that she is 100% again, but she still has to spend a couple of days in hospital due to the bruising on her body that had been inflicted on her. I felt so hopeless for her, I knew what this man was capable of but I still let my mum go with him. The doctor walked out the room and within minutes he had walked back in. "I have a phone for you to use, so you can tell someone your here, and a nurse will bring you a cup of tea in here soon". The doctor said to me as he handed me the phone. I was so grateful, "Thank you". I replied to him. I dialled in Billy's number and the phone started to ring. I started to worry because I thought maybe he doesn't recognise the number so he wont answer. "Hello Mr.O'Conner Speaking". "Babe, its me, im at the hospital visiting my mum, I've left my phone at home and the doctor has let me use his to contact you, your mum dropped me off so I drove here". "Il be 5 minutes" he said back to me. A Little bit of relief came among me, but he did sound angry on the phone so at the same time of feeling relief I also felt a bit down about it all. The nurse came in and gave me a cup of tea, "is there anything else I can get for you?" she asked me. "Not right now, but my other half will be here soon, could you let him straight through please, Oh and a cup of coffee wouldn't go a miss for him" I said to her as I laughed. She laughed back and walked out the room. My mum had fallen asleep whilst I was talking to Billy on the phone so I just sat by her bed. "Mum, I really do love you and I know you feel the same about me. We've been through a really bad ruff patch and I want to make things better. Im going to be by your side through all off it" I said to her as she just laid there asleep. Billy walked through the door and he had a smile on his face, it felt like a weight had been lifted off my shoulders when he walked in. "Ive been dropped out here, seeing as you have my car mrs". He said to me with a cheeky smile. I stood up and walked towards him with my arms out and I gave him the biggest hug. I felt right at home in his arms.
After sitting for hours next at my mums bedside watching her sleep, We finally decided that we should go home and just rest. We both left my mums room and walked out the hospital and out to the car park. Billy's car was the only one left in the visitors car park. He unlocked it and we both got in and sat down. "Hungry?" He said to me and I nodded yes back to him. He started to drive and I had no idea where we was heading, He'd asked me about food but I thought we would of just gone home. Instead we pulled into McDonalds drive through and he ordered us both food. We sat in the car park and ate our food in the car. It was so much better like this, just us 2. I didn't want to sit inside with everyone else. "What did you get up to today then, besides disappearing in my car" Billy said to me as he started laughing. "Erm, Well your mum took me out to find the most amazing wedding dress ever, but I suppose you'll find out on the day" I said back to him as he winked to me. I had no idea when the date was, id already brought my dress and fount the most amazing man, with the most amazing family but we'd still not set a date. "So when is this date mr" I said to him as I took a big bite out my burger. "Next month, 26th." He replied. I started to choke on my burger, "Are you serious? So soon?" I said to him. He had the biggest smile on his face "yes". I was so excited, a rush came over me. I had so much planning to do. My life can start as normal once my mums out of hospital. Billy had reassured me so many times, that that was the last time Graham would ever make an appearance in any of lives again. I Couldn't stop smiling. We'd finished our food, and put the rubbish in the bin next to the car and we drove home. The skies started to get really dark and the lights started to light up the streets. It was so nice looking at all the lights, night time was really the best time to drive around and see the sights, they were breath taking.
We arrived home and we went straight inside and I walked straight upstairs. Billy went into the kitchen to fetch us both a warm drink to take the bed. I walked into the bedroom and switched the TV on, I grabbed one of Billy's top out his draws and made my way to the bathroom. I got undressed and put the t-shirt on and I had a wash in the bathroom sink. I heard Billy coming up the stairs, so I finished off what I was doing and I threw my hair up in a bobble and made my way on to the landing. Billy walked in front of me holding both drinks in his hands and I followed him in to the bedroom. I climbed on to the bed and took my drink out his hand. He placed his drink on the bedside table and he got undressed into his boxers. He climbed in the bed beside me, we never switched any words just sat in silence with the TV on. He put his arm around me and we both sat and drank our drinks. After finishing mine I put my empty cup on the bedside table next to me and I laid down properly, placing my hand on Billy's leg. He rubbed his fingers through my hair and gentle stroked my face until I fell asleep.
I woke up the next morning to my phone ringing. I reached my arm over to the bedside table and I got my phone. I still felt half asleep, I opened my eyes slightly and I noticed it was just a number. I quickly pressed the answer button and put the phone to my ear. "Hello", "Hi its the doctor looking after your mum in the hospital, Shes ready to leave today and im hoping she can move back into her house, but she may need transport. Do you think you will be able to take your mother home today?" "Er Yes, il be there as soon as I can" and I put the phone down. My mum really knows how to ruin a perfectly good sleep. I lifted my head off the pillow and Billy still laid beside me fast asleep. I reached over and kissed him on the cheek "Good morning babe" I said to him and he didn't move an inch. Billy really did love his sleep. I got up out of bed and looked at the time on the clock 8:23am. It really was early. I walked down the hall way and into the bathroom, I chucked yesterdays clothes on and put my hair up in a messy bun, i didn't want to worry about what i looked like, after all im only going to pick my mum up and drop her home. Where's the harm in that. I slipped my trainers on my feet and i walked back in the bedroom. I walked over to the bed and bent down to the draws next to bed and i pulled some paper and a pen out the bottom draw, and i left Billy a note. 'Hospital phoned, Mums coming home. Back in no more than an hour. 8:45am. Theres the time im leaving now love you!... p.s i took your car again'. I left the note on the table in the bedroom next to his dressing gown and i ran downstairs grabbing the car keys from the table next to the front door.
I drove Billy's car all the way to the hospital and i saw my mum waiting outside with a doctor and her bags packed. She didn't look happy for some reason, but then i thought about it. Would you look happy if it had happened to you and know your being let home without the man even being captured?. I pulled up next to her and she got in the back of the car, the doctor put her bags in the boot of the car and then he walked up the my door. I pressed the button and the window came down. He handed me a small white bag, i opened it and looked inside. They were my mums medication. "Thanks" i said to him and i put the window up and i drove off. My mum didn't say anything to me on the journey back to her house, every time I tried to talk to her she just looked the other way in silence. I wasn't sure she was ready to go home, but the doctors ordered her to go home. She obviously was well enough to look after herself. We pulled up outside my mums house and she grabbed her handbag and took her door keys out. She got out the car and walked up the front door. I climbed out the car and took her medication and her bags inside for her. I placed the bags in the living room of my mums house and she slumped in a chair. She grabbed the remote of the table next to her and she started to watch TV. I walked into the kitchen and made her a cup of tea. Carrying it in to her I grabbed the medication off the floor and started to read about her tablets. The doctor had put the tablets in a day box, which meant she new what tablets she needed to take everyday. I gave her the cup of tea, and she still didn't say anything to me. I felt like she was angry at me for what happened, I just didn't know what the right words where to say to her. I looked at the time and realised I had to go back home before Billy had woke up. "Im going now mum, I love you and il phone you soon". I said to her but she didn't reply, I knew something was up with her and I just couldn't put my finger on it.
I got my keys out my pocket and made my way to the car. I looked up and down the street, people were out gardening and working. It just seemed like a normal day. I got into the car and started to drive back home to see Billy. My phone started to ring in my pocket but I couldn't get in out in time and I missed the call. I pulled over at the side of the road and I took my phone out my pocket. I had a missed call from Billy. I put my phone in the side of the door and decided id just drive straight home, he was obviously waiting for me. I reached the drive way and I pulled up at the house, getting out the car I realised we had visitors. I walked in to house and I took one deep breathe and I walked in to the living room. Billy sat there on the sofa with his head in his hands. He just looked heart broken. I had no idea what had happened, but he was going to tell me. 2 men sat opposite him dressed in black suits, they looked so serious. I felt so hopeless I had no idea what to expect. I walked over to Billy and sat beside him, I put my hand on his leg and he just looked at me. His eyes had filled up with tears, my heart dropped into my stomach. I couldn't believe what I was hearing. "My mums dead" he said to me. I just held him, he broke down in my arms, I couldn't believe it. I wanted to tell him I knew she was poorly but I didn't want him to be mad at me for not telling him, he doesn't need the stress after everything we've been through its just been non-stop. "You can go to her house and sort through her things when your ready. Your the only person she had left in her life and I don't think you really want others rummaging through her belongings" one of the men said to Billy. He didn't reply, "Thank you, we will be in touch soon. Do you have the keys?" I asked them and they handed me the door keys to Celest's place and they left without saying another word. I left Billy on the sofa and I walked into the kitchen. I felt a cold rush come over me, I couldn't believe what had happened. I kept thinking about the letter and the check she had sent me, I really should tell Billy, I couldn't keep this from him could I? I made us both drinks and I took them back into the living room. Billy sat there with an unexplained look on his face, I just didn't know what to say to him. Ive never been in such a unfortunate place in my life. My own boyfriend has lost his mum and I knew it was going to happen, I just wasn't sure when. I sat beside him and passed him his drink. "Im sorry Billy". I said to him but he just looked at me. I wanted to help him so bad. I wasn't exactly sure where Celests's house was so I grabbed my phone out my pocket and I rang Billys friend Patrick. "Hello" he said to me, "hi, could you come over I ... we need your help for a bit, il explain more when you get here" I said to him. Billy still didn't say anything to me, I wasn't sure if he was happy about me ringing Patrick but he was his best friend and his work partner so surely if anyone could talk to him it would be Patrick.
Within minutes Patrick was at the house, I opened the front door for him and he walked in. Looking at Billy he knew something was wrong. Patrick walked in to the kitchen and waved his hand at me to follow him. "Whats happened Ray?". "Celest, She's passed away and I don't think Billy is going to handle it very well, he needs as many people to be with him as possible and I thought, well your his best friend so maybe you could try to talk to him?". Patricks head fell into his hands, I don't think he could believe it either. Its all just happening so fast. Thinking about Celest made me think about my own mum. Was she ok? I just left her at the house on her own and I wasn't sure if Graham had gone, I just had Billys word to go by. I walked over to the kettle and began making Patrick a drink. He walked into the living room and I just left them both to talk. After all they didn't need me there, theyre both grown men. I Made the drink and I saw my bag on the kitchen table. I walked over to my bag and opened it. The first thing I saw was the letter from Billys mum. I really didn't want to show him but it was from his mum and he really does have a right to know.
I walked in to the living room, Patricks drink in one hand and Celest's letter in the other. I saw them both talking to each other, Billy was actually talking back to him. I put Patricks drink on the table and I sat on the sofa next to Billy. He looked at me and then looked down at my hand "What's that?" he asked me, but I didn't know what to say, I kept thinking I was doing something wrong but I handed it him anyway. He opened the envelope and took out the letter, he shown Patrick and then looked at me. He started to read it. Tears began running down his face, I shouldn't of kept this from him. "So you knew, after all this time you knew? Why didn't you say something she's my mum! I have a right to know these things. Ray why didn't you tell me? Why would my mum trust you with her secret but she couldn't even tell her own son!" And he began to brake down. The tears wouldn't stop. He got up and walked out the room. My heart broke into a million pieces. He came back into the living and grabbed his mums keys off the table and he told Patrick to go with him. He couldn't even look at me, I had been so horrible to him and he didn't want to know me anymore. It was obvious he was going to his mums and I wasn't invited. I just wanted to know if he was angry at me for it, but it was kind of obvious he was. I'd ruined everything!
I heard the front door slam and the wheels of his car slide across the back garden, They'd both gone. I slumped on to the sofa and I laid down thinking about everything that had happened. All me and Billy had longed for was to be together and be happy. so far all we've managed to do was be together, trying to be happy wasn't even possible after everything we'd been through. I always wished id find a light at the end of the tunnel of all this. I started to feel myself fall to sleep slowly, so I jumped up and decided i'd phone a taxi and go into work for a few hours, at least that might help be to get on Billys good side. I grabbed my phone off the table and rang a taxi. I told them id wait outside the house. Billy didn't like many people driving up to the house, I think he was afraid of people seeing what he had and taking him for granted. The taxi driver told me they would only be 5 minutes, so I rushed to make sure I had everything I needed and I walked out the house locking the door and straight down the driveway to the gates. The taxi pulled up at the side of the road and I got into the back "Can you take me to Electra please" I said to him and he nodded and started to drive. the driver started to talk to me on the way there, at first I couldn't concentrate and I wasn't really listening to him I just kept nodding along and trying to smile at him. But he realised something was wrong. He pulled up at a red light and turned his head to face me, "Whats wrong miss, some things bothering you, ive seen that look a million times, my wife is always complaining some things wrong with her" He said to me and then he turned round just as the light went green and started to drive again. I didn't know what to say to him either, my mind just wouldn't work. He pulled up outside the building and he turned back round to face me "That's £12.50 miss". I handed him the money and I got out the taxi and walked towards the doors. I checked my phone and I had no missed calls or messages. I walked through the doors and headed towards the elevator until I got stopped in my tracks by the receptionist "Can I have a word with you please Mrs..." "Actually its miss, and yes you can" I replied back to her as she pulled me aside. "Mr O'Conner isn't here right now and I've been told not to let you in here until he gives me the word to let you past, Im sorry ive had to tell you, but Ive been ordered when I see you to not let you up there". My heart sunk what the hell is happening? Why was he even being like this with me. I cant even come to my own workplace, somewhere he said I will always be welcome, I just want to sit alone and do some thing so that I can keep my mind on track but its like hes making me pay for what ive done. I turned round and just walked out the doors and stood on the street looking around. I took everything out my pockets to see what i had with me. My bank card, my phone and some change. Next stop for me was the bus stop, i didn't have enough money on to even try and get a taxi back and i really don't think any one would talk a bank card. I reached the bus stop and i read the sign, 3 minutes until the bus was here. I took my phone out my pocket and i still had no messages or calls, so i decided to text Billy, i had had enough of not being allowed to do things and the fact he keeps leaving me alone when he was so worried about me scares the life out of me. 'Billy its me, I've got out. don't worry about me. il be home when im ready' And i pressed send. I felt terrible because i felt like i was being nasty to him but i couldn't hold it, this wasn't my fault and all i want to do is be there for him.
the bus arrived and i got on, putting my change in the machine i looked towards the back of the bus, everyone was minding there own business with places that they needed to get to. I got the ticket and walked towards a seat and i sat down. I had no idea where i wanted to go but i just needed to go and clear my head. I decided i would get off in town and maybe do some shopping. I got off the bus and began walking around the shops. Everyone else was shopping with smiles on there faces, but i couldn't help but feel sad about everything. I walked into a small coffee shop and i sat down at an empty table. The waitress came over to me and asked me what i would like to order. "Coffee please" I said to her and she walked away from the table writing it down on a pad of paper. It was so quiet in here, probably the best place for me to be right now. All i kept thinking was he was glad to get rid of me and be with Patrick. The waitress returned with my drink in her hands, as she placed it on the table i smiled at her and she just smiled back. I took my phone out my pocket and placed it on the table in front of me. I relaxed back in my seat and began to think about everything. Suddenly, my phone buzzed and i noticed i had a message back from Billy. I picked it up reluctant to look, but i pressed the read button and all i saw were the words 'Im sorry'. I didn't know what to think, then i realised maybe clearing out his mums house he'd realised it was my fault after all. I dialled his number in and i phoned him "Hello" I said "Ray, Im sorry, I saw your dress. I didn't know my mum was taking you wedding dress shopping. She really did love you Ray, please meet me at home. Im leaving here in the next 30 minutes" "Ok i love you" I replied and i put the phone down. I finished my coffee and i walked over to the til to pay for it. I walked out the coffee shop and decided id take another stroll around the shops before i left. I walked past a shoe shop and i saw the most amazing heels in the window, perfect to match my wedding dress. I walked into the shoe shop and i picked the heels up looking at them just took my breathe away. I asked the lady in the shop if they had a size 4 and she went to fetch them out the back room. Bringing them out she smiled at me and asked if i was planning on going to a party. "No im getting married" I said and the woman started smiling even more. I tried on the shoes and they fit perfect. I couldn't of been happier. "il take them please" I said to the lady as i took them off and placed them back in the box. I walked over to the counter where the lady was waiting for me and she passed me the shoes and said "That'll be £250 please". So i handed her my bank card she put it in the machine and asked me to type my pin in, so i did. I rushed out the shop and walked towards the closest bus stop that would get me home. I got onto the bus as it was already there and i paid for another bus ticket. I sat down and the bus started to drive. I kept thinking about Billy and his mum, so much that I nearly missed my stop, I pressed the bell and the bus stopped 2 minutes away from my house.
I was walking towards the house when I noticed that Billy was stood in the garden waiting for me, I wanted to smile because he was there but at the same time I wanted to just hug him and hold him tight. As I walked up the garden path I saw Billy give me a little smile, I started to feel a bit at ease but I was still worried he was mad at me. "Il put your bags inside, I want to take you somewhere Ray". I handed him my bags and I got into the car and waited for him to return. I watched him open the front door and he just placed my bags inside and then locked the door again. I watched him walk back to the car, he was dressed in his jeans and trainers, he looked lovely. I wasn't sure where we was going but I trusted this man with my life so I wasn't really bothered as long as I was with him. He got into the car and said to me "You ready?" and I just nodded back, I wasn't sure if I was ready but I was with him and that's all that matters. We started to drive and I kept thinking of places we could of been going but we kept driving past them, I was so clueless. He took a sharp turning and then I remember back to when we first met, I remembered coming this way. We were off to the beach were we had our first proper cuddle, and were I actually fell for him.
We Pulled up in the car park, and I got out the car. The breeze was lovely the sun has started to shine and I couldn't of felt happier being here. Billy got out the car and walked towards me "Come on I got something to show you". I held his hand we walked along the beach. Id lived here all my life and I hardly ever came to the beach but Billy now had something he wanted to show me. We walked for what felt like forever but eventually we reached it. The beach had a rocky pool and it was lovely, you could see the little fish swimming around, the water looked so fresh. Hand in hand Billy led me across the pool, stepping cautiously up and over the rocks, not once did he loosen his grip from between my fingers. Even as we clambered closer to the edge of the tumbling waters, where the great slabs of sandstone, polished smooth over thousands of years, became slippery he didn't not let go. Instead he squeezed tighter as we balanced each other. I really did love this man. We both decided to sit down on the sandstone rock, looking at each other be both smiled. I took off my shoes and I put my feet in the rock pool, it was lovely. Billy put his arm around me and I rested my head on his shoulder. The sun started to beam, shining off the little amount of water In the rock pool. We sat next to the rock pool for what felt like forever in just silence. I knew something other than his mum was bothering him but I didn't know the words to say to him, "i love you" I said to him, I had no idea were the came from, I just came out with it. "I love you too" he said back to me, a sigh of relief came over me, I was so glad he said that back to me. I had to tell him about this letter his mum had sent me, I know he had seen it, but he wasn't there when we was talking. "Billy, that letter your mum sent to me, I don't want you to me mad at me for not telling you, your mum asked me not too. she didn't want to upset you, she trusted me to keep it a secret, I promised her Billy. Im sorry, I just wanted to do the right thing for your mum. She wanted to be here for our wedding, she thought she had longer left to live and im sorry I did too, she was fine when we went out shopping. im sorry Billy, I wish I had told you sooner now I feel like everything that's happened is all my fault". Billy looked at me and shook his head, I wasn't sure what he meant by that. "Ray, im not mad at you, and I cannot be mad at my mum know can I? , my dad asked me to look after her and make sure she would be ok til her last day, and I couldn't even do that. Now I concentrate on looking after you. I know you was told to keep it a secret and honestly I would of done the same. We've just got to make sure that she has the best send off now, and I wouldn't ever blame you ray, I honestly do love you and I wouldn't do anything to loose you Ray". I smiled at him, he made me feel so much better about myself and the whole mess we had been through. Suddenly a rush came over me and I felt so sick, I had no idea what was causing it. I started coughing and my stomach started turning. I took a deep breath in and slowly let it back out. "I don't feel to good, can we go back now please Billy" I said to him and he stood up holding his hand out to me "Yes course, are you ok babe?" he asked me, but I wasn't sure. What would cause this? I felt so ill. We started to drive back and even being in the car made me feel so ill. I hated this feeling.
We pulled up at home and before Billy even stopped the car, I swung the door open and began to be sick. It came from no were, what the hell was this? I walked up to the front door and waited for Billy to open it, he came over and put his arm around me and kissed me on my head before unlocking the door. It had been lovely spending time just me and him but I had ruined it. I ran inside and straight up to the bathroom and I began to be sick again. Billy followed me to the bathroom and popped his head in the door, "Im phoning the doctor, il try and get him to come here Ray, something is really up with you" He said to me and he walked down the hall way on the phone. I tried to listen to what he was saying but every time I tried to listen, I was sick again. My stomach felt so empty, it started to rumble but I wasn't even hungry, I just felt ill. Billy came back into the bathroom and got me a glass of water. "Here you go babe, the doctor will be here soon" He said to me and I got up and walked towards the bedroom. I stripped out my clothes and put my pyjamas on and I climbed into bed. "Will you wake me when he's here" I said to Billy and he nodded and came and sat next to me. I had no idea what was wrong with me but I didn't like it.
I must of fell asleep because the next thing I remembered was Billy waking me up and telling me the doctor was here. I felt so ruff but I managed to climb out of bed and walk downstairs in to the living room were Billy had left the doctor to wait for me. I sat on the sofa opposite the doctor and he started to ask me questions. "just say yes or no" he asked me and I nodded ok. "Do you have a head ache?" "Yes" "Can you place your chin on your chest?" "Yes" "Does it hurt to swallow?" "No" "Are you on any contraception?" He said to me and I just looked at Billy who was sat next to me, "No" I replied and the doctor handed me a bag. I opened the bag and looked inside it. It was a pregnancy test. Thoughts rushed through my mind, if I was even pregnant who was the dad. I couldn't be pregnant I have my whole life ahead of me. My heart sunk and suddenly it did hurt to swallow. I got up and just walked up stairs and into the bathroom. I sat on the side of the bath and I pulled the test out and just looked at it, this one stick predicted my whole life. After a couple of minutes watching the stick I decided it was time. I sat on the toilet and started to wee, I stuck the stick in-between my legs and I weed on it. I turned the test upside down and I placed it on the floor. I pulled up my trousers, and I washed my hands in the sink. I picked the test up off the floor but I couldn't bring myself to even look at the screen. I felt so sick. I walked back downstairs and the doctor and Billy were still sat talking. I walked in to the living room and sat down, I still had the test in my hand but I still hadn't looked. I handed it to the doctor and walked straight back out and into the kitchen. I poured myself a drink and sat at the breakfast bar. "Congratulations Mr O'Conner your going to be a father" I heard the doctor say to Billy, it was obvious now. I was pregnant.
My heart just sunk, I couldn't believe it. I had no idea if this baby was even Billy's. I could hear how excited he was talking to the doctor. Surely it ran through his mind it might not be his. I was so scared. I got up and went straight upstairs and ran myself a bath. It couldn't sink it I was pregnant. I heard the front door shut, that must of meant the doctor had gone now. A part of me felt better that the doctor had gone, but the other part of me felt sick, I wasn't sure what I was going to say to Billy or how he would even react to me telling me he may not be the dad. Billy already had one child he couldn't see, now I've got to tell him this one may not be his. My life was shattering before me. I climbed into the bath and relaxed my head back in the water. I closed my eyes and just relaxed, right now this was the only place I felt happy. I opened my eyes to see Billy stood over me. "You scared me" I said to him and he just smiled at me. "Your pregnant Ray, we finally have our own family". He seemed so happy to say them words but thoughts rushed through my mind, what would he do if he knew there's a chance that the baby is Grahams. "We need to get you booked in for a scan Ray, I have a doctor friend who may be able to push it forward for you, that sound ok?" he said to me and I nodded yes, at least if I knew how many weeks I was I might know who the father to my baby is. Billy left the bathroom but he didn't say anything more to me, I think he was going to phone his friend. I washed myself in the bath and then I got out and wrapped myself in a towel. I slightly opened the bathroom door and I tried to listen to his conversation, but before I knew it he was already off the phone. I headed straight for the bed room and I started to get dressed. I had no idea how I would survive all this if Billy isn't the father and he leaves me. So many things over powered my mind and I just wanted to scream. I took the hair band out my hair and I started to brush it. Billy walked in the bedroom and looked at me. "Today, the scans today. Hurry up and get sorted, il wait downstairs for you" and he walked back out the room. What the hell was all that about? He didn't even smile or look happy one bit. Then it hit me, he's been thinking about exactly the same thing I have. I sat on the bed and I couldn't even think straight. Id been with Billy for 3 months now, were due to get married and now im pregnant with a child, I don't even know who the father is and im scared im going to loose everything. This wasn't how I imagined spending my life. I took a deep breathe and I headed downstairs to Billy. "Im ready babe" I said to him as I walked in the kitchen. I made myself a glass a juice and sat on the stool. "Be leaving in 5 Ray" He replied as his put his jacket on. We were both thinking the same thing but none of us could bring ourselves to say it. The words just seemed impossible to say, I just wanted this scan over and done with. I put my empty glass in the sink and I walked into the hallway and grabbed my coat and bag off the stairs. I walked out the front door and got into the car and waited for Billy to join me. Eventually he got into the car and we started to drive to the hospital.
On the way to the hospital no words were said between us. I was thinking so hard in my head im sure Billy knew everything. We pulled up in the car park and I just looked in front of me. A 10 story hospital was waiting for me to go in and get confirmation. I was so worried about what the out come was going to be. I got out the car and Billy walked up to me, he grabbed my hand and stopped. "Ray I love you, and no matter what il always be here". I just smiled at him, I wasn't sure right now if he was telling the truth, how could he be so sure that if this isn't his child that he still wants to be with us. The guy who raped me was an animal and I hate him, but if this is his child I really don't know what I would do, so how would Billy know? We started to walk into the hospital and Billy led the way, it was as if he'd done all this before. Even though Billy had got up in for a quick scan we still had to wait our turn. We walked into the room and we had to sit in the waiting room. About 10 other couples sat here, all the women with big bumps. growing babies. I wasn't sure I was ready for all this, but I was here now I had to get it over and done with. Posters filled the hospital room walls, babies on every single one. Everywhere I looked, i just couldn't get away from the fact i was having a baby. We waited for what seemed like forever and then the doctor came out. He didn't even shout my name he just looked at Billy and i knew straight away who he was. We both stood up and walked into the small room and closed the doors behind us. "Hi im doctor Ganesh, this is the lady that will be doing your scan today her names Gemma, If you need any information or have any questions please don't feel shy, were here to help. Now if you could climb on the bed and lift you top up a bit we can get started". I climbed on to the bed that sat in the middle of the room and Billy sat next to me on a chair. The other side of me was a screen, Maybe that's were il see my baby. I laid back and lifted my top. "Do you know how far you are?" Gemma asked me and i shook my head, i wasn't sure about anything but i didn't want her to know my situation, its not easy for someone to understand. "This may be cold" She said as she squirted some jelly cream on my stomach, and it really was cold. She started to use something on my stomach and then suddenly a little baby appeared on the screen next to me. I fell in love instantly. "Your baby is very healthy, id say your about 6-7weeks pregnant. You both should be very happy. You'll have another scan in a few weeks to see your baby's growth. But i suggest you get planning names" Gemma said as she laughed and smiled at us both. She handed me some tissue to wipe away the jelly and she said "Il be back in 5, im just going to fetch your scan pictures". As she walked out the room I got up and sat on the edge of the bed. I still wasn't 100% about all of this, but i saw my baby and im already in love, i couldn't do anything to hurt this baby. I started thinking about how many weeks it was, but i was 100% sure this baby was Billy's. We still didn't say anything to each other, but by time i thought about what i wanted to say the lady was back with my scan photos. She handed them to me and i just looked at them, i really couldn't believe this was my own baby. The fact is was growing inside of me was unreal. I never once thought about children when i was growing up, i always wanted to get my job sorted first and have a steady life, but instead i was doing it the other way, but i wouldn't have it any other way now. I was happy but i just needed to talk to Billy about it all, i wasn't even sure i knew how he was feeling, he didn't even smile at me. We started to walk out the hospital hand in hand, i couldn't help but smile. We got to the car and we both just got in without saying a word. I hated this silence thing, so when we sat in the car i just exploded. "What's wrong Billy, She's gave us the good news. Im pregnant and its your child! I love you and you love me. And if what you said is true you would of meant to of been happy either way so come on what is wrong with you?". "I am happy, and i did mean what i said. I just wish my mum was here to see". Oh no, after all this happening i had totally forgot about his mum. I felt like the worlds worst girlfriend right now, and i have no idea what to say back. "Im sorry babe, lets just go home" I said back to him and he started to drive home. I still had the scan pictures clutched in my hand. I never wanted to let them go.
We pulled up at the house and I felt terrible for what I had said to him but I would of never known was he was feeling. I was still in shock about everything that had happened, I mean im pregnant and I never felt such a love so strong in all my life. I got out the car and walked towards the house, entering the front door I placed my bags down and walked in to the living room. I laid on the sofa steering at the ceiling think about all the what ifs, my life was steering back at me. Billy walked in to the living room and switched the TV on. He still hadn't said anything to me, which wasn't exactly surprising. He walked back out the living room and I tried to listen to were he was going, Into the kitchen. He came back into the living room with drinks in hand, and he just smiled at me. I knew we'd both be ok when all of this has finally sunk in. I still hadn't told my mum my good news but right now all I wanted to do was just relax with Billy on my own. He sat down next to me and I rested my head on his legs, I love cuddling him, he makes me feel so stress free. We sat and watched TV all night it was just like when we first met, but back then we actually spoke, now its like we both just hold it back. Is this what married life is going to be like all the time?
The next thing I new I was waking up on the sofa in exactly the same clothes I had on yesterday, and then it hit me, me and Billy had both fallen asleep watching the TV last night none of us even went to bed. I felt so scruffy waking up in these clothes, so I got up off the sofa careful of not waking Billy and I ran upstairs and straight into the bathroom. I switched the taps on and began running myself a bath, I wasn't sure if Billy had woken up but I was so ready for this bath I couldn't resist it. I stripped off my clothes and I got into the bath, it wasn't even full but I loved the warmth of the water against my skin. I left the taps running until the water was nearly running over the side of the bath. I laid back and dipped my hair into the water. It was so warm. The bubbles surrounded me whilst I lay and just think about nothing. I tried so hard to clear my mind of everything. This was the only time I really got to relax on my own. I sat up feeling the water rush down the back of my hair and down my spine. The feeling was lovely. I finished having a wash and I got out the bath, I wrapped my dressing gown around me and tied a knot in the front of it and I walked back down stairs to Billy. He still laid on the sofa fast asleep, I loved watching him, he looked so peaceful and calm.
We spent so many days together, weeks past and before I knew it I was 17 weeks pregnant and our wedding was only a week away. We still had so much planning to do, Billy had already collected my dress from his mums and my shoes were hidden away under the bed in the guest room. I was so happy that things were getting back to normal, well at least kind of normal. Our relationship was booming more now than ever, I couldn't believe it only 3 more weeks until we find out if it's blue or pink. Billy had been out all morning, whilst I'd been stuck in the house making sure everything was ready. It was crazy how fast everything has happened, next week il be mrs o'conner. I opened up the wardrobe and pulled out a box. It had everything in from when my mum married my dad. I pulled out a smaller box and opened it. Inside was a beautiful silver necklace with my granny's name printed on it. This was the chain I wanted to wear to wedding. Knowing my granny would be with me, makes me feel a whole lot better. Billy still hadn't gotten over his mum yet and the grieving stage was still in full force, but he put a smile on his face to make me feel better. He was sweet like that, I couldn't wait to see him be a dad. I put the box away and went back downstairs into the living room, I had the seating plan set out perfect on a white board, there was only about 50 people turning up, the only one on my side was my mum. My father wouldn't want to be there and Megan, well she has her own life. I kept thinking maybe I should phone her and just see if she wanted to come but it was like I had a voice inside my head telling me not to bother.
Days drew closer and I realised I was getting married. It hit me like a ton of bricks. I couldn't believe I was going to Mrs O'Conner within a few days. My life was set out in stone in front of me. I was going to be a wife and a mother within a short space of time, but right now I couldn't care less. I loved the fact my life had a plan, I didn't want it any other way.
Billy decided that he would stay at Patricks the night before the wedding, but I wasn't sure I wanted to be alone for the whole night. Since everything had happened my own mum wasn't even sure she wanted to come to the wedding. I think deep down she blamed me for everything that had happened, as if id brought that monster in to our lives. I picked up my phone and decided to call Megan. The phone rang and a lump in my throat appeared, I was waiting for her to answer but she didn't. I left a voicemail 'Megan, its me.. Im getting married in 3 days, can you make it, I know its short notice. You can be my bridesmaid. I need a friend here and your the only one I trust. Please Megan.... Anyway phone me back or just let me know please love you!' and I put the phone down secretly hoping that she would just phone back and say yes but I didn't hear nothing back. I checked my phone every hour waiting for her to reply but it was as if she'd just vanished off the earth.
It was finally Friday, and it meant that tomorrow was my wedding day. I'd still not heard anything from Megan and Billy was getting all his stuff together ready for the big day. He still put a smile on his face even though I could see the pain in his eyes. He wasn't his usual self, but Id already told him that id be there for him and there wasn't much more I could do. All Billy wanted to do was get married. I slumped myself on the couch and I just sat and watched TV. Although I couldn't wait for tomorrow I just wanted someone to be with me, a friend. I was thinking about so much I ended up putting the music on the TV because I couldn't watch anything, I couldn't concentrate long enough. I kept thinking about all the things we'd been through and we'd still managed to pull through. Suddenly, all the thoughts had gone out my head and I could feel something. I looked at my stomach and I saw the baby move, I saw my stomach lift. The feeling was incredible I couldn't believe it. The doctors had told me I had a low lying placenta and I wouldn't feel movements much, but I felt this. I laid back on the sofa and rested both my hands on my bump. I wasn't feeling things, it was real. Our little baby was really moving and I could feel everything. Billy popped his head round the living room door and I just smiled at him. "Is there a reason your just lying there misses" he said to me, "Yes come here, feel this" I said to him and he walked over to me. I grabbed his hands and placed them in the same spots that I had mine. After a few seconds our baby moved again and I saw the happiness fill Billy's face, his eyes lit up brighter than the sun. His smile reached from one ear to the other. "I love you both" He said to me, I knew he was stuck for words, feeling the baby move gave him a big shock. I was so excited that I'd have a family with Billy. Billy walked out the room and made a phone call, I picked my phone up and looked at the time 15:00pm, time for Billy to go to Patricks soon. That meant I was alone. He came back in to the living room walked over to me and told me he had to go, I knew it was coming so I just smiled, stood up and kissed him goodbye. "The next time I see you'll be my wife" He said as he walked away with the cheesiest smile on his face. I really did love that man, even if he does do my head in sometimes.
I locked the door after Billy had left and I started to walk upstairs to go run myself a bath when I heard my phone ringing. I ran downstairs as fast I could and into the living room grabbing my phone off the sofa, an unknown number. The last time I answered an unknown number it caused trouble, but I couldn't resist, what if it was Megan. "Hello?" "Hi babe its me Megan". I let out a sigh "Thank god you've phoned, are you coming please say your coming!" I said to her, but it took her a few seconds to answer. "Im here" She said to me, my face lit up. Where was she though? "Open your front door, its not very warm out here" she said to me and I just dropped my phone on the sofa and ran to the front door. Unlocking it as fast as I could, Megan pushed it open and wrapped her arms around me. She didn't even know I was pregnant but she still squeezed me, just like I always remembered her hugs, she really was my best friend.
We hugged for what seemed like forever. Eventually Megan let go and stood back taking a good look at me. We both just kept smiling, it felt like it had been years since we last seen each other. "Come on in then, I've got the heating on. And I think the baths calling me" I said to her and she just burst out laughing, she picked her bags up and we walked upstairs. We went into my bedroom and she chucked her bags on the floor. "Im staying in here with you tonight, least I can tell Billy I slept with you before your wedding" she said as she laughed really hard even her eyes were watering. She really hadn't changed, the same old Megan. I left her in the bedroom and I walked down to the bathroom. I switched the taps on and started to run my bath, it felt so good that Megan was here, least I had a friend to share my big day with. I sat on the toilet with the lid down, and I started to think. It felt good to sit in silence and just think about everything, about how tomorrow I will be a mrs and not a miss. I took I'm a deep breath and then suddenly Megan come bursting through the door singing,"you're getting married in the morning...". I burst out in fits of laughter, this really was why I loved this girl, she could just make you smile no matter what mood your in. "Although I love singing to you, your phone buzzed, I think you have a message from your lover boy" she said to me as she handed me my phone. I switched off the taps and wiped my hands on a towel before grabbing my phone from her. I looked at the screen and I had a message and it was from Billy. 'Theres a box outside waiting for you xxx' I gave my phone to Megan and I waddled back down the hall way and down the stairs. Right after Megan had finished reading my text she came running down the stairs after me, I reached the front door and I unlocked it swinging it open to see the box. Last time I had a box delivered it wasn't good news. I looked around to see if any one was watching and I picked the box up and went back inside. It felt like a movie, I mean who was I even looking for. Billy sent it me. We made our way back upstairs and into the bedroom. We were dying to shake it but the box said fragile all over it. I grabbed the scissors out the bed side table and sliced open the celotape that was holding the box together. Opening the top I noticed a note propped up inside. 'I brought Megan here for you, I've got you another surprise inside, and I was thinking Megan wouldn't make a very good bridesmaid without a dress. I do love you ray, and I cannot wait to see you tomorrow. I love you. Xxx'. I was so shocked that Billy would make all this effort for me. I looked inside the box and I saw the most amazing tiara, I pulled it out and I couldn't stop looking at it, it was beautiful. I placed it on top of my head and looked in the mirror, he really did have good taste. Megan pulled out the dress from the bottom of the box and held it against her. A long silver dress with sparkles. She looked a million dollars. "I love it" Megan said with a smile on her face, "I'm not going to show you the dress I'd brought, doesn't compare to this" she said to me. I was so happy, he really new how to make me feel better about it all. Before we knew it the time had flown past, so I rushed into the bathroom and got into the bath. Megan went in after me and then we both snuggled up on the bed in our pyjamas. I had my best friend back.
Buzz buzz, the alarm sounded. 6am. I sat up on the bed and then it hit me. Today is my wedding day. I couldn't remember even falling asleep, me and Megan where sat talking for hours and now it's my wedding day. I got up out of bed and rushed to the toilet. The only thing about this pregnancy is I always wee. I was hoping that our baby wouldn't make me need a wee whilst we were getting married. That's my worst nightmare. Me and Megan went downstairs and into the kitchen to start our day with breakfast. "We've got so much to do" she kept saying to me. I just wanted the day to run smoothly but Megan was so excited I'm sure that wasn't going to happen. We finished our breakfast and Megan put the empty bowls in the sink. "Come on" she said to me and I followed her upstairs. My stomach felt so heavy and my back was aching. I still had 2 and a half months left, to early for the baby to make an appearance. I walked into the bedroom and Megan began unpacking all the make up out of her bag, so had hundreds of bits, it filled my dressing table. I decided to do my own make up but Megan was adamant she was doing my hair. I did trust her she did a hair dressing course a few years ago, but I love my hair. I finished my makeup and Megan was playing with my hair. "I know what we can do" she said, I wasn't worried, well maybe a bit but she started doing my hair and curling it. She wouldn't let me look in the mirror til it was finished but I had to keep reminding her I had a tiara to wear now as well. After about 25 minutes of her doing my hair she placed the tiara onto my head and secured a few bits of hair on the top with a few hair grips. She sprayed my hair in hair spray and turned me around on the chair. I seen her eyes fill up and she wiped a tear away. "You look beautiful" she said to me, "I haven't even got my dress on yet silly" I said to her and chuckled. Megan sat in the chair to the dressing table and began to do her own hair and make up, I sat watching her and we spoke about being kids again. We went through so many things together as kids, it's amazing we're still friends. We spoke about all the memories we'd had together. It was like I was leaving her, but in fact I was only getting married. I pulled my dress out the wardrobe and hung it on the door, Megan hadn't seen it yet but she was so excited. I didn't want to unzip the bag, I didn't want anything to ruin it. This was the last thing that Billy's mum had brought me, I just wanted her to see me in it. I heard a knock on my front door and me and Megan just stood there looking at each other in shock. We wasn't expecting any body to turn up, and the driver wasn't due til 11. We walked downstairs with each other an headed for the front door. I locked through the peephole to see a lady stood with her back towards the front door, dressed in a turquoise suit and hat. I opened the front door and she turned round. It was my mum. After thinking about her not turning up I didn't think it would be her, but it was. She had a tear in her eye, "I couldn't miss this for the world, you look beautiful Ray" She said to me. Megan told me and my mum to wait in the living room whilst she went to get her dress on. Me and my mum sat next to each other, but none of us knew what to say to each other. It was just an awkward silence.
We heard Megan coming down the stairs in her heels, although I'd seen her dress, i hadn't seen her in it. She walked into the living room and she looked amazing. Her hair was curled in an up do and her dress fit perfectly. I was proud to call her my best friend and my bridesmaid. I couldn't of picked anyone else. Even my mum was crying with happiness, she loved Megan's dress. I walked into the kitchen and poured to glasses of champagne for Megan and my mum and a glass of orange juice for myself, I carried them back to the living room and handed them out. " it's your turn ray" Megan said to me. I walked off upstairs and into the bedroom. Reality started to kick in, I really was getting married. It didn't seem real until now, now I have to put my dress on. I walked into the bed room and stripped out of my pyjamas. I put on my new underwear and I rubbed my bump, even though my baby wasn't here yet I still felt a connection, he or she made me feel calm. I unzipped the bag that had my dress in and I sat on the bed steering at the dress. I had forgotten how beautiful it really was. I panicked for a second that it wouldn't fit my bump, but there was only one way to find out. I attached the zip extender onto the zip on the back of the dress and I took it off the coat hanger, it was so heavy to what I'd remembered. I unzipped the dress and put my feet inside of it. I pulled it up and held the front with 1 hand as I pulled the zip up the back of my dress. It fit perfectly around my bump. I looked into the mirror and it took my breath away, I loved my dress, my tiara matched and my hair looked amazing. All that was left was to put my shoes on. I wasn't brave enough to walk down the stairs alone, in heels, whilst pregnant so I carried my shoes whilst I walked down the stairs. My mum and Megan agreed to cover there eyes whilst I popped my shoes on and adjusted my dress around me. "3...2...1 you can look" I said to them and my mum removed her hand and broke down. Megan's face was a picture she didn't know if to smile at me or cry with happiness. They both got up and walked up to me, they couldn't stop looking at my dress, they were both so happy. "I hope billy likes it" I said to them and they just laughed "how can he not mrs? Your beautiful! He's the lucky one" Megan said to me. Her phone started to ring and she walked off into the kitchen. I followed her and tried to listen, something didn't add up and I knew something was wrong with her. Then I realised, she'd split with her fancy man and obviously the break ups not going well. By the sounds of it, he's took everything from her. Maybe that was the reason she had come here. We're else could she have gone? I decided to ignore it after all, I didn't want to ruin my day, and she seemed happy to be here.
Beep! Beep! "Here's your ride" my mum said to me in her slang talk, she really did think she was a young one. I opened the door and there was a 1929 pierce-arrow limousine, with a cream ribbon along the front, it was stunning. We walked out the house and heard to the car, I had my flowers in hand and Megan was holding the back of my dress so I didn't ruin it along the floor. My mum locked the front door and posted my keys through the letter box. I was hoping that Billy had his set. The driver got out the car and walked around to open the door for me, when I noticed who it was. Patrick Green, he looked lovely in his suit, Billy's best man and everything else he needed for the wedding, he was his best friend. "this way" He said as he pointed inside. I climbed in first and Megan followed after still holding on to my dress, there wasn't much room left as my dress was taking up most of the space, but my mum came in with us, and I wouldn't want it any other way. I knew exactly were we were going to get married, because we'd planned it so long ago, but no one else had seen it so I excited for them too. The drive should only take about 25 minute's, but today it seemed to take longer, everyone was steering at us as they drove past. Even the people walking the streets were taking photos, it was like they'd never seen a wedding car before. Eventually we pulled up on to the long winding drive way of the mansion. I heard my mum and Megan both take a deep breath whilst looking at the sights from out the windows. This place really was amazing. Patrick got out the car first and walked round to the door, I saw the doors were open ready for me to walk through them and see Billy, my husband to be. I got out the car and adjusted my dress, Megan pulled the train out and made sure it was all ready for me. I couldn't believe it this was finally the moment I get married and my life was going to change. My mum was going to walk down the aisle with me, I wanted her to, but she decided not to and asked Patrick to walk me down. Megan was going to walk behind me. I was set and ready to go but I couldn't move, I was scared but I was so excited. We walked towards the doors and I took a big deep breath in and I rubbed my bump, my baby was going to help me get through this.
'Every time our eyes meet, this feeling inside me is almost more than I can take baby, when you touch me I can feel how much you love me..'. The music he'd chosen was amazing, I saw him stood at the alter waiting for me. The vicar had a smile on his face, he'd been waiting some time for me, apparently I was a little bit late here. I started to walk down the aisle with my arm hooked around Patrick's, although at one point I didn't feel like I could trust him, I am so grateful for today and everything he has done for Billy. Eventually I reached the alter and I stood side by side with Billy, I smiled at him and I could feel myself wanting to cry with happiness, stupid hormones always made me cry at the worst parts. Id been thinking so much about seeing Billy today I wasn't listening to what the vicar had said, and Billy had started to say his vows. He was holding both my hands and looking straight into my eyes, "I Billy O'Conner take you Ray Moore, to be my wedded wife. To have and to hold, from this day forward, for better, for worse, for richer for poorer, in sickness or in health, to love and to cherish 'til death do us part. and I hereto pledge you my faithfulness". After he said his side of the vows he placed the most beautiful sparkly ring on my finger. I was shocked, my engagement ring was only little, but now I actually had a rock on my finger. The vicar looked at me and now it was my turn. "I Ray Moore take you Billy O'Conner to be my wedded husband. To have and to hold, from this day forward, for better, for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness or in health, to love and to cherish, 'til death do us part. And I hereto pledge you my faithfulness". I smiled at him and placed the ring on his finger. "You may now kiss your bride" The vicar said to Billy, and he wrapped his arms around me and held me so tight, kissing me in front of everyone.
We walked out the front doors of the mansion holding hands whilst everyone was throwing confetti over us, and Billy told me he had organized a photographer, so we was going for photos first. We posed for what seemed like a million photos, but I knew he wanted to make the day special for us both. "I have a room booked, nothing special just a get together, celebrate the day" Billy said to me and we started walking back inside. Everyone followed us and Megan was clung to my side, this break up she wouldn't tell me about must of meant something she's not exactly being herself. We danced the night away in the function room that Billy had booked and everyone had the drinks flowing. I was the only sober one here, yet it was my night. I decided I wanted to make a quick escape exit and head off home for some quiet time, today had been a long day and I think my baby wanted me to rest. I told Billy and he decided to come with me. The staff at the mansion collected our gifts and cards and told us we could collect them tomorrow when we were ready. So we headed straight home in Patrick's car.
We got home and I walked inside and straight up to the bedroom, I was so tired. Billy followed me into the bedroom and saw me struggling trying to take my dress off. He came up behind me and kissed my back, sweeping my hair round to the other side. I loved the way he was with me. He unzipped my dress and hung it on the back of the chair. I climbed into bed and I rested my head on the pillow, although tonight should be special for us both, I couldn't physically do anything, my back was aching and this baby had drained me of all my energy.
I woke up and peered through my eyes to see the lights shining bright from the alarm clock on the bedside table. 4:43am, I rolled over to find that Billy wasn't in bed yet. What on earth would this man being doing at this time of night. I switched the lamp on and got out of bed wrapping myself up in my dressing gown. It was so cold, I slipped my slippers on my feet and I headed out into the hallway. There was no sign of Billy anywhere I had no clue what this man could be doing. I walked downstairs flicking every single light on I could, I hated being in the house on my own never mind being alone in the dark. I reached the bottom of the stairs and I flicked the kitchen light on, no Billy. So I turned round and went into the living room, still no sign of Billy. I looked out the living room window to see if I could see his car and it was still there, so Billy had left me alone on my wedding night and had gone out on foot, surely he couldn't be far. I walked back upstairs and I grabbed my phone, maybe if I rang him I could find out what he was doing. It rang and rang, but I still got no answer. I kept trying and trying but in the end I gave up. I was so angry at Billy, I was kind of glad he didn't answer the phone, I wasn't sure id want a slanging match with him. On our wedding night.
I stayed up all night waiting for him to return, but there was still no sign of him. Surely he should of been back by now, he knew I would wake up early. 6:54am and I heard the key in the door. I didn't no if I should just pretend to be asleep or stay awake. My mind went into overdrive. Who was I kidding? Of course I was going to stay awake, I wanted to know where the hell he had been. I heard him walk up the stairs, he was really quiet but I had my radar on, I could hear everything. My senses felt like they was going to burst I wanted to just explode with anger. All I could think about was my baby, I didn't want to stress my baby, but surely I have a right to know?
"Where were you" I shouted at Billy as he walked through the bedroom door. I'm not sure he'd realized I was awake, by the look on his face he was wishing I wasn't. "I just nipped out for some air, the bedroom was hot". He answered back to me, but obviously I knew he was lieing. "So getting some air takes you over 3 hours? I don't think so, where have you been Billy, do not lie to me". He couldn't even look me in the eyes and tell me where he had been. What the hell was happening to me? "I went for a walk Ray I've told you I needed some air". I didn't believe him at all, he hadn't even made the effort to get in the bed in the first place so how would he have known how hot the bedroom was. I had so much running through my mind, I didn't even want to be in the same room as him. I stormed out of bed and headed downstairs with the fleece. "Don't even bother coming down to me" I shouted up the stairs to him. Why should I share the same bed with a man that lies to me on my wedding night.
I laid on the sofa, covering myself with the fleece when I noticed something flashing down the side of the chair opposite me. I wanted to know what it was, but I really had no energy to move. I started to steer at the ceiling trying to take my mind off it, but I gave up. I got up off the sofa and crept other to the chair, I placed my hand down the side and I pulled out a phone. I hadn't seen this phone before, it certainly wasn't mine, nor was it Billy's. I pressed the menu button on the phone and 1 of the pictures from my wedding day was the background photo. This was weird, I had no idea who owned this phone. It was flashing because this phone had 3 unread messages. Was it wrong for me to want to read them? I laid back on the sofa but kept the phone next to me, I kept thinking about the pros and cons of reading the messages, but technically its in my house unattended so I think im allowed. I picked up the phone and it now said 4 unread messages. I couldn't believe my eyes.
message 1 : Don't do this, please shes not right for you!
message 2 : I thought you loved me, I thought it was us that was meant to be.
message 3 : Meet me usual spot, we need to talk
message 4 : Thank you I love you Billy xx xx
Did I really just read them, this is Billy's phone, but the number was unknown. My life was meant to just start beginning but it wasn't, it was crashing down around me and I had no choice but to let it. I could hear Billy snoring upstairs, after everything I've been through with this man, I cannot believe he is one of the bad ones. All my life I've never fount the one man that would treat me right, but I thought Billy would. I remembered that in the bag in the wardrobe I hid the check that Celest left me. I know she would want me to be happy and make sure her grand child was looked after properly, so the only thing I can now is use it. I went upstairs and grabbed some clothes out the wardrobe. I packed a bag full of my clothes and I got the check. I looked at the bed to see Billy star fishing with no clothes on, he smelt disgusting. The alcohol fumes were rising from his body, he looked a mess. Id never seen him like this before, and I didn't want to see him like this again. I turned round and walked out the room closing the door too behind me, I had everything I needed in my back and I had fount my passport in there too. Maybe that was a sign to get out the country away from him. I went downstairs and into the kitchen. I grabbed some paper out the draw along with a pen and I left Billy a note for when he finally woke up. ' I've gone, I know exactly what your plan was, thinking you could cheat on me. I'm pawning the rings in so that your child will be looked after. Least you could of done was be honest with me Billy' and I left it on the counter. I went into the living room and grabbed the phone of the sofa, I pressed the menu button and he had another message. This time it wasn't unknown. 'Billy will you answer me, I need to see you. Ray cannot find out about this xxx'. "Arrghhh" I screamed. I looked at the number over and over again, I recognized it but I wasn't sure who it belonged to. I slammed the phone down on the counter, and I grabbed Billy's car keys off the side. I was taking his car whether he liked it or not. I started to drive to the airport, the sign was right, I needed to get out of here. I parked the car up in car park and I grabbed my bag out the boot, I was travelling light because I was going to set up home somewhere else. I didn't need Billy's things all I needed to do was make sure my child is safe.
I got up to the gates in the airport and the lady asked me what I wanted to do today, "I want the next available flight to anywhere for one person". She nodded at me unsure about me but she looked on the computer for the next available flight. "Ireland" she said to me and I just smiled, "that'll do". She took my bag off me and I went and sat in the seating area to be called for my flight. When suddenly it hit me. THAT WAS MY MUMS NUMBER. I saw the lady placing my bag on to the conveyor belt when I got up and shouted "Noooo" she looked back at me and I got over to her as quick at possible. "I need my bag, I cant catch this flight I need to go back" I said to her and she handed me my bag. I rushed through the airport trying to find my way out the car park. Id switched my phone off ages ago because I didn't want Billy to contact me, but I wanted to turn it on. I refused, and I reached the car. Chucking my bags on the seat next to me I climbed in the car and started to drive back to Billys house.
As I reached Billy's street, I noticed a car going into the driveway. I pulled up outside the neighbours house and I saw my mum getting out the car. It really was her, why did I even come back? I broke down in tears at the sight of them both. Billy came to meet her at the front door and kissed her as if he was kissing me. they looked like the married couple we should have been. My heart was breaking, my world was crumbling around me. I had no idea how long he'd been awake for but he must of read the note id left. This wasn't over.
I still had time to catch my flight and enough time to grab a coffee before I leave. I headed for the little coffee shop near Electra and I sat in there thinking to myself. Flash backs of seeing them two together started to haunt me, I hated this feeling but they were the only people I could blame for this. They've both ruined me. I started to have sick thoughts run through my head, all the things I could do to ruin his life, but I wasn't like that. Im a pregnant women who has had her life ruined by her mum and husband. Right now all I could think about was them two. I got up out my seat and I started walking to the car. I drove up past Electra on my way to the airport when suddenly I turned round, it was like someone else was in my body and I couldn't stop them. Id been hurt enough my dark shadow was coming out of me. I drove up the alleyway next to Electra and I pulled out the pack of matches from the glove box of Billys car. I lit a match and I threw it into the vent making sure no one was watching, I threw 1 after the other until the box was empty and the fire had started to blaze. I could feel the heat pressing against my face, this was the best thing id experienced, eve though I shouldn't of done it, I couldn't resist watching the place burn. I jumped into the car and my adrenaline rush had started, I needed to get out of here before any one turned up and noticed that Billy's Building was on fire. So I drove to the airport and I dumped the car in the car park. Making sure know one was watching me I threw the keys into a bin and I walked on into the airport turnstiles ready to enter. My hole body was starting to shake but I wasn't bothered, I was going to ruin his life by ruining Electra. I still loved this man, but what he had done to me was beyond belief. I couldn't forgive him.
I walked into the airport with my head held high, I was happy with what I had done. I know I shouldn't, but payback hurts. I might of been married to him but I didn't love him like that anymore, I loved my child. I sat in the waiting area for what seemed like forever, but it wasn't. The monitor sounded and the Ireland flight was ready, I stood up, looking around for police or security but there wasn't any and walked towards the desk. I handed the woman my passport and she checked it, smiled and handed it me back, I still had the check that Celest gave me and although I don't think she would be happy what I had done back, I knew she would be happy I was getting away from him. I sat on the plane and I looked out the window. I may be known as a criminal now, but it was worth it. After half an hour of the pilot checking the plane and making sure everyone was seated, the plane started to take off. I looked out the window at how small England looked, my life was really falling from beneath me, I could finally have a fresh start. I am now able to get on with my life with my baby, alone.
I got off the plane and walked into the airport, the flight wasnt long but i hated every minute of it. Im heartbroken and im in ireland a place i dont even know. I walked outside to get some fresh air, switching on my phone i noticed i had 21 missed calls. Unknown. This was all i need. I made my way to the nearest shop and brought a bottle of water.
I looked around and nothing made sense, people where walking around doingthere daily chores. I needed to find somewhere to stay. I looked for the nearest b and b and walked inside.
It was cold, a young girl was stood at the reception "How may i help you today" she said to me. I just looked at her and replied "Single room please". She handed me the keys and told me to go upstairs and turn left. So i did. It felt so cold walking round the b and b, the walls were dark grey and the hallways had a funny odour. I reached my room number 23, i unlocked the door and walked inside. It wasnt what i was expecting, but then again i didnt know what to expect. Id never been here before. I walked over to the bed and sat down, the mattress was so hard. The bed made creaking sounds, i knew this was a bad idea. I pulled my phone out my bag and looked at the screeen. The missed calls where adding up pretty fast, now on 40. I decided to phone megan to see if she could help me, i didnt like the thought of staying somewhere i didnt know.
"Hi megan, its me. Please will you ring me back asap. I need to see you, i need your help. I didnt know who else to contact, bye." I left her a voicemail, a cloud of worry began to sit over me. I left my things in the room and decided to take a walk around, after all it was good for me to get excerise. I walked out of the b and b and came to a main road, full of shops. I walked into a cafe and sat at an empty table. A Beautiful man walked over to me and then i realised he worked here. "Can i get you anything ma'am" He said to me. I couldnt answer him, the words wouldnt leave my mouth. "Err, coffee, white, sugar, please" I stuttered to him and he smiled at me then walked away.
Wow i havent seen a man this good looking since ... Billy. I thought to myself as i sighed. So many things were running through my mind, it had only just hit me that i could of seriously hurt someone in the fire i started and i just ran off and left them, i could be a murderer. My phone started to ring and i pulled it out my pocket, it was Patrick. I didnt know wether to answer it or not. I slid the screen across and placed the phone next to my ear. I didnt say anything, i waited for him to speak first
"Hello, Ray please talk to me, i need to know your ok" he shouted down the phone.
"im here, im ok" I said back to him, i couldnt understand why he was so concerned about me.
"Ray, the fire. I stopped it, i watched everything you did when you drove from your house! Please tell me where you are and il come and fetch you, you have nothing to hide. I never knew about Billy and your mum, im sorry please let me talk to you and see you"
"Im in ireland, il message you where im staying" and with that i put the phone down. I sent him a text message with the address of the b and b and i awaited a reply. Just as i lifted my head up from sending the message i noticed that my coffee was infront of me. I looked around but couldnt see the guy who took my order. He really was beautiful, his arms were so big and his t-shirt clung to his body. I couldnt get his image out my head. I picked up my coffee and started to sip it, It burnt my lips but it tasted so nice. I put my cup down and rested my hands on my bump, I must of had the biggest smile on my face feeling my baby move around. I receieved a message from Patrick "On my way". The thought of him coming to see me made me smile, but i never really trusted him. Maybe he was telling the truth that he really didnt know about them cheating behind my back.
I finished my coffee and walked over to the counter. I passed the woman my recipet and payed for my coffee, there was still no sign of the man that served me. I walked out of the coffee shop and headed back to the b and b, this was the only place i had to call home, for now. I walked through the doors and smiled at the same young girl on the desk. she smiled back and watched me walk up the stairs. Everyone seemed to really nice, they all smiled and welcomed me through the hallway, but if they all knew what i had really done, i doubt they would even look at me. I walked in to my room and dropped my bags on the floor. I switched on the tv and walked into my en-suite bathroom. It was just the usual average bathroom, nothing special. I switched on the taps and sat on the side of the bath watching it fill up. I kept thinking about Patrick, asking myself questions i didnt know the answers too. I climbed in the bath and laid back, resting my head on the back of the bath. It felt like i was here forever, in reality i was laying there for about 10 minutes. KNOCK KNOCK i heard on the room door, i didnt order no room service, could it really be Patrick already. I climbed out the bath and wrapped myself in a towel, trying to cover myself with 1 towel was a hard job because of my bump, but i managed it and i headed for the door. I peered through the peephole, and there stood Patrick, slick black suit and a crisp white shirt, id never looked at him in that way before. Whats wrong with me?
I opened the door and just looked at him, he really was stunning. "Ray" He said and he followed me into my room. I sat on the bed and it creaked, he chuckled at me and gave me such a sweet smile. "So, why are you here" I asked so blunty. I could tell something was wrong but i was unsure what to say to him, i just needed to know the truth. "I knew that was coming, Ray i turned up at the house and saw exactly what you did, hes wrong to do this to you. I followed you and watched you at the coffee shop near Electra, I wanted to come in and talk to you but i could see the anger on your face. I was the last person you would of wanted to see. I saw you go down the alleyway by Electra, i thought it was odd you would do that. I saw the smoke, i warned everyone in the building, they think something inside started it. They know nothing, i didnt think it would help your case Ray" He said to me. He seemed so concerned for me and i have no idea why? "But Patrick i dont understand why you would do that for me?" I replied. He walked up to me and knelt down in front of me, his hand on my face "Hes not worth you, he never has been. I want to take care of you". I was shocked, hes never even hinted anything like this to me before. Our eyes met and the stare was so strong, i could feel the tension between us, i knew he felt the same. We kissed, our tounges entering each others mouths, he laid me back on the bed and i let go of my towel and grabbed on to his back, pulling him closer.
Suddenly i pulled away, all this excitement had happened so fast. I grabbed my towel off the bed and wrapped myself up. "Im sorry" I said to him as i slumped in the old chair across the room. Patrick put his jacket back on and sat on the bed, "Whats wrong Ray?" He said to me, but words failed me. I wasnt sure what was wrong with me, i could do anything i wanted to but something was stopping me. "I.. I dont know Patrick, I just ... im heartbroken" I said to him and a tear rolled down my face. I wasnt sure i wanted to see anyone else never mind be in a relationship. We sat in silence just looking at each other, we both wanted to say something but none of us wanted to break the silence.
"Come on, you need to get some sleep" Patrick said to me as he took his shirt off. He handed it me and insisted that i wore it for bed. I hadnt brought many things with me, but i didnt want to hunt my bag for my pyjamas, so i grabbed his shirt and buttoned it up. I climbed into the bed and pulled the quilt up to my face. Patrick pulled the chair next to my bed and told me he wanted to sleep there. I had no choice, i couldnt kick him out at this time, and having him around was nice company.
"Wakey wakey beautiful, we've got a long day" Patrick said to me as he rubbed his strong hands against my forehead. I peeled my eyes open and looked at him, his smile was glistening. His brown hair was still messy from him sleeping in the chair. I sat up and lent against the headboard, pulling the quilt up onto my legs. Patrick had already had room service delivered, tea and toast. Such a rubbish breakfast, but something about it seemed sweet. "Can i treat you like a princess today" He said to me, and i just laughed. Maybe i should take him up on his offer. I climbed out of bed and walked into the bathroom, I washed my face and chucked my hair up, making myself look half decent. I walked back into the room and grabbed my trousers off the floor, pulling them up i could feel him looking at me. I looked up at him and he smiled at me. His smile was fascinating, such pearly white teeth. "So are you going to be my princess then, I want to show you how you should of been treated" He said to me, and i nodded "I suppose" I said to him.
I finished off getting ready and i grabbed my bag. Patrick was sat waiting for me to finish doing my thing, he didnt look impressed i took so long. "Come on then, Where are we going?" I said to him and he just smiled and grabbed my hand, pulling me out the door. I liked this, i felt free. We walked down the hallway and down the stairs out of the building, back on to the main road i was on yesterday, except i was alone. He pulled me left and we walked for what seemed like forever, until we reached a shopping mall. What was this guy doing? We entered the shopping mall through the main doors, Shops surrounded us. "Pick a shop, were getting you some new clothes" He said to me, so i walked towards Next. We walked around and i picked a new outfit, maternity jeans and a black jacket.
We headed towards a Frankie and Bennys, time for dinner. We sat at a quiet table in the corner and Patrick ordered us a pizza. He walked over to the bar and ordered two orange juices. Walking back the to the table he handed me one, i replied with a smile. Sipping my orange juice i felt kicks from my baby, i placed my hand on my stomach. Patrick looked me, a look of dissappointment. I knew he wasnt happy about this whole situation, but there wasnt really a lot i could do now. We sat in silence looking at each other, words unspoken. "Pass your hand" I said to him as I placed it on my bump. Although he wasn't happy, I could see the joy of feeling the baby move in his eyes. It was like it was his baby.
'where do we go from here now' i said to him. 'i want...i want to look after you...both of you'. He replied smiling at me, the eyes of love. The look ive been waiting to see my whole life. "Really? .. I mean I don't mean to sound horrible, but im fat and pregnant with a mans baby who is in love with my mum, I haven't got anything, no job, I have no idea how my life is going to change, im going to be a mum and im not ready yet. Why would you want to burden yourself with me, with us?". He obviously thought that something I said was funny because he just laughed at me, He stood up and put his hand out to me "come on I want to show something to you" He said to me.
I grabbed his hand and we left, walking back towards the hotel. Everything seemed normal again, like I was back with Billy. I wanted things to be different, I wanted a new life which would never remind me of Billy.
"Ray, honestly I couldn't care how much of a mess you feel, I couldn't care if you was carrying 1 or 2 babies, I don't care if your feeling rubbish about yourself. I want you to know that since the day Billy brought you to our workplace your all I could ever think of, you lit the room up and shown me what true beauty is. Every time you was hand in hand with that man I fuelled with jealously. I honestly believe that im truly in love with you and I want to do everything I can to prove that to you".
Wow the shock ran through my body like electric. Ive never been told anything like that before, well I did, but Billy clearly didn't mean it. I squeezed his hand a little tighter and I couldn't stop smiling.
My phone started to ring, I pulled it out my bag and without looking I answered the phone. I thought it was going to be Megan, but I was wrong.
"Hello Ray, please don't put the phone down, I really want to talk to you, I need to". After what I had just heard Billy was the last person I wanted to be talking to. But I listened. "Hmm" I replied. Just as I did, Patrick stopped in his tracks bringing me to a halt. I could feel his eyes glairing at me without me even looking back.
"Ray, Im sorry, I love you. I don't know what came over me. im not in love with your mum I mean it, I don't love her, I want my life to be with you, with our child". I could hear the heartbreak in his voice, the croaky sound. He sniffled after every word. My heart started to hurt for him. Patrick looked at me and I looked back, I couldn't help but feel a little bit of regret even if Billy did hurt me.
"look im busy at the moment, maybe another time". I answered, trying to make the conversation more normal so that Patrick wouldn't start an argument. "Please don't leave me, come back, I need you, I need your help. Something set a fire in the building and Im finding it hard to cope without you, please I love you Ray, I love you both". He replied. I just wanted to run and get on a plane and find him, but I couldn't do it. My body just felt stiff, I felt cold and achy. I needed to sit down. I put the phone down and collapsed to the floor. Patrick rushed down and picked me up, pulling a chair from outside a restaurant I managed to sit down. Clearly all this emotion and stress was not good for me or my baby.
"im sorry Patrick, please could you just take me back to the b&b please". He just nodded, hooked me in his arms and we walked back. Luckily it wasn't too far and we were there. I kissed him on the cheek as he left me at the door of my hotel room and I walked in. I couldn't bring myself to tell him Billy had called me, I mean after all he did just express his love to me.
I laid on the bed and drifted off to sleep. Billy was also in my dreams.
*** Sat at a table in a small café, I picked up my cup & sipped from it. The warm tea rushed down to my stomach and I could feel butterflies. I wasn't sure if this was the right thing to be doing. I felt cold with nerves and the room seemed to get darker. A man walked in to the café, his stance was perfect. His muscles curved from his t-shirt and his jeans clung tight to the top of his legs. His face seemed blurred, I couldn't make out who this man was. The smell from his aftershave stuck to my nose, it was beautiful!
And that's when it hit me. It was billy. He walked over to the table and sat down, his face didn't seem as blurred as it first was. As if I saw him for the first time, his eyes glistened and his smile made me feel like a child at school all over again. It was like I had a crush on him again.
I looked down my hands in my lap and I realised I wasn't pregnant. I had no bump. Panic ran through me and my body began to feel so hot.**
Waking up from my dream, I held my stomach and tried to catch my breath. It was only a dream. I sat up and looked around, I was still in the hotel room, alone.