I laid there. Wide awake with thoughts rushing through my head. I couldn't stop thinking about when Zacky finds out what a horrible person I actually am. I never wanted this to happen. I wanted me and Zacky to get to know each other more and possibly have a life together. I never thought that I would do the ultimate low and cheat on him with one of his best friends. I felt a vibration rip through the bed. It was my phone telling me I had a text message. I picked up my phone to be met by the blinding brightness. I squinted my delicate eyes as I opened the message;
"I miss you beautiful x" It read. I couldn't help but smile at the text. It made me want to melt.
"I miss you too x" I replied.
"I really wanna come in your bunk and cuddle up to you x" Brian texted back. I laughed in response to the text.
"We were only together a few minutes ago x" I told him.
"I don't care x" I received back. Before I could even type a reply back the curtain that covered my bunk was pulled open. I quickly turned round to face the intruder but only to be met by his mesmerising eyes. I could stare at him for days. I took in every bit of his appearance from his chocolate eyes to his cute button nose which had a few freckles over it. His thin yet inviting lips that held a cocky smirk on them. He let out a tiny laugh.
It then dawned on me that we were on the bus and Zacky was only in the bunk above me. "What are you doing here?" I whispered.
"Well I said I wanted to be with you and I missed you." He replied back.
"You can't we're in the middle of the bus. Have you lost your mind." I spat back. Then realisation hit me. He wanted to get caught. He wanted everyone to know so that I could be with him. "Or are trying to get us caught?" I asked. I got no reply. He looked down and started picking at his fingernails. I knew I was right deep down but I just needed to know. "Brian?" I questioned again.
I still got no response. I gave him a minute and then I got a mumbled reply. "Maybe."
"I can't believe you." I harshly whispered and I couldn't. The fact that he want to hurt his friend in front of everyone was just horrible. I could feel anger boiling in my veins.
"I just want to be the one who can kiss and cuddle you at anytime of the day without the fear of being seen. I want to be able to call you mine and protect you without it looking weird. All I want is to have you. Can't you see that?" He quietly spat out. I just looked at him and I could see all of that in his eyes. I knew I wanted to be like that at some point but right now I couldn't bring myself to hurt Zacky.
I swung my body and legs out of the bunk. I turned to Brian trying not to show any emotion. "Tough." I said through gritted teeth. I got out of the bunk and walked away leaving Brian there. I knew what I had said was harsh and mean but it was the only thing that would make him listen and not do anything stupid.
I made my way to the kitchen area and it was desolate. It was peaceful and calming. Just what I needed right now. I started going through some cupboards trying to find ingredients to make pancakes. I was really in the mood for them. Just thinking about it made my mouth water. Once I had found everything I started making the mixture. I made a big bowl full so that everyone could have some. I placed the pan on to the cooker and poured a little bit of mixture in. Soon as it hit it the delicious fumes filled the bus. That's when I felt a pair of tattooed arms wrapped around my waist. I felt him place loving kisses along my neck each time the cold metal sending shivers up my spine.
"It smells and looks amazing." Zacky told me.
"Thank you." I replied.
"Is there enough for me?" He asked whilst leaning his chin on my shoulder looking at me with a puppy dog face.
I laughed. "There is enough for everyone." I informed him.
"Good because I am starving." He told me by that time I had made three. I placed them on a plate and turned round to give them Zacky. He took them off of me and his eyes were watching them hungrily. "Thank you. Oh and good morning gorgeous." He said in a husky voice. He stepped closer to me and planted his lips on mine. My arms instantly went round his neck to pull him closer to me.
"Get a room!" Matt's voice bellowed across the bus as I quickly jumped away from Zacky. The heat quickly rushed to my face as I realised nearly everyone was up and had just seen what had happened. Zacky started laughing which put me at ease and I let out a small chuckle.
Just then footsteps came from the bunks and into the kitchen area of the bus. The room fell deadly silent. I looked up to see Brian stood there. His eyes were a bit red and puffy. Had he being crying? His gaze locked with mine making the whole room turn into an agonising awkward silence. I could feel and hear my heart beat racing faster. Was he going to tell anyone? I had no idea what he was capable of doing after he told me he wanted to get caught.
Zacky was the first to break the silence. "Kelly made pancakes and there's loads." He announced trying to diffuse the awkward situation.
It worked as everyone piled into the tiny space to get some food whilst they still can. Brian had disappeared back into the bunks as he wasn't with everybody else. Zacky took my hand and laced our fingers together. He took me to the sofa. We both collapsed on it. I cuddled up close to him by putting my legs over his and leaning against his body. He took a bite of his pancake and chewed it for a bit.
"This is awesome!" He excitedly told me. He cut another bit off and placed it securely on his fork. He held it up against my mouth for me to eat. I took it off of the fork and the flavour in my mouth exploded. He was right. It was awesome. "See I told you." He said probably noticing the expression on my face.
"So where are we off to today?" I asked as I actually had no idea.
"Georgia. I believe. One good thing is that I don't have to drive today. It's Matt's and Brian's turn." He told me.
"Oh that's good then. I get to spend more time with you." I told him.
"Kelly these are amazing!" Matt told me as he came and sat down next to me.
"Thanks. There not that hard to make actually." I told him back as it actually was the first time I had ever made them before.
"Brian!" He shouted loud enough do he could hear. He walked over and I avoided eye contact with him as much as possible. I could face him right now. "Your driving first." He told him.
"OK." Brian said as Matt chucked him the keys.
"Oh and we get to have a hotel room tonight." He announced to everyone. People cheered the news even though it had only been one night on the bus. It was a bit cramped so everyone is grateful for their own space.
The day past quite quickly as I spent most of my time with Zacky and the other guys. Brian had been mostly driving but it was Matt's turn at the moment. Me and Brian had hardly said anything to each other. I decided to keep out of his way and this time I was planning on sticking to it. The bus halted to a stop and the engine turned off. Matt came through to us and announced we were outside the hotel. Everyone got up and started to pack up a few belongings to take for overnight. I packed two different outfits and all of my toiletries.
Everybody got off of the bus and the blazing sun hit us straightaway. It was boiling and there wasn't a cloud in sight. Zacky decided to walk off in front with Johnny so I was left on my own walking behind everyone.
"You cant ignore me forever." He told me.
I remained silent. I focussed on walking. I tried to drown out his voice but it was still dominate.
"Kelly. Please talk to me. I don't get what I have done wrong." He pleaded.
I focussed on walking into the revolving door. I had always hated these things. I jumped into one of the sections and I was quickly followed by Brian who was pressed up against my back. It still sent shivers down my spine even though I was angry at him.
Once we got out of the revolving door he grabbed my arm and pulled me round so that I would look at him. "Please. Tell me what I have done wrong. Does it really make me a bad person that I want to be with you?" He asked.
"No it doesn't make you a bad person." I shot back. "But intentionally hurting your best friend does." I snapped back. I quickly pulled my wrist away from his grip.
"We are both hurting him if I remember correctly." He replied.
"Then maybe we should stop whatever this was and forgot all about it. We will stay away from each other from now on." I told him forcefully as I walked away but I had the uneasy feeling that somebody was staring and it wasn't Brian.