they all say it, "you'll move on"
"you're going to forget about her"
"she will fade"
okay, i say
because i know, one day
all this hurt is gonna go away
but fuck if i don't love this pain
tender wounds and scars-to-be
cig burns that still emanate heat
i miss all the ways you made me bleed
so please don't fade away from me
because i will give up my own ghost
before i ever give up yours
the dust will settle before long
but i know i'll still prove them wrong
whenever i play your favourite songs
can you taste these red hot
chili peppers on my tongue?
by the way, i tried to say-
nah fuck that, you know anyway
it didn't stop you from walking away
then, and it isn't gonna
stop you now
and if i am going to wait in your shadow
do not go where the sunlight is shallow
please love, don't turn out the lights
you know i've nowhere to hide at night
that's when you sneak up on me
if not you, then your memory
"right here with you is where i'll be"
i wish i saw then what i now see;
it's the back of your beautiful head
and red, red, red
maybe i'd crack your pretty skull open
break you just like my heart was broken
to die together was all i was hoping
but you're alive and i'm still choking
excuse my violence
for when it isn't self inflicted
it becomes unrestricted,
i cannot predict it
so if i were you i'd
search every single shadow
i'm there, somewhere
are you even aware? didn't you care?
either way, my love, beware
there's a grinning danger in my eyes
blood on the lips that swallowed your lies
come kiss it off, try me on for size
perhaps instead i could swallow your pride
granted, your ego is marvellous
but it's a good thing i'm fucking ravenous
i am going to swallow you whole
open flame; skewered bone and soul
then i'll wear your skin like a winter coat
and between our lips i'll light a smoke
darling, darling, it's all for show
my suicide need no longer be slow
you're waiting for me, now, i know
so i'll join you soon beneath the snow
trust me: we won't feel the cold
once we both give up our rotten ghosts
and you won't fade from me, not ever,
if you and i are fading together