Rowan's POV:
I jolt my body straight up after waking up from yet another nightmare. I feel my face covered in tears and my hands are shaking.
Everything felt so real.
This is the second dream when something bad happened with me and Sabrina.
The first one was a week ago and it started off when I was alone in my room and I saw Sabrina went live on Instagram. I decided to click on it and right when I went on she answered a question asking if she misses me. She said she does but I deserved someone better and that's why she left.
I woke up from that nightmare screaming. Screaming that I know what I deserve and it's her.
Tonight's nightmare, however, was terrifying.
She was in a car accident on her radio show tour. She died.
I couldn't get to the hospital in whatever state she was at in time to say goodbye.
I had to hear about it over the phone.
I haven't seen Sab in about 3 weeks and I miss her like crazy.
I want her to come home
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I just got home from getting ice cream for Carmen. She got her tonsils taken out and I decided to be a good older sister for the first time.
"Hi honey. How was the shoot?"
My mom says from the kitchen.
I also just decided to get this treat for her on my way home from another photo shoot with Chris.
I say,
"Oh it was really good! Where's Carmen I got her ice cream?"
She coos and says,
"Now isn't that the cutest thing."
I roll my eyes and say,
"Yeah yeah. Where is the little rat?"
She says,
"Upstairs in her room."
I go upstairs and down the hall. I quietly knock on the door frame and peek my head in to see my chipmunked face little sister.
I snort trying not to laugh.
She groans and says with a mouth full of gauze,
"What do you want? I'm in pain here!"
I say,
"I know I know I'm sorry. I got you some ice cream because I know you can't eat solids and cold helps with the swelling."
Her eyes brighten up and says,
"Really? Thanks row."
I see her try to smile without making the cotton pop out of her mouth. I giggle and walk over to her bed and hand her the cup with a spoon.
I mess up her hair and say,
"Feel better kid. It's not that bad I went through it too you'll live."
She smiles sweetly and thanks me again before I walk out and into my own room.
I sit down at my desk and prop my phone up on a notepad as I scroll through Instagram.
Suddenly, I get a notification saying Sabrina is live! YAY MY BABY!
I immediately click it and watch her prop her phone up and walk away for a second.
She comes back and looks through the comments and gasps and says,
"Rowan's on! Hi rowbaby I miss you."
I blush and comment,
Why haven't you texted me today huh🤔
I giggle as she reads it and says,
"I know I'm sorry I'm sorry. When I was on the air you were still sleeping and I didn't want to wake you up by the time I got off."
I comment,
Otay fine you're off the hook
She smiles and says soothingly,
"I love you."
I comment back,
I love you too. Now talk to your fans.
She says,
"Oh right. Okay so hey guys I haven't done this in a while. How've you all been?"
~~~
After her live stream ends I put my phone down and walk downstairs and into the living room. I see Carmen watching tv and I sit down next to her and play with my fingers.
Why doesn't Sabrina call me anymore? Why does she never text me anymore?
I get that she's busy but she has free time. It's only radio shows. Not literal concerts.
And yeah some meet and greets here and there but she has free time.
So much free time that in fact I saw her hanging out with Sofia like twice.
Never got a text about it.
Never got a call about it.
Never got told about it.
Never was begged to come with her.
Never was spammed with texts.
Never was told how much I'm missed.
Never was texted how much she loves me.
Why doesn't she talk to me..?
Does she not want to be with me anymore?
Does she not want to even try to make time for me?
Ugh.
I scroll through my timeline and see tweets from a relationship I account I follow.
I see a tweet that says:
If you're with someone who doesn't make time for you and doesn't try to, DON'T BE WITH THEM.
True. I click like and keep scrolling.
Sabrina's POV:
Skip ahead to midnight:
Aaaaand my thumbs music video is out!! I'm so excited and so proud of it. It was fun as hell to film and I really do like it. I hope Rowan does too. I put a wink in there for her. Plus I set the whole video on the subway. Because duh. Rilaya. Plus I know it'll hit Rowan right in the feels.
I really miss her. I do.
I've been away for almost a month now and I miss home and my sisters and my friends, but especially her.
I haven't been able to talk to her much either which really kills me.
I decide to text her:
Sabrina: babay
Sabrina: what's good princess
Sabrina: I miss you and your cute face
Row💕: nice
Sabrina: that's not good
Sabrina: did I do something
Row💕: lol
Sabrina: that's bad.
Row💕: stop acting fucking stupid Sabrina
Sabrina: what's wrong..?
Row💕: lmao seriously? k.
Sabrina: I'm trying really hard to think about what I possibly did but I'm super tired rn and not in the mood to fight.
Row💕: ohh!! Ok princess!! Guess I'm just a bad habit like I always was that you don't have time for anymore. I'll just leave then. Bye.
Sabrina: woah woah. What?! And don't even say bye because I'm not letting you leave
Row💕: whatever
Sabrina: ROWAN.
Row💕: what?!
Sabrina: what the hell are you talking about?
Row💕: you're lying if you didn't say you haven't noticed something different lately.
Sabrina: oh shit that why I'm in a hotel rn? I knew something wasn't right.
Row💕: I'm leaving
Sabrina: oh come on and lighten up.
Row💕: you don't control me. Stop telling me what to do
Sabrina: then just tell me seriously what's wrong
Row💕: if you don't know it by now then you really don't even care or deserve to know so it's fine. Just go back to texting Sofia and all your other friends.
Sabrina: oooooh myyyyyyy GOD
Sabrina: that's really the reason?!
Sabrina: why does she bother you so damn much? I should be the one hating her after she fucking tried to make out with you.
Row💕: cut the shit and stop acting like you care about that.
Sabrina: okay now you're just being ridiculous
Sabrina: of course I care!!!!!
Sabrina: what is your problem??
Row💕: obviously that and the fact that you don't even talk to me anymore you don't even try to make them for me anymore so obviously you don't want to be with me.
Sabrina: Rowan you're over thinking everything
Row💕: you didn't deny it. Omg I was right
Sabrina: Rowan no no no no. You're not right
Sabrina: at all
Sabrina: Jesus I'm getting lightheaded
Sabrina: please just listen to me
Sabrina: the reason I haven't been able to talk to you is because you know I'm always busy on the road for radio shows!
Sabrina: plus now I gotta finish helping editing and filming a few more clips of this music video
Sabrina: plus I have meet and greets
Sabrina: and in between that free time I'm either trying to get SOME sleep or I want to talk to me you.
Row💕: then why didn't you..
Sabrina: TIME ZONES ROWAN
Row💕: YOU THINK I CARE ABOUT THAT SABRINA? AFTER NOT TALKING TO MY GIRLFRIEND FOR WEEKS YOUD THINK THATD BE THE LEAST OF MY WORRIES IF I REALLY WANTED TO TALK TO YOU. AND INSTEAD OF FACETIMING OR CALLING ME, YOU GO LIVE ON INSTAGRAM.
Sabrina: row
Row💕: I gotta go. Go back to whatever you're doing or go fuck Sofia some more
Sabrina: I DONT FUCKING WANT OR LIKE SOFIA. SHES NOT YOU. NO ONE ELSE IS YOU AND I DONT WANT ANYONE ELSE BUT YOU.
Row💕: yeah we'll go check every social media platform. "Sofbrina" is apparently alive again
Sabrina: it was never born.
Row💕: THEN WHY WERE YOU WITH HER
Sabrina: BECAUSE SHE WAS IN THE CITY I WAS IN, SHE OBVIOUSLY HEARD I WAS THERE SO SHE CALLED ME AND ASKED IF I WANTED TO SEE HER FOR A WHILE
Row💕: but you said yes
Sabrina: yeah I said yes Rowan. I said yes bc I'm not in the mood for anymore drama or beef or shit going viral again on the internet that's just gonna piss me off even more
Sabrina: all we did was hang in the hotel lobby I was staying at
Row💕: you went to her house
Sabrina: no I didn't
Row💕: Sabrina don't lie to me and tell me that was a hotel lobby you were in
Sabrina: but it was?
Sabrina: ill prove it too
Row💕: k
Sabrina: okay baby**
Row💕: no fuck you
Sabrina: *1 image attached*
Sabrina: see
Sabrina: it's not anyone's house
Sabrina: it's a lobby
Sabrina: now I know you so I know you're not gonna respond bc I just proved you wrong and you probably feel dumb or embarrassed
Sabrina: well don't feel either.
Sabrina: listen I'm sorry okay?
Sabrina: I'm sorry for making you mad even though I had no intentions on it
Sabrina: I'm sorry I haven't been able to make enough time for you
Sabrina: when I told you that you deserved better than me I really meant it
Sabrina: I'll be home soon. And this can be forgotten about
Sabrina: I'm sorry again. I miss you. I love you. Keep the bed warm okay? When I come back we're never leaving each other's arms😊
Sabrina: I love you Rowan Eleanor Blanchard
Sabrina: and there's nothing you can possibly do, no matter how stupid, to change that
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So who thinks Rowan's over reacting?
OR do you guys think Rowan is right?
What should happen next?
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