"You need to start the treatment as soon as possible." Doctor said.
I kept thinking of that over and over again, I didn't notice Chanyeol calling me. He waved his hand to me then I come back to my senses.
"Are you okay?" He asked.
"Yup, I'm fine. What did you say?" I assured him with a smile.
"Where do you want to go tomorrow for our 1st monthsary?" He asked.
"Up to you." I said while forcing a smile.
I got an appointment tomorrow and it's also my monthsary. I don't even know what should I do. Things have been getting worst these days. It hurts so often right now. Am I too selfish to hold on to him even when I clearly know there's no future for us?
I woke up the next morning, thinking that I should really end everything. The longer we last, the more painful it'll be.
"We need to talk." - me
"We are meeting later right? What happened?" - Chanyeol.
"Let's breakup." - me
"Baby, this is not funny." - Chanyeol
"I'm serious. I'm sorry but I don't think we'll work out." - me
"I'm coming over right now. Let's talk when we meet alright?" - Chanyeol.
"No. I'm sorry." - me
He called me several times but I rejected his call and switched off my phone and crying so badly in my hospital ward.
"I'm sorry. I love you but I can't be selfish anymore." I said.
Everything feels so cold and lonely in the hospital ward. Just when things are about to get better, this happened.
Chanyeol's POV
"Pick up the phone you pabo!!" I shouted while calling her and on my way to her house.
Since I got the key to her house, I went in and search for her everywhere but there's no sight of her at all. I called all her friends but nobody know where she went.
I sat down on her bed, thinking so hard of places that she could have went.
Ever since that day we came back from the hospital, she's not behaving like herself. She always disappear out of the sudden and come back hours later. She always hide in her room after she ate. A few times, she looks like she's in pain and insist not to go to the hospital no matter what I say. I know it's wrong to do so but I searched through her room.
I found a bottle of medicine on the drawer beside her bed. I search on the internet about the medicine and found out that it's actually a medicine for Cardiac Tumor.
"Pabo.. fucking dumbass! How can she not tell me about it?! She have been enduring everything on her own. Why is she so dumb?!" I cried so badly, holding on to that bottle of medicine.
End of Chanyeol's POV
"How much is the percentage of success surgery for my case?" I asked the doctor.
"I'm sorry to say, 50-50." He then explained on the tumor growing in a complicated position.
After that, I finally called and told my parents who is now living in Canada. They blamed me for not letting them know earlier and booked the earliest flight to come here tomorrow.
I sat down on my hospital bed, holding the polaroid picture I have with Chanyeol. Crying so badly. I miss him so so much.
Chanyeol's POV
"Hyung, have you found any details?" I asked my manager
"I found lots of Song Eunhyun in the hospital around Seoul. I picked a few most possible hospital. Here." He said and handed me the list of patient details and hospital.
I went to the hospital one by one and asked for Eunhyun. All of the hospital insist that they can't show me their patients details. Just when I was about to give up on that particular hospital, I saw Eunhyun's mother. I saw her mother picture before and I'm pretty sure it's her. I followed her then she walked into a ward.
I stood outside the ward and my heart broke into million pieces. I saw Eunhyun lying on the bed, pale like a sheet of paper.
"Who are you?" Someone behind me spoke and push the door open.
"Appa who- C-Chanyeol?" Eunhyun said.
End of Chanyeol's POV
"Appa, omma. Can I speak to him privately?" I said.
My parents went out of the ward and Chanyeol was standing at the door, looking at me with tears.
"C-Chanyeol ah.." I said and tears starts rolling down.
He slowly walk towards me and hugged me tightly. His hug felt so safe and comfy. I broke down in his arms.
"Why? Why didn't you tell me anything? How can you endure all the pain alone? You pabo. I hate you so much for not telling me." He said while crying.
We remained like this for really long until the doctor came in.
"So, Ms Song. Do you wish to go for the surgery?" He said.
"Can I have more time?" I said.
"Please make your decision as soon as possible. Before the tumor grow any bigger." He said and left the ward.
"What is there to think about? Are you thinking of giving on the surgery? Are you dumb?!" He shouted.
"The doctor said, its a 50-50 surgery. I would rather die like this. I don't wanna die on the cold table." I said.
"Who said you'll die? I'm not allowing you to leave me. Listen to me, you'll be fine. Alright? If you give up on it, there's no hope at all." He tried so hard to convince me the whole time.