I wake up to the sun shining through the hospital window. "I get to go home today!", I say excitedly. "You ready to go home", my mother asks walking into the hospital room. "Yes just let me get dressed in some real clothes", I say walking to the table that my clothes are laying on. "Ok, then I'll be right back. Just come out when your done because Cullen is waiting for you", my mom says and exists the room.
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After I get dressed, gather my stuff, and finish getting ready I open the door. "Hey boo", Cullen says as I open the door. "Hey that's my nickname for you", I say pouting. "Fine I'll just call you bae, bae", he says. "Better", I say. I grab the bag I put all my stuff in and exit the room. My mom is at the receptionist's desk paying for my stay and signing me out. Cullen and I begin to walk over. She finishes and walks towards us. "Are you going to visit James before we leave", my mom asks me as we head towards the exit. "Yes but I want to go in alone", I say looking at Cullen. "Missy I don't know if that a good idea", Cullen says looking at me with a pained expression. "To bad I'm going in alone. I don't want you guys going in with me. I want to be alone with James", I say.
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I walk into the room and close the door behind me. James is laying in the same position he was last time I saw him. As I walk over to him I start to cry. I pull up a chair next to his bed and sit down. Looking at him I cant tell if he'll be able to hear me or not. "Oh James. Why did you do it? I don't understand why you did it. So many people are here for you. You could have asked anyone to talk about whatever was bothering you and they would've. Drugs don't solve anything. I would think you of all people would know that. Come back to me please. Just please come back to me", I say as I cry more and more.
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When I leave his room I'm still crying some. Cullen hugs me tight and we walk to the car. As we get in the car my mom starts to cry. "Mom what's wrong? Why are you crying?", I ask. "I couldn't help him! I thought he was getting better and I thought he trusted me enough to talk about his feelings", she says as she drys her tears.
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The rest of the drive home was silent. We stop at Starbucks and I order my usual Double Chocolatey Chocolate Frappachino. My mom orders the same and Cullen gets some peppermint thing.
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We drop Cullen off at his house and he gives me my schoolwork. As we get closer to home I ask my mom to drop me off at Basilia's because she texted me saying to stop bye. I knock on the door. Basilia opens it. "Hey, your finally out of the hospital", she says. "Yup and I'm so done", I say walking into her weekday mansion. "Whys that?", she says closing the door to the house behind me. We plop down on one of the couches in her living room. "I don't know what to do regarding Cullen and James and you know the most regarding boys. Well you and Macy. Also you told me to stop by", I say. "Ok well you obviously need to figure out who's more of a friend and who is more boyfriend material", she says. "Thats to hard to decide I mean there both about equal for both categories", I say. "Ok then. Go home make a list of pros and cons about each boy then come back after school tomorrow and let me see it", Basilia says. "Ok and why aren't you in school today?", I ask. "Oh today was a snow day. We don't have to make it up though. Don't ask why because I have no clue", Basilia says. "Ok good", I say as I leave.
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I arrive home and go to my room and lock the door. I grab a pencil and paper and go over to my desk and sit down. I start to think about each boy and decide to do the pros first. I draw the charts and write some things down.
PROS
CULLEN|JAMES
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Nice|funny
Charming|sweet
Good kisser|only likes me
Boo bear|cutie pie
I decide that's enough and move on to the cons.
CONS
CULLEN|JAMES
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lady's man|in a coma
Anger issues|an ok kisser
clingy sometimes|drugs
Talks a lot|talks a lot
I decide that's enough cons and put the list away in my secret drawer.
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I get a group message from Macy and Hazel. "Im coming to pick you both up so we can go get our new you outfits"-Macy. "Finally I've been waiting to go the mall to get new you/us/me outfits". I say.
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Macy pulls up in her pink limo. I smack my head and think why the pink one. I get in and sit across from Macy next to Hazel. "Why are we taking the pink limo? I thought we were creating new us's", I say a little annoyed. "Oh it's because after Benson drops us off at the mall he's going to sell this limo and buy a new one", Macy says. "Oh good because I do NOT want to be seen in a pink limo again. It was awesome in 6th grade and kind of cool last year but this year UGH", I say in disgust. "I so totally agree", Hazel says flipping her hair. "Guess what!? DJ and I are officially a couple", Macy says squealing in delight. "Well I'm dumping Bernard for Carson", Hazel says chiming in. "Why? I thought you liked Bernard a lot", I say. "Oh well he's starting to talk to Katherine again", Hazel says rolling her eyes. "You mean flirting", Macy says correcting Hazel.
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We arrive at the mall. First stop Hollister, we all get at least one shopping bad full of clothes. After 5 hours of shopping were done. We each have about 25 shopping bags all overflowing. Macy calls Benson and we get in the Starbucks line while we wait.
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The new limo pulls up. Its a black hummer with shiny rims. We hop in, the seating is awesome theres big speakers, cup holders, a skylight, and of course a sliding separator to separate the drive from the passengers. There was tons of compartments with makeup, DVDs, CDs, gift cards, snacks, games, drinks, and so much more. "Can I just say I want to marry you right now Benson", Macy squeals in delight.
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When I'm dropped off I run into the house go on the computer and type "Get Missy new and amazingly awesome limo" into Stephan's schedule for the next day. Then I run upstairs take a shower and fall asleep hoping the next day will be even better.
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~Mothers Notes~
I'm such a bad person I don't know how I let James take those drugs! I thought he was ok with telling me what's wrong and his problems.
~Cullen's Journal~
I wanted to go into the room with Missy because I was afraid she might accidentally hurt James or kiss him or both. She told me she didn't do either.
~Basilia's Diary~
Mark and I broke up today but I didn't want to tell Missy because she was already so stressed. Also she was depressed and maybe boyband obsessed! JK about the last part but maybe, it was funny you gotta admit.
~Hazels Diary~
I told Macy and Missy I was going to break up with Bernard. I mean I really like Carson but I don't know if I actually want to break up with Bernard. So confuzled!
~Macy's Diary~
Today was a great day! New limo, new clothes, shoes, accessories, and stuff but always same friends. After I dropped Hazel and Missy off I invited DJ over. He came over had dinner with us. Then we went back to my room. We watched TV made out and damn he's a good kisser! Then he fell asleep so I just laid next to him and went to sleep. Who cares if we have school tomorrow!
~Bensons Journal~
Finally Macy wanted to sell that pink limo! Every time I drove it the other limo drivers made fun of me! But now I drive a cooler more stylish limo than all if them so HAHAHA!
~Katherine's Diary~
Me and Bernard started "talking" again! I hope that he comes to his senses and dumps that ugly walrus for me! Im soooooooooooooo much prettier than her and everyone else. Like for real! •Flips hair dramatically then laughs evilly•
~DJ's Journal~
I fake fell asleep just so Macy would fall asleep next to me. I'm glad she finally likes me the way I've liked her for so long.