Chapter 5
~Luke~
I couldn't sleep cause I keep thinking about the events that happened earlier that night. When she kissed me, it felt like the world stopped, my heart doing the same. I was caught off guard, just seconds before she was completely distant and then she did that. She's completely confusing.
~Alyssa~
The next morning Mia and I went to church, just like every Sunday.
"Mia you almost ready?" I yell from the bathroom.
"Almost" she yells back. I wear a blue sundress with a black ribbon around the waist that is tied into a bow in the back. My hair is lightly curled and with my natural makeup. Mia comes in the bathroom wearing a long white dress with a pink sweater over her shoulders. When we arrive at church we say hello to the normal people and take are seats. When brother Matt starts to speak everyone become quiet.
"Mornin' everyone, so glad to see y'all's bright and smiling faces this morning. Now we have to new guests this morning that just arrived this week. Cindy Adams and her son Luke" he's says and we all turn around to see the new faces., one being not so new. Luke notices us and waves, Mia waving back excitedly and me just smiling a soft smile. Durning the service we all sing and listen to brother Matt preach. After we all go outside and talk in the yard out front. I was speaking with one of the older lady's when Mia takes off beside from beside me. I turn around and see she was running toward Luke.
"Hi" I say walking up to them. Luke gets up from in front of Mia.
"Hi" he says with a smile.
"Luke honey it's time to" a lady starts to say walking up next to him but stops when she sees us.
"Well hello" she says with a smile.
"Mom this is Alyssa and her sister Amelia" Luke sad introducing us.
"Girls this is my mom"
"Nice to meet you Mrs. Adams" I say extending my hand.
"Please call me Cindy"
"Hi I'm Mia" my sister says in her small voice.
"Hi there"
"Well we should get going Mia's hungry" I say looking down at my sister.
"You girls should come over I made fried chicken and mashed potatoes, green beans. We can't really eat it all by our selfs" she say.
"Fried chicken!" Mia practically yells.
"Mia!" I say quieting her. Cindy and Luke just chuckle.
"Well I guess I don't have a choice" I say with a laugh.
~Luke~
After we left the church we a head back to my mom and I's house. When we arrived we walked up to the door and me, being the gentleman my father raised me to be, I hold the door while the girls walked in. Aly was the last to go in, she was about to step in when she turned around and smiled at me. I smiled back and was getting ready to say something but she put her finger up to her lips to tell me not to speak. I was confused why she didn't want me to talk but okay.
"So Mia tell me, what grade are you in?" My mom says trying to make conversation and get to know the girls more.
"I'm in 6th grade, but I'm in a 7th grade math class" she says proudly.
"That's great and Aly tell me about you"
"Well" Aly started to say while finishing chewing her food.
"I'm a Junior, I take mostly Pre-AP classes, and I'm the girls basketball manager"
"Basketball?" My mom says with a questionable voice.
"Yup" she says proudly.
"Why manager? Why don't you play?" Aly tensed at my moms question. I could tell she didn't want to talk about it.
"Well Aly wanna help me clean up?" I say changing the subject. She nodded, and gathered up the plates.
"I'm so sorry about my mom" I say when we were alone in the kitchen.
"It's fine" she says putting the plates in the sink. Still not looking at me. I could hear her uneven breaths next to me and I knew she was crying.
"Hey" I say trying to make her look at me. When I doesn't work I put my finger under her chin to get her to look at me. When she does I see the tears roll down her face.
"What wrong?" I ask.
"Nothing we should go" she says and try's to take off. But I grab her arm gently to stop her. She does and stands there for a moment before turning around.
"Luke" she try's to say before I put my finger to my lips to tell her not to speak.
"What ever it is you can tell me" she still doesn't move or speak. She just looks at me with her big blue eyes.
"You don't have to, but you know your safe with me" She smiles and shakes her head to tell me she knows.
Later I ask Aly if she would take a walk while mom watches Mia. She agrees and we leave to walk down the street to the park.
"So why did you want to take a walk again?" She asks.
"Cause it's quiet and I want to talk with you" I say smiling at her as we walk.
"About?"
"Why you don't want to speak about certain things" she didn't speak she just veered off toward the swings and started to swing lightly.
"It's not worth talking about" she says.
"Only certain people know. Like Macie, Mark, Ronny, and Jackie. Those are the only people that know about everything"
"And why not me?"
"Why do you care?" She says finally looking up at me.
"Cause I care about you"
"You've only known me for a week. No less than that" she says getting louder.
"So?"
"So?! So no one falls that fast for someone! It's not possible!"
"And maybe that's what scares you! You think someone can't love you for all your broken pieces. But guess what I will!"
"No you'll take pity on me" she says with anger in her voice.
"Is that you think? You think that I'll feel sorry for you?" She nods and that's when it hit me. She's like this cause she is hurt and broken for a reason. At this point she's turned around with her back facing me.
"I'm sorry. I should push you into telling me things you don't want" I say. She slowly turns around and looks at me.
"It's not like I can just trust someone instantly you know" she says. I nod understandingly. For a while we just stand there in silence.
~Alyssa~
We finally went back to his house and Mia and I left. The next day when I arrived at school I sat down next to Mac.
"Hey" she says.
"Hey I need to talk"
"About what?" So I told her about the night before.
"And all he wanted to do was get to know me and I don't know what's the matter with me. I just let him in, He'll end up getting hurt"
"Al, I know it scares you but he needs to know"
"No he doesn't. He can go and find another girl that isn't messed up! Isn't a worry all the time and a bother"
"Alyssa Jo Matthews! Is that what you think you are to us?" I hear Mark say behind me.
"How long have you been listening to us?!"
"For a while" he says proudly that he didn't get caught.
"Aly your not a burden, that's what bestfriends do. Look after you and yes your not normal but we like you that way" he say putting an arm around me.
"Al we love you, and I we can tell Luke really likes you"
"But guys it's not like I can just dump this all on him at once. And what if I do maybe he'll accept it or maybe he'll completely ignore me and I don't think I can take that" I start to breath heavily and get light headed.
"Guys" I say grabbing them.
"No Aly breath don't do this" Mark says.
"Mark she's pale" I hear Macie say next to me.
"Aly no no no" I hear Mark say before I feel myself drift off in to darkness.
~Luke~
I walk down the hallway to first period but as I turn the corner I see Mark and Macie running down the hall with Mark carrying a person.
Wait. That persons Alyssa!
"MACIE!" I yell after them. She turns around and so does Mark.
"Luke we can't talked we have to go" she says frantic.
"What's wrong with her?!" I ask running with them. I have to go with them. We turn the corner to the office.
"MRS. JAMES!" Mark yells. The lady at the front desk springs into action like she done this before.
"Macie no she was doing so good" Mrs. James the front desk lady says.
"I know she panicked when we were talking about..." She trails off and looks at me.
"Luke" she says in a voice that's barely a whisper.
"Guys her breathing a shallow" Mark says grabbing our attention.
"The ambulance is here" Macie was going with her in the ambulance and me and Mark were going in his car.
"God this can't happen again" I hear Mark say next to me.
"Again?" I question.
"She still didn't tell you. Oh Aly" he says. When we get there Mark walks right in and goes in to this room where there lies a lifeless Aly. She has and IV and lots of cords attached to her. Macie was talking to the doctor. Mark walks over and me behind him.
"Doc" Mark says shaking the doctors hand.
"Mark always a pleasure, but never in good timing"
"What is it this time?"
"I was telling Macie she's fine. Dehydrated again and plus was low. We just wait for her to wake up and we'll go from there" he says.
"Your a new face" he says turning to me.
"I'm Luke" I say shaking his hand.
"He's are new friend" Macie says.
"Well does he know?" They shake there head no.
"She needs to tell him"
"We know" they say together. And with that the doctor leaves. We walk over to the bed to where Aly looks like a lifeless body.
"I know it's painful" Mac says almost in tears. Mark goes by her and she crys in his shirt.
"She was doing good, it's been 2 months" she crys.
"I know" he says letting her go.
"She will wake up soon and she'll be fine" he says holding her face.
"What if she's not? What if she does a relapse?"
"She won't, she strong" she just brays her face again in his chest.
"I know those tears are not for me" we hear a voice say.
"Aly" Macie says sitting down next to her.
"I'm okay" she says weakly.
"You where doing so good"
"I know"
"I'll go get doc" Mark says.
"I'll get you some water" Mac says and leaves.
~Alyssa~
Talk to him, Macie mouths to me before leaving. God this can't happen again.
"I'm sorry" I finally say.
"For?" He says questionably.
"For this. Making you come here, it's exactly what I was trying to avoid"
"What? Me being here?"
"Yes. No one else needs to care"
"Aly what are you talking about?"
"Mrs. Matthews we meet again"
"Hey doc" she says with a weak smile.
"Your not strong enough to go home, so your going to have to stay over night"
"No doc I can't I got my sister. It's just me with her for the next two weeks"
"Aly I'll take care of her" Mac says.
"No she needs me!" I yell and end up coughing my lungs out.
"Aly calm down your gonna relapse"
The doctors says.
"I can't she's gonna cry! Oh my god she's gonna be so upset" I cry. My heart thing starts to beep faster and my breathing doing the same.
"Guys out! Nurse Sam!" He yells.
"No!" I yell. As I feel my self go black again.
~Luke~
"Can you just please tell me why the girl I like is in a hospital bed" I ask Mac while we wait for to wake up again.
"I can't. She needs to"
"Luke just please stay here while I go get Mia from school" I nod and watch as she leaves. I walk back in the room and sit down next to the bed.
"Luke?" Aly says.
"Hey" I say quietly.
"Where is everyone?"
"Mark went to school and Macie went to get Mia"
"Can you stay with me?" She asks weakly not opening her eyes. I was shocked by her question and didn't move or answer.
"Please?" she says finally opening her eyes. I nod to say I will.
"Can you lay with me?" She asks.
"Yeah" I say as she moves over for me to lay on the bed. She put the hand with the IV on my chest and her her head as well. We just lay there until she speaks.
"When I was born they thought I wasn't gonna make it, I was born blue cause of lack of oxygen. I was suppose to have been dead but I was a fighter. So in turn I got lost of health problem. I have heart problems. My heart has a whole and a leaking valve, also reduced breathing cause my lungs don't pump oxygen like they should. So with all this I have anxiety which cause these attacks and makes me weak. And when I'm weak it gives a greater chance to get sick and be in the hospital for days" she says. I sit there and let it all sink in.
"I didn't want you in my life cause didn't you see Macie? I put them threw so much and I feel awful cause it's all my fault. I didn't want you to have to go threw what they do" she say looking up at me for the last part. She didn't want me to be with her cause of this?
"Well it's a little to late, I'm here and I don't care what you say I'm not leaving you. This changes nothing about how I feel about you. It just means I have to care for you more" I say smiling.
"But you could have life, a normal one where you don't have to worry about going to the hospital and making sure I'm healthy all the time. You would give that up?"
"I can't see my life any further without you" I say seriously looking into her eyes. I put my hand on the side of her face and lean into kiss her. But we were interrupted by Mia running into the room.
"Sissy!" She says before practically jumping into her sisters arms.
"Careful baby" she says referring to all her wires and IV.
"We stopped by the house and got something's for you. Like your blanket and pjs and charger. Also your toothbrush and" as Mia rambles on I look at Macie and she notices our position and she nods for me to come talk to her.
"I'll be right back" I whisper in Aly's ear. She gives me a smile and turns her atrium back to her rambling sister.
"So she told you?" Macie asks when I get out in the hall.
"Yeah. And she told me why she didn't want me around"
"Oh, why?"
"She didn't want me to go threw what she thinks she puts you guys threw" I say.
"She does put us threw a lot. But we love her and we do it all for her. I think your good for her. She had the attack cause she thought if she told you, you would leave. And your the first guy that's ever really cared about her. And it scares her"
"She had her attack for me?" I ask. Macie just nods her head and goes back into the room. Leaving me there to my thoughts. I would never leave her, especially now. When I go back into the room Mac and Mia were saying goodbye.
"So your going to stay with Macie okay?" Aly says to Mia. Mia nods her head.
"Be good okay?"
"She will, she always is" Macie says wrapin her arm around Mia.
"So you gonna be okay by yourself?"
"She's not gonna be by herself" I but in leaving against the doorframe.
"I'm staying with her" I say looking at Aly.
"Okay. You need me call me okay?" Macie says to me. I assure her I will and they leave. I watch the walk out and turn back to Aly.
"Can you help me up so I can put my pajamas on?" She asks sweetly.
"Of course" I say walking over to her.
I help her stand up and she just looks at me.
"What?" I ask.
"Turn around" she says with a twirl of her finger. I roll my eyes and walk over the coroner.
"Okay" she says telling me she's done. She's wears sweat pants and I lose shirt. I help her back into bed and she lays down knowing she's still exhausted.
"Will you lay with me?" She asks.
"Yes, but I have to call my mom first" her eyes widen.
"Hey she won't care. I promise it'll be okay" I say putting my hand on hers. She relaxes a bit and nods. I walk out of the rooms and dial my mom number on my phone.
"Hello" I hear her says after a few rings.
"Hey mom"
"Sweetie where are you?"
"I'm at the hospital"
"Why are you at the hospital?!" She asks frantic.
"Mom it's okay I'm fine. It's Aly, it's along story but I'm staying here with her tonight"
"Honey are you sure that's a good idea?"
"Yeah? Why not?"
"I'm just thinking of what's best for you"
"And what's best for me?"
"To not rush into things"
"I really care about her mom. And there's nothing you can say to change that"
"I'm not trying to change your mind but I'm just saying be careful"
"Yeah well I gotta go mom"
"Honey I love you"
"Yeah love you" I say before hanging up. I walk back into the room and see Aly drifting off. I claim into bed with her and her pits herself into the same position as before.
"Did I cause you and your mom to fight?" I hear her say.
"Shhh don't worry about it, just got to sleep" I say rubbing her hand softly. Soon she's asleep and I all I can think about is the girl in my arms.
Authors note!
So now you know! Hope you guys liked it! Love y'all lots and I'll be writing the next chapter soon! xx
~Hannah~