July 27,2013
Now that i have a kidney transplant operation coming up in 6 months, im gonna need to get fit! not really worried about the transplant but more roc. Diary, I'm truly sprung, really. seeing roc on instagram, taking pics sends me chills. but how will i get pretty in just 6 months? Determination. Diary if you know everything then tell me this, how come i feel as if im missing a half or my heart is gone? is it normal? why do i cry my self to sleep-or at least try- but no tears come out? just a silent whimper.....
why?
I started getting teary eyed so i put my diary aside and prayed, i asked god, why? over and over again what if i was making a mistake trying to meet roc? or changing myself for him? i recently gained 25 pounds......curse you tacos!
I suddenly felt tired and fell asleep
RATED R SCENE!
"you ready?"
"......"
"Dont me scared i got you"
He slowly came into me as i gasped due to sudden pain. He began thrusting
Slow........fast.......faster........Faster............ Nigga i you a jaguar ?
I moaned due to pleasure....
he came out and started to caress my body (something i get goose bumps over)
"Moan."
I couldnt moan at the time so he grabbed my breast
"Moan!'
I moaned.........i mean it really felt good
"Good, now WAKE UP!"
I woke up to nurse Shaniqua yelling at me telling me to wake up .Shoot.
"Its time for your workout"
Me and Shaniqua have been working out because my weight wa becoming an issue, ya know? My goal was 100 so 150 lbs to loose, and im determined