FLASHBACK
10 YEARS OLD
"I don't want to go." I whined as my mom and my 16 year old brothers Harry and Justin drove me to my doctors appointment. They had there restricted licenses, and mom didn't like them to use them too much. Justin was currently driving, and Harry was in the back with me. "I don't need to go! I'm fine!" I urged. I was scheduled to start school soon, my medication was working great, I hadn't been sad in nearly forever, and I was starting to believe that what my dad did to me was a freak accident. "Come on Kinli, I promise this will be the last time. If you do well than your free." I groaned at my moms comment - I AM well.
When we got there we all got out of the car, and walked into my the thereapists building. My mom was dropping me off and them she was going to get on a flight to Orlando to take the twins to see one of their friends' concerts. They were coming back tomorrow, and I was staying home with my 21 year old brother Channing, my 19 year old brother Taylor, and my 18 year old brother Zac.
"The boys will come get you in 2 hours, at 6:00, ok?" I nodded and we walked in and mom checked me in. "We have to catch that flight, will you be ok waiting alone?" Mom asked me, and I nodded yes and gave her a hug. "Bye Kin, see you tomorrow." Justin said, hugging me, and I hugged Harry as he said "Love you Kin." I replied "Love you too!" And then they left.
Once I was called into the office with a therapist, I went into her office and sat down at the chair in front of her desk. She asked me all these stupid questions for a good hour and a half, and I gave extremely vague, stupid answers back.
"Kinli, please answer the question." The therapist said, obviously aggravated. "I don't need to be here!" I said to her, and we went back and forth a few times until I just shut my mouth and refused to speak. She got frustrated very quickly and stood up, walking around the desk, slapping me in the face in one swift motion.
I sat, shocked, as she screamed "YOU GOOD FOR NOTHING UGLY SELFISH LITTLE BITCH! JUST ANSWER THE DAMN QUESTIONS, IS THAT TOO MUCH TO ASK?!" Then she kicked me, hard, on my side with that black boot she was wearing and grabbed my neck and squeezed, trying to choke me.
I tried to pry her hands off of my neck as the manager of the therapy offices ran in and pulled her off of me, my eyes quickly filling with tears. A few other office men ran in, one of them calling 911. Another one pulled the therapist came into another room, and one of them tried to approach me. As he got closer I flinched and just sobbed even harder, the pain on my side in my throat and on my face rising.
"Someone call her family!" I heard him yell, and I scooted as far back in the seat away from him as I could, sobbing. For the next 10 minutes nobody tried to approach me, until the police got there and tried to approach me. I began to cry even more, and I flinched and backed farther away.
"Her brother is almost here." I heard the manager tell the police man, and I could hear the cries of my psycho therapist from somewhere else in the building. I was still crying when a figure approached me. I looked upward slightly and felt the person touch me, and I jerked to the other side of the seat and started sobbing even harder.
"Kinli, it's just me. It's Zac, calm down." He said, touching my shoulder as he kneeled down to look at me. I saw it was my Zac, and I started crying harder at his worried expression.
He wrapped me in his arms and picked me up, and at first I was tense, but then I relaxed and wrapped my arms around his neck, sobbing.
"Shh.. It's ok....you're fine now, I promise...it's ok now..." He told me, and he started walking me to the front of the building. I heard my brother Channing yelling, and through my hair I could just barely make out the image of him yelling at the manager and the therapist, and a few policemen. I couldn't here what he was saying over my own sobs, and Zac carried me out to the car.
All of a sudden he stopped walking to talk to somebody, and then I hear him whisper to me "Does anything hurt Kinli?" Yes, it did hurt, but I didn't say anything and continued to sob. Then Zac just continued to walk, getting in the backseat of Channing's jeep, and he he just kept rubbing my back. "I'm here now Kinli, it's fine." He kept on saying, but I didn't believe him. It wasn't fine.
After a minute Channing got in the front seat and started driving, and Zac continued to play with my hair and whisper things to me as I cried.
When we finally got home, Zac carried me inside and I could hear Channing close behind us. Zac carried me to my room and set me down on my bed, before sitting down on it next to me, and Channing did the same, and Channing wrapped his arms around me and rubbed the side of my arm as tears streamed down my face.
"Sh...your fine now Bella." He whispered, kissing the top of my head. I laid down on his chest and continued to cry until I fell asleep.
CHANNING'S POV
"She's asleep." I told Zac when I was sure Kinli had fallen asleep. "Good. I can't believe it." Zac said, and I nodded and continued to rub Kinli's arm. "I know, that complete bitch. Kinli was doing so well, and now..." I said. "I should call mom, the flight should have landed by now." Zac mumbled, taking out his phone.
ZAC'S POV
"Hey sweetie! Did you remember to pick up Kinli?" Mom said when she answered the phone. "Um...ya, about that-" and mom yelled "YOU FORGOT TO PICK UP YOUR SISTER?"
I moved the phone away from my ear and said "No, no, she's siting with Channing and I right now, we're in her room with her." Mom calmed down and said "Oh, ok, good."
I hesitated before saying "We had to come pick her up early. Mom, her therapist hit her." Mom gasped and said "What do mean she hit her?!" I heard Justin and Harry asking what was happening in the background and I said "The therapist got mad and started yelling, and she hit Kinli and then tried to choke her."
Mom didn't say anything, and I heard Justin and Harry asking what had happened.
"Is she ok?" Mom choked out, and I said "She just fell asleep, she hasn't stopped crying since it happened." She was silent for a few seconds before saying "We'll get the first flight back. Call me when she wakes up, ok?" I said ok and then the phone rustled a bit and I heard Harry say "Kinlis therapist hit her?!" I repeated what I told mom, and Harry said "Oh my god, that bitch." I nodded and said "I know. She's asleep now."
I heard Justin talking to mom and Harry said "Tell her we'll be back as soon as possible."
"I will, bye."
AN HOUR LATER
ZACS POV
We were still sitting in Kinlis room with the TV on, not wanting to get up in fear she would wake up, when I heard the door open. "I bet that's Taylor." I said, getting up quietly to go downstairs.
"Hello?" He called, and I ran downstairs and he said "Hey, where's Channing and Kinli?" I hesitated and said "Upstairs in Kinlis room, she's asleep." I guess he could already sense something was off, because he said "What's wrong?" And I just spit it out "The therapist hit her."
He looked shocked and said "What?! What happened?" I shrugged and said "We don't know, Kin won't talk and neither will the therapist, but the manager said she heard a slap, and she called Kinli names, although we don't know what yet, and when the manager ran in she was choking Kinli. She only stopped crying about an hour ago when she fell asleep."
Taylor looked so beat, and he said "This was supposed to be her last session. She was doing so much better." I nodded and said "I know." Then I heard crying from upstairs and we both ran up to Kinlis room.
KINLI'S POV
When I woke up I flinched in Channing's arms before remembering what had happened, and I continued to cry. "Don't cry Kinli, it's fine. It's over, it's done." I wrapped my arm around him and tried to stop crying but didn't do a very good job as Zac ran in, followed by another person. I started crying harder and backed into Channing until I realized it was Taylor.
"It's just me Bell." He assured me as they both sat down on my bed. I continued to cry, and Channing rubbed my arm and said "Kin, can you tell us what happened?" I continued to cry, not wanting to tell them what I had done. Not wanting to think about what that lady had done.
"I don't want to talk about it." I sobbed, and he said "Ok, later?" I didn't answer and just laid my head back down on Channing when his phone rang. He took his hand from behind my back and reached to grab his phone, and answered it.
"Hello?" He said, and I picked up my head as Taylor grabbed my hand and squeezed it reassuringly, tears streaming down my face. "Ya, she just woke up. Kinda. Kinli, wanna talk to Harry and Justin?" I didn't answer and he said "I'll just put it on speaker." Then I heard Harry say "Hey Kin! We're working on getting a flight, right now we're schedule for 10:00 our time, so 11:00 your time." I didn't say anything, and my brothers just all talked as I listened.
When they hung up, Zac put his arm back around my back and asked "Do you wanna get something to eat?" I shook my head no, suddenly recalling every mean thing anybody had ever said about me.
"I'll go get your pills Kin." Taylor said, leaving. He came back fairly quickly and handed me my pills, standing with the cup of water to hand me momentarily. I took them fairly easily, as I was used to taking the medication everyday. My dosage had been lessened though, so I wasn't sure how much this was going to do for me.
"You wanna go to sleep Bella?" Channing asked me, as the continuous tears still steamed down my face. I slowly nodded and got my head off of Channing and laid down on my pillow, indicating he could leave if he wanted to. I hated being a burden. He took my hint and gave me a kiss and stood up, my other brothers doing the same, and they left. "Night Kinli." Taylor said, shutting off my light and shutting the door.
2 HOURS LATER
I was dreaming that I was in school and the teacher started to shout that I was fat and ugly, and I was crying and shrinking back in my seat as all the kids in my class repeated it, and the teacher slapped me. Then I felt someone shake me and when I opened my eyes I shrunk backwards as I saw Zac standing over me.
"It's ok Bells, it's just me." He whispered, and I realized I was crying hard. I saw Taylor and Channing also standing over the bed, and just continued to sob. "What's wrong?" Zac whispered as he climbed into my bed. "Did you have a bad dream?" He asked, and I nodded as he wrapped both of his arms around me, allowing me to bury my face in his chest. "It'll all be ok now, I promise." He told me, but I knew it wouldn't be. My chance to be normal had passed in that moment, because it reaffirmed the thought I had that good people, normal people, just don't like me.
Zac kept one arm around me as he laid us both down, bringing me closer to him and rubbing my back. "Everything's gonna be ok Bell, I promise. I won't let anyone hurt you." He whispered as I drifted off to sleep again.
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long one!
the next chapter is another flashback chapter, a part of the same flashback just the next day.
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