Dear Brother's,
So a few have been in my own hotel room for two days now. You guys have asked me to go with you places but I have said no. So what do you do you go without me not asking why. Do you guys know what I am doing in my room?
Well I have been crying. I don't know how to stop self harming. I know at first it felt good. But now it feels just like a habit like it was before. I need help but I don't want to bother you guys. I mean I'm sure you'll find some way to say it's fake Luke. Maybe say it's a sharpie not real cuts.
Fans started a hashtags on twitter and instagram.It's #StayStrongAshton #Ashtondontcut .Luke you told me that I should make a twitcam saying I'm ok. To stop this because I am fine.
I haven't done that yet. I feel tired of this. Tied of trying to be the person you all want me to be.
I've been thinking of suicide a lot. If you'd care but I doubt you would. After all anyone can play the drums. Luke you said that.....Anyone can play the drums....
I might be the oldest in the band but I have feelings.
Love Your Brother,
Ashton Irwin