April 15
He used me. I thought we were friends, I thought he liked hanging out with me, but he just used me. He used me as a distraction from his breakup. He's with that girl now, and he won't talk to me. I've tried talking to him, but he ignores me. I've tried texting him but he never replies, I was just his fucking distraction. I love him so much but obviously I was just his goddamn toy. God, I hate myself so much. I let him walk all over me. I let him use me, I let him do so many things. My grades dropped for him, I stopped eating and sleeping for him, I basically gave him my life and he threw it away. Why was I so goddamn naive? I don't know what to do about this, I'm so angry. I don't know what I did to deserve this, but I guess he's happy now, right? That's all that matters, right? Who cares about my health and happiness, as long as he's happy? Well, apparently. I'm so stupid. I feel so enraged, what the hell do I do? I'm so angry...
~H