I woke up before Lola and I went down and Tom was sat in the lounge "what are you doing here at 9" I yawned "I want to talk to you before you talk to all of us" he said "let's talk then" I said as we sat down "what do you want to talk about?" I said "what you said the day you left" he said "you don't know how heartbroken I was that my best friend who I love more then my own little sister said that you thought I was your best friend but obviously not" he said "I didn't mean any of what I said apart going away" I said "good" he smiled as I heard Lola walking down the stairs "muma who is that?" She asked as she sat on my lap "that is Uncle Tom. Say hello to him" I said to her "hello Uncle Tom" she smiled "hello Lola" he smiled as I her on his lap and I got up and went to the kitchen and made a coffee for me and Tom and I heard Lola laugh along with Tom's laugh.
I walked back in and they were both laughing on the sofa "here you go" I smiled as I put the cup on the table beside him "thanks" he smiled.
"What time are we all meeting ?" I asked as I sat down and drank my coffee "12 I think?" He said "I need to go and get dressed and get Lola ready. I'll see you later" I said "are you telling me to get out?" He asked "yes" I said as I picked Lola "muma I need a poo" she laughed "right I'm leaving" Tom said as he walked out and I rushed up with Lola.
I got dressed in what I wore yesterday but I wore a burgundy top and I dressed Lola in a white top and leggings with a Hollister jumper and I let her pick her shoes in which she picked a bright pink pair and I couldn't refuse her little face.
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I got Lola out of her car seat and we started to walk to the café "muma I'm hungry" she said "I'll get you something to eat when we get to the café" I smiled at her "how far away is the café?" She asked "it's just over there, can you see where Uncle Tom is sat ?" I asked "yes" she smiled as she skipped along as I walked.
"Hello" I said as Lola sat down next to Danny "hello, how did you sleep?" Danny asked "alright thanks. Where is Doug ?" I asked "he had to go back to LA" Harry said "muma, I'm hungry" Lola moaned "come on then" I said as I picked her up and walked in "what do you want?" I asked her "urm.....that" she said as she pointed at a chilli pizza "that will be too hot for you" I smiled "what else ?" I asked as we looked around and I saw Harry looking at me and Lola, "how about the love heart cookie?" I asked "yea" she smiled "can I have a love heart cookie and a water and a apple juice please" I asked the man who worked there "of course that will be £7.50" he said as I gave him the money "I'll bring it out for you" he smiled "thank you" I said as I walked out and I put Lola down in the seat "so" I said as the man brought out the stuff "thank you" I smiled "why did you take Lola away from me ?" Harry asked as I gave Lola her apple juice and cookie "because I needed time away from people and I wanted Lola to meet her great nana because I had a feeling something would happen to her" I said "so what about us ? Are we still together?" Harry asked "I don't know but at the moment I'm not really bothered" I said "all I want is my best friends back" I said "I made a choice in my life and it may not of been the best choice for you all but it was the best choice for me" I said "I needed to clear my head and I couldn't leave my daughter" I said "to be honest I don't care because I have my best friend back and she is safe and sound along with Lola" Tom said "same here" Danny said "muma who is that?" Lola asked pointing at Danny "that is your uncle Danny" I smiled "say hello to him" I said as I drank some water "hello uncle Danny" she smiled "hello Lola" he said while pulling a funny face and she laughed "Buzz has missed you" Danny said "I missed him so much, I missed him more than anyone" I smiled "want to come over tonight so you two can see each other again?" Tom asked "of course I would" I smiled as Lola sat on my lap and whispered to me "who is that man?" As she pointed at Harry "that's your daddy" I said but she cried "what's wrong?" I asked her as she cried into my shoulder "I don't want a daddy" she cried and Harry's face fell down "but everyone has to have a daddy" I said to her "I think it's time to go" I said as I got up "I'll text you all later" I said as I walked away with Lola still crying "why don't you want a daddy?" I asked her "I don't like boys" she said "but you like Uncle Tom and Danny and Dougie" I said as we walked "I like them not him" she said "but you really upset daddy by saying that" I said as Tom made me jump "want to come round mine now and see Buzz and Buddy ?" He asked as we walked along "yeah" I smiled "what's up Lola?" He asked "I don't like daddy" she said "because she doesn't like boys but she likes you and Danny and Doug" I said as we got into my car "I don't Harry going near her" I said.
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I pulled up outside Tom's house "is it weird that I'm nervous of seeing Buzz and Gi again and Buddy" I said as I took off my seatbelt "your nervous of seeing three people who absolutely love you" he laughed "Buzz asked for weeks where you were. Gi was upset that you were gone and so was Buddy. I didn't speak to anyone for a week" he said "why didn't you speak to anyone?" I asked "because I didn't want to speak to anyone apart from you" he said as he got out the car and so did I and got Lola out and she was so happy on life, she was skipping and dancing around.
We walked up to the door and Tom unlocked it and he walked into the lounge where Gi was at with Buzz and Buddy (I stayed in the hallway) "Buzz sit down I have a surprise for you" I heard Tom say "okay" I heard Buzz say "surprise you may now come in" Tom said as I walked in the lounge with Lola and Buzz's face lit up and ran towards me and actually managed to knock me over "Lily!" He smiled "Buzz! I haven't seen my favourite lightyear for ages" I smiled with a tear in my eye "I missed you so much Buzz" I smiled "I missed you more" he said and I saw a tear in his eyes and I hugged him tight "muma, who is that?" Lola asked "Lola this is Buzz and he is uncle Toms son. Buzz this is Lola my daughter" I said as we sat up "hello Lola" he smiled "hello Buzz" Lola smiled as I got up and Gi walked out the room as she was on the phone "Lily can we go to the park?" Buzz asked "ask your daddy" I said as I got up "please daddy can me and Lily go to the park?" He asked "of course" he smiled "go and get your coat on and shoes on" Tom smiled "Lola do you want to come?" I asked "no, I'm tried" she said "isn't it alright if she stays here?" I asked "of course" Tom said as he picked her up "I'm ready" Buzz smiled as he stood there in a yellow raincoat and a pair of superstars on. "Let's go" I smiled "we will be back. Lola I love you" I said "love you mama" she smiled as me and Buzz walked out the door "Lily I'm four now" Buzz smiled as he was jumping as we walked along the road "I know! And I'm going to get you and Buddy some presents for every birthday and Christmas I missed with you both" I said "I don't want any, your back" he said as we reached the park and he ran to the swings and I chased after him "push me" he smiled as I put him in the swing "ready" I said as I started to push him.
We sat in the café in the park and we were just laughing, "I'm sorry that I went away for a long time" I said "it's fine, why did you go away?" He asked "because I was very overwhelmed with just having Lola and I needed my own space" I said "okay, at least your back" he smiled "I missed you so much even more then anyone else" I said "really ?" He asked "yes, I missed my little lightyear" I laughed "I started school and I can spell and write my own name" he smiled "really? How do you spell Buzz ?" I asked him "B U Z Z" he said "well done you smart boy" I smiled "come here and let's take a picture together" I said as we did "we should get back home" I said as we got up and he took my hand and we started to walk back to Tom's. "Who is Lola's daddy?" Buzz asked "Harry is" I said.
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We reached the front door and Tom answered the door and I heard Lola crying so I rushed in the lounge and saw Harry was trying to hug her "muma" she cried as she ran to me and I picked her up "what did I say ?" I said "what did you say?" Harry said "that I don't Lola going near you for a while; she isn't used to anyone here" I said "stop taking her away from me!" Harry shouted as I put Lola down and told her and Buzz to go in the other room and I walked up to him "you make my daughter cry!" I said to him "I'm not letting my daughter around people who make her cry" I said "why? What have I done for her not to want a dad?!?" He shouted "she has something wrong with her! She has something like autism but not as bad" I shouted "the doctors said she will be very picky about people and who she likes and it won't change no matter and she will develop learning disabilities as she grows" I said "why didn't you tell me ?!?" He said "because I didn't want to speak to anyone, that's why I ran off for two years" I said "why does she like Tom and Danny but not me ?" He asked "they were the first people she met properly out for all you four and they made her laugh and her mind told her that she liked them but her mind told her she doesn't like you" I said "I can't do anything to help that and I'm sorry but your just going to have to live with that" I said "how am I going to live knowing that my only ever child doesn't like me" he shouted "I don't know Harry!" I shouted "there is nothing that will help her!" I shouted "she seems to like everyone else apart from me!" He shouted "well maybe if didn't scare at her and introduced yourself like everyone else did, then she might like you" I shouted "I can't take this anymore" I sighed "what can't you take?" He shouted "you! Your the reason why I left in the first place! It was a big mistake coming back! I should of listen to everyone telling me not to get back with you" I said "fuck off back to Portsmouth then!" He shouted "no I'm not because I finally got my best friends back and Lola and I are having a new start here" I said to him as Tom walked in with Lola and Buzz in front of him "I'm leaving" he said as he grabbed his coat and pushed past Tom and slammed the front door on his way out.
I sat there and cried Lola came running over "muma don't cry" she said as she hugged "I'm not, I'm just stressed" I smiled as I wiped the tears away and then Buzz walked over "what's wrong Lily?" He asked "Uncle Harry isn't being very nice to me" I said "don't worry, we will be nice to you" he smiled "thank you" I laughed as Tom sat next to me "Buzz go and show Lola all your toys" Tom said as they ran over to other side of the lounge "I'm sorry" I said "you have no reason to be sorry" he said "yes I do! I had an argument in your house" I said "that's not your fault it's Harry's" he said and I just smiled at him as we both sat back on the sofa and we watched them play "when did you find out about Lola?" He asked "a few months ago" I said "why didn't you tell anyone at the time?" He asked "because I wasn't speaking to anyone" I said as I had tears in my eyes "what's wrong?" He asked "she will be alright won't she?" I asked "of course she will. She won't let the disability drag her down and it shouldn't you" he smiled "I know but I'm worried about her making friends; I wouldn't care if she didn't but I know what school and bully's are like" I said "she will have plenty of friends and Buzz will always be her friend" he said "what a mini me and you?" I laughed "yes" he smiled "I need to text James" I said "James Bourne?" He asked "yea, I saw him yesterday and he told me to text him" I said "he likes you" Tom said "no he doesn't" I laughed "he does and you like him" he laughed "no I don't" I said "you two would look cute together" he said as I watched Lola and Buzz play "can I take Buzz out shopping tomorrow?" I asked "yeah, is it alright if I come ? I've need to get out the house" he said "sure, why do you need to get out?" I asked "I'll tell you tomorrow" he said "okayy..." I said as I was not sure "what did the doctor say when you found about Lola and the autism?" Tom asked changing the subject "he just said that she has a weird type which she does everything her mind says and she will have a hard time getting to know people and it's best to introduce yourself to her before saying anything else to her and when she grow older she will have learning disabilities" I said "bless her heart" he said "Lola we better go home and have some dinner" I said as I got up "bye" Tom said as we hugged and Buzz said "bye" to me and Lola.
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"What do you want for dinner?" I asked her as we walked into the kitchen "pasta" she smiled "alright if you go and get dressed in your pyjamas and I will cook dinner" I said as she ran upstairs and I cooked her pasta and she came down in her pyjamas and she had mr snug in her hands. "Here you go sweetheart" I said as we sat down with our pasta and we started to eat.
- few hours later-
Lola was sleeping and I was downstairs going through my emails and replying to them and then Danny walked through the door "Lily?" He shouted "shh! I'm in here" I said as he walked in "what are you doing here?" I asked as he sat down "I heard about the argument you had with Harry and I wanted to see if you were alright" he said "I'm fine" I smiled "are you sure?" He asked "100%" I said "I also heard about Lola" he said "why didn't you tell us?" He said "I know we weren't talking about still" he said "I know but I didn't" I sighed "it scared me and it still does" I said "why?" He asked "I want her to make friends but with the whole thing with what she has; she is going to have trouble with that" I said "she will be absolutely fine" he smiled "I'm gonna go because I'm bored" Danny said as he stood up "thanks for being truthful" I laughed "bye! Love you Davis" he said "love you two Jones" I said as I shut my laptop and went up to bed.