Olivia's POV
It had been a month since Connor asked me to be his girlfriend. That one month was filled with so many great things. The medicine the doctor gave me for my panic disorder had helped immensely. I had only one panic attack since the hospital visit. I was laying in bed and it happened. Connor was able to help me calm down. Jc and Madi broke up, after finding out that Madi had been cheating on him for most of their relationship. Soon enough after that, Jc started dating Jenn (Jennxpenn). He'd liked her for a long time, but decided to move on once he met Madi. Ricky started dating Shelby, his friend from Alabama. They have to keep a long distance relationship, but they make it work. Kian and Andrea are still together, and Andrea has been much nicer. Her, Jenn, and I are all good friends now. Both girls decided to move into the house, so we always have a lot of fun. It's crazy living with this many people, but we all have a lot of fun.
Today the guys decided to film a big collab with all the members of O2L, and then their girlfriends. Sam and Trevor came over and we sat in the living room. All the guys, Andrea, and Jenn tweeted out to ask them a bunch of questions for a video. I kinda sat awkwardly because I didn't have followers.
After we had collected around 25 questions, we sat down. I was sitting on Connor's lap, partially because there was no room on the couch, and because I loved it.
"Hey what's up guys!" we all said in unison.
"So it's a Sunday, and we don't usually make videos on this day." Connor said.
"But we decided to get the gang together and film and ask O2L!" Sam exclaimed.
The questions were funny ones like would you rathers, dares, and just random ones. The last question was a more serious one.
"How many of you have girlfriends?" Sam asked, reading the question.
Connor had already put the video of him asking me out on his channel, and the response was a mix of good and bad. Most of the fans were happy for Connor, but a few of them were upset and sent death threats to me. It was a bit extreme. Jc hadn't told anyone about Jenn yet, and Ricky hadn't said anything about him and Shelby.
"Well, Sam and Trevor are the only single ones right now." Ricky spoke up. "I happen to be in a long distance relationship with Shelby. I know I made a joke video about us being together, but we actually are now."
"And you guys are probably wondering about me now." Jc sighed. "I'm with Jenn. Yep. Jc Penny is real now!"
We all laughed. We all said goodbye and we ended filming.
"Let's all get Taco Bell!" Trevor shouted. Everybody ran out to their cars, but Connor and I just walked.
"You didn't talk like at all in the video, Liv. Are you ok?" Connor asked.
"I just don't wanna get death threats again." I sighed. The death threats had taken a toll on me. I didn't realize girls would be this mean to someone. I didn't do anything wrong.
"Liv, they're just jealous that you're with me, and that you're a beautiful girl." Connor said, kissing my cheek. I nodded and we walked out the door.
The next day, the boys put up the video. Again, mixed responses about me.
"Olivia is so pretty! Love this video!"
"Olivia is a fat whore. why is she sitting on Connor's lap? slut."
"Aww Connor and Olivia are perfect!"
"OLIVIA IS SO FAT AND UGLY. KYS OLIVIA"
I had seen these comments as I was watching the video. It was midnight when I was reading them. Connor was still downstairs, playing video games with Kian. I got up and looked in the mirror. Was I fat? I'm not a slut. I've never had sex in my life. I looked at my reflection. What I saw was a girl, a fat, ugly, girl. I turned away from the mirror, and laid back down in bed. I cried, and cried. I cried for an hour straight. I thought things were getting better, but they aren't. I heard the door creak open and I tried to hide my tears. It was Jenn and Andrea.
"Liv, we heard you crying." Jenn whispered, crouching next to me. Andrea crouched next to her.
"What's wrong?" Andrea asked.
"It's just all the hate." I said wiping my tears.
Andrea and Jenn stayed in my room for an hour, talking. They got my mind off the subject of the hate, that is, until they left.
When they left, I noticed how skinny and pretty they are. They most likely don't get hate. I knew how to become skinnier. I would just have to not eat.
I went over to my dresser and pulled off my tshirt. It was a super hot night, and I couldn't bare to sleep in a tshirt and pajama pants. I put on a sports bra, and some yoga shorts. I looked in the mirror again. These made look even more fat. I had to wear this because I was dying of heat.
Just when I taking off the blankets on the bed, Connor came in.
"Hey babe, looking good." he laughed. He came over to me and put his hands on my waist. He inched closer and pressed his lips against mine. He backed me against the wall, making the kiss more passionate. I couldn't do this. I pulled away.
"Liv, what's wrong?" he asked.
"Oh nothing. I'm just tired. Maybe another night." I said and walked over to the bed. He shrugged and stripped off his shirt and jeans. He crawled into bed next to me. His arm wrapped around my waist. I slipped out from his grip.
"Babe, are you sure you're ok?" he whispered.
"Yeah I'm fine. It's just super hot in here so I need my space."
"Ok. Well I love you, ok? Goodnight." he said. He leaned over and kissed my cheek.
"I love you too." I whispered back, fake smiling. I turned away. How could he love some fat and ugly girl like me?
(2 weeks later)
It had been 2 weeks since I gave up eating. The first few days were rough, but after a while, it got easier. Everyone was a bit sysops. Every time I was offered food, I would say I already ate.
This morning I decided to go for a run. I put on one of Connor's t-shirts, and pair of running shorts. I tied my shoes and headed outside. It was super warm, and I wasn't feeling to good. I continued running, knowing I needed to lose weight.
I ran for about 15 minutes when I started to get very light headed. I was in the front yard of the house, when I passed out.
Connor's POV
"Liv has been acting weird lately, did you notice?" I asked Jc.
"Yeah she has. She hasn't eaten with us in a while. Is she-" Jc was cut off by Jenn.
"Guys. I went outside to get something from my car, and Liv is passed out in the front yard!" she screamed as she came in the kitchen.
I got up and ran outside. Liv was passed out in the grass. She must have gone out running or something, judging on her attire. I went over and picked her up.
I brought her inside, and upstairs in our room. I laid her down on the bed. Jenn and Jc brought food and water for her. Jenn turned the fan on to cool her down. Slowly, she woke up.
She didn't talk at first, she just ate her food slowly and drank her water. I asked Jc and Jenn to leave, so I could talk to Olivia.
"Liv, why haven't you been eating?" I asked, grabbing her hand.
"The hate. The comments, they told me I was fat and I believed them." she cried.
"Olivia. Look at me." I said. She looked up. "You are the most beautiful girl I have ever seen. You're perfect. I love you so much. Please don't do this again."
Liv curled up into my chest, sobbing. I stroked her hair. We sat like this for an hour. She cried, I stroked her hair, and would whisper into her ear that I love her. It broke my heart to see the girl that love was in pain, and felt so badly about herself. She was beautiful.
Liv fell asleep in my arms, so I laid her down in bed. I took to twitter to deal with this problem.
"Hey everyone. I've seen some hateful comments about my girlfriend Olivia. It has made the both of us very upset. I am ashamed that some of my fans have the audacity to call her such terrible names. Please refrain from using such harsh terms about her. Thank you." It took several tweets to say, but it needed to be said.
I went downstairs to get some food for Olivia. I took a box of Lucky Charms cereal, clementines, salami, and tea. They were all her favorite foods, so she probably missed them in those two weeks she wasn't eating.
Liv and I stayed in bed all day. We ate food, watched American Horror Story on Netflix, cuddled, and had slept. Olivia smiled and laughed. It was nice to see her happier. It was nice to have my Liv back.
(A.N. thanks for reading. sorry if this is a controversial chapter, with Olivia's eating disorder. I am in no way promoting eating disorders. If you have one, please tell someone you trust. They will be happy to help you. :) I keep getting snow days, so I will be able to write more!)