Are these thoughts normal
Someone teell me where I went wrong
Is it bad to cope this way
I close my eyes
I see blood
I want to believe nothing's wrong
It's normal to imagine people dying every second of the day
But is this really just imagaining?
There are millions of blood stains behind my eyelids
I can't see anything else
My mind is empty
Yet these thoughts lie forever on the surface
Who said I ever wanted to kill someone?
I just close my eyes and see
The thoughts turn into images
'Go die' is what I think
Then I sleep
Sleep only brings you're death and nothin else
I should be repulsed
Yet I can't help but laugh
Someone asks me what's so funny
I tell them I don't know
They believe me every time
Snapping necks and dripping blood
Hollow eyes and blue lips
I laugh at them all
They are constantly in my mind
Letting nothing else in
Shouldn't I be scared?
Thoughts like these
Should scare me
But they don't
Blood everywhere
Broken bones
These happen to everyone I know
At least in my head
I'm twisted and sick
I deserve the blood that trickles down my wrists
At least then
I can make my dreams a reality
Thoughts like these
Are mine and I love them
I feel like I'm suffocating during the day
I can never get a moment alone
If I did then maybe
These thoughts would have already killed me