My Poetry book

Real Pain

What is real pain?
Can it really drive someone insane?
How does it feel?
To be able feel something so real?
Such an agonizing pain inside,
That there is no longer a bright side.
This guy wrenching feeling,
I feel myself start fleeing.
For I could just run away,
But no matter what the matter won't sway.
For you I feel love
And I can now see you above.
Thought you do not really see me,
I feel that I still can't be the real me.
I try and try again,
But yet your love I do not gain.
For you cannot see the real me,
So therefore I cannot be.
So here I am,
forever damned.
For you I cannot look,
So I'll just rip like a page in a book.
The love I feel for you is the real pain,
Because of you I will never be me again.
So this is my goodbye and farewell,
Please promise that you will try and be swell.
For you and I cannot be
Because no matter what you do not seem to see me.
With all of who I am I love you
And that is very true.
But at last my existence will be lost,
Because I finally gave up at a great cost.
It will probably go unnoticed,
But it is not like you ever noticed.
You had ignored me
And never even attempted to let me be.
So now I am lost in the forever,
So my ties with this world will sever.
So now I will go home.
Now leaving g behind this forever dark and gloomy dome.
To be able to got the heaven's ground,
So I can longer be hurt or let down.
To become on the God's beautiful angle.
For then my legs will never over the edge and again dangle.
For have you given me a chance at love I might be alive
I might have even been able to thrive.
Though I cannot solely depend on you,
So for that I made myself feel blue.
I know you do not see me anymore,
I will leave and no longer let my heart be sore.
So now I will officially say goodbye,
So no one please cry.
Finally goodnight and sweet dreams,
No longer will you hear my screams.
Have beautiful things happen to you,
For it is is time I flew.
With wings of glistening white,
No longer filled with fright.
So you soon old friend,
When we finally meet again.