CHAPTER 4: EMMAS POV:
Oh shit! He saw my scars, and the new ones I have made! What if he tells my parents???!!! Well, I better have a talk to him about that... we are alone right now so I guess this was the time to ask him.
"Uhh, hey Chandler?" I ask him
"Yes?"
"Why were you worried when you heard my crying?"
"Because when I first saw you, I knew that you were holding something in, something bad."
"Well thanks for caring, but I have one more question."
"Shoot."
"You have to promise me that you will never tell anyone“
"Okay, fine" We walked to my house in silence, not a word was exchanged between the two of us. I was getting lost in my thoughts like usual, so I didnt notice he was staring at me till we were almost back to my house. I just blushed and turned away.
"Umm Emma, can I have your number?" he asked me.
"Sure, I guess." I replied shyly. I've never had a guy ask me this. We exchanged phones and then gave them back. I looked at what he put his name as, and all I could do was smirk. Chandler the hero!!!!:) is what it read.
We got inside to find everyone ready to leave. "See ya later Emma!" he said to me, then they all left. I let out a huge breathe of air I didnt know I was holding in.
"Hey mom, I'm gonna go take a shower then head to bed."
"Okay Emma goodnight, I love you."
"Love you too". I drag my feet up the stairs, into my bedroom. I shut my door and slid the lock into its place. I sigh in relief of being in my safe haven, and slid my back down the wall. When I was about to pull up my sleeves, to reveal my skin, I felt my phone buzz.
From:Chandler the hero:):
Hey wats up? Why is this boy texting don't me?? I dont really know the answer to that question, but I might as well text him back.
To:Chandler the hero:):
Umm nm just sitting here... wbu? It felt good to talk to someone different, like theres a new seed of brightness still left in me.
From: Chandler the hero:):
Same, I think im coming over again tommarow.
To: Chandler the hero:):
Cool, I guess, I gtg see u tmr.
From: Chandler the hero:):
Okay Emma, stay strong tonight.
I put my phone away and went into my bathroom. As I glanced down at the floor, I saw it was covered in blood and the razor was still in the sink. I quickly grabbed a lot of paper towels, got down on my knees and cleaned my own bloody mess.
My shower was soon over and I had my favorite pjs on, really short tight black shorts and a grey oversized sweatshirt. I sat on my bed listening to music and french braiding my freshly died hair. I looked over to my clock to see it was 10:15! Holy crap! I must've been in that shower for a realy long time!
Since my hair was already braided, I turned off my lamp, grabbed my pink teddy bear, and threw my head softly on its pillow. My eyes became heaveir, and I let them; already regretting falling asleep, and waited for my long night full of screams with no to rescue me.
LATER THAT NIGHT
"NOOOOOO, SOMEONE PLEASE, PLEASE HELP ME!!!!!!! HELP PLEASE!!!!!" I woke up screaming and thrashing in my own sheets, after having one of my many regular nightmares. Once I realized were I was, I stopped screaming, and just cried.and cried; letting the memories flow back from that awful day.
I texted my friend Ashton to help calm me down. Ashton was the same hieght as me and had dark black curly hair. She was brought up in the foster system most of her life, she was taken from her parents at six months of age. Ashton was able to find a loving people willing to adopt her, so she moved into her perminate home.
To:Ashton:p:
Hey buddyo hows the new place?
From:Ashton:p:
Its good, soooo, wats up?
To:Ashton:p:
Just woke up screaming again... someone else knows about my little cutting issue!
From:Ashton:p:
Okay 1, ITS NOT A TINY ISSUE!!!! 2 WHATTTTT????!?!???!
To:Ashton:p:
It hard to explain over txt.... tell u tmr.
We talked a while more , untill I fell into the unknown and frightening abyss of my dreams.
A/N
Okay so I personally believe that this chapter wasn't the.best. I was half distracted by my family and one of my besties Kendall (I love you Kendall) for the whole night, since it was new years ever and such. Speaking of which, HAPPY NEW YEAR Y'ALL!!!!!!!!!! Ok well wont post as frequently today, and tell me honestly about how u felt bout this chapter!
byes
Emma Ann