So what a great question right?
Thought so myself
Well
I am so lovey and sad
Your the reason I am feeling down
I am so lone my and sad
Living in in dream I never had
Get me out of this night mate
Yea so much to say tonight
I am alone like always
And well there just that one thing about tonight that gets my more emotional the other nights
The one person I thought would always care tore me apart
And so yea maybe if I was never born I wouldn't of had to love through that one message of how he broken me down like a knife in butter
FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK
Who wants this who wants to live a shit pointless life
Welcome to 2014 I hope I don't have to live past 2 day I to it coz so far it had made me cry and smile and laugh and just wow emotions are flying so far
Well for all the kids that died at a young age I have to say you don't want to live in this shit world it is more like fucking hell and now I am not upset I am angry fuck I am angry
I don't want to be safes people I want what everyone wants and that to be loved by someone anyone
At the moment I have to say so far love is hard and if you don't work for it
It will kill you
I just want to go to sleep and just never wake up but at this monent that would be to easy and emotionless
That moment when you promise that one person that you won't cut or self harm so you sit in your bath tub And relize for the first time your use to be white bath tub is stained red form your blood from past cutting sessions
It is so fucking weird if takes many days to get happy but. 1 seccond to fall down into a depression
Peace out I couldn't care less at the moment but for 2 men that really help me a lot and give me hope they know who they are and so yea <3 stay safe people