I'd like to know what my father thought when he did half the things he's done to us. What was he gonna accomplish by leaving bruises on my brothers, sisters, and. What went through his mind when he tried killing us? What was he thinking when he cheated on my mum? What did he think would happen by him killing himself? And most of all... Why did he watch me get molested by my oldest brother? What father does that?! It angers me to no end. I was terrified, defenseless, and he just stood their and watched as my clothes were taken off my skin. He watched my brother out his cold hands on my body.. And I remember those eyes my brother and father had.. All my dad said was "It's okay, you're just making your brother feel good"
I was only 3 possibly 4. I was still in diapers.
What's even more messed up is this went to the court and everything and my dad and brother weren't even charged, the judge I guess said it happened too long ago for anything to be done about it now.
It was 13 years ago and I still remember every detail.
That's why the song Magnet by Now Now means so much to me
This was a short entry to just get all my thoughts down, I'll write more later.