No one knows what will happen next to their life or to the life of other....
Every person has their own story on how they fulfill their dreams...
"I wish I can be one of that stars someday"
"I wish I can travel around the world"
"I wish I can give my family a happy life"
"I wish I can be into two places in the same time with my little teddy bear"
“I wish sing on the front of many people .....”
“I wish…”
That was the list of my wishes, my dream and I hope it will come true someday....
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.."Alyssa, come here baby it’s your medicine time"
Oh! here I come again ....
I am sick... Mom said that, but I feel I am not.
Every day we go to that man who is wearing a white gown.
Every day he ask me on what I feel,
He always gets blood on me, like a mosquito
He always gives a small thing like a candy to eat and that candy was not sweet.
He’s kind’ a weird right?
He always talks to my mom after that my mom was crying.
So one time I confronted him and asking why he made my mommy cry
He just answered this “because she love you”
I don’t understand why my mom needs to cry because she love me,
Is loving really hurt?
After we go to that weirdo man, my mom and I go to my Grandparents house
Grandma baked my favorite cookies. I love these cookies so much, if I can eat this all the time then I will.
My mom and grandma was talking I saw mom were crying again so, I ask grandpa why, then he just answered “because she loves you so much”
That answers again
Is loving really hurt?
I was five years old now, I was wondering what will happen to me when I grow old. Will I become a teacher or a dentist? Will I have my own family? Ahhhh family, I have my family, me and my mom, my grandparents and also my little teddy bear. One time when we were at church I saw my friend Linda, she is with her family, and she is beside a man who she called daddy so, I ask Linda what is daddy and she answered “mmm … he is my father, the one who play with me, bring me to the park, put me in his shoulder and also the one who love me so much and treat me like a princess” I just shook my head and thinking
Did I have a father? If do I where is he?
After we finally got home my mom is preparing our dinner
“Mommy did I have father?” she just smiled and said
“Yes of course baby why?”
“If I have, then where is he? Why he never plays with me, he never brings me in the park and he also never put me in his shoulder? Why mommy? Am I not his princess or he just doesn’t love me like Linda’s daddy do to her?”
Mom hug me tightly and I feel she is crying again
“Mommy?”
“Baby your dad love’s you so much remember that okay? He is always there; he can see everything that you do---“
“If he does that why I can’t see him?”
“He is in heaven baby”
“Heaven? What is it?”
“Hmmm come here” she goes the veranda, so I followed her there
“Can u see that star baby?” and she pointed the biggest and the brightest star
“Yes mommy”
“That is your dad, he can see us now.”
“Really?”
“Yes,”
“Mommy could I be one of them? Can I be a star?”
“Baby?...you know your daddy was crying right now “
”Why?”
“Because he loves you so much”
My dad was crying because he loves me?
Is loving really hurt?
After that day I always look that star and talking to my dad. Telling what Mr. Weirdo man does to me.
“Hi little girl”
“Hello, why I am here again? Will you give me another candy that has a bad taste?” I saw him, he look at my mother.
“No, I will just ask you a several question”
“Again?”
“Yes Allyssa, so let’s begin?”
“Okay!”
“so, do you feel pain in your bones?”
“hmm, my knees and my elbows always hurt but I think because i play to much and after a few minutes of play , i am very tired"
"okay , hmm is there any changes on your body?"
" i notice the black and blue bruising in my body mmm, and also when i brush my teeth---"
"its bleeding?"
"yes! do you know how to read mind? you already know my answer"
"no , its all for now alysa i will talk to your mom "
"okay, you will ask her the same question ?"
"hmm no! i will just say something that is very important"
after that he talks to my mom and i heared their conversation
"doc! how is she?"
"not good, day by day the symptoms of her disease was getting bad"
"what i will do now? " my mom are crying again
"she will undergo a biopsy .A biopsy is the only sure way to know whether leukemia cells are in her bone marrow"
"Will you remove the sample of bone marrow from the hip or from another bone ?Will it hurt? What will you do to prevent or control the pain?Will I have to do anything to prepare for it?How long will it take? Will she be awake?Are there any risks? What are the chances of infection or bleeding after the procedure?How long will it take her to recover?------" my mom look at me , because she hear me laughing
"baby why are u laughing?" my mom ask me
"hmm , becuase you asked him a many question and you dont allow her to answer your question one by one haha "
" baby!|" she hug me tightly
"ilove you mommy"
"i love you too dear"
after we go to the weirdo man we go to emy's hause because its her birthday. she is wearing a gown like a princess , i wish when my birthday comes i will have a dress like that
"oh ! before i forgot here is my gift for you"
"thank u allysa " then she hold my hand and then i feel something i , i can't see , my body was like melting
"mommy !" i am afraid , its too dark i want to cry
"baby why?"
"mom are u there?"
|baby? why? i am here what happen to you ?"
"mommy , i can't see can u open the light for me? please?"
"baby, " i hear them all of them was crying
""hey! everybody why are u crying ? mom?"
"allysa were crying becausewe love you so much " that's my bestfriend voice that was linda she hug me
"oh linda! don't cry please ! i love you all too , but can you do me little favor please?"
"yes "
"can u please take good care of my mom for a while , i just want to sleep just for a few minutes ,can u lin---"
i open my eyes then i saw my mommy was sleeping beside me, she look pale i remember i told linda to take care of her i think she did not do that.I don't know whay but my elbow was aching and the black and blue bruish are still there , i also saw linda have one and she called it birthmark .
"hey alyysa , how are you?" that weirdo man again and because of his voice my mom wake up
"im okay ! my elbow was aching but i can handle my self"
"okay, so you need to eat this okay " she have that candy again
"ahm mr. weirdo man can u ask my mom too id she is okay coz, she looks pale i think you should have give her a candy" he just smiled at me
"allysa your mom don't need candy, because you are her strenght so you need to be strong okay"
"okay ! hmm mr. weirdo man i want to sleep can u take care of my mom for a while?"
"ofcourse "
"thank you"
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