Its been two years since I have seen him. Why I can't forget his smell his touch his voice everything is so useless without him. Today it's his birthday I just want to hold him for at least five minutes in my arms just feel him my baby my first and only love.
I wish we all know what's going to happen next in our life. If we have little bit of that knowledge we all would have cherished the life which we get. But sometimes I wonder where did I went wrong with my decision to land myself in this predicament. As my mother use to say
'You can't always be safe you have get out and overcome your worst fear even if in the process it destroys you'. So i did the same thing went out and tested how does it feel to get destroyed.
So let me introduce myself my name is Ria and I got married at 18 and then divorce at 20 those two years of my life taught me some very important lesson of life. Now at 22 I am nothing;
being invisible is easy you just have to hide yourself better. For the last two years I have nobody to call mine no home no friends nothing just working for being alive.
It just hurt to think what you go through to just make living on your own. I have been home schooled I didn't know what goes outside the house. It's not because my parents didn't love me it was because we were migrant and life was very difficult for them. Having language barrier and facing job difficulties were enough for them. I had four brothers two uncle and my parents living together life was difficult for my mother and me.
From very early age i was told to help my mother. I love helping her because she worked hard full day for my family and helping her made me proud of myself. As I reach age of seven my father restricted me going out to play with other kids as going to school after play group was never the option for me. At ten going outside the house was done by only in the supervision of adults. But I was happy because I had my mother. All the thing in life doesn't stay same at my 13th birthday i lost my mother she was working and got late i was very scared that day i just wanted her to come home. At midnight i received the news i dreaded the most.
I lost my only connection my source of life.