I woke up with a start from my nightmare . I gropped for him . To my horror , the bed was empty . Suddenly I heard a gentle gurgle of the water from the bedroom . I heaved a sigh of relive .
Far across the room , the french windows allowed the moonlight to flood in . It was a gentle summer night . Silently I stood up and headed for the kitchen . From the top of the staircase I saw a newly furnished nursery room . My eyes began to fill with tears . I hurried down the steps .
Once down , I got hold of my emotions . God , my baby.. I hated myself from the terrible , horrible , disgusting mistake . I held back back my tears . I didn't want Jimin to see me crying .I stared into the murky coffee in my hands .
Slowly I decided to take a fresh breath of air outside . I sat at the patio staring at the velvety sky , twinkling with diamonds of the night .