i was never really good at studying
nor making my parents proud.
"world history 15%, english 10%, modern literature 12%, mathematics 0%."
"i can't even call these grades. they're just too horrible."
"my apologies mr. principal, i have such a stupid daughter."
"even with the reduced competition for places these days...
there's no way she'll be able to enter a university with these grades."
"i must have brought her up badly..."
"it's all your fault i was humiliated!"
my mom sobbed and blew her nose with a handkerchief.
"i'm ashamed to have a daughter like you.
you are a disgrace to our family's name!"
father slammed my report card on the dining table.
"you dumbass!
what are you gonna do once you get out of high school?"
my sister asked me; her voice clearly laced with annoyance and anger.
"um... well..."
it's all my fault that my entire family feels terrible.
i'm a stupid girl so it's all my fault.