Zack
I laid awake all night.
I wondered if Matt and I made the right decision in leaving the girls at the cafe with those two idiots.
Should we have attempted to talk to them? After all we had been searching for them for over a week. Then low and behold when we stopped looking we wound up finding them.
That kind of made me want to laugh in a way.
Jimmy always told me I would find the girl of my dreams,my soul mate the no its I quit looking.
The irony of his little quote and finding Desiree as I did wasn't lost on me.
Actually it's what was keeping me up.
I mean maybe he was right. Just it sucks that the girl had to be his girl.
I swear Jimmy would kill me if he were alive.
But still what if she's the one, my one, and when I found her I walked away.
Not just once but now twice.
Should I have stayed in the parking lot waiting for them to come out and talked to her?
Followed her home?
Then I could be waking up and going to her house instead of sitting here getting dressed to go to the Sullivan's in an attempt at finding her.
I literally found her, and damn it, Jimmy's voice is ringing in my ears "when you find her don't lose her or you'll regret it."
He was so right.
"Yo dick face you ready yet?" Mates voice boomed down my hallway.
"Yeah" I called even though really I didn't know what I was actually ready for.
We drove in silence in the way over to the Sullivan's. Neither of us had much to say.
I wanted to ask him had he tried to contact Kat again, question him if I made the right move in texting Desiree and talking her I hope she is happy with whoever that punk ass was.
But I didn't. I didn't want to seen weak in his eyes or pussy whipped.
We pulled up and there was an unknown car parked in the driveway.
"I wonder who that is?" I asked as we walked up the drive.
"Maybe Kellie or Katie got a new car" Matt shrugged unimpressed.
He knocked on the door as we waited for one kg Jimmy's parents to answer.
The wait wasn't long when Joe opened the door looking beyond shocked wet were there.
"Oh guys" he grimaced looking at us.
"Yeah hey Joe" I smiled. It was weird it was like he wasn't happy to see us.
"Yeah hey" he grinned walking out and closing the door behind him. "I'd invite you in but ur Barb gas some company"
"Oh bad time?" Matt asked.
"Well you could say that" Joe nervously laughed looking in the front window as he motioned for us to take a seat on the patio furniture. "So what brings you boys over?"
"We were in the neighborhood." Matt laughed but Joe gave us both a look that told us he didn't believe a word Matt just uttered.
"Is that so?" Joe questioned.
"Not really" I muttered
"I didn't think so" Joe laughed.
Then it hit me.
The girls.
Either they've been here or they're here now.
"Look I won't lie to you Joe it isn't fair" I smiled
"Before you start I'm pretty sure why you're here and truth be told boys I think we need to have a talk" Joe smiled "but before we begin would you two like a couple of beers?"
"God yeah, I need one" Matt sighed stretching out.
"Zack?" Joe questioned standing up.
"Yeah I need one." I nodded.
When Joe walked back I turned to Matt.
"He already knows what we're here for." I explained glancing back at the unknown car.
"What makes you believe that?" Matt questioned
"Oh come on dude, you just heard what he said " I laughed
"Yeah I guess" Matt agreed "but what are you thinking?"
"Either the girls are inside explaining how much of Fuck up we are" I muttered "or they were already here."
"So you think this is a loss cause?" Matt asked me glancing at the car as well.
"You know good and damn well if Joe wants to talk we aren't getting out of here" I hissed "but I'd bet my left nut that, that car belongs to Desiree otherwise Joe would've had us come in"
"Well nice to know they're taking a break from their new boyfriends to say hi to Joe and Barb" Matt barked scowling.
I wanted to forget about the douche bags but Matt was right.
I guess they were taking a break. Probably have plans tonight with them.
I know if it was me and Matt we would be smart enough hopefully to go back out with them a second time as soon as possible.
"Here you" Joe smiled handing us both beers. "Now what can I help you with you have questions I know that much."
"Have you seen Desiree?" I asked before asking a sip.
"Yeah I've seen her question is how recently are we talking?" Joe smiled.
"They're here aren't they?" Matt asked after swallowing a mouthful.
"Could be." Joe nodded "but please tell me you two why they would be. I want to hear from you."
"We're Fuck up" I muttered embarrassed
"In romance I would think so" Joe laughed.
"So they told you?" Matt muttered.
"Oh yeah they told us." Joe nodded "and let me say this I'm very disappointed in both of you."
"So are we" I agreed taking a huge gulp of my beer.
"Yeah" Matt nodded.
"Not enough I don't think" Joe snapped surprising me "Matt let me start with you."
"Sir" Matt tried but Joe cut him off
"No listen here," he barked "and I mean listen, you have yourself a beautiful honest woman that you were damn fortunate enough to marry. Although for the life of me I don't know why she married you. You're ungrateful. You're rude and you don't deserve her. Do you think its easy being married to a rock star? Not only does she know there's millions kg women who would gladly take her place she has to live with the fact that you show absolutely no emotion or affection where she's concerned in front of your friends. That's low Matthew. She feels like you're ashamed of her so ashamed you won't show your friends. Hell you even married her in secret."
"But I thought it was romantic" Matt whispered.
"Really?" Joe questioned "because that's not most girls dream wedding. And for the love of god how hard is it to tell her you love her in front kg the guys? Because the way I see it the rest of them have no problems showing their affection to their significant other. You night want to do something in front of everyone to show that because truth be told I think you may have just pushed her to far and a simple I'm sorry won't cut it. You've used one too many of the I'm sorrys to get out of things and bow it doesn't mean shit. So do something and do it big quickly because if not you're going to refer it."
"But what about her she didn't talk us about Dez." Matt asked.
Joe looked super pissed when he brought that up "Matt you're anger is unjustified." He thundered "that just shows you she's a good movie friend and honest. She won't tell anyone secrets including your own. Be grateful that's obviously something you need to learn do you understand me?"
"Yes sir" Matt muttered looking dejected.
"Now you" Joe spoke point at me
"Yes sir?" I asked fearful of what was coming because he just laid into Matt like I've never seen before.
"What's your problem?" Joe asked.
"I don't know" I whispered.
"Well I'll tell you what" Joe began "first of all you have no reason to feel like she lied to you, Desiree isn't a liar. I've known that girl since she was a little thing and lying isn't something she's capable of. Being quiet, reserved, guarded yeah she's that. But not a liar."
"She could have told me. The night after seeing you guys when I ditched dinner I went to her." I tried explaining but Joe shook his head.
"Yeah, I know you probably found her in a terrible state." Joe nodded "did the nightmares happen?"
"Yeah, they did and I stayed with her." I whispered "all night and the next day back into the night."
"And then you guessed she was his ex right" Joe asked me.
"Yeah" I nodded
"So instead of being kind to her because you just witnessed her at her absolute worse you stormed out." Joe chided "exactly what she was afraid would happen let me tell you."
"Yeah I fucked it all up" I mumbled
"Yep you did." Joe agreed "because she likes you, she's pretty pissed off right now, but she likes you and what's worse is she felt guilty about it."
"Why would she feel guilty?" Matt asked
"Because of Jimmy." Joe shrugged.
"Yeah I do too" I murmured.
"Both of you need to cut that shit." Joe hissed " Jimmy and Desiree dated yeah sure, but he's gone. He isn't coming back. He loved both of you, Zack you and Desiree, and if you make each other happy which I think you could, and can help each other let go of hurt over him he would be happy for you. So stop the damn guilt."
"But what now?" I asked him "we just want to apologize."
"Yeah and you should." Joe nodded "but now ain't the time."
"When then?" Matt and I asked in unison
"You'll know" Joe explained.
All of a sudden the front door opened and Kat and Desiree came out glaring at us.
God they looked beautiful.
Down right gorgeous but Fuck me they looked pissed.
"Where you running to?" Matt barked.
"Matt no" Joe whispered.
"Fuck off" Kat hissed shooting daggers.
"Yeah you've seen to that" Matt shouted.
I watched in horror as Kat looked as if she was ready to punch Matt.
"I fucking hate you" she screamed.
"Dez" I tried to smile grabbing her hand but she yanked away glaring.
"Don't fucking touch me" she hissed at me.
God it pissed me off.
"Again where you running off to?" Matt asked
"Yeah you got another hot date?" I snapped
"Why yes we fucking do" Kat bellowed grabbing Desiree's hand.
"God yes we fucking" Dez smirked "now if you'll excuse us. I guess we will see you in Mexico."
I watched horrified as the girls walked to the car and sped off without another glance towards us.
"You two are the biggest idiots I've ever met." Joe snapped giving Matt and I horrible looks "now go home."
Matt and I stood up.
We knew we were fucking idiots.
We also knew we weren't welcome any longer.
Joe walked inside and slammed the door without another word.
"I think we just made it worse." Matt muttered as we drive home
"Well there's still Mexico" I whispered.
God help us