CHAPTER 33
DYLAN'S
Hindi ko na alam kung ano pang mangyayari ngayon. Just when I thought everything's fine, biglang nagclash ang past at present ko. Bakit kelangan bumalik ni Monica?
It’s been years. She was my first love, my first real girlfriend. Bad boy type pa ako noon. She gets jealous, pero tinotolerate nya naman kapag may iba akong babae. Her reason was ayaw nya akong mawala. That was when I realized that she really loves me kaya ayun, in the end, natuto akong umayos sakanya. Too bad at hindi nya iyon nakita, she left me beause she was fed up with me and my girls daw. I blamed myself for that but then after a week, nalaman kong nasa abroad na sya dahil may boyfriend syang may katandaan na mapera at may koneksyon sa media industry.
I’ve been really mad at her, masama ang loob ko kasi nasaktan nya ako ng sobra. I though she could change me pero she made me worse. I’ve been dating different girls weekly, been playing with them too.
Pero matagal na iyon eh. Nakalimot na ko. Or maybe that’s what I thought.
But seeing her again? Nagulo nanaman ang utak ko! Ayoko. I don't want to cheat. Mahal ko si Maxine at alam kong loyal sya sakin.
Niyakap ko sya from behind noong humiga sya sa kama at sinadya kong iparamdam sakanya ang nararamdaman ko. I know I found Monica so oozing hot kanina pero nung agad kong narealize na may napakaganda at napakasexy akong girlfriend, everything I’ve been feeling was always for my Maxine. I felt hot for Maxine. Alam kong nagseselos sya kaya lalong naboost ang pagkalalaki ko. I want to make her feel na sakanya lang ako.
But she turned me down. Lumayo sya sakin and wala na kong ibang magawa kundi tanggapin na lang. 30mins din akong nakatulala sa kawalan habang himbing na himbing na si Maxine sa pagtulog.
Naramdaman kong nagvibrate ang phone ko kaya naman agad ko itong binasa.
From: M
Dylan, we need to talk. PLEASE. Room 503. NOW. -Monica
Hindi na sana ako pupunta pero noong nakita kong naka-ALL CAPS ang please ni Monica, I realized it must be something serious. In fact, I guess I owe her an explanation and an apology, perhaps? And she has to give me that too.
Ingat na ingat akong bumangon sa kama at nagsuot ng beach pants at isang sando. Ayokong magising si Maxine, ayokong malaman nya ito. Dahil nakasisiguro naman ako na pagkatapos nito, hindi na ako lalamunin ng konsensya ko.
Dali dali akong naglakad patungo sa hotel. Pagkarating ko sa room nya, nakita ko syang nakaupo sa sofa at nahawak ng wine glass. She's still wearing that dress. I sighed. Why did I even find her sexy an hour ago? She looked like a slut in that dress. I should have realized that first.
“Here.” She patTed the space next to her. Hindi ko sya sinunod.
“What is it?” I asked.
"Dylan.." Nabigla ako nang sunggaban nya ako ng halik. The hell is wrong with her! Agad agad ko syang itinulak.
"Monica! What was that for?!" I asked as I wiped my lips.
She laughed bitterly. "I missed you, Dylan."
"But you can't just kiss me dahil lang sa namiss mo ko! I am in a relationship now!" Galit kong sabi sakanya.
"I know.. but I just don't care! I've waiTed for this time to come, Dylan! Dahil until now, ikaw pa rin ang mahal ko!" I wasn’t sure kung totoo ang sinasabi nya but I just don’t care. I wanTed to hurt her so bad pero babae sya at hindi ako marunong manakit ng babae.
"I love her, Monica." I honestly said.
"But you still love me, too." Pagpupumilit nito. "Ramdam ko at halata sa mga mata mo."
I buried my face onto my palms. I should have know how desperate she is!
"Don't go near me, Monica! Let me clear this once and for all. Tapos na tayo. I am over you. Hindi na kita mahal. Kung may naramdaman man siguro ako nung nagkita tayo uli, wala yun kundi pagkabigla lang. I am not in love with you, Monica. I have Maxine and I'm serious with her. Kung gano kita minahal noon.. wala pa yun sa kalingkingan ng pagmamahal ko sakanya. Please, whatever plans you have, wag mo na ituloy. Binabalaan kita." That’s it and then I left her there crying. I could only pity her right now, pero hindi ko alam kung karapat dapat pa sya doon.
I was furious when I left Monica. Hindi ko akalain na gagawin nya iyon and I hate myself dahil pinuntahan ko pa sya.
Agad kong nakita si Maxine na mahimbing sa pagkakatulog.
"Shit." I cursed dahil nakokonsensya ako. How could I leave this girl para sa Monica na iyon? Damn me. Maaring nabulagan ako sa excitement at sa pagkabigla kahapon sa unang beses na pagkikita muli namin ni Monica after 5 years. I thought may feelings pa siguro dahil na rin sa sya ang pinakaunang babaeng sineryoso ko pero matapos ng nangyari kanina, doon ko napatunayan na tanging pagkagalak na lamang ang naramdaman ko sa muli naming pagkikita.
I felt the urge of hugging, touching and being inside Maxine right now kaya niyakap ko sya ng mahigpit. Gusto ko syang maramdaman. "Maxine, please."
I cupped her breast and laking gulat ko noong naramdaman kong nagrespond ang katawan nya. Damn this girl. Kahit tulog ay kinikilala pa rin ng katawan nya ang paghawak ko.
"Even when you sleep, your body is mine, Maxine." I whispered near her ears habang pinupunta ko ang kamay ko sa kanyang pagkababae. I massed it through her undies and I felt something wet after a while.
"Uhh.." Hindi ko alam kung nanaginip ba ako o nagiilusyon lang pero parang narinig ko ang munting ungol ni Maxine. Pero hindi pa rin naman sya gumagalaw.
O baka nagtutulog-tulugan?
My hands went inside her undies and laking gulat ko noong medyo nagpart ang kanyang hita. She's awake! I know she is! Nagkukunwari lang syang tulog. I tried to put my fingers in and I slowly moved it with rhythm and then doon ko naramdaman ang mabigat nyang paghinga.
Napangisi ako dahil alam kong nagpipigil sya marahil sa nangyari kaninang dinner.
"Max, I am yours.” Muli kong bulong habang pilit na idinidiin ang katawan ko sa katawan nya.
"Uhh.." Narinig ko muli ang kanyang pigil na ungol.
She's fighting it back, isn't she? But I have to make her surrender. I took her from behind.
"Maxine.." I breathlessly said habang ginagalaw ko ang katawan ko. I though magkukunwari na lang syang tulog hanggang sa matapos ito pero unti unti kong naramdaman ang paghawak nya sa batok ko.
I moved faster as she continuously moaned with pleasure. Paulit ulit kong binaggit ang pangalan nya hanggang sa pareho naming natamasa ang kaligayahan. Wala kaming imikan pagkatapos nun, niyakap ko na lang sya ng mahigpit hanggang sa pareho na kaming nakatulog. No words spoken and yet, I feel complete.