"Oh god Luke stop it". I ran over to him and kissed him so hard we both slammed against the wall and I'm pretty sure the neighbours heard but oh well. Deal with it!
"Camila I can't believe you..." He said pulling me away for a second in amazement. "You've come so far.. And last night I could have sworn you were the shyest girl in the club and now look!" Should I be thanking him for that or?? Going back to my old ways?! I liked the new me. I think I could stay this way forever actually. "Shall we take this elsewhere?"
"Absolutely". That was the moment that not a single other idea of panic or overthinking happened. I just went with it.
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CHAPTER 4:
We both stared each other in the eyes and he then grabbed my arm and pulled me up the stairs. He must've been up here while I was asleep or something because I hadn't brought him up here last night and he certainly hasn't been up here this morning.
"Your room?" He questioned me. Was this going to really happen. Like.... REALLY happen because I'm not sure if I should tell him I'm a virgin... I don't want it to be too sudden and I'm scared that it'll scare him away. I don't want to lose him.
"Straight ahead". I trailed behind him with various thoughts running through my head now... Am I overthinking this? It shouldn't be too bad should it? It's only sex. But then again, I've had no experience and what if I do something wrong or he thinks I'm am retard and laughs at me. I don't think I could stand that humiliation. This is so wrong.
"Wow you look stunning" He said as he was lifting my shirt off, exposing my bare skin with only my bra. "Here let me take this off...". He was looking at my necklace when he said that and took it off then carefully placed it on my dresser. "Oh and if you wouldn't mind... can I take this off too?" He gestured looking at my chest. Oh my god... the butterflies that were in my stomach were about to be thrown up.
"Go for it..." I said cunningly and without hesitation he did, I was in disbelief that this would ever happen... Let alone to me! I could see he really wanted this and in a way so did I... God he's hot and I bet that body under those clothes is fit and toned and ugh. "Can I help with yours?" I said tugging as his shirt and jeans suggesting to pull them off. "Could your jeans get any skinner Luke?! They are tighter than mine!" I managed to pull his shirt and jeans off and he pulled mine off as well... The only thing left of us was our underwear...
"I'm not kidding Camila when I say I need you right now. You are stunning and all I can say is that if anybody tried to hurt you, I'd protect you because your my angel". With that he wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled us so close that our chests were touching and he was all over me. He grabbed my ass really hard before I leaped and wrapped my legs around him as we slammed on the wall. Our lips crashing and tongues passing each other. I was practically swallowing his tongue.
It felt amazing though and I could feel his length up against me slowly getting harder and harder. It was such a good feeling but could I go through with this? My heart is pounding a million miles an hour and this feeling of being wanted and needed is taking over me. Thoughts of it actually happening and the after affects or turning him away and going back to square one where my life was boring and contained no boys, no partying and definitely no sex.
"Are-You-Sure-You Wanna do -this" I said in broken words as my eyes were closed while we were still kissing and his hands were making their way down to my underwear slowly edging them off. "Luke!" I shrieked as he went to fully remove them. "Uh... Um" I didn't know what to say... Should I tell him I'm a virgin and that I don't want to make a fool of myself. Or should I just say I'm not ready and it's that time of the month as an excuse or something... I can't decide and it's killing me.
"Yeah babe... What's wrong?" He gazes at me with wide deep blue eyes that shimmer like the night sky
"Uh nothing... Do you have one of those... Uh... You know?" I was mentally slapping the shit out of myself for saying that. Now I have to have sex. Like.. I want to have it with him.. But just not yet! Should I just tell him? Because this really isn't right and I'm not %100 comfortable. Oh and do I ever shut up? No. Do I overthink things? Yes all the time.
"Well I better grab it then". Oh... He had this huge grin on his face I could tell he wanted this badly and his dimples and toned muscles were seriously getting the better of me... "I think this will help". He was pulling my underwear off and it fell to floor seconds later... He grabbed his own and threw it across the room. He then straddled me so I was fully wrapped around him and his length was up against me and he twirled us around and threw us on the bed so he was on top of me. "Hey Camila you look worried... Do you wanna do this?". I really wasn't comfortable, but then again he was asking and I did have the option to tell him I wasn't %100 all for it.
"Uh.. No I'm happy... You make me feel so good Luke". I'm not gonna lie... He did. I was enjoying this and our connection felt so real.
"Are you sure?"
"Yeah I'm sure" I said with a simple smile as he was hovering over me.
He stared me in the eye and said "It's ok babe... You're gonna be alright... Just tell me to stop if you need me too". He is so sweet really he is. But this is a serious matter and I couldn't afford for anything to go wrong.
"Ok... I trust you". I put all my faith in him. My eyes widened as he was stretching inside me. My stomach formed this pit of pleasure and pain. I cried out and winced at the slight pain.
"Oh god Camila... This isn't your first time is it? Actually... If I'm going to be honest.... It's my first time... Am I doing everything right?" What the hell. I swear. No guy would ever say that.
"I don't know what to say Luke, yes. It is my first time and i was afraid to tell you an-". He stopped me from talking and put his finger on my mouth to stop me.
"I don't know about you... But I'm enjoying it.. And as long as we are safe...nothing else can happen right?". Right. Was I meant to believe him or should I just say no right now before this goes too far?
"I am too Luke but I think... Because we are both inexperienced... And have never done this before, and to the fact that I've only known you for not even a whole day... That maybe we should get to know each other more a different way... Then maybe we can come back to this? I'm really enjoying it I truly am.. I adore your company and if I'm being honest you are sexy as fuck and I really just wanna take you right now but... I don't know how.. WE don't know how".
"You know what.. I agree. Most other guys would tell you that's total bullshit right now but I do. I agree with you and I think we should pace ourselves before we go ahead with anything."
"Can we just cuddle? It's nearly lunch time... Should we go out somewhere?"
"Sounds perfect". He kissed me on the forehead and he pulled me in closer as we just lay there for the next half an hour spooning and talking about our hobbies.
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"So are you interested in any music?"
"Yeah I love all genres, in fact I have covers of songs on YouTube that I've made... You should see them sometime. I'm in a band with my 3 other mates. Remember Calum, Michael and Ashton from lastnight? Yeah we are in a band called 5 Seconds Of Summer. We haven't really put ourselves 'out there' yet but we are slowly getting there. Maybe when our first album comes out and we have a music video you can be in it?".
"Oh wow Luke... I didn't know you were sexy and talented". I smirked and then gestured so he would tell me more. I didn't realise that he could sing! I'm going to have to get him and the rest of the band to perform for me sometime!
"Yeah we should... over lunch? Let me take you out.. I know a nice place in town". I like how this boys thinks. He is one of the most genuine and kindhearted boys I will ever know. We had to get a taxi there because I didn't own a car and Luke was obviously at my house and didn't have access to his car.
"This is a nice place! Wow you don't even live in Adelaide and you know all the right spots". We sat down in this little vintage/retro cafe that was very small and cosy. I liked it. It was away from people and it left us to just chill and talk.
*** I AM TERRIBLY SORRY IT TOOK SO DAMN LONG TO UPDATE. SO MUCH HAS BEEN GOING ON AND BC ITS NEARLY CHRISTMAS IM STRESSING LIKE... HEAPS IDK WHY BUT THIS CHAPTER WASNT VERY GOOD.... SORRY... I JUST WASNT FEELING IT AHA NEXT ONE WILL BE BETTER LOL! MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE! MUCH LOVE FROM AUSTRALIA AND ME! #5SOSFAM JESS XX TWITTER : @hemmodaisy