Alexa's POV
"You can sit down you know. I'm not going to bite but I am going to talk and you're going to listen." I said and she walked over and sat down on the chair next to my bed. She looked so sad but I felt nothing. It was like all the love I felt for her was gone.
"I'm going to go back home to Dad's for a while and then I'm leaving with Ash on Monday. I won't be back for two weeks and then I'll be going back to dad's for a few days. Everything is already arranged so you can't change them."
"Okay. Now you have to listen to me. Lex I am so so sorry I said those things to you earlier. I didn't know you would get offended so much by them. I understand if you want to leave our house and live with Car for a while but just don't shut me out. Or Kelley. I know I hurt you a lot but Lex I do love you. I meant everything I said to you that night and I know you know that."
FLASHBACK TO 3 YEARS AGO.
"Lex, baby girl, I need you to hear me out if you can, okay? You're the reason I wake up in the morning and go to sleep happy at night. You're the reason why I never stop smiling because I think of all those little things you do like how you giggle when you're nervous or how you always try to act tough during scary movies but eventually give up and leave the room. I know I'm not the best mother in the world but I'm trying my hardest not to disappoint you but I guess I failed. Lex I just don't understand how someone as sweet and gentle and kind like you is my daughter. You bring out the gentle side of me I guess. And when I first met you on that plane ride I instantly fell in love with you like how I did when you were just a peanut in my stomach. You are the best thing that has ever happened to me Lex and I'm trying my best not to disappoint you." I heard mom cry when I was supposedly asleep one night. We got into an argument and I got so upset and cut myself for the first time. When she walked in I just had a little scratch and wasn't bleeding but she was scared. She cleaned it up and wrapped a bandage around it. She got so upset and called Ash to fly over to help. She arrived the following morning with Ali and stayed with us for a month. Mum wasn't living with us at the time but took personal leave from soccer to come help. I scared them all and they were watching me like hawks. They even stayed through all of my soccer practices and asked the teachers to keep an eye out for me. They picked and dropped me to school everyday and waited until the bell rung so they could leave. Dad and Car would take me away every weekend for a break from them and I couldn't of been more grateful for them. That night mom came into my room and sat into my bed and wrapped an arm around me. She was facing me and pulled me into her chest and ran her fingers through my hair and told me her speech. She was crying while telling me but after she was finished she got up and left me. I cried myself to sleep and woke up the following morning in Ali's arms and Ash facing us.
Back to present time-
"I really sorry Lex." She took my hand in hers and I looked into her eyes. They were red and puffy and full of tears. After my flashback all the feelings came back and I was heartbroken. I pulled my hand out of hers and she frowned. She looked down and stood up. She was about to walk away but I grabbed her hand again. She looked at me and I scooted over in the bed so she could lay next to me. I patted the spot and gave a small smile. She sat down next to me and I was instantly pulled into her chest. I missed having her hold me and I could feel my eyes filling with tears. I started crying and mom tightened her grip around me. She kissed the top my head ran her fingers through my hair. I ended up falling asleep that way.
Kelley's POV
When Hope walked out of Lex's room she looked so upset. I got off of Carli's lap and walked over to her. When she saw me walking over to her put her head down so she was looking at the ground. I picked it up by her chin and kissed her. She kissed back instantly and I felt her smile against my lips. After I pulled away I rested my forehead against her nose.
"I love you." I whispered. She kissed my forehead and wrapped her arms around my waist and hugged me tight. I smiled and hugged back. When she let go I took her hand in mine and walked over to the rest. Carli wouldn't look at her so she got up and walked outside. Ali gave her a small smile before getting up to hug her. Ash followed and so did Brian. I left them and went to see where Carli went. I walked outside and found her leaning against a rail with her back turned to me. I walked over and stood next to her not saying anything.
"She's going to be okay you know. If we stick together and put up a strong front then that'll make her want to get better." I said looking at Car. She gave a small smile and looked over at me.
"You know the two of you are exactly alike it's scary. She's a daughter to me. I just got so scared when I realised what she would do when I was at your house. And then listening to her tell me she was scared. It broke my heart. She was lifeless in my arms Kel. I don't think I will ever forget that."
"And I don't think Ash will ever forget that phone call. When she hung up she didn't cry at all. She just got scared. She though Lex was dead. We all did to be honest. Lex's the only reason as to why we're all so close."
"I know. I understand. Kelley?"
"Yeah Car?"
"Is she gonna leave us?"
"I honestly don't know. I hope not. All we can do now is keep an eye on her and just hope she doesn't leave again." Carli nodded and we walked back into the hospital. Ali and Ash were on talking with Lex while Hope and Brian were sitting on different ends of the row of seats glaring at each other. I walked over to Hope and sat on her lap. I turned her head so she was looking at me. I kissed her lips and put my hands on the back of her head. After I pulled away I leaned my forehead against hers.
"You want to go in alone or will we go in together?"
"We'll go in as a family." I smiled at her response. I sat on her lap for a while and then Ash and Ali walked out. Ali was crying and Ash was trying to console her. Hope and I got up and walked over to them. I pulled Ali into a hug and wiped away her tears.
"She's going to be okay." I whispered in her ear. She gave me a sad smile and walked over to Ash, who was talking to Hope. She hugged her and turned to Ali. Hope walked over to me and I took her hand in mine and intertwined our fingers. I knocked and walked into Lex's room. She was sitting up on her bed with a big smile on her face when she saw us.
"Hi mum."
"Hey baby girl. How you holding up?"
"A lot better than I was earlier. I just want to go home."
"We know baby. It's just one night. And then you'll be back home." I walked over to her bed and sat next to her. Her smile was gone and now replaced by a frown and tears streaming down her face. I wiped them away with my thumb and she did the same for me. We let out a small laugh and I pulled her into a hug.
"If you want to go home with Brian and Carli then by all means do that Lex but you have to know your mom and I will always love you no matter what your decision." I whispered in her ear. I pulled away and she looked at Hope, who was standing at the end of the bed looking at us. I gave her a nod and she came and sat on the chair on the side of the bed Lex was. I gave her a smile and she did the same. Lex reached out her hand to Hope and Hope took it in hers and Lex smiled.
"We're a family. Even if we're a broken one you are still my mother's. I'm sorry for what I did I really am. I didn't mean for it to go this far. I'm willing to try fix us if you are?" Lex said looking between the both of us.
"I am kid. Hope?" We both looked at her but she wouldn't make eye contact with us.
"I don't know where I would be without my two girls in my life. I'll never leave your side. Not today. Not tomorrow. Not ever. Especially now when you need me the most." Hope said looking up at us. I looked at Lex and her face lit up after what Hope said. Tears started to fall down her cheek and Hope stood up and wiped them away. I smiled and took Hope's hand in mine.
"I'm going to come home to you guys but can Dad and Car stay too? And same with Ash and Ali?" Lex asked looking between the both of us. I looked at Hope and gave her a look and turned my head slightly to the side.
"Of course kid. You'll just have to sleep with us in our bed until you leave Monday." She said.
"I'm okay with that." Lex replied with a huge smile on her face.
Alexa's POV
I got to leave the hospital the next morning which I am grateful for because I didn't sleep comfortably on those beds and I was wrecked. Mom signed me out and we walked out to the car. Ali was leaning against the car on her phone. I ran up to her and kissed her cheek. She screamed and pulled me into a hug. She plastered kisses all over my face while mom just laughed.
"Ali I love you too but let go. I'm tired and I just want to sleep." She laughed and kissed me one more time before letting go. I got into the back and buckled in. Mom drove and Ali was in the front seat on her phone. I looked out the window and watched the shops zoom past. I saw mom looking at me through the mirror and I looked at her. I smiled at her and she smiled at me too. After a few more minutes we pulled in the driveway. Dad's car was there along Ash's. I got out of the car and took a deep breath. Mom walked in the house and Ali followed but I stayed outside the door. I sat on the steps and looked at the scars on my arm. I took a shaky breath and closed my eyes right. I got up off the step and turned and walked into someone. I looked up and saw Ash standing there. I hugged her and I felt her sigh. I looked up at her and she gave me a small smile.
"Cmon kid we're going on a walk." I didn't want to tell her I was tired so I just went with her. We walked up to our secret spot. We sat down against the tree and looked out over the town. I put my head against her shoulder and she put hers on my head and wrapped an arm around me.
"Spill."
"Spill what?"
"What's going on through your mind?"
"There's nothing."
"Kid I know when you're lying. I'm the only one who knows when you are or not."
"Fine. I was just thinking how different things are going to be from now on."
"Lex things change for the better."
"I know but I just feel like it's only going to get worse."
"Kid look here's the thing. You really scared us. I know you thought it was going to take the pain away but Lex it only caused us all pain. You are the only reason why all of us are best friends. You're the reason why we are family. Whether you like it or not we ain't going anywhere anytime soon. The same goes for you missy. Don't ever scare us like that again."
"I'm sorry Ash I really am. I didn't know I would hurt everyone that much." She pulled me into a hug. We watched the clouds for a while. I guess I fell asleep because I woke up in mom's arms around me in her bed. She was sound asleep and so was mum. I looked at the clock and saw it was 3:24 in the morning. I slowly got out of mom's grip and climbed off the bed. I went to the bathroom and brushed my teeth. I had a horrible taste in my mouth. I walked downstairs and turned on the television. I watched some soccer games that we had recorded but eventually got tired. I got up to turn off the tv but I found a DVD box with 'Lex' written on it. I put it it and waited for it to play. It was one of my soccer games. I heard mom's voice behind the camera cheering me on. Mum was standing up and roaring at the ref for not calling a foul. I laughed because that was typical mum. I saw Dad and Car standing next to the them as well. I scored and mom dropped the camera. It went black but I still heard her screaming. She cursed and then picked up the camera again and it showed her face. She looked so different from now. She began talking.
"Well Lex you did it again. That's you 3 goal this game. I am so proud of you baby girl." I saw Car in the background.
"She's taking after me Hope. She'll never be a goalie sorry to break it to you." I laughed at her comment. Mom's face appeared again alongside Mum.
"Well Lex I gotta say you are one hell of player. We are so proud of you and can't wait to see you in years to come. Hopefully you're still playing football and kicking ass on the field, which you probably will because you're so good. I love you baby girl keep it up and you'll be on the national team before you know it." The screen went black and the DVD appeared again. I got up and put it back into its case and sat back down on the couch. I pulled out my phone and looked through social media but nothing interesting so I turned it off. I walked up the stairs to go back to bed. I stopped outside mom's door but changed my mind and walked over to the other side of the hall to my room. I opened the door and saw dad and Car asleep. I walked in and shut the door quietly. I walked over the Carli's side and shook her slightly.
"Hey Car are you awake?"
"Lex? Is that you? Are you alright?"
"Yeah I'm fine. I just couldn't sleep."
"Hop in kid and I'll wake up B so we can talk." I went under the covers next to Car. She woke up dad and he groaned and got out of bed to use the bathroom. He came out and let the light on so we could see. I moved into the middle of them and dad wrapped his arms around me.
"What's on that big head of yours?" Car asked while running her fingers through my hair. I chuckled and I could hear dad laugh too.
"I don't have a big head."
"Ah kid yes you do. You get it from your father."
"My father?" I sat up and so did Carli. I could see she instantly regretted saying that.
"Am no. Lex just forget about it okay?"
"No how can I forget about it? Mom told me she didn't know who my father was." I got out of bed and walked towards the door. I felt someone grab my arm and I turned to see dad.
"Lex just drop it okay? It's not important to wake up your mom about this at 4 am." He said.
"Not important? Jeez dad I would have though you would be on my side for this. It's important to me okay." I got out of his grip and stormed down the hall with them following behind me. I walked into mom's room and turned on the light. She groaned and mum shot up giving me a glare.
"You lied to me. Why did you lie to me?"
"Lie about what Lex?"
"That you didn't know who my father is."
"Lex Brian is your father. You literally called him dad a few hours ago."
"Not him. My biological father. You told me you didn't know who he was and Carli is telling me you do. Who is he? What's his name?"
"Lex it's too early for this. You're tired just forget about it okay?"
"No. You lied to me again. I honestly don't know why I keep leaving my guard down for you when you do nothing but hurt me. Who is he?"
"Jason Shanahan."
"WHAT? I MET MY FATHER BEFORE AND YOU DIDN'T TELL ME. I seriously thought you were different but I guess I was wrong again."
"Lex listen..."
"To what? Another lie? No thank you. I'm done with you crap. Call me when your ready to actually ready to be my mother." I stormed out of the room with tears streaming down my face. Ash and Ali were standing outside the door. I brushed past them and ran down the stairs. I put on my shoes and grabbed my jacket and phone and ran out the door. I didn't know where I was walking to but I ended up at the field. Coach always left the locker room opened because Carli always liked to come take the soccer balls and cones to go training. I walked in and grabbed them and threw on the spare cleats I keep there. I walked back out to the field and started taking shots. It helps clear my mind and leave all the anger out. I scored them all in the different corners. After my 20th kick I broke down. I fell to the ground and started crying. I pulled my legs into my chest and cried. I felt arms around me and pick me up. They pulled me into their chest and hugged me tight. I cried into their shirt. After I calmed down a bit I looked up and saw him. I jumped out of his grip and stood up and backed away from him.
"Dad...."