dear jagiya,
it's been a while since you left us. your parents arranged your funeral a week after you passed and i've been a wreck ever since....
at first, i was angry. i was angry at you for not telling me....but i was mostly angry at myself for leaving when you needed me. i realize now that you were just trying to protect me from the truth and i thank you for that.
your parents check in with me from time to time to see if i'm okay. and some days i am, and some days i'm not. i read through your journal after your mother gave it to me..and i was glad to find out how you felt about me after all this time.
the guys have been pretty helpful as well. they've been trying to get my mind off of your death and onto the good times we had.
i wish you were here so we could be together....
i love you, jaimee denise holsen