I'm sorry, I don't hate you. I love you, but I simply hate myself for loving you.
Holy shit, do I wish I was able to love myself half as much as I loved-and love-you, because believe me, not one person is ever going to love anyone as much as I love you.
I'm not sure if this is how it works. I don't know if love hurts you in specific ways depending on the person you fall in love with.
In other words, I don't know if I love you so much, because it's you that I'm in love with or because I've never actually loved anyone.
You only taught me how to love you, but when will I ever love myself?