( 1 WEEK LATER )
Mez Pov
It's been a week since I've gotten out of hospital and I honestly couldn't be more happier to be home.
Dads gone off to help mum out on business in Queensland
So I've been staying home with Chris while my parents are away
Things are really gonna change when the guys have to go and finish off their tour which they put on hold just for me, I'm really going to miss them
They leave in about a week and I can just tell that it's going to fly past, but I guess I'll just have to make the most of it till then
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As for me,
yeh I'm doing okay, I'm not as upset as i used to be but im glad that I got things out
I just really need someone to talk to,
I'm just afraid that if I go to Chris and tell him EVERYTHING, then he'll leave but i dont know what he'll do honestly
He's quite the gentleman if you ask me
Our relationship, Is really complicated at the moment and i dont know if that's just he wants to give me some space, if likes me or wants to stay just friends
I kind of like him I guess,
I mean,
He did help me through a lot over the past few months and he is really sweet and kind
But I just don't see him falling for someone like me
After all, I'm just a fan
Even though I don't feel like it anymore
I feel like I've really gotten to know the boys well, more than what any other fan knows, I'm just sad to see them go back to their normal lives
Millions of screaming fans
Tours in other different states
Barely getting any sleep
And random people knocking on their front door step
That's what's normal is to these boys.
I just wanna help them so they do stay nice and healthy
After all, look at what they've done for me
They stopped their own tour for me
(But anyways, enough of that)
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Right now, I'm having lunch with my best friend Shelby at a new restaurant in town called "Crusties"
It quite of an urban restaurant but the food here is insane!
I slip out of my trance of thoughts and see Shelby mouth the words that's she's saying to me
"So how are things with you and Chris??" She asks
"Honestly, I'm really not too sure, it's complicated" I trail off... Fidgeting with the food on my plate
"Dude, he totally likes you" she tells me
"What, no he doesn't" I Immediately reply
"And you like him to." Shelby says confidently
"I never said that" I tell her
"Oh c'mon Mez, I've seen the way you guys look at each other, you both have that spark in your eyes when the two of you are near each other"
"Look, even if I did like him, he's not gonna like me back, why would someone so kind and innocent like someone like me?? Chris is in a famous boy band touring the country may I remind you, okay Shelby look at all those screaming fans in the crowd, I was one of them" I quietly shout
"Mez I know that's not what he thinks of you, Chris knows well enough not to hurt you and he will protect you, you can't push him away like what you did with Calum, you can't let go of Chris, he means too much to you" Shelby tells me as I trail off into my own thoughts
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She has a point
My feeling are getting stronger and stronger for Chris every time I'm in sight with him
I just feel like If I tell him that I like him then things will get all weird
It's probably for the best though, I Like being friends with him...oh my god what are you saying Mez... you love him and you want to be with him... no stop I can't be, he's famous, he'll get hate I can't do that to him...
I don't know anymore, my thoughts are telling me one thing but my heart is tell me another
I face the fact that he's doesn't live in the same state as me and it will be harder to see each other
Being friends is enough yeh??... NO MEZ IT'S NOT AND IF YOU KNEW WHAT WAS RIGHT FOR YOU, YOU WOULD BE WITH THIS BOY
one of my thoughts tell me
NO YOU CANT BE WITH HIM, HE'S FAMOUS AND IF THE FANS FIND OUT THEN YOU'RE BOTH SCREWED AND YOU DONT REALLY WANT TO DEAL WITH THAT
another thought tells me
WHAT IF HE DOESNT LIKE ME BACK? WHAT WILL I DO THEN? I DONT WANT TO RUIN WHAT I HAVE WITH HIM
HES TOO SPECIAL
I LOVE HIM, BUT HE DOESNT KNOW THAT
BUT I KIND OF WANT HIM TO KNOW
I WANNA BE HAPPY WITH HIM
HE MAKE ME HAPPY
I NEED TO BE WTH HIM
but how? He's not gonna like me for me
What would an innocent and kind person like Chris, want to be with someone so bossy and obnoxious like me?
My other thought tells me
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I snap out of my trance of thoughts when Shelby starts waving her hand in front of me
"Oh sorry, I was just stuck in my own thoughts" I apologize to her
"And what are they telling you?" She asks
"I dont know, that's the thing" I pause as I quickly take a sip of my lemonade and place it down beside me, I begin to speak
"One of my thoughts are telling me that I can't be with him,
Another One says to be with him because I "love" him, and my last thought is tell me that he may not feel the same way..." looking down at my hands as small tears dwell up in my eyes, I quickly look at the roof and flutter my eyes so that the tears slowly go away
"He does feel the same way Mez, I know it"
"How do you know that?"
"I just do okay" she reassures me
"Okay..." I trail off
"anyways guess what!"
"What!?" I ask
"I have a boyfriend" she tells me excitedly
"Oh my god really, who?"
She pauses for a second and then speaks
"Ethan"
"Oh my god I knew it"
"What how?" She asks
"My welcome home party last week, I saw the way the both of you looked at one another, I could tell since you both first saw each other that it's meant to be" I tell her
"Naww thanks"
"No problem"
We go back to eating the last of out food when Shelby gasps and jumps right out of her seat
"I HAVE AN IDEA" Shelby quietly yells
"WHAT IS IT?" I mock her
"Ethan and I are going to set you and Chris up" she tells me
"And how are you going to do that?" I have to ask
"You'll see..." she smirks
A/N
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