WARNING: May need tissues.
This chapter may or may not make you cry.
Sure made me cry...
[The first long break, and... ]
Minhyuk: Honestly, due to the long hiatus that we were on, I thought that a lot of fans would have left us.
Minhyuk: I think that 'oh because I'm not showing them what they want to see, will they still like me even if they don't see me?'
Minhyuk: I think and worry over this a lot.
Shownu: To be honest, to like someone and to be loyal to someone for a very long time *pause*
Shownu: It's not very easy for me.
Shownu: So I really don't know how to express my thanks to everyone.
Kihyun: There are a lot of fans that play the role of a defense shield for us (against hate comments and such).
Kihyun: and the way I see it is that I would constantly question myself 'they really would do that for us'? (are we really worth this?)
Hyungwon: Although it's great that we get to go on stage but whenever things are hard
Hyungwon: I tend to think about the Monbebes who are there to cheer us on.
I.M: We didn't get the newcomers award...
I.M: We were the ones who didn't get it but there were fans who kept apologizing to us saying that it's their fault. It made my heart ache a lot.
I.M: It's actually our fault that we weren't good enough...
Wonho: I was really feeling apologetic to the fans *wipes face*
Wonho: and it made my heart hurt a lot. But, I'm actually very thankful.
DAMMIT. I'm tearing.
It hit me very hard since beginning of this because I know for a fact that Minhyuk is obsessed with checking social media. He's always, ALWAYS checks the comments in YouTube, Facebook, Weibo, fan cafe, etc. He also watches back the vlives they do to spam hearts (before and after) and check the comments there.
I wish I had discovered them sooner.
So glad that I randomly decided to have YouTube autoplay videos, otherwise I don't think I ever would've known about them.
We love you Monsta X and what kind of Monbebes would we be if we left you cause you stopped to take a break for a while???
That's no fan to me.
Stay strong boys!