Not sure kung Epilogue next. Medyo cheesy 'to. Hahahah. Nakakatuwa na nandito pa rin yung ibang nakasama ko simula book 1 sa pagbuo nito.
Isa ka ba dun? Itaas ang kilay.:)
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Nakatayo ako sa gilid habang kinakausap ni Sehun si Hanse. Hanse is crying knowing na hindi sasama sa kanila si Sehun sa Seoul and I know, it's hurting Sehun. Napagdesisyonan nyang ipaubaya si Hanse kay Yna. Yna and I looked at each other, no bitterness, she was genuinely smiling at me. Yes, I could feel it.
"Your mom and I can't be together."
"Why?" iyak ni Hanse.
"Ssh. Don't cry. When you grown up and you let someone be part of your life, you will understand, son." Sehun whispered, tapping Hanse's back, "Take care of your mom. Ok?" tumango tango lang si Hanse.
"Will you vitit me?"
"Why wouldn't I? Our distance won't stop me from being a father to you, little bud."
"Just don't mith my birthday."
"Never." Sehun smiled.
"I'll tleep a lot to I can be at tall at you, Appa!" Hanse said, wiping his tears before Yna grabbed his hands, ruffling his head.
"Wag kayo magalala, I won't make him hate you two." Yna paused, "I'm sorry." Ngumiti ako sa kanya. Her mistakes don't summarize who she is. Mistakes are scars that reminds us we're human. Mali yung ginawa nya, yeah, but getting to know her, not all bitch are bitch inside. Her only one big mistake was loving a married person.
Everyone has their own story.
We shouldn't be judging someone for what we could only see. Before judging someone for his mistakes, we should know his story. All his pains, all his struggles, his reasons.
Dahil hindi din tayo perpekto.
Tinanaw namin si Hanse and Yna hanggang makapasok sila sa airport. Nasa Morro bay pa rin kami and we're planning to fly back during my 8 months of pregnancy. "Sehun, will you be okay? You sure about this?"
"Miss ko na agad sya." Natawa lang ako sa nakapout na mukha ni Sehun at inakbayan nya ako, "Yna will take care of him. She's not that bad around kids, that's why it's okay. I can't take all to myself, and leave her with nothing. She only have Hanse."
"You've changed."
"Well, we're not getting younger."
"Pero gwapo ka pa rin." ani ko.
Inilahad ni Sehun ang kamay nya.
"Shall we go home, Mrs. Oh?" I grabbed his hand and filled the empty spaces with mine.
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7 months of pregnancy.
True happiness? What does it really means? Isang bagay na ang hirap idefine. Bakit ba? People felt happy achieving something, but they keep on wanting more and more. And there are times when people reached that point, top, but they don't feel contented. So ano ba talaga para maachieve ang bagay na 'to? This is what everyone keeps aiming for.
Tinatamad pa sana akong bumangon but I gave in eventually. I opened my eyes, the harsh morning light burning through the linen curtains to scorch my sore retinas. Wala na si Sehun sa tabi ko. Kinabahan pa ako nang makarinig ng kung anu-ano pang ingay sa baba.
"Sehun?" tawag ko.
"WAG!" sigaw nilang tatlo.
"Naglilinis kami, dyan ka lang sa taas at baka madulas ka." sabi ni Sehun habang naglalampaso sya, "Yes hyung?" sagot nya agad sa phone nya, "ano balita? Ayos na yung kuwarto ni Xiao? Blue! Lalaki sya! Hindi sya si Jesper, he'll like blue! Basta yung pinakamahal! We'll buy the other stuffs ourselves when we get there. Ok."
Dahan dahan akong bumaba ng hagdan at pinagcross ang braso ko. "Ano na naman pinapagawa mo kay Chanyeol?" I asked.
"Xiao's room. Gusto ko lang ayos na yun before we get there. Surprise ko kay Xi."
"Duh? Hindi nya makikita."
"Mararamdaman nya. Di ba Xi?" sabi nya at kinausap na naman ang tyan ko. At tapos tumakbo ang kambal papalapit sa amin. Ang asikaso sa amin ni Sehun. He's filling in the years na namiss nya sa kambal. Bumabawi.
"Appa! Pancakes!"
"APPA! HOTDOGT!"
Sehun squinted his eyes at Hansol, "Er Sol, team top ka di ba?" nangunot naman ang noo ni Hansol dahil dun. Tinapakan ko lang ang paa ni Sehun, "Naninigurado lang. Si hyung kasi sumasakit na ulo kay Jessy, I mean, Jesper." natawa ako. Ang bata pa ni Jesper pero brumobro na kay Asher.
"What it team top?"
"Team top is Appa." Sehun said.
"I want to be like you! Team top!"
"Ako din!" tinakpan ko ang mukha ni Luna at pabirong minasahe yun, "Appa oh! Epal eomma dami dami dami!" kinurot ko ang pisngi nya at nagpout sya, "Gutom na ako. Pakainin nyo po ako! Sumbong ko talaga kayo kay Manong Rody!"
Natawa kaming dalawa ni Sehun kay bungi. Tinapos muna nya ang paglalampaso bago sya nagluto ng breakfast namin. At the time, hindi ko maexplain ang nararamdaman ko. Para akong sasabog sa sobrang saya eh. Seeing the man I've been loving genuinely all these years, cooking us breakfast, is just the happiest day of my existence. And now, it's finally answered, this is our tomorrow.
"This is especially for my bestfriend, my partner, my counselor, my everything." sabi ni Sehun at inilapag sa harap ko ang isang plato na may heart design ng syrup doon sa ibabaw. Sehun propped his elbow onto the table as he quietly watched me eat.
"Anong nakain mo?" sabi ko.
"Hmm? Masaya lang." he said, "Actually, I have something to tell you, a favor to ask you. Paguwi natin, can we visit Lolo Son?" napayuko ako, "Appa said, he's very sick. I think for us to live peacefully, we should forgive him first, hon."
"I know, okay." I answered.
Hinwakan ni Sehun ang pisngi ko as he wiped the syrup on my mouth with his lips. It was just a quick kiss. Ganun lang kami sa buong araw. Sehun will take the kids to the shore and I'll watch at them from the porch. At night, kukulitin ako ng kalabit ni Sehun. Yes. He still want to do it but whenever I say no, hindi na sya magpipilit pero minsan kasi ano, nakakagago ang hormones ko. Tangina.
So ayon, alam na.
Tonight, Sehun asked the twins to tell some bedtime story for Xiao. Nasa magkabilang gilid ko ang kambal at si Sehun naman ay nasa may paahan ko, minamasahe ang paa ko. "Appa, bakit di mo nalang po kwento kay Xi how you met mom." sabi ni Hansol.
"How I met your mom?"
Nangunot ang noo ko kay Sehun na parang inaalala nya pa kung paano kami nagmeet. Sinipa ko sya sa inis ko at tumawa sya. "Ito naman oh. Atat. Appa used to be part of this boyband named, EKSO." humiga ang kambal at isiniksik ang ulo nila sa braso ko. Luna was stroking my arm and Sehun was stroking the bump. "And mom worked for me as my personal assistant. I was quiet harsh on him. Ang tawag nya pa sa akin nun," he paused, "Oh Dimunyu."
"Bad kasi sya. Pinapahirapan ako nun ni Appa." sabad ko at humagikhik lang ng sobrang lakas ang kambal.
"But you know how lovely your mom is little bud, keeping you safe until you see the world." Sehun met my eyes, "I fell for him. He bared my soul with his eyes, his smiles and just.. everything about him."
"Maganda kasi ako." sabi ko.
"He loved me despite of my flaws. Your mom is not someone who wants to find love but he's someone who wants to give love and he filled me with so much of it." Sehun leaned and gave the bump a peck. It moved and yes he was fascinated like a kid.
"Appa gumalaw tya!" sigaw ni Hansol.
Sehun gave it another kiss and again Xiao moved. So the twins played with him too, showering him kisses and Xiao will move accordingly. Tuwang tuwa ang kambal sa tuwing gagalaw si Xiao. I was really happy that Xiao felt their love even before he was born. I always wonder about this moment during my pregnamcy with the twins. How will it be like if Oh Sehun was there for us?
It was like a glimpse of heaven.
"We're waiting for you, Xi."
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8 months of pregnancy
Si Appa na ang sumundo sa amin sa airport. At pagdating sa lake house which is an hour and a half drive away from the city, nandun na sila Baekhyun. Sehun blindfolded me to not spoil the fun because it's a surpise daw.
"Bes! Ang panget mo talaga."
Sinamaan ko ng tingin si Baekhyun, "Baka sampalin ka ng malaking tyan ni usa bes kaya kung ako sayo, shut up ka nalang."
"Mas panget ka nung buntis ka."
Pinakita ko sa kanya yung picture.
"Buntis ka ba dito o nagdrugs?"
Binatukan ni Baekhyun si Kyungsoo, "Itago nyo na nga yan! Kahit ang chaka ko dyan eh, ang gwapo naman ni Jesper ko di ba?"
Biglang umiyak si Jesper.
"BRO. Bakit?" tanong ni Asher.
"Ang sakit sakit, BRO."
"Naiintindihan kita, BRO. Sinasabi nilang gwapo ka kahit hindi naman." dugtong ni Asher na nagpangiwi sa mukha ni Bitchon.
Teka, nilait nya ba si Jesper?😂
"STAPH AYKTING LEYK CHU KNOW MY PAIN! STAPH AYKTING LEYK CHU OWN IT.............. BRO!" pagdradrama ni Jesper.
"Baliw ka na, BRO."
"Malala na 'tong panganay mo, Bichon." iiling-iiling pa na sabi namin ni Kyungsoo.
"Tito Kyungtoo, paano nyo po meet si Tito Jongin?" tanong ni Luna habang kumakain ng marshmallow. Napangiwi lang mukha ko nang mangiyak-ngiyak si Kyungsoo sa gilid.
"Napakamemorable ng araw na yun eh." punas punas pa ng luha kuno si Kyungsoo, "Sinungkit ko lang yung brief nya tapos nahuli nya akong sumisilip. Nosetalgic."
"Nostalgic kasi bes." sabi ko.
"Alam ko, umiiyak kasi ako."
"Kayo po ni daddy yeol, tito Baek?"
"NABASAG ANG ITLOG KO NUN!" sinipa ko ang binti ni Baekhyun, "Napagkamalan nya akong akyat bahay." ang sama ng tingin ni Baekhyun si Chanyeol na tawa naman nang tawa sa gilid ni Jongin habang buhat-buhat si Chanhyun.
Nagdinner kaming lahat that night, sobrang ingay ng bahay. Ang tahimik nung lugar ah? Mukhang makakabulabog kami ng maligno. Doon na natulog sila Baekhyun dahil medyo lasing na si Chanyeol at ganun din si Jongin.
"Time for bed!" sabi ni Sehun at binuhat si Luna na tuwang tuwa sa tyan ko. Si Hansol naman humawak sa jogging pants ni Sehun. Nagbasa na muna ako ng magazine habang inaantay ko si Sehun.. Nasa front cover nun si Miranda. Talking about past huh? Ito sya.
Mommies with three kids, still with sexy body. Tangina ni Sehun, bakit may ganito sya? Pagbalik ni Sehun, sinimangutan ko lang sya. "What's with the duck face?"
"Wala." sagot ko't kinumutan ang sarili ko. Sehun wrapped his hand around me, again stroking Xiao. Nakakadala na naman yung hawak nya, "Stop it, Sehun. Ilang buwan nalang oh. Ang bigat na nito. Puro sex."
Sehun distanced himself, and never said a thing. Napakagat ako sa labi ko. It's not just sex. Isa pa, hinawakan nya lang si Xiao eh!
"I wasn't asking for sex. I want to hold him." Sehun murmured, "Go to sleep. I won't hold you now until you ask me."
Humarap ako sa kanya at binabasa nya na yung magazine. I don't know why I felt so irritated. Hormones? Ang sensitive lang. I don't want him buying kinds of stuffs with different sexy women to look at. "Why did you buy that?" I asked in almost a whisper.
Pinakita nya sa akin yung article, "Weird baby facts. Binili ko 'to dahil dito." sabi nya at napakagat ako sa labi ko, "Iniisip mong binili ko 'to dahil sa cover?" aniya.
"Medyo?" sagot ko.
"No." cold na sagot nya.
"Ah." tipid na sagot ko.
Isinara ni Sehun ang magazine at pinatay na ang ilaw. The room felt empty because of the sudden coldness. Hindi na rin ako nagsalita. The next day, tahimik si Sehun. Hindi nya pa rin ako kinikibo. "Sehun, can you get me a glass of fresh milk?" utos ko't sinunod nya.
"Isasama ko si Hansol sa town. May bibilhin lang ako." sabi nya at tumalikod. Hahabulin ko sana sya pero lumabas agad sila ni Hansol. Tangina naman. Away ulit?
"Punta din kaming bayan bes."
"Sama na ako." sabi ko.
"Dito ka na lang. Parating Dad mo di ba?" tumango ako, "Wala magbubukas ng pinto oh? Paano sya papasok?" sabi ni Baekhyun.
Wala na akong nagawa.
Inayos ko nalang ang bookshelf at nilapitan ako ni Luna na hindi pala nakasama. Buong hapon nanuod kami tapos sumapit ang five nakatanggap kami ng tawag at si Luna ang pinagsagot ko. "Hello? Tito Chan? Sabihin ko po?" Umupo ako sa may labas kung saan kita ang kabuohan ng lake. Sinulyapan ko si Luna na kausap si Chanyeol sa phone. Bakit hindi nya ako tinatawag? Anong sinasabi ni Yoda kay bungi? Naiinis ako. Wala si Sehun.
Magsosorry talaga ako.
"Eomma, may papakita po ako sayo. May nakita po akong flowers." sabi nya at agad hinila ang kamay ko patayo. Sumunod ako sa kanya palabas ng bahay. Medyo nakakatakot lang kasi kita sa loob eh. Made of glass walls kasi sya. Tinahak namin ang daan papunta sa pinakitang tree house ni Chanyeol kahapon.
And I saw Sehun there.
May table sa baba. Gusto kong akyatin sana yung tree house na kita din ang lake mula doon. "Anong meron? You're not mad?"
"Why would I be mad?"
"because you won't talk to me."
"I did that on purpose. Sit."
Niyakap ko sya, "I was so scared."
"Scared of what?"
"You'll walk out of my life again."
Natawa sya at niyakap ako ng mahigpit na mahigpit. "Till death do us part, love." he whispered, "Dad told me, life is a one way ride and if you find someone who'll ride it with you like a roller coaster, marry him. You ride my waves of flaws in your board of patience. You fix me before my knee hits the ground." and Sehun held my hand.
"I was like a melody you never knew how to play but you really tried to understand and when you got the rhythm, we danced. You got hurt dancing with me. I'm sorry."
True happiness for me is like an energy and the source is the sun. In my case, Sehun and our kids. Life is like an empty canvas. One day, someone will come to paint it. Black, blue, yellow, all the colors of emotions and that will be the portrait of your happiness. When you look back, you'll have a glimpse.
Your struggles will became part of your happiness, seeing yourself still standing against that storm. You created storms with each and every of your mistakes and poor decisions, but don't give up when it rains. Not just because the road is tough doesn't mean you are not heading for a sunshine.
"In the warmth of your touch I felt home and with that look in your eye, you bared my soul. Today and always, and beyond tomorrow, my arms will be your shelter through the storms," Sehun was looking straight at me as he wiped my tears, "as we sail again in the ocean of never ending."
"I love you, Lu Han."
"I love you too, Oh Sehun. Tangina mo, dumugo ilong ko!" I blurted out.
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Sabi sa inyo ang cheesy eh! Hahaha! Ang haba na jusko po! Happy happy na sila oh!;)
Ito lang kinaya, pagisipan ko muna kung epilogue na ba next or one chapter pa kasi Daddy Sehun is heart heart! Gusto nyo ba?
Hindi ko to naproofread.😱😭