Lauren's cuddled up with Camila in her bunk, watching their fourth episode of the night on Netflix, and all she can think about is what Gina said earlier.
I always was more attracted to them than any boys in my class. They always held my attention. I just didn't realize what that meant until I was older.
Lauren's thinking about Alexa, and she's thinking about that girl in her first grade class she thought was so cool, and then she's thinking about that senior from her softball team who was totally gorgeous, and now she's thinking about how close she is to Camila right now, physically, and she's about to have a meltdown.
She immediately says she's tired and goes back to her bunk, wishing more than anything she could scream into her pillow.
Lauren has finally realized that those butterflies she feels when Camila touches her are the one's that she was supposed to feel with her boyfriends but never did.
She was just too oblivious to realize it.
Because she never gave her feelings a second thought. Until tonight.
And she hates herself for it.