Sometimes I get lost in my own head.
Trying so hard to fly instead of free falling.
You know I'd rather be inside my mind
Than lost in a crowd of good intentionned sods.
And I know this might seem strange.
But is that so deranged
That I could be afraid
Of your lack of understanding.
I tend to hide my grief behind a smile.
Avoiding the piercing glare
Of those who say they care.
Can't read the emotions on their faces
At first glance it's just a mess
Of mixed feelings.
And please do not take offense
If I stay away from my friends.
I try to make amends
With the voice inside of me.
Sometimes I need to rest
It's not that I'm depressed
I try to drown the noise
In a sea of inner poise.
I can seem a little self centered.
But you'd know I'm not selfish
If inside my soul you entered.
Sometimes I'm not the best at self restraint
But those feelings that I have
They can't be faked.
Take one step closer to me
And you'll know finally
It's not easy to see
That I'm at home inside of me.
I will rejoice
The day you say
That it's not by choice
That I feel this way.
I'm not trying
To avoid you
But my self esteem
It is brand new.
Sometimes I need to rest
It's not that I'm depressed
I try to drown the noise
In a sea of inner poise.
Sometimes I need to rest
It's not that I'm depressed
I try to drown the noise
In a sea of inner poise.