<pre>❝The one you love and the one who loves you are never, ever the same person❞
i'm getting impatient.
john, mark and alex are my main suspects.
but i don't know which one it could be.
they are the only guys i hang out with on a regular basis, and the only ones who know about my dad.
the thing is, though, all of them have had something happen to them.
i have no clue who it is and it is driving me crazy.
i feel like im spinning through an endless wormhole, being sucked into this little alternate universe, but never being allowed to fully stay there.
why won't he tell me?
i know that he lists reasons in his letters, but really.
does he honestly think i would reject him?
i think i'm falling for him.
the him on the paper, the one that is true to me.
the guys are so closed off when we hang out that we never got to be super close.
but if he just tried to talk to me more, then he could know that i think, no i know that i could love him
why won't he give me a chance?</pre>