Right now you go between being super happy and super sad. It's periods of smiling and laughing then there's periods of crying and bruising yourself.
You have the best friends anyone could ever wish for, don't take them for granted. Love them. Cherish them. Fight with and for them.
Dear self. Try not to be so hard on your self, you know you ain't fat. You know you are pretty. You just won't admit it. Just don't let it get bad again.
Dear self.