HARRY
I had been driving for what seemed like days but had only been hours. Though we had finally arrived at a friend of mine. When I stepped on the brakes and the car came to a halt, everyone started to wake up, as I was the only one that stayed awake in the end.
I didn't wait for them as I jumped out the car and walked up to his flat, knocking on the door harshly. I heard doors shutting behind me, signalling that everyone had got out the car and footsteps behind me confirmed they were making their way up to me.
The door swung open and there stood Jake. Yes, Jake as in the person who use to be part of the Walker gang. After he came up to us after April fled he said if I needed any help to go to him. We've spoken a couple of times since then as he wanted to find April as much as me. So when this happened I knew he would willingly help.
"Harry! Come in, Come in!" He cheered and opened the door wider but stopped his actions when he looked behind me. "Lillian?" He said shocked.
"Hi Jake" Lillian said and I could hear the smile in her voice.
"Can we come in before we do this reunion?" I said rudely but I needed everyone to get in and away from anyone maybe seeing us.
Jake nodded, seeing how frantic I was, letting all of us in, locking the door behind us.
"So what's happening? All Harry's text said was he needed a place to crush for a while, I didn't realise everyone was coming..." Jake trailed off, as we all were now in the living room, everyone sitting except Jake, April and I.
"Wait! You and Jake kept in touch? Since when?!" April said shocked and confused, looking between both of us.
"Since you left six years ago. We both wanted to find you and spoke often. He said if I needed help he would be there." I stated wanting most things just to be out in the open now as it would make this situation a whole lot easy if everyone is trusting each other.
"Ok..."
"I have a few questions of my own to be honest. Like how is Lillian alive? And here?!" Jake announced.
"I would like to know that too" April glared at me.
I sighed, knowing this was all on me as I looked around at everyone and they were all looking at me.
"Right, I don't know how to say this-"
"Just spit it out!" April interrupted me, making me glare at her.
"Just take your time Harry." April's mum butted in when I was about to speak. I smiled weakly at her, her knowing how hard this is for me and how I'm feeling right now.
"A couple of days ago Peter called me and asked me to meet him. So I did. I went to his house and we spoke. He wanted me to help trick April into going somewhere, kind of like what my dad did six years ago. And before you say anything no I didn't agree with him. I told him he would have to kill me before he even got to you. " I pointed at April as she went to open her mouth, though me saying that made her shut up. "Anyway, he was bugging me days on end after I met him. He wouldn't leave me alone, so I met him again and he offered me something I couldn't refuse. He told me how Lillian was alive, I didn't believe him at first but I knew if there was any chance April's mum was alive I had to jump at it. I knew April would want to know her mother, so I had to try. Peter asked me to help find her. I wasn't going to agree at first but he manipulated me like everyone else. He told me how this would do me more favours than him. He kept saying how April would be so happy to see her mother again and all this shit and I believed it because it was true. I knew how happy April would be with her mother back in her life. She hated that she didn't know her parents and getting one of them back for her seemed like a brilliant idea to me. I thought with all the shit that's going on in our lives this would be a good thing for April. So I made a deal with him-"
"You made a deal with the devil, mate" Louis interrupted and I nodded.
"I know but I believed him. I thought 'his family, he wouldn't do anything to hurt me.' But he doesn't know what family is or he just doesn't care."
"What deal did you make?" April finally spoke.
"If I helped him find Lillian and bring her to wherever he wanted, he would leave you and William alone for good."
Everyone went quiet. I don't think they expected the deal to be something like that.
"He lied though. He found out where Lillian was and we went and got her. Though he drugged her and she passed out. We took her in the car and he drove. I didn't know he was going to drug her. I thought he was going to talk to her, make a deal and I also didn't know where he was going to take us. You know the warehouse we were at six years ago?" I asked and they all nodded. "He took us there. Everything was the same and it all felt like deja va. I didn't like it. I started to regret making the deal straight away but there was nothing I could do. Anyway, he tied Lillian up on a chair and all I could think of was me being tied up on the same chair six years ago. I questioned Peter about it but he ignored me. He started fucking slapping her until she woke up. I didn't know what to do. I tried to make him stop but he wasn't fucking listening to me. Though what he said to Lillian made me see red. He said he needed her to help him. He needed her to help lead April somewhere. Exactly what my dad did but worst because it was going to be her mum. I lost it. I shouted at him. He promised me that April and William would be safe and out of all this. He laughed at me which made it worse. I knocked him out as soon as I knew his plan. I untied Lillian and came back home. That leads us to here. So yea that's everything I guess... " I trailed off looking at everyones faces.
"YOU FUCKING DIP SHIT! WHY'D YOU DO THIS! YOU MADE ALL OF THIS TEN TIMES WORSE! YOU COULDNT HAVE JUST LEFT IT AND WORKED WITH US INSTEAD OF GETTING MIXED UP WITH PETER STYLES! YOU KNOW HIS BAD!" April screamed at me, walking towards me and poking my chest with each word.
"DONT YOU THINK I KNOW THAT! I WAS TRYING TO PROTECT YOU!" Everyone went quiet and I lowered my voice. "I hate seeing all of this happen to you, especially William. We were sitting dogs at home and couldn't handle it anymore. I needed to do something. So yes I may have made a mistake by fucking listening to my uncle but I did it to protect you! Everything I fucking do is to protect you and William!" I finished sternly.
"Protect us? Harry you've put us in more danger now! All of us! You always say you want to protect the ones you care about but all you've done right now is put us in more danger and you know what? I hate you for this!" April sheered at me with so much hatred and anger in her eyes.
"Don't worry I hate me too" I whispered before walking off.
I didn't know Jake's house very well, so I walked out the front door. I needed so air, I felt like I was suffocating in there.
My heart ached and my chest hurt. I knew it was because my heart was breaking. I could feel it. Everything April said hit me like knives.
I didn't know what to do now. Everything April said was right. I try so hard to protect everyone I care about but in the end I just put them in more danger. They wouldn't have to be running right now if it weren't for me. I couldnt help it though. All my life I've just wanted to protect everyone I love, I didn't care what happened and just like then I didn't think. I just went with it thinking April and everyone would be safe. I didn't think about Peter lying, I just heard the words April and William and safe. I didn't care about anything else. Though I knew I should've been smarter about it all.
The thing that hurt me the most was her telling me she hates me. I knew she would but I didn't expect her to say them out loud. I could deal with knowing but actually hearing then leave her mouth cut so deep. I knew it was true by the look in her eyes. The hatred and anger in her eyes didn't fault when she said the words out loud and I somehow was ok with that. I hate me too. Maybe hating me will do April good. I've not been the best person for her. I wouldn't be the best father for William ether. Maybe her hating me will make her leave again after all of this. Maybe her hating me will be good for her. I wouldn't been a good father for William. I wouldn't been good for her. I've put her in so much danger that I didn't even know how to get us all out of it. All I knew was that April and William wouldn't get hrut during all of this. If anything happened to them I wouldn't forgive myself. All the hurt and hits will go to me. I wont let anyone touch them. They'll have to go through me and I don't care if I die saving them. All I knew was April and William were going to be fine when all of this ends.
I was sitting on curb outside Jake's house, not wanting to go back in just yet, though I needed someone to talk to. So I did what I always do when I need advice. I pulled out my phone from my back pocket and called my mother.
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