I'm so broken. I don't know how to express myself and it hurts so much. It hurts so goddamn much. Every time I try and say what I'm feeling, thousands of words and sentences consume my brain and I choke up. Speechless. Normally, the word speechless if used for good things.
"You're so beautiful. I-I I'm speechless."
"That was so wonderful, I'm truly speechless."
There's never a
"My heart feels so heavy, I'm speechless."
No. That's not how it is. It's not how it works, but there's no other way to describe it. I don't want to be like this. I want to yell and scream and say everything that I've always wanted but there's just too many things to say and it gets all jumbled and I end up saying nothing.
Fucking speechless.