Ok so this may be confusing so I'll explain what's happening. This is kind of a flashback but within a dream. What's Phillipa's seeing really happened but she's dreaming about it.
"Phillipa?"
I kept my head down not being able to look him in the eye.
"Show me your arm" he said.
I slowly lifted up my sleeve revealing my countless amount of scars.
He sighed.
I felt his fingers delicately touch my arm causing my fresh wounds to sting.
"Philipa"
I closed my eyes fighting back tears.
"Look at me Philipa" he ordered.
I turned my head to look at him.
"Philipa I'm visiting my family for a month so I won't be here"
I balled my fists the thought of being left alone with my thoughts scaring me.
"Philipa promise me you won't do this while I'm gone"
I can't.
"It's just for a month please do it for me"
I looked down not giving an answer.
"Philipa look at me in the eyes and promise me you won't do it" he said voice almost breaking.
I looked up into his eyes. Blue meets brown.
"I promise"