Three days have passed and I'm still here all alone. I mean, real alone. iKON were no longer stay at home because they are too busy to even come back and they had to stay at the practice room for practicing. So, here I am, living all alone in this big house. It feel really empty without them making noise in here but I understands that they have to focus on their upcoming performance which is three days after today.
In this three days, I felt like I've back to my old life where I'm free to do whatever I want without feeling hesitate and Hongseok wasn't disturb me at school anymore; I'm so glad for it. Today, I'm planning to ask Eunjin to come overnight at my house since I don't have someone to talk to.
Guess what? She agreed!
I was so excited to know that she is coming in an hour, so I've planned to have a movie night together and girl gossip after that. I know she would have so much questions in her head that she kept for the days before. I swear she is the most sweet and kind girl I ever met, she understands me and never forced me to tell her the whole story. And for that, I'm gonna tell her what she should know in return.
"So, what do we have here?" Eunjin asked as she peeped through the kitchen counter, looking over my shoulder at what I'm doing.
I smiled in excitement as I showed her the pancakes I made and my first-try strawberry milkshakes in the tray. Her eyes widened as she looks at it and she almost drooling.
"Let's watch movie and I have a story to tell you later," I invited her to the living room as I inserted the cd we have chosen before I went to the kitchen; we agreed to watch Deadpool since it's a comedy-scifi-genred movie.
We had a lot of fun watching it while enjoying the snacks I made before I heard the door swung opened, revealing someone walking in towards the living room. Before I could turn around to see who it was, I felt a kiss on my right cheek and I immediately turned pink when I saw Jinhwan who just did that.
He just smiled sheepishly at us and says: "May I join you girls?"
I rolled my eyes at him and I saw Eunjin was hesitant to nod her head. I ignored him as I went back for the movie and Eunjin did it as well. I know she is feeling uncomfortable with his sudden appearance so I offered her the strawberry milkshake since she still haven't try it.
Jinhwan chuckled at himself and I raised my eyebrows at him, "Well then, I just come back to grab some clothes for the boys and didn't have attention to interrupt. Enjoy your time, young ladies."
He stood up back from the arm couch where he was sitting before he planted a quick and soft kiss on my head, whispering the same three magic words in my ear which is; I love you.
Once he went away for the clothes he said, Eunjin poked my shoulder and her lips were pointing at Jinhwan's direction. I pretended to not understand what is she saying as I focused back on the tv. The movie is going to meet an end soon where the deadpool were struggling to rescue his lovely girlfriend. It somehow excite me to know whether his girlfriend will know or not about his boyfriend in that red suit yet tiring me for dying from laughing at his funny acts.
"Are you guys fighting, huh?" Eunjin whispered, making me tilted my head towards her.
I raised my eyebrows and sighed. I grabbed the remote controller and paused the movie before I looked around, making sure Jinhwan is not here to listen what am I about to say.
"Sorta. You know, it's kinda hard to explain everything because you didn't know the story from the beginning," I whispered back. At the same time, Jinhwan came back with a blue bag pack over his shoulder.
He just walking passed by us two, flashing a sweet smile towards me. He didn't bother to excuse himself because he knows I will ignore it.
When the door finally closed, Eunjin snapped back, "Then make it short."
"Remember Oh Dami?"
Eunjin nodded eagerly.
"She is now currently behind the bars for blackmailing Jinhwan and attempted murder him," I let out a heavy sigh. Eunjin's eyes went wide looking at me as if she wasn't believe what is she hearing right now.
I continued, "I was wrong about Jinhwan before. I thought he left me for Dami but no, he was just trying to protect me from her."
Eunjin cheered in awe. I smiled bitterly, thinking the black memory really hurts me.
"When Jinhwan was already discharged, Hongseok came to this house. He wanted me to stay with him. He said that he can't live without me and that was really making me angry more. He lied about my pregnancy; he said that we did sex when we were drunk but it was actually a big lie. I don't know why but since then, Jinhwan avoided me. He didn't even spoke to me until I came up to talk to him. He refused but of course, I couldn't take it no more so I forced him to be honest. He didn't be honest until now, and he kept on asking me to go to Hongseok and stay with him. It broke me, really, but these days, he started to change as what you can see just now."
"That shithole," Eunjin gritted her teeth tightly, enough for me to know that she is angry right now. This girl is really no joke. Her temper is sometimes out of control and I'm afraid she will murder someone in the future. Haihh.
Her expression softened, "I think Jinhwan sunbae is just want to sort things out with you now."
I shrugged, "I'm too tired, Eunjin. I don't know where did I do wrong to him until he treats me like this. I didn't go to Hongseok for something. I just don't want him to know that I'm really pregnant of Hongseok's baby; that's why I stayed and wait for the right time to get know about the truth. I don't want to disappoint him. I don't know what should I do more to be the better girlfriend for him. I love him so much and I'm so scared to think that I would lose him anytime soon."
Eunjin scooted closer to me as she wrapped her arm over my shoulder. "Then you should give him a second chance. I could see his effort of being with you again, so why not? It's either now or never, Yerin."
I faked a smile as I hit the play button on the remote controller. But first, let's finish watching the movie.
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I was awoken by voices talking around me. I groaned while yawning sleepily as I adjust my position on the couch. Eunjin and I had a very long conversation last night and decided to just sleep at the living room. Well, too lazy to go upstairs.
"Thank you for accompanying her while I'm gone."
"It's alright, sunbae. I love to hang around with her. Take care of Yerin, okay? I will get going now."
"Yeah, of course. Be careful on the way back!"
It came into silence when I decided to open my sleepy eyes. My eyes immediately went wide when Jinhwan's face were extremely close to mine and he had his mischievous smile on his face. I pushed him away and quickly got up, fixing my pajama and my messy hair.
"What are you doing?" I whisper-yelled at him.
He came and sat next to me on the couch, pulling away a strands of my hair from covering my eyes. I froze at his cold touch and I found myself began to melt from it.
"Until when we will be like this, babe? I missed the old you, Yerin. The cute and lovely girlfriend of mine, not this fierce and cold version of you," he said in a low tone and I could see tears began forming in his eyes. Is he going to cry now?
I remained silent as I'm waiting for him to say more. I want to hear what he felt when I treat him this way; because it would be the same as mine when he keep avoiding me before. I'm not getting revenge on him but I just want him to know what I feel when he did that. That's all.
"Jealousy took the best of me and I'm so mad when I know you already slept with another guy besides me. I don't know why I needed to avoid you, but it's better than getting mad at you that leads me to say something that will make me regret in my whole life," he sighed.
"You... you know?" I was speechless. I didn't know that he knew that all this time and now I get it why he acted weirdly and avoided me most of the time.
I looked down on my lap feeling guilty towards him, but Jinhwan forced me to look at him back. "Hey, look at me," he said.
"I swear to God, I'm not mad at you, baby," he whispered to me. His voice really sending chills down my spine and I know I will break into tears anytime soon.
"I know you wouldn't cheat on me and that was all his plan. He was the mastermind behind this. I know you were innocent and I believe whatever you gonna say to me. I'm so fucked up that I abandon you all this time and that was really horrible!" He said emotionally which make the tears I was holding in, rolled down my cheeks.
I know when the time he didn't mentioned Hongseok's name, means that Jinhwan really bgin to hate him more.
"Shh, don't cry," he wiped my tears away and he kissed both of my eyes. "I said all of these not because I want to see you cry, really. I want us to be like before. Before everything happened."
I was in my own world when he kept on persuade me to stop crying in fact I literally didn't stop for a second before I found myself responded to his kiss. He pulled me closer to his body, closing the gap between us and I wrapped my arms around his neck, tangling his hair with my fingers.
After minutes, we broke the kiss breathlessly and Jinhwan leaned his forehead on mine. I still had my blank expression on as if I didn't know what I was doing just now. He smiled as pecked my nose and I felt butterflies in my stomach went crazier.
"I love you so much," he confessed, burying his face in the crook of my neck.
I automatically hugged him back in return, placing my chin on his shoulder before his body starts to shaking as he began to sob silently. I know this is hard for him but I swear I really don't want this to be happen in the first place. I rubbed his back to make him feel better before I cupped his face so that he is looking at me in the eyes.
"I love you before, now, in the future and forever. You get it?" I said trying to be firm which made him broke into a huge grin.
He nodded like a little kid before he leaned in again, crushing his sweet pouty kissable lips with mine. With that, I know everything is going to be fine after this. No more arguments, please.